This song has been playing in my head for the entire day and i finally bought it off itunes.
i'm still learning the art of love :)
my first christmas in melbourne. in short. i have learnt heaps and i am learning to understand the hope and joy and unwavering love that we have in Jesus.
On Christmas morning, i recieved a phone call from home telling me about hte bad news that my grandma had passed away. With sookers on the phone, i actually didnt know how to react. we just prayed together.
but slowly, it sunk in and i couldnt hold onto my tears, they came out of the corner of my eyes everytime i had a moment to myself. i tried pulling it together but i couldnt. I needed Jesus. i needed someone to hold me.
I really thank God for the Tays, for taking me in not only on Christmas eve, giving me pressie, but just being a family for me that i never had in melbourne. It's so awesome to have adults - real mummy and daddy figure in the house to just love you and give you hugs whenever you need. and the timing was just perfect, like how i was with them and not alone. how the news break out after the church service and not during.
This period of staying alone at Evelyn has taught me way more than i could ever imagined or think of. God has been seriously good to me by sending different company and counsels to me whenever i needed. Honestly, i dont think i'm ever alone.
and yet, i discover, above all, the best time spent is spending with Jesus and just asking Him to hold me.
you know, crying can be very tiring. coming from first hand experience.
but when you thought that there's no hope, God's light shines and come in.
Zheng and Khao taught me that some burdens are not mine to carry.
somethings happened for the better of our growth.
I was reminded of the spirit of Christmas, that Jesus came as human to connect with us. to bring hope and salvation through love.
Death may have temporarily separate me and my grandma. but i cherish all the memories that we had togheter.
obviously there are questions, and questions that no one could answer. all the why's and what happened.
but i know ultimately, like ROMANS 8:28
all things work for the good!
AH MA, i miss you.
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Sunday, December 20, 2009
I didn't know I hadn't blog for 3 weeks already.
Quick one. Since it's nearl 2 and I have to be up by 6.
Updates-
I'm now staying home alone. All my housies has left.
Our house is now for sale. We're moving out everywhere and praise God, he has provided a place
I'm only surviving on ipione Internet. Pls pray that I don't go over the cap
there's been lots of graduation this week
so is work
watched my first Christmas carol play that are hosted by citylife
a lot of first times. But Jesus is doing them with me
Quick one. Since it's nearl 2 and I have to be up by 6.
Updates-
I'm now staying home alone. All my housies has left.
Our house is now for sale. We're moving out everywhere and praise God, he has provided a place
I'm only surviving on ipione Internet. Pls pray that I don't go over the cap
there's been lots of graduation this week
so is work
watched my first Christmas carol play that are hosted by citylife
a lot of first times. But Jesus is doing them with me
Monday, December 07, 2009
i'm so unworthy but still You love me
You are holy great and mighty
The moon and the stars declare who You are
I'm so unworthy, but still You love me
Forever my heart will sing of how great You are
The moon and the stars declare who You are
I'm so unworthy, but still You love me
Forever my heart will sing of how great You are
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Come on summer! Bring it on!
Blogging from my iPhone again. Am currently on th bus.
Ever since nov 2nd, after my exams had all ended, I felt like I've been evermore so busy wih the things of life. Too busy that I haven't had time to mysel to chill , to slow down and to do nothing. Yes, I do live all the catchups and all the hang outs but sometimes, it's great to have some alone time, some serious slack and do nothing with God time! Just chill u know!
But at the same time, God's still teaching me about relationships.
Interpersonal
and intrapersonal.
I love hanging around ppl whom I called family. I thank God for friends who stick wih me through thick n thin and
friends who I can explore both extremities of doing crazy stuff and nothing with.
As the year comes to an end, I sense a greater new beginning for a whole lot of things, in the natural and the supernatural.
Love is blossoming amongst the people around me.
Weddings, engagements and gettin together
Lots of packing and moving in my hse
Work, placements, running around in between.
So many new rxcting things are happening and yet at the same time, so many things are changing
I know I am definitely not the same person as I was before, at the beginning of the year. But I don't look back in regret, I look back with a heart of gratitude and a heart of praise, thank God for what He has done.
As a whole lot of new things come my way and after the near death experience, I think I'm ready to encounter he new change of wind. (as much as I wanna be prepared, I have a feeling, God is soo gonna sweep me off my feet! )
dancing on the summer 69
these days are the best days of my life
Ever since nov 2nd, after my exams had all ended, I felt like I've been evermore so busy wih the things of life. Too busy that I haven't had time to mysel to chill , to slow down and to do nothing. Yes, I do live all the catchups and all the hang outs but sometimes, it's great to have some alone time, some serious slack and do nothing with God time! Just chill u know!
But at the same time, God's still teaching me about relationships.
Interpersonal
and intrapersonal.
I love hanging around ppl whom I called family. I thank God for friends who stick wih me through thick n thin and
friends who I can explore both extremities of doing crazy stuff and nothing with.
As the year comes to an end, I sense a greater new beginning for a whole lot of things, in the natural and the supernatural.
Love is blossoming amongst the people around me.
Weddings, engagements and gettin together
Lots of packing and moving in my hse
Work, placements, running around in between.
So many new rxcting things are happening and yet at the same time, so many things are changing
I know I am definitely not the same person as I was before, at the beginning of the year. But I don't look back in regret, I look back with a heart of gratitude and a heart of praise, thank God for what He has done.
As a whole lot of new things come my way and after the near death experience, I think I'm ready to encounter he new change of wind. (as much as I wanna be prepared, I have a feeling, God is soo gonna sweep me off my feet! )
dancing on the summer 69
these days are the best days of my life
Sunday, November 01, 2009
God and His Presence
Today, Ps Rusell talked about loving God and His Presence.
I was so completely blown away by so many things that has happened and how God ochestrated so many moments of my life! it's unbelievable but it's real.
like how i had a headache, left lib early to meet this girl on the bus that i can now connect with.
how what i initially thought was a job turned out to be an opportunity for me to reach out and share about Jesus
how Jesus told me to not step into that particular relationship because the guy's heart aint right
above all, how He knocked at the door of my heart, set up all these God-incidents so that i could turn the door knob open to welcome Him in.
i love it.
i love how He plans everything for me, how he ordains my steps.
i love God and His presence.
i want more!
I was so completely blown away by so many things that has happened and how God ochestrated so many moments of my life! it's unbelievable but it's real.
like how i had a headache, left lib early to meet this girl on the bus that i can now connect with.
how what i initially thought was a job turned out to be an opportunity for me to reach out and share about Jesus
how Jesus told me to not step into that particular relationship because the guy's heart aint right
above all, how He knocked at the door of my heart, set up all these God-incidents so that i could turn the door knob open to welcome Him in.
i love it.
i love how He plans everything for me, how he ordains my steps.
i love God and His presence.
i want more!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
God, help!!
I don't know what's wrong with me but today just ain't working well. I can't focus. God, please help me. My exams are two days away n I feel like I'm so not ready. I don't wanna panic but at the rate that I'm going and the thugs that are happening around me, I just wanna curl up in my lil corner and cry out to you.
I know you are able. I know you are bigger.
Help me to push through.
I wanna run this race strong! I hate how the enemy throws things at me at this crucial time but in the same time, I'm learning to embrace them cos it's a sign of my victory is near. I'm learning to strengthen myself in God even more through this because I know ultimately, it's just about me and him. I am learning to encourage myself when there's no one around me. Ps Bill said that's the greatest thing that u can learn.
God. Help me. Dim away everything else and let me look to u alone.
My exams, my family, my friends and my heart. I give them to u. Take me away into the secret place.
I know you are able. I know you are bigger.
Help me to push through.
I wanna run this race strong! I hate how the enemy throws things at me at this crucial time but in the same time, I'm learning to embrace them cos it's a sign of my victory is near. I'm learning to strengthen myself in God even more through this because I know ultimately, it's just about me and him. I am learning to encourage myself when there's no one around me. Ps Bill said that's the greatest thing that u can learn.
God. Help me. Dim away everything else and let me look to u alone.
My exams, my family, my friends and my heart. I give them to u. Take me away into the secret place.
Friday, October 23, 2009
To Do List
After exams, this is my little to do list for summer.
- look for a job related to nursing and earn more money
- travel somewhere after placements
- go visit the supper market and the abbortsford convent.
:) cannot wait.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
TRUST
when i dont understand how it could happen or when it'll come true;
or when i cannot see the light at the tunnel,
or when my heart seems to be broken,
all i hear is You, saying "TRUST"
Trust in the Lord with all your heart.
Trust me in this.
Trust!
Friday, October 09, 2009
why am i so scared to stepping out?
Many a times, i felt led by God and just have the desire to pray for people who are sick but yet. MORE than ever, i just chicken out and just let the moment or situation pass me by. i dont understand why. so, as any student would have done, i googled.
"why are we scared of taking risk?"
and this article interest me.
God has been whispering things in my ear/heart as i read through this article and i realised that there are still lots of areas that i need to work on! see my mental notes/ revelation in red!
http://ezinearticles.com/?Risk-Taking-Why-We-Are-Scared-to-Take-Risks&id=95888
Why are we so scared to take risks? It could be lots of reasons, for instance: not wanting to get out of our comfort zone, fear of rejection, fear of being hurt, fear of change, or need for certainty, our desire to avoid conflict, fear of failure, lack of belief in ourselves. Risk taking is accepting the need for change and understanding what’s involved in taking such actions. (i love the last sentense. understand what's involved in taking such actions. there obviously is a need and i understand that i could be the change.)
We are talking here about intelligent risk taking, not being careless. Intelligent risk taking enables you to express your creativity, drive and motivation.
Risk taking often requires an honest look at the situation and the required actions. It is also important to understand what the risks are and the advantages and disadvantages of taking the action. Once you have committed yourself to the action, you must also be prepared to accept the consequences of such actions.
Here is one of my favourite quotes on risks.
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair. (but Jesus is always there to cheer you on, and bring hope to the hopeless)
To try is to risk failure. (but at least u tried)
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by his own fears, he is a slave; He has forfeited freedom.
Only a person who risks is free!
TIP OF THE DAY – As Nike says … Just do it!!
My challenge for you: Think of one area in your life that you have been putting off taking a risk. My challenge is to identify what is keeping you from taking action. Now, identify one action you will take this week.
My stretch challenge for you – is to email me and tell me the action you will take, then email me when you have completed the action.
Final thoughts:
“If I had my life to live over I’d like to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax. I would limber up. I would be sillier that I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and fewer beans. I would perhaps have more action trouble, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I’m one of those people who live sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I’ve had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had to do it again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds, I would pick more daisies” Nadine Stair at age 85
article written by Michelle Zelig Pourau of Personal Power International.
i hate chicken-ing out when God asked me to step out in faith n pray for someone. i just dont know how or maybe i'm just fearful of rejection and scared that the thing i asked for didnt happen.
Jesus, help me to grow in this area pleasee.
"why are we scared of taking risk?"
and this article interest me.
God has been whispering things in my ear/heart as i read through this article and i realised that there are still lots of areas that i need to work on! see my mental notes/ revelation in red!
http://ezinearticles.com/?Risk-Taking-Why-We-Are-Scared-to-Take-Risks&id=95888
Why are we so scared to take risks? It could be lots of reasons, for instance: not wanting to get out of our comfort zone, fear of rejection, fear of being hurt, fear of change, or need for certainty, our desire to avoid conflict, fear of failure, lack of belief in ourselves. Risk taking is accepting the need for change and understanding what’s involved in taking such actions. (i love the last sentense. understand what's involved in taking such actions. there obviously is a need and i understand that i could be the change.)
We are talking here about intelligent risk taking, not being careless. Intelligent risk taking enables you to express your creativity, drive and motivation.
Risk taking often requires an honest look at the situation and the required actions. It is also important to understand what the risks are and the advantages and disadvantages of taking the action. Once you have committed yourself to the action, you must also be prepared to accept the consequences of such actions.
Here is one of my favourite quotes on risks.
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair. (but Jesus is always there to cheer you on, and bring hope to the hopeless)
To try is to risk failure. (but at least u tried)
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by his own fears, he is a slave; He has forfeited freedom.
Only a person who risks is free!
TIP OF THE DAY – As Nike says … Just do it!!
My challenge for you: Think of one area in your life that you have been putting off taking a risk. My challenge is to identify what is keeping you from taking action. Now, identify one action you will take this week.
My stretch challenge for you – is to email me and tell me the action you will take, then email me when you have completed the action.
Final thoughts:
“If I had my life to live over I’d like to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax. I would limber up. I would be sillier that I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and fewer beans. I would perhaps have more action trouble, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I’m one of those people who live sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I’ve had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had to do it again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds, I would pick more daisies” Nadine Stair at age 85
article written by Michelle Zelig Pourau of Personal Power International.
i hate chicken-ing out when God asked me to step out in faith n pray for someone. i just dont know how or maybe i'm just fearful of rejection and scared that the thing i asked for didnt happen.
Jesus, help me to grow in this area pleasee.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
falling in love
i find that love and relationship is a topic that is never ending and people never get bored and sick of talking about it! personally, i lovvvee reading about how people fall in love or looking at the awesome photos that ant and jono take. it helps me paint my perspective of love and that love isnt all airy fairy, unobtainable but instead, i see and know how love is really all around!
God has been opening my eyes to alot of things and i simply love it!
currently, i feel like i'm on a path where it's time for me to dig deeper and let my roots grow further in the things of God. i know that i am walking in my prophetic destiny! this is the season where i duno where i'm heading but i know God is in control and he is leading the way. it's awesome u know, that everyday, you get up and the God of heaven and earth has your day planned out! Surprises are around the corner! mann. how awesome is that!
but anway, not so much about me. i've been having 3 weeks break currently and i have the priviledge of catching up with people. and the greatest thing is that i am approached by people this time! i wasnt the one asking people out and going hey u wanna catch up. instead the other party thought of me! <3
i love our conversations and i love being able to impart into these people. i love hanging out with old friends and seeing how far we've come after all these years. when i do take the time to reflect and think about such things, mann, i'm overwhelmed by the people i'm surrounded with. it encourages me!
recently, my best friend was going through a hard time. and i just found out. my fault for not keeping in touch. but i love how God strings things together. everything that i had been through in the past, big and small now comes into perspective. I spoke to her and encouraged her. i included God in the picture in everything to let her know that God is always there! always in the picture. i know she is hurting real bad at the moment and i prolly couldnt relate as well to her pain but i know God can! i know i can just be a friend and cheer her on. i know i can be an Aaron and help her lift up her hands when they're tired.
i reckon this is the kinda friendship and relationship that God intended us to be in. to love one another and to encourage one another!
so many things are happening around me, but at the moment, i am just falling more in love with Jesus. and i want you to see His love too!
God has been opening my eyes to alot of things and i simply love it!
currently, i feel like i'm on a path where it's time for me to dig deeper and let my roots grow further in the things of God. i know that i am walking in my prophetic destiny! this is the season where i duno where i'm heading but i know God is in control and he is leading the way. it's awesome u know, that everyday, you get up and the God of heaven and earth has your day planned out! Surprises are around the corner! mann. how awesome is that!
but anway, not so much about me. i've been having 3 weeks break currently and i have the priviledge of catching up with people. and the greatest thing is that i am approached by people this time! i wasnt the one asking people out and going hey u wanna catch up. instead the other party thought of me! <3
i love our conversations and i love being able to impart into these people. i love hanging out with old friends and seeing how far we've come after all these years. when i do take the time to reflect and think about such things, mann, i'm overwhelmed by the people i'm surrounded with. it encourages me!
recently, my best friend was going through a hard time. and i just found out. my fault for not keeping in touch. but i love how God strings things together. everything that i had been through in the past, big and small now comes into perspective. I spoke to her and encouraged her. i included God in the picture in everything to let her know that God is always there! always in the picture. i know she is hurting real bad at the moment and i prolly couldnt relate as well to her pain but i know God can! i know i can just be a friend and cheer her on. i know i can be an Aaron and help her lift up her hands when they're tired.
i reckon this is the kinda friendship and relationship that God intended us to be in. to love one another and to encourage one another!
so many things are happening around me, but at the moment, i am just falling more in love with Jesus. and i want you to see His love too!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
pkids discipleship was off the hook. i learnt about the power of encouragement and i myself recieved loads today.
HEbrews 4:13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
your words have the power to break and heal over the hurts and wounds inflicted by negative words. your encouragement can shift the person's perspective. And the bible says to do it daily.
i love getting encouragements! i love getting pats on the backs and hugs saying that i'm a champ! but above all, i love encouraging people! i love it when they say that it makes sense and is exactly what they need. i love being used by God to speak of the right words at the right time.
seriously, God is just so good that He hasnt forgotten about YOU! He watches over you all the time and craves for your love and attention.
ps rob asked an intriguing question today - what would you do if you knew you wouldnt never fail?
HEbrews 4:13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
your words have the power to break and heal over the hurts and wounds inflicted by negative words. your encouragement can shift the person's perspective. And the bible says to do it daily.
i love getting encouragements! i love getting pats on the backs and hugs saying that i'm a champ! but above all, i love encouraging people! i love it when they say that it makes sense and is exactly what they need. i love being used by God to speak of the right words at the right time.
seriously, God is just so good that He hasnt forgotten about YOU! He watches over you all the time and craves for your love and attention.
ps rob asked an intriguing question today - what would you do if you knew you wouldnt never fail?
Sunday, September 20, 2009
A weekend Like no other
When it's a good weekend, or when u know that u've had a good time, you'll know it! And this weekend was just rocking and there's just so much thankfulness and gratitude in my heart that it's overfilled with joy. Tmr, it's time to spread those joy to my kiddies n also those that I'll meet!! Oh yea! I'm excited!!!
Anway, before I get too sidetracked, I'll just quickly share what happened.
Honestly, I think my weekend just keeps getting better and better ever since kidshaper. Praise Gor friendship and just being so good to me! I duno if u've ever had this feeling - that things just seemed so good that you could actually withdraw yourself from reality, and take upon a third person point of view n ask yourself, is this real?! What I did today and the happiness i felt, real? Or like when it comes to the end of the day, u depersonalize(mental health term) hahahhahaaha n reflect on how good it has been? Ur heart overwhelms!
That was what I felt.
I finally sleptover @ li's hse on Friday. Those who don't know, I insist on sharing a single bed with her. And we must have seperate blankets each cos I'm a blanket-snatcher in the middle of the night. But i simply lovee hanging out with this chick!
This weekend so far, I've learnt a few new things bot myself and I just can't stop reflecting bout my perspective on friendship. ( typing on iPhone is soo mega challenging)
anyway, I've known that I'm sentimental but I realize that there R certain things that I've never actually let go. Especially when it comes to friendship. I realized that I still hold on to the past and have never really grasped the concept of moving on. I think it could still be jpainful for me. I know for my own benefit N also for the person on the other end, it's actually a good thing! I mean i know the reality that life goes on whether you like it or not. But I think I'm quite stubborn in the sense that I belive something ought not to be changed! Relationships are one of them. Not to say that u stay stagnant, bt I meant thAt u're not supposed to move backwards. I duno but I found out that for some specific people, though they moved on n we barely see each other, I'll still hold on real tight on what we shared before. Yeaa. I guessed we've moved on but I still hold on to what we had and will fight real hard to keep this friendship going. Idunno if I'm making sense. But u know what, even as I watched UP today with ant (awesome show! Highly recommended in 3d) I realized that perhaps God is also telling me to let go of the past and move on.
I guess it's time for me to say "thank you for the adventure. And now go have some new ones".
I'm not saying that it's to ditch all my friends or just leave everything n turn a new page. No! I'm saying, some things had occured for us to grow together, so that when we grow old, we can have a good laugh togehter!! Hahaha. Yeaa. And some things happen to test how strong we really are. But you know what, some happen just so that you can see that there are treasures around you, every day and every moment. So that you can journey on and start your adventure with these people around you. Sometimes, all we need to do is just to look and embrace. Don't worry about what others may say or think. Don't stews about passing comments like you're always busy and always not at home. Heck, it's my life and I'm ever only gonna live today once. I'm ever only gonna have this minute once and it'll be gone n dotted in history. Yes. I used to be affected lots by passing comments, and I used to justify situations. But this weekend, I realized that This truly is my life And the life that God has given me. I am gonna live it to the fullest and do what God has called me to(even though lots oftimes it's scary and require stepping out). Still. It's a life worth living. I think I'm discovering mire about this more to life life that God wants me to live. I know it's basic life lesson 101.
But when u actually understand it. Goodness!
I can't thank God enough for the friends that I have around me and also those that shared and are still sharing this journey with me. Whichever stage n phase we are in, I want you to know that I hold on very dearly all the memories we shared.
Sassy,
I love how even though things aren't exactly the same as it used to be as when we first met, I know that I can still cuddle next to you and just be comfortable and be loved. I love u and am so definitely hogging ur bed again!
Ant,
I simply enjoy ur company!! Simple as that but u know it goes far beyond yea? Look forward to adding more pages to our adventure book. I'll be Russell n u can be Carl! (since u say u're old) hahaha
Anway, before I get too sidetracked, I'll just quickly share what happened.
Honestly, I think my weekend just keeps getting better and better ever since kidshaper. Praise Gor friendship and just being so good to me! I duno if u've ever had this feeling - that things just seemed so good that you could actually withdraw yourself from reality, and take upon a third person point of view n ask yourself, is this real?! What I did today and the happiness i felt, real? Or like when it comes to the end of the day, u depersonalize(mental health term) hahahhahaaha n reflect on how good it has been? Ur heart overwhelms!
That was what I felt.
I finally sleptover @ li's hse on Friday. Those who don't know, I insist on sharing a single bed with her. And we must have seperate blankets each cos I'm a blanket-snatcher in the middle of the night. But i simply lovee hanging out with this chick!
This weekend so far, I've learnt a few new things bot myself and I just can't stop reflecting bout my perspective on friendship. ( typing on iPhone is soo mega challenging)
anyway, I've known that I'm sentimental but I realize that there R certain things that I've never actually let go. Especially when it comes to friendship. I realized that I still hold on to the past and have never really grasped the concept of moving on. I think it could still be jpainful for me. I know for my own benefit N also for the person on the other end, it's actually a good thing! I mean i know the reality that life goes on whether you like it or not. But I think I'm quite stubborn in the sense that I belive something ought not to be changed! Relationships are one of them. Not to say that u stay stagnant, bt I meant thAt u're not supposed to move backwards. I duno but I found out that for some specific people, though they moved on n we barely see each other, I'll still hold on real tight on what we shared before. Yeaa. I guessed we've moved on but I still hold on to what we had and will fight real hard to keep this friendship going. Idunno if I'm making sense. But u know what, even as I watched UP today with ant (awesome show! Highly recommended in 3d) I realized that perhaps God is also telling me to let go of the past and move on.
I guess it's time for me to say "thank you for the adventure. And now go have some new ones".
I'm not saying that it's to ditch all my friends or just leave everything n turn a new page. No! I'm saying, some things had occured for us to grow together, so that when we grow old, we can have a good laugh togehter!! Hahaha. Yeaa. And some things happen to test how strong we really are. But you know what, some happen just so that you can see that there are treasures around you, every day and every moment. So that you can journey on and start your adventure with these people around you. Sometimes, all we need to do is just to look and embrace. Don't worry about what others may say or think. Don't stews about passing comments like you're always busy and always not at home. Heck, it's my life and I'm ever only gonna live today once. I'm ever only gonna have this minute once and it'll be gone n dotted in history. Yes. I used to be affected lots by passing comments, and I used to justify situations. But this weekend, I realized that This truly is my life And the life that God has given me. I am gonna live it to the fullest and do what God has called me to(even though lots oftimes it's scary and require stepping out). Still. It's a life worth living. I think I'm discovering mire about this more to life life that God wants me to live. I know it's basic life lesson 101.
But when u actually understand it. Goodness!
I can't thank God enough for the friends that I have around me and also those that shared and are still sharing this journey with me. Whichever stage n phase we are in, I want you to know that I hold on very dearly all the memories we shared.
Sassy,
I love how even though things aren't exactly the same as it used to be as when we first met, I know that I can still cuddle next to you and just be comfortable and be loved. I love u and am so definitely hogging ur bed again!
Ant,
I simply enjoy ur company!! Simple as that but u know it goes far beyond yea? Look forward to adding more pages to our adventure book. I'll be Russell n u can be Carl! (since u say u're old) hahaha
Monday, September 14, 2009
1st post from Iphone
Just have a quick 15 mins before I had to go for another class. Am at caufield at the moment and. I think I just witnessed one of the saddest thing that could happen to a girl.
I was at the corner happily minding my own business, thinking of when to eat my crossaint when I saw this. Well, for all u know it could just be my imagination and none of these actually happened as what I thought itwas.
They were on a bench under the big tree.
He had his legs crossed while she faced the tar roads
her eyes were red and they barely spoke.
I walked past them wondering why the still silence.
...
I turned my head around and he stood up.
No goodbyes no hugs, he just walked off while
She sat on the bench, with her black jacket, staring at the black tar road.
If ur imagination were as wild as mine, we could perhaps swapped stories! But after seeing how he left her, in that manner, my heart broke. I wasn't too sure if it was just a normal goodbye. I paced up and down the walkway two or three times, trying to grab a glimpseof the girl from the back, just to check that she is ok.
Part of me was like move on. None of ur business anyway.
Part of my heart sunk, fearing that wat I imagined would have actually been her most dreaded reality.
The walkway btw gym n lib never seemed so long. Well, at least, I've never turned around, walked up n down so many tomes! )
finally, i decided to turn around and just to check on her to see that she was ok. but then .. she's already left. i wonder what happened to her
in that moment, i felt the pain of broken relationships. it scares me a little and made me question if i would ever be ready. and all the questions regarding the right man.. blah blah blah.
MAN! stop breaking people's heart! haha.
but you know what, i know relationships can be scary, but i still believe in love.
We love, because He first love us.
God, help us to recognise the brokeness in this world and overcome it with Your love.
I was at the corner happily minding my own business, thinking of when to eat my crossaint when I saw this. Well, for all u know it could just be my imagination and none of these actually happened as what I thought itwas.
They were on a bench under the big tree.
He had his legs crossed while she faced the tar roads
her eyes were red and they barely spoke.
I walked past them wondering why the still silence.
...
I turned my head around and he stood up.
No goodbyes no hugs, he just walked off while
She sat on the bench, with her black jacket, staring at the black tar road.
If ur imagination were as wild as mine, we could perhaps swapped stories! But after seeing how he left her, in that manner, my heart broke. I wasn't too sure if it was just a normal goodbye. I paced up and down the walkway two or three times, trying to grab a glimpseof the girl from the back, just to check that she is ok.
Part of me was like move on. None of ur business anyway.
Part of my heart sunk, fearing that wat I imagined would have actually been her most dreaded reality.
The walkway btw gym n lib never seemed so long. Well, at least, I've never turned around, walked up n down so many tomes! )
finally, i decided to turn around and just to check on her to see that she was ok. but then .. she's already left. i wonder what happened to her
in that moment, i felt the pain of broken relationships. it scares me a little and made me question if i would ever be ready. and all the questions regarding the right man.. blah blah blah.
MAN! stop breaking people's heart! haha.
but you know what, i know relationships can be scary, but i still believe in love.
We love, because He first love us.
God, help us to recognise the brokeness in this world and overcome it with Your love.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
one touch from heaven
I'm sorry about the previous emo post. i was truly down that time. and i just wanna show people the reality of life, the reality of being a Christian. We do get challenges too and we do feel down and hit a few dead ends here and there. but i know,
my God is still faithful.
I know that there will come a point of time, where i can be picked up and stand on my feet, giving him praise again!
I know that all along the way, God has been always there cheering me on and never giving up on me. I know that my issues are dead tiny compare to others but hey, i have emotions too and nothing takes more out of me than being drained emotionally. i was chugging along, trying to do my thing. Times of giving up and throwing in came into my thought, somehow, the fact that i have witnessed God's goodness refrained me from surrendering to the world. I know that Jesus has more and better things that the world could offer. I know that His love is real and His love is so powerful that it breaks all yoke.
i dont really know what it was that kept me going, but i persevered. and i'm glad i did!!
God actually has a bigger and better plan for me. He's just waiting around the corner and waiting to surprise me.
At camp, i felt His touch like never before. it was like electricity, so tenancious, so powerful, so intense. there's no one exact word for it! I've heard heaps about heaven colliding with earth. i've seen it in planetkids where it happened to my kiddies. but that night, it happened to me. I knew that God had positioned me in camp, spoke into my heart and after surrendering everything to Him at his feet (during kidshaper) He has propelled me forward and BANG! a powerful touch of God hit me.
honestly, i didnt know what happened or what it meant. i just know that God is there and He touched me. He affirms things that i felt in the spirit. things that i'm sure of and things that i'm not sure of. He's there to care and just gently pushes my back, nudging me forward. i can hear him say "come on, that's it! come on! " AHH He's just so good!
and guess what - that's my Dad! i'm just falling more and more in love with Him!!! <3
Jesus,
it's such a priviledge to be used and to witness your power touching people and transforming lives. Thank you for not giving up on me when i thought i wouldnt be able to do it anymore. Thank you for mending the broken hearts and the past hurts. I know now, truly that You alone are good enough for me. please continue to grow me into what you want me to be. help me to walk in the power, authority and annointing that you have bestowed on me.
i love you.
and also, thank you. for the awesome people that You have placed in my life. thank you that you are doing an awesome work in them. please do more!
amen!
i'm missing camp already!!! i absolutely loved the powerpack weekend of fun, people and most of al, experiencing God! my urbies are awesome. the people i met are so cool. i cant wait for more of Jesus!!!
my God is still faithful.
I know that there will come a point of time, where i can be picked up and stand on my feet, giving him praise again!
I know that all along the way, God has been always there cheering me on and never giving up on me. I know that my issues are dead tiny compare to others but hey, i have emotions too and nothing takes more out of me than being drained emotionally. i was chugging along, trying to do my thing. Times of giving up and throwing in came into my thought, somehow, the fact that i have witnessed God's goodness refrained me from surrendering to the world. I know that Jesus has more and better things that the world could offer. I know that His love is real and His love is so powerful that it breaks all yoke.
i dont really know what it was that kept me going, but i persevered. and i'm glad i did!!
God actually has a bigger and better plan for me. He's just waiting around the corner and waiting to surprise me.
At camp, i felt His touch like never before. it was like electricity, so tenancious, so powerful, so intense. there's no one exact word for it! I've heard heaps about heaven colliding with earth. i've seen it in planetkids where it happened to my kiddies. but that night, it happened to me. I knew that God had positioned me in camp, spoke into my heart and after surrendering everything to Him at his feet (during kidshaper) He has propelled me forward and BANG! a powerful touch of God hit me.
honestly, i didnt know what happened or what it meant. i just know that God is there and He touched me. He affirms things that i felt in the spirit. things that i'm sure of and things that i'm not sure of. He's there to care and just gently pushes my back, nudging me forward. i can hear him say "come on, that's it! come on! " AHH He's just so good!
and guess what - that's my Dad! i'm just falling more and more in love with Him!!! <3
Jesus,
it's such a priviledge to be used and to witness your power touching people and transforming lives. Thank you for not giving up on me when i thought i wouldnt be able to do it anymore. Thank you for mending the broken hearts and the past hurts. I know now, truly that You alone are good enough for me. please continue to grow me into what you want me to be. help me to walk in the power, authority and annointing that you have bestowed on me.
i love you.
and also, thank you. for the awesome people that You have placed in my life. thank you that you are doing an awesome work in them. please do more!
amen!
i'm missing camp already!!! i absolutely loved the powerpack weekend of fun, people and most of al, experiencing God! my urbies are awesome. the people i met are so cool. i cant wait for more of Jesus!!!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Thanks for breaking my heart so effortlessly. Thank you for helping m realize that I am so small. Thank you for making me stronger and helping me to realize that I can actually be so insignificant. I thought we were close and I thought you care. Obviously I was in my own lil buble And clearly my dream was just fantasy. Thanks for the invitation, I hear your laughter and I only longed to be a joiner.
I hate I love you.
I hate how I can't be mad at u
I hate I tried so hard to be loved
I hate how I can't cry out loud
I hate how things are and you prolly never realize a tad bit. Or perhaps all these rubbish are just mere thoughts that plagued my mind?
I dunoo
but you know wat? Thank u for teaching me that I can't always run n hide. Thank u for teaching me and putting me in a position thAt I can do nothing bit cry out to God. Thank u for not always being there when I needed cos through tough moments like these, I've learn to turn to my heavenly Father.
I wonder what next yr holds for us but watever it is, with or without me, you'll do great.
All the best
I hate I love you.
I hate how I can't be mad at u
I hate I tried so hard to be loved
I hate how I can't cry out loud
I hate how things are and you prolly never realize a tad bit. Or perhaps all these rubbish are just mere thoughts that plagued my mind?
I dunoo
but you know wat? Thank u for teaching me that I can't always run n hide. Thank u for teaching me and putting me in a position thAt I can do nothing bit cry out to God. Thank u for not always being there when I needed cos through tough moments like these, I've learn to turn to my heavenly Father.
I wonder what next yr holds for us but watever it is, with or without me, you'll do great.
All the best
Thursday, August 13, 2009
cry
i was flickering through facebook during my dinner break. yes. at the moment i'm ploughing through my assignment. i should be focusing. as i was jumping from one page to another, i was reminded of certain things in the past. some things that used to be so precious and now probably amount to dust because of three convenient words - "we've moved on".
i wonder why it hurts now. it made me wanna cry.
on the other note, do you know how much it breaks God's heart when you cry yourself to sleep? i cried myself to sleep tonnes of times and yesterday, ps rob said that - and i dun feel so alone anymore.
i wonder why it hurts now. it made me wanna cry.
on the other note, do you know how much it breaks God's heart when you cry yourself to sleep? i cried myself to sleep tonnes of times and yesterday, ps rob said that - and i dun feel so alone anymore.
Monday, August 03, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
deeper
Beautiful Women's coming up. In less than 24 hrs actually.
i tried to embed it in this but couldnt. so you'll just have to click onto this link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3dqiWK2XbY
I know this again will be an awesome encounter with Jesus.
I know i can approach His throne room and He'll be there, never too busy for me.
I know He will hold my hand and the hands of those who need His touch
How sweet is that when He calls you the apple of His eyes
Zechariah 2:7
for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye
but as i sit down and think, i dont know what to ask from God. i dont know what to expect.
well,
i guess i wasnt too greedy.. all i want is summed up in a word -"MORE"
Jesus, i want more. i want to know you more. i wanna love more.
more of You.
i tried to embed it in this but couldnt. so you'll just have to click onto this link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3dqiWK2XbY
I know this again will be an awesome encounter with Jesus.
I know i can approach His throne room and He'll be there, never too busy for me.
I know He will hold my hand and the hands of those who need His touch
How sweet is that when He calls you the apple of His eyes
Zechariah 2:7
for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye
but as i sit down and think, i dont know what to ask from God. i dont know what to expect.
well,
i guess i wasnt too greedy.. all i want is summed up in a word -"MORE"
Jesus, i want more. i want to know you more. i wanna love more.
more of You.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
cant wait for church tmr!
i can feel the excitement!
i cant wait for church tmr. i know God's gonna move so powerfully and it's gonna be AWEEESOMME. woo hoo!!
Jesus, do what you wanna do. for me, i just wanna love you more.
our God is love.
i cant wait for church tmr. i know God's gonna move so powerfully and it's gonna be AWEEESOMME. woo hoo!!
Jesus, do what you wanna do. for me, i just wanna love you more.
our God is love.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Saturday, July 11, 2009
what do you do
what do you do
when giving up is the easier option
and hiding is the more secure sense?
what do you do
when you are called to lead and carry miracles
but all you see is sickness and disease?
what do you do
when you know you're loved
but the love seemed so far?
what do you do
when someone said they care
but they havent even make to drop a line?
what do you do
when you get mad at the one who knows you best
when you get angry for no apparent reason
what do you do when you know you cant do anything?
what do you do?
when giving up is the easier option
and hiding is the more secure sense?
what do you do
when you are called to lead and carry miracles
but all you see is sickness and disease?
what do you do
when you know you're loved
but the love seemed so far?
what do you do
when someone said they care
but they havent even make to drop a line?
what do you do
when you get mad at the one who knows you best
when you get angry for no apparent reason
what do you do when you know you cant do anything?
what do you do?
Friday, July 10, 2009
Tuesday, July 07, 2009
beyond my eyes.
That was the theme song that Ps Rob repeating played during camp red. It was just so amazing and God just moved so powerfully. Kids are all stepping up to the next level and operating in a new annointing. its mind blowing! have you seen kids praying for each other and leaders on the last day? kids taking more of a part in the service rather than leaders? oh my goodness!
Holy Spirit is just sooo there! I went there, and i felt as though i'm recieving more than i'm serving. it's odd. but it's good :)
3 more shifts and i'm home.
i dont exactly know how i'm feeling at the moment.
Saturday, June 27, 2009
HELLO FROM WANGARATTA
Yes, i'm finally here! i still remembered the night when i found out i was allocated here and how my beloved housemate and sister were having a crack at it! I also remembered how God spoke to me to come and stuff. And well well well, can you believe it? i'm one week down and two more to go and soon enough, it'll be over!
So far, i'm digging it!
The place that i'm staying does feel heaps like boardo. communal kitchen and toilet, laundry and stuff like tat. 4 walls, wardrobe, table and chair. ahhh. good ol' time. and i figure some things are still the same in me, i havent grown much! it still kinda felt exactly the same as i felt the first time i left home. when i'm in my own room, i still feel rather miserable, the feeling of being alone and no close friends near u, aint good. aint good at all. companionship meant so much hey?
but i guess the one MAJOR difference was that i have God by my side. He is so good, never forsaken me. It felt so different when you start you day with him. He prepares my day and set it right.
In the hospital, i've been learning heaps. went in the wards for four days and i've been doing quite a fair bit. it started with a lil contending, like trying to balance out the technical stuff and wanting to see all the "cool" things, but then.. a day later, i realised wat's important aint the doing things on people part. it's the part where you get to talk to them and put a smile on them, making their pain more tolerable, or reduce it to 0! it's an amazing feeling when you get to know them, talk to them and just listen to them and sharing the honour of being part of their lives. It truly is a an honour.
Just like how people came into my life. I cant forget how awesome my first 2 nurses who looked after me last year! jo and carlie. i really missed them and kinda regretted that i did not get their contacts. but anwayy.. highlights from wangaratta so far.
went to cheese tasting
the last stand of ned kelly
taco night
finished a 1000 pieces puzzle
homesick
gave an injection
learning to depend more on God
i shall talk more next time.
ps. just watched raising helen on tv. i cried.
So far, i'm digging it!
The place that i'm staying does feel heaps like boardo. communal kitchen and toilet, laundry and stuff like tat. 4 walls, wardrobe, table and chair. ahhh. good ol' time. and i figure some things are still the same in me, i havent grown much! it still kinda felt exactly the same as i felt the first time i left home. when i'm in my own room, i still feel rather miserable, the feeling of being alone and no close friends near u, aint good. aint good at all. companionship meant so much hey?
but i guess the one MAJOR difference was that i have God by my side. He is so good, never forsaken me. It felt so different when you start you day with him. He prepares my day and set it right.
In the hospital, i've been learning heaps. went in the wards for four days and i've been doing quite a fair bit. it started with a lil contending, like trying to balance out the technical stuff and wanting to see all the "cool" things, but then.. a day later, i realised wat's important aint the doing things on people part. it's the part where you get to talk to them and put a smile on them, making their pain more tolerable, or reduce it to 0! it's an amazing feeling when you get to know them, talk to them and just listen to them and sharing the honour of being part of their lives. It truly is a an honour.
Just like how people came into my life. I cant forget how awesome my first 2 nurses who looked after me last year! jo and carlie. i really missed them and kinda regretted that i did not get their contacts. but anwayy.. highlights from wangaratta so far.
went to cheese tasting
the last stand of ned kelly
taco night
finished a 1000 pieces puzzle
homesick
gave an injection
learning to depend more on God
i shall talk more next time.
ps. just watched raising helen on tv. i cried.
Monday, June 15, 2009
whilst i was in His arms, thanking Him, tears rolled down the corner of my eyes.
that adds another line to my tally crying myself to sleep this month
but deep down, i know
Jesus loves when there's still so much hurt.
Jesus loves, when there's still so much that i dont understand.
Jesus loves.
It's tears of gratitude. As long as my heart remains soft, these tears will never run dry, cos there's always things to be thankful for.
Can i choose to let go and say bye :] with a hope that you'll find someone better. i'm sorry
that adds another line to my tally crying myself to sleep this month
but deep down, i know
Jesus loves when there's still so much hurt.
Jesus loves, when there's still so much that i dont understand.
Jesus loves.
It's tears of gratitude. As long as my heart remains soft, these tears will never run dry, cos there's always things to be thankful for.
Can i choose to let go and say bye :] with a hope that you'll find someone better. i'm sorry
Sunday, June 14, 2009
I WILL BLESS THE LORD
When you think about how awesome God is, and how great His gracious hands are. u just cant help but thanking Him and being in awe in His mighty presence.
Today, at Planetkids, Ps Rob shared a lil and allowed us to publicly declare and thank God for things. anything.
it's awesome and so genuine as you start hearing the heart beat and the sincere "thank-you"s from the bottom of people's hearts.
It ranges from family, to ministry, friends to His things that make you smile.
God is always at work, always loving, always faithful, always reaching out to you.
as i'm sitting back on my bed now, typing this, i've got so many things to thank God for, from the simplest of things to the routine-everyday-life-repititive-taken-for-granted things.
for the hot warm sun, and the fog, wet winter
for the great joyous laughters, and the tough challenging pains.
for the most loving outstretched hands, to the most heartfelt hugs.
and just being able to breath and say your name.
GOD, thank you!
Today, at Planetkids, Ps Rob shared a lil and allowed us to publicly declare and thank God for things. anything.
it's awesome and so genuine as you start hearing the heart beat and the sincere "thank-you"s from the bottom of people's hearts.
It ranges from family, to ministry, friends to His things that make you smile.
God is always at work, always loving, always faithful, always reaching out to you.
as i'm sitting back on my bed now, typing this, i've got so many things to thank God for, from the simplest of things to the routine-everyday-life-repititive-taken-for-granted things.
for the hot warm sun, and the fog, wet winter
for the great joyous laughters, and the tough challenging pains.
for the most loving outstretched hands, to the most heartfelt hugs.
and just being able to breath and say your name.
GOD, thank you!
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
pre-exams
in couple of hours time, i'll be on my first paper of the year. this year had truly whizzed by real quick and before i knew it. it's already mid-year. winter and its chill has already hit the streets.
i've been in a position now, where i dun really know what to do.
well, i know the very basic thing is - to trust God, believe that Jesus will come through.
i know he will. i dont doubt heaps. but the question for me is the issue of expectations. i dont really wanna go through this but i know it's totally self-inflict and yes, i think, i think too much. ya. and just within a minute, a ZILLION things will zoom into my head, like it or not. it could be of people, things i need to do, random thoughts and even things of the future.
no wonder i'm so easily overwhelmed.
but somehow i need to understand that God is still in control. God is still faithful and He is good.
i need to know that when i trust Him, He can and will work in the miraculous ways.
when i lift my hands up, and let Him do it, He will surprise me.
I just need to belief it from the bottom of my heart. There has never been such great doubt or testing in my heart before. it's a point where i know it in my head, but do i really belief in my heart. perhaps the fact that i dont see it yet or the fact that it's not hapenning yet kinda intensify my tot process. i dont know. but this exams feel so different. maybe God is just taking me on a deeper level of trust.
i know i dont wanna be an average student. i am sick and tired of the mediocre level of achievements. i know the same power that raised Christ from the dead is in me. i know i have all it takes.
i know. but why it is so hard to put it down into the real deal.
in a way, it's like moses of the holy ground. you know you're there. you know something off the supernatural is happening, but you just dont know how to react or how to tap into the source that is available right in front of you. perhaps i'm waiting on the clear instruction of God, "take off your shoes"
take off the stuff that has been hindering me off direct contact with God.
remove all the thoughts that come bombastically down on me, and just be saturated in His.
COME ON. get ready.
havent you already known that in His presence, there's everything? HE is forever faithful. He is forever good.
Come through again God.
ps. i dont wanna have leaky nose or any cough-running-nose-disease. get rid of it for me please God.
i've been in a position now, where i dun really know what to do.
well, i know the very basic thing is - to trust God, believe that Jesus will come through.
i know he will. i dont doubt heaps. but the question for me is the issue of expectations. i dont really wanna go through this but i know it's totally self-inflict and yes, i think, i think too much. ya. and just within a minute, a ZILLION things will zoom into my head, like it or not. it could be of people, things i need to do, random thoughts and even things of the future.
no wonder i'm so easily overwhelmed.
but somehow i need to understand that God is still in control. God is still faithful and He is good.
i need to know that when i trust Him, He can and will work in the miraculous ways.
when i lift my hands up, and let Him do it, He will surprise me.
I just need to belief it from the bottom of my heart. There has never been such great doubt or testing in my heart before. it's a point where i know it in my head, but do i really belief in my heart. perhaps the fact that i dont see it yet or the fact that it's not hapenning yet kinda intensify my tot process. i dont know. but this exams feel so different. maybe God is just taking me on a deeper level of trust.
i know i dont wanna be an average student. i am sick and tired of the mediocre level of achievements. i know the same power that raised Christ from the dead is in me. i know i have all it takes.
i know. but why it is so hard to put it down into the real deal.
in a way, it's like moses of the holy ground. you know you're there. you know something off the supernatural is happening, but you just dont know how to react or how to tap into the source that is available right in front of you. perhaps i'm waiting on the clear instruction of God, "take off your shoes"
take off the stuff that has been hindering me off direct contact with God.
remove all the thoughts that come bombastically down on me, and just be saturated in His.
COME ON. get ready.
havent you already known that in His presence, there's everything? HE is forever faithful. He is forever good.
Come through again God.
ps. i dont wanna have leaky nose or any cough-running-nose-disease. get rid of it for me please God.
Saturday, June 06, 2009
the other day, when i was on the bus, i eavedropped into some other person's conversation. one of them is my coursemate, doing nursing.
My friend/ coursemate (P)
Another girl that she was talking to, assuming that she's doing the same course as well (J)
J- We nurses dont earn as much you know. Unlike the doctors.
P - Yea.. apparently physio's earn heaps too and their job scope is really good. They only work from 9 to 5
J - YEA! that's why i really wanna get hitched with either a doctor or physio once i get out there on the job.
I'm pretty set on it.
HHMMM. I couldnt stop laughing to myself. I always wonder if my guy would be a doctor or from the healthscience line.
HMMM
My friend/ coursemate (P)
Another girl that she was talking to, assuming that she's doing the same course as well (J)
J- We nurses dont earn as much you know. Unlike the doctors.
P - Yea.. apparently physio's earn heaps too and their job scope is really good. They only work from 9 to 5
J - YEA! that's why i really wanna get hitched with either a doctor or physio once i get out there on the job.
I'm pretty set on it.
HHMMM. I couldnt stop laughing to myself. I always wonder if my guy would be a doctor or from the healthscience line.
HMMM
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
taking my position
i was on a podcast spree today.
whilst on the way back from peninsula, i had joyce meyers, jentezen franklin and GC to accompany me. it was AWESOME!!!
there's so much that i could grasp from the messages but i'll just share wat spoke to me the most. i love what joyce meyers said.
The battle is not ours to fight.
2 Chronicles 20:17
"You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' "
I've been hearing a lot of stipulations here and there. and as the mid year approaches, it got me thinking alot. about what have i done for the past 6 moths. and what could i do in the up coming months. perhaps its not the best time to do some reflection, especially when assignments and exams are round the corner and not to forget placements straight after.
perhaps like what chloe said, i do have a lot spinning in my head.
but i guess i'm just trying to max out my day with the things i can do, not just for myself but also for people and for God.
aikz. i duno.
i think i need some recap and reflection time with God and put myself in a position of ultimate surrender, giving all of myself to God.
somehow, this song came into my head tonight. TEEEHEHHE, enjoy the old school video. my sis n i cracked up laughing watching it!
God, take me home!
where the deers and the anthelop play...
whilst on the way back from peninsula, i had joyce meyers, jentezen franklin and GC to accompany me. it was AWESOME!!!
there's so much that i could grasp from the messages but i'll just share wat spoke to me the most. i love what joyce meyers said.
The battle is not ours to fight.
2 Chronicles 20:17
"You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' "
I've been hearing a lot of stipulations here and there. and as the mid year approaches, it got me thinking alot. about what have i done for the past 6 moths. and what could i do in the up coming months. perhaps its not the best time to do some reflection, especially when assignments and exams are round the corner and not to forget placements straight after.
perhaps like what chloe said, i do have a lot spinning in my head.
but i guess i'm just trying to max out my day with the things i can do, not just for myself but also for people and for God.
aikz. i duno.
i think i need some recap and reflection time with God and put myself in a position of ultimate surrender, giving all of myself to God.
somehow, this song came into my head tonight. TEEEHEHHE, enjoy the old school video. my sis n i cracked up laughing watching it!
God, take me home!
where the deers and the anthelop play...
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
Come back to the Garden of Eden
I believe, each and every part of our souls looonnnng to go back to the Garden of Eden, where we walk with God, whether you know Him or not.
God, take us back to where we belong, with You.
God, take us back to where we belong, with You.
Monday, May 25, 2009
Pictures of you
This song randomly came up into my head today. i had pictures of my life came flashing by as i was watching this video.
ant, i reckon you may like it. like the way they did the video (is the tech term - animation?)
oh oh oh .
and i stumble upon this too.
i dun watch oth, so i dun really know what it was talking about. but hey. if you think about it, it does give you greater perspective to life hey? like no matter how different each and everyone of us are, we are all children of God.
we all have a story to tell.
we all do posess the capacity to make an impact in the lives of others.
(even if it's just one hour)
ant, i reckon you may like it. like the way they did the video (is the tech term - animation?)
oh oh oh .
and i stumble upon this too.
i dun watch oth, so i dun really know what it was talking about. but hey. if you think about it, it does give you greater perspective to life hey? like no matter how different each and everyone of us are, we are all children of God.
we all have a story to tell.
we all do posess the capacity to make an impact in the lives of others.
(even if it's just one hour)
Sunday, May 24, 2009
my housemates said that i'm not so good of an actor. hmm. people say that they can read me like a book. REALLY??
sometimes,
somethings, i always wonder, whether is it better for me to say it or to keep it to myself?
can you read it through my eyes? i hate to proclaim those words.
but sometimes, it doesnt matter what we say. the best comfort one can get is silent presence.
for me, i'd love it if i could get a giant cuddle and you telling me, it'll be alright. God's got you at the palm of His hands.
just hold me in your arms, will you?
sometimes,
somethings, i always wonder, whether is it better for me to say it or to keep it to myself?
can you read it through my eyes? i hate to proclaim those words.
but sometimes, it doesnt matter what we say. the best comfort one can get is silent presence.
for me, i'd love it if i could get a giant cuddle and you telling me, it'll be alright. God's got you at the palm of His hands.
just hold me in your arms, will you?
Tuesday, May 05, 2009
thank you for putting a smile on my face
i love all the little things that people do that completely BRIGHTENS up your day. it's so amazing.
thank you awesome people. you made me feel like a princess :)
Thanks Gavin, for the lunch and PEGS for the awesome asam laksa :)
i feel so loved!
happy birthday PJ :)
thank you awesome people. you made me feel like a princess :)
Thanks Gavin, for the lunch and PEGS for the awesome asam laksa :)
i feel so loved!
happy birthday PJ :)
Monday, April 27, 2009
VEGGIETALES
in planetkids today, we watched Veggietales - the pirates who dont do anything.
here's the trailer for it.
it's great fun and u'll learn heaps out of it. but amongst it all, my favourite quote is,
"even princess does the right thing."
mmhmm :)
here's the trailer for it.
it's great fun and u'll learn heaps out of it. but amongst it all, my favourite quote is,
"even princess does the right thing."
mmhmm :)
Friday, April 24, 2009
cheesy
at the moment, i'm feeling really cheesy now. perhaps it was chick flick overdose. 1 is enough to put me off the dial. haha.
i came home from uni today and my house were watching full house. yeap. the korean drama series with rain and the super cute girl on it.
then we continued on with one night with the king with Esther from the bible, offering her everything to the King. sooo beautiful. and i love how she demonstrates such strong courage to stand for her people for 'a time such as this'.
and well,
it didnt stop there. i then stumbled upon weixiong's blog and found the sweetest video. the photos were great and so were the editing and putting them together. but i guess wat made the superb was the heart behind it.
ahhh. i want some love nowww..
i came home from uni today and my house were watching full house. yeap. the korean drama series with rain and the super cute girl on it.
then we continued on with one night with the king with Esther from the bible, offering her everything to the King. sooo beautiful. and i love how she demonstrates such strong courage to stand for her people for 'a time such as this'.
and well,
it didnt stop there. i then stumbled upon weixiong's blog and found the sweetest video. the photos were great and so were the editing and putting them together. but i guess wat made the superb was the heart behind it.
ahhh. i want some love nowww..
Monday, April 20, 2009
GOD CAN!
went for PS 09 conference last week. God has always been faithful and good to me. everything that i asked of, came through. I went in with a relatively shattered heart, as you could prolly see 2 posts down.
God is sooo good.
He gives hope when there is none.
He heals when you thought the pain would never ever go.
He moves mountains to come meet u face to face.
He reminds you of your deepest dreams
He tells you that you are cherished, you are loved.
i'll talk more next time. but for now, i'll just leave you with a thought.
what do you want to see? dare to ask God for the impossible.
God is sooo good.
He gives hope when there is none.
He heals when you thought the pain would never ever go.
He moves mountains to come meet u face to face.
He reminds you of your deepest dreams
He tells you that you are cherished, you are loved.
i'll talk more next time. but for now, i'll just leave you with a thought.
what do you want to see? dare to ask God for the impossible.
Friday, April 10, 2009
memoirs of the past
i stumbled upon all these stuff of the past today while i was tidying up my room. the stuff back dates to 5 years ago! hahaha. yes. that's how much junks i have in the house but it also proves how sentimental i am. i remember having them but physically going back and looking at them. my gosh. i nearly broke down to tears.
i know at the moment. we're prolly very different from where we used to be. mann, it has been 5 years. of course things change. but i love our innocence back then. i love how u would love me for just who i am. i love how we can write notes and stick it on each others door. i love the fact that u say u'll always be there for me.
its hard to keep up with time, especially when it zooms past us so ever quickly. perhaps we're all at different pages of life now. we're doing different things, believing in different values. but hey, if i've never told u this, i wanna tell u now.
i love you and i appreciate all the memories we share.
i'm sorry that it's been so long and so far.
but you know what, going through all those stuff..
i miss your presence in my life. i miss seeing you every schooling day in that green pants and blue pinafore.
i miss the fact that you're just down the corridoor, having instant noodles in your room or nibbling your pack of biscuits away.
i miss you.
i admit that we have different priorities in life now
but thank you for the great work that you're doing, the love that you're continuously pouring out to the ones near you.
thank you for who you were and who u are.
i know at the moment. we're prolly very different from where we used to be. mann, it has been 5 years. of course things change. but i love our innocence back then. i love how u would love me for just who i am. i love how we can write notes and stick it on each others door. i love the fact that u say u'll always be there for me.
its hard to keep up with time, especially when it zooms past us so ever quickly. perhaps we're all at different pages of life now. we're doing different things, believing in different values. but hey, if i've never told u this, i wanna tell u now.
i love you and i appreciate all the memories we share.
i'm sorry that it's been so long and so far.
but you know what, going through all those stuff..
i miss your presence in my life. i miss seeing you every schooling day in that green pants and blue pinafore.
i miss the fact that you're just down the corridoor, having instant noodles in your room or nibbling your pack of biscuits away.
i miss you.
i admit that we have different priorities in life now
but thank you for the great work that you're doing, the love that you're continuously pouring out to the ones near you.
thank you for who you were and who u are.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
rainy days
daylight savings are over. seriously, i find it weird how the weather could just change so drastically along with the daylight saving.
it's been raining for almost 3 days now. i get to sleep hearing the rain beats against the roof, and in the morning, i wake up with my cold toes tapping to the rhythm of the drops on the porch. i dont like weather like this, makes me wanna stay home whole day, wag class, and snuggle in my bed. unfortunately, i dont get the luxury to do so. i have an assignment due tmr!! :S
i've been sleeping early and waking up early for it. labouring away :(
maybe cold gloomy weather makes you wonder.
sometimes i wonder.and i think i still linger.
am i worthy enough?am i good enough?
i see her hurts and pains.
i'm scared. i can feel the reality of it.
i dont deserve it. she didnt deserve the pain either.
why we fall sometimes?
why cant we be firm and just say no.
why is it so hard to go back,
why is it so hard to be focussed.
she's so stunning in her wedding dress.
is it too much or too far for me to imagine myself in that?
i'm not as talented as you are.
it's been raining for almost 3 days now. i get to sleep hearing the rain beats against the roof, and in the morning, i wake up with my cold toes tapping to the rhythm of the drops on the porch. i dont like weather like this, makes me wanna stay home whole day, wag class, and snuggle in my bed. unfortunately, i dont get the luxury to do so. i have an assignment due tmr!! :S
i've been sleeping early and waking up early for it. labouring away :(
maybe cold gloomy weather makes you wonder.
sometimes i wonder.and i think i still linger.
am i worthy enough?am i good enough?
i see her hurts and pains.
i'm scared. i can feel the reality of it.
i dont deserve it. she didnt deserve the pain either.
why we fall sometimes?
why cant we be firm and just say no.
why is it so hard to go back,
why is it so hard to be focussed.
she's so stunning in her wedding dress.
is it too much or too far for me to imagine myself in that?
i'm not as talented as you are.
i dont have a heart as big as hers.
i'm not good enough.
i can only look from my lil corner and think of all the perhaps and maybes.
i am trying to forget and let go
but i still cant help reading your blog.
i still cant help waiting eagerly and looking on the screen of my phone, waiting for the text to come through.
i still cant help checking on gtalk or skype.
i am trying to forget and let go
but i still cant help reading your blog.
i still cant help waiting eagerly and looking on the screen of my phone, waiting for the text to come through.
i still cant help checking on gtalk or skype.
i feel so silly.
i feel like i'm so useless. i cant honour my words.
i'm sorry.
i'm sorry, you.
i'm sorry, You.
please dont come after me with questions. i think i just need time to sort myself out.
till then, it's assignment time. joy.
Monday, March 30, 2009
"I understand"
I read somewhere today that the fact that someone understands you is so comforting. I guess as human being, we are truly made for relationship, the longing to connect and for someone to understand what we're going through, how we're feeling. i'm sure you can relate to times when you're scrolling your phone, picking out that one person in contact list to tell him/her that one joke that you both can laugh along.
or remember that day when you were stressing out with your assignment and you had to go for training or work. you're just looking for that someone who is going through the same thing to complain to.
welll ...... the fact that i know someone understands me, is sooo comforting. Though he/she may be at the other end of the world, or perhaps just in the room across, someone is there for me to relate to is just sooo awesome.
but, i'm sure there come times when no one on earth understand a single thing that u're going through.
no one can relate - because you're neither here nor there.
no one can advise - because you're the first one to go through situations as such.
no one is close enough to give u a shoulder to lean on
no one is far enough to hide from you when you just want some alone time
when there's no one else, there's always one person who can do it all.
one person who truly truly and deeply understand.
He is Jesus.
Heb 4 : 15 - 16
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
do you understand?
or remember that day when you were stressing out with your assignment and you had to go for training or work. you're just looking for that someone who is going through the same thing to complain to.
welll ...... the fact that i know someone understands me, is sooo comforting. Though he/she may be at the other end of the world, or perhaps just in the room across, someone is there for me to relate to is just sooo awesome.
but, i'm sure there come times when no one on earth understand a single thing that u're going through.
no one can relate - because you're neither here nor there.
no one can advise - because you're the first one to go through situations as such.
no one is close enough to give u a shoulder to lean on
no one is far enough to hide from you when you just want some alone time
when there's no one else, there's always one person who can do it all.
one person who truly truly and deeply understand.
He is Jesus.
Heb 4 : 15 - 16
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
do you understand?
Saturday, March 21, 2009
1 Sam 17:22
God dropped this verse in my heart for couple of days.
1 Samuel 17:22
David left his things with the keeper of supplies, ran to the battle lines and greeted his brothers.
1. He left his things with the keeper of supplies.
Perhaps sometimes, when we are called to do something, we need to leave OUR things behind with the person who can handle them best in order for us to be free, for us to not be tied down with things that would hinder or come against our way. I just realised it at 3.30am that he left the stuff with the keeper of supplies. wow. who else better that could keep our baggages than Jesus? who else better that we could trust?
2. He ran into the battle lines.
Can you imagine little David, running towards the battle line. War zone, usually, aint a pretty or attractive place. It couples with fear, death, injuries and hurts. Note the courage and boldness in David that he not only did not shrink back, but he RAN towards the battle lines.. where's not only his victory is found, but the victory of his country.
He RAN , with passion perhaps. but definitely, with a cause.
What are you doing?
3. He greeted his brothers.
hmmm. submitting to authority.
i think there's more to it than the typical david n goliath story. :) goodness :D :D
1 Samuel 17:22
David left his things with the keeper of supplies, ran to the battle lines and greeted his brothers.
1. He left his things with the keeper of supplies.
Perhaps sometimes, when we are called to do something, we need to leave OUR things behind with the person who can handle them best in order for us to be free, for us to not be tied down with things that would hinder or come against our way. I just realised it at 3.30am that he left the stuff with the keeper of supplies. wow. who else better that could keep our baggages than Jesus? who else better that we could trust?
2. He ran into the battle lines.
Can you imagine little David, running towards the battle line. War zone, usually, aint a pretty or attractive place. It couples with fear, death, injuries and hurts. Note the courage and boldness in David that he not only did not shrink back, but he RAN towards the battle lines.. where's not only his victory is found, but the victory of his country.
He RAN , with passion perhaps. but definitely, with a cause.
What are you doing?
3. He greeted his brothers.
hmmm. submitting to authority.
i think there's more to it than the typical david n goliath story. :) goodness :D :D
Thursday, March 19, 2009
3 Questions.
I'm loving urban life more and more! =) and it's SOO awesome!!
i am challenged with 3 questions yesterday and i shall leave you to think about it too!
How do you love God?
How do you love yourself?
How do you love others?
i am challenged with 3 questions yesterday and i shall leave you to think about it too!
How do you love God?
How do you love yourself?
How do you love others?
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
random thoughts
i always believed that God wants us to be happy and to enjoy ourselves. He grieves with us whenever we cry our heads off and whenever we were clouded with sorrow.
sometimes, it's so easy for us to be deluded and to stray into the enemy's trap of being concealed in our own world - MY feelings, MY desire, MY wants. and A LOT of times, we can do what others expect of us, we can put on this face of "I'm completely ok. I've got it all together. I'm jolly and happy". we can engineer ourselves to doing what we know is the right thing to do but not do it out of our hearts.
for example, i've now got my tute work, reading, in front of me. i know wat's expected of me. to complete my reading. i know wat i needed to do. but honestly, i dont enjoy reading it. it's SO BORING! i do it out of obligation instead of passion. I read cos i'm told tat i have to and i know if i dont my tutor would pick on me for the rest of the semester. so, i guess i'll have to at least skim read it and vaguely draw out some understanding out of it. but the outcome?
it aint useful when i do it half heartedly.
it is to no good at all. i waste my time. i waste my effort.
i didnt progress.
isnt it the same in life?
Chloe shared with me yesterday on what Ps Alex said during the offering message. "It is better to give than to receive".
i love it.
Apparently our brains are more stimulated when we give than when we received. WOW. how awesome!
for some period of time, or perhaps for a lil too long, i've been consumed in my world and how i want to do things MY WAY. i've always had it my way, so, giving in and not being so stubborn can be hard, especially when you're the eldest in the family.
also, for a while, i've been thinking a lil too much of my circumstance when i know that i should lay it at the alter of Jesus. when my heartaches n when i cut myself off, or the times when i had no space to shed my tears. i've been focusing on the things tat are important but not the MOST important of all.
i wanna pick up more things from where i left them last year.
i wanna be a person who gives.
i find it very AMAZING of how God can step in right away when you ask Him to heal your broken heart. i love the way the turns the focus and sets it on the things of everlasting.
i guess i cant turn back to the past -where it's all nice and easy, laid back and relaxing. but i know i can be slightly more disciplined and attack the devil in his face by being more obedient to Holy Spirit, and in the things that He has called me to do.
i know thinking about my situations, getting attention from people can be very tempting but i know i should set and cast them aside. i love how we can have TONNES of opportunity to be nice to ppl! and i shall start implementing some.
my faith goal - bless at least one person a day!
it is so achievable. dont you reckon :D :D
thinking about it puts a smile on my face already. cant wait to do it! see. that's how i think God wants me to enjoy doing whatever i'm doing!
sometimes, it's so easy for us to be deluded and to stray into the enemy's trap of being concealed in our own world - MY feelings, MY desire, MY wants. and A LOT of times, we can do what others expect of us, we can put on this face of "I'm completely ok. I've got it all together. I'm jolly and happy". we can engineer ourselves to doing what we know is the right thing to do but not do it out of our hearts.
for example, i've now got my tute work, reading, in front of me. i know wat's expected of me. to complete my reading. i know wat i needed to do. but honestly, i dont enjoy reading it. it's SO BORING! i do it out of obligation instead of passion. I read cos i'm told tat i have to and i know if i dont my tutor would pick on me for the rest of the semester. so, i guess i'll have to at least skim read it and vaguely draw out some understanding out of it. but the outcome?
it aint useful when i do it half heartedly.
it is to no good at all. i waste my time. i waste my effort.
i didnt progress.
isnt it the same in life?
Chloe shared with me yesterday on what Ps Alex said during the offering message. "It is better to give than to receive".
i love it.
Apparently our brains are more stimulated when we give than when we received. WOW. how awesome!
for some period of time, or perhaps for a lil too long, i've been consumed in my world and how i want to do things MY WAY. i've always had it my way, so, giving in and not being so stubborn can be hard, especially when you're the eldest in the family.
also, for a while, i've been thinking a lil too much of my circumstance when i know that i should lay it at the alter of Jesus. when my heartaches n when i cut myself off, or the times when i had no space to shed my tears. i've been focusing on the things tat are important but not the MOST important of all.
i wanna pick up more things from where i left them last year.
i wanna be a person who gives.
i find it very AMAZING of how God can step in right away when you ask Him to heal your broken heart. i love the way the turns the focus and sets it on the things of everlasting.
i guess i cant turn back to the past -where it's all nice and easy, laid back and relaxing. but i know i can be slightly more disciplined and attack the devil in his face by being more obedient to Holy Spirit, and in the things that He has called me to do.
i know thinking about my situations, getting attention from people can be very tempting but i know i should set and cast them aside. i love how we can have TONNES of opportunity to be nice to ppl! and i shall start implementing some.
my faith goal - bless at least one person a day!
it is so achievable. dont you reckon :D :D
thinking about it puts a smile on my face already. cant wait to do it! see. that's how i think God wants me to enjoy doing whatever i'm doing!
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
To the Ends of the Earth
For those who havent heard, for this year's clinical placement, i'm based in WANGARATTA.
in case you dont know where it is, here's a map to help you out. i need to google it last night too.
it's 3 hrs away from clayton.
it's a rural city, ie. whoop whoop land.
chloe and i were looking up on the net what's there to do and how many ppl actually live there. (28000 if you really wanna know)
my hospital has only 34 beds! T.T wat am i to do?!!
i nearly cried when i first found out where i was at and when i had to do it. during my midyear break. great! >.< so now, u'll know where i'll be spending my winter. away from home, away from home. siggh.
this morning when i woke up i didnt even wanna get out of bed with that tot stuck in my head. i tot i could sleep it off or so. but then.. i woke up worrying n just plain yuck!
but you know wat?
i talked to my Father in heaven about it. i had early morning. an hour of nothing. i spent it with him. He led me to this AWESOME spot and led me to this song.
Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all you are
And I would give the world to tell you're story
'Cause I know that you've called me
I know that you've called me
I've lost myself for good within your promise
And I won't hide it
I won't hide it
Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go, to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For you alone are the son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God
now, it kinda falls into place.
in case you dont know where it is, here's a map to help you out. i need to google it last night too.
it's 3 hrs away from clayton.
it's a rural city, ie. whoop whoop land.
chloe and i were looking up on the net what's there to do and how many ppl actually live there. (28000 if you really wanna know)
my hospital has only 34 beds! T.T wat am i to do?!!
i nearly cried when i first found out where i was at and when i had to do it. during my midyear break. great! >.< so now, u'll know where i'll be spending my winter. away from home, away from home. siggh.
this morning when i woke up i didnt even wanna get out of bed with that tot stuck in my head. i tot i could sleep it off or so. but then.. i woke up worrying n just plain yuck!
but you know wat?
i talked to my Father in heaven about it. i had early morning. an hour of nothing. i spent it with him. He led me to this AWESOME spot and led me to this song.
Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all you are
And I would give the world to tell you're story
'Cause I know that you've called me
I know that you've called me
I've lost myself for good within your promise
And I won't hide it
I won't hide it
Jesus, I believe in You
And I would go, to the ends of the earth
To the ends of the earth
For you alone are the son of God
And all the world will see
That You are God
You are God
now, it kinda falls into place.
Monday, March 09, 2009
:'/
Sometimes the right things arent always the easiest things to do. but i'm trying.
I'm going to continue trusting
I'm going to continue praising
I'm gonna continue living
I'm gonna continue loving.
I'm going to continue trusting
I'm going to continue praising
I'm gonna continue living
I'm gonna continue loving.
Friday, March 06, 2009
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
thank you for picking me
One, two, three
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
So softly
Rain against the windows
And the strong coffee
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house
You got me
Searched the sand
And climbed the tree
And brought me back down
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
hun, it's me who should thank you for picking me. i miss you. watching that video makes me cry again.
Counting out the signs we see
The tall buildings
Fading in the distance
Only dots on a map
Four, five, six
The two of us a perfect fit
You're all mine, all mine
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
So softly
Rain against the windows
And the strong coffee
Warming up my fingers
In this fisherman's house
You got me
Searched the sand
And climbed the tree
And brought me back down
And all I can say
Is you blow me away
Like an apple on a tree
Hiding out behind the leaves
I was difficult to reach
But you picked me
Like a shell upon a beach
Just another pretty piece
I was difficult to see
But you picked me
Yeah you picked me
hun, it's me who should thank you for picking me. i miss you. watching that video makes me cry again.
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Write You A Song <3
I don't know how to make lots of money
I got debts that I'm trying to pay
I can't buy you nice things, like big diamond rings
But that don't mean much anyway
I can't give you the house you've been dreaming
If I could I would build it alone
I'd be out there all day, just hammering away
Make us a place of our own
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you
I don't know that I'd make a good soldier
I don't believe in being violent and cruel
I don't know how to fight, but I'll draw blood tonight
If somebody tries hurting you
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you
Now that it's out on the table (it's out on the table)
Both of us knew all along (knew all along)
I've got your loving and you've got my song
I don't know how to make lots of money
I don't know all the right things to do
I can't say where we'll go, but the one thing I know
Is how to be a good man to you
Until I die that's what I'll do
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without
I will write you a song (I will write you a song)
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong (love is still strong)
I will write you a song
And you know from this song that I just can't go on without you
This is the sweetest song that came across my itunes today :D i'm feeling so loved, despite the mess i've been surrounded by, stuff flying everywhere. REALLY DESPERATELY need a maid. hahahaha.
Dad's coming over this week. i'm not sure how i'm feeling :S but i think i'll be fine :)
till then, keep writing people songs! :)
1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
I got debts that I'm trying to pay
I can't buy you nice things, like big diamond rings
But that don't mean much anyway
I can't give you the house you've been dreaming
If I could I would build it alone
I'd be out there all day, just hammering away
Make us a place of our own
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you
I don't know that I'd make a good soldier
I don't believe in being violent and cruel
I don't know how to fight, but I'll draw blood tonight
If somebody tries hurting you
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without you
Now that it's out on the table (it's out on the table)
Both of us knew all along (knew all along)
I've got your loving and you've got my song
I don't know how to make lots of money
I don't know all the right things to do
I can't say where we'll go, but the one thing I know
Is how to be a good man to you
Until I die that's what I'll do
I will write you a song
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong
I will write you a song
And you'll know from this song that I just can't go on without
I will write you a song (I will write you a song)
That's how you'll know that my love is still strong (love is still strong)
I will write you a song
And you know from this song that I just can't go on without you
This is the sweetest song that came across my itunes today :D i'm feeling so loved, despite the mess i've been surrounded by, stuff flying everywhere. REALLY DESPERATELY need a maid. hahahaha.
Dad's coming over this week. i'm not sure how i'm feeling :S but i think i'll be fine :)
till then, keep writing people songs! :)
1 Corinthians 13:13
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Monday, February 23, 2009
when you've gone
after all the laughters and awesome times that you brought me through.
i'm left alone in my room.
i cant help but to feel the aches in my heart.
tears wouldnt come out. i hope it's not because i'm getting used to it.
it still hurts.
i'll miss you.
promise me you'll still tell me stories.
promise me you'll be better than you are now.
i'm drowning myself in emo music
when you're gone, pieces of my heart are missing you.
faces i known are missing too.
Lord, help me to stay strong.
i'm left alone in my room.
i cant help but to feel the aches in my heart.
tears wouldnt come out. i hope it's not because i'm getting used to it.
it still hurts.
i'll miss you.
promise me you'll still tell me stories.
promise me you'll be better than you are now.
i'm drowning myself in emo music
when you're gone, pieces of my heart are missing you.
faces i known are missing too.
Lord, help me to stay strong.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
phonecalls
dear mr stranger friend,
please tell me who you are. i know that we're friends but i cant hardly stand the suspense anymore. please reveal yourself!
please tell me who you are. i know that we're friends but i cant hardly stand the suspense anymore. please reveal yourself!
Monday, February 16, 2009
i'm back from bali and headed straight to pd and melaka.
i love bali with what's it gotta offer. and i love my roadtrip with people dearest to my heart.
<3
i had the best valentines week ever :)
.........................................................................
anyway, i woke up today, feeling a lil emo and just had my reflective cap on. i was thinking about how when valentines is around the corner, there's always a sense of "love is in the air" mode and on the contrary, the increase sense of insecurity amongst ppl. the question of - how u spending your day, or you taking anyone out is always round the ear. i always wonder why.
but i guess, this valentines, i've grabbed hold of a few things. the need to express your appreciation and your love towards the ppl around you. perhaps it's PDS - pre departure syndrome. i duno, with friends heading to various parts of the world and a couple of farewells and "I'LL MISS YOU"... i couldnt help but to remind myself that in a week's time i'll be in that position too. i tot i've had enough experience of saying goodbye and i'll-see-you-again-before-you-even-know-it. i tot i was a pro. but i guess i'm just a human being with emotions. (and i'm glad i am! hehe)
i was doing my devotions today. it's talking about sowing and reaping. "whoever who sows grudgingly and sparingly shall receive grudgingly and sparingly. whoever who sows generously will reap generously". today only i realised that it doesnt only apply to financial situations, but also in terms of love. Joyce meyers encourages us to GO THE EXTRA MILE.
simple things like holding the door for someone, sending text messages that puts a grin on their faces, cook up a meal, tell someone you love them goes real far down the road. God gives us amazing ideas on how to bless others. just ask. i've actually asked before and guess now, i've just gotta put them into actions :) ( i guess the problem with me is that i'm too lazy to actually do the things i intended! uggghh)
so , do something that will brighten another person's day. you'll see how much u enjoy doing it too!
do something that blesses the Father too!
i will.
i love bali with what's it gotta offer. and i love my roadtrip with people dearest to my heart.
<3
i had the best valentines week ever :)
.........................................................................
anyway, i woke up today, feeling a lil emo and just had my reflective cap on. i was thinking about how when valentines is around the corner, there's always a sense of "love is in the air" mode and on the contrary, the increase sense of insecurity amongst ppl. the question of - how u spending your day, or you taking anyone out is always round the ear. i always wonder why.
but i guess, this valentines, i've grabbed hold of a few things. the need to express your appreciation and your love towards the ppl around you. perhaps it's PDS - pre departure syndrome. i duno, with friends heading to various parts of the world and a couple of farewells and "I'LL MISS YOU"... i couldnt help but to remind myself that in a week's time i'll be in that position too. i tot i've had enough experience of saying goodbye and i'll-see-you-again-before-you-even-know-it. i tot i was a pro. but i guess i'm just a human being with emotions. (and i'm glad i am! hehe)
i was doing my devotions today. it's talking about sowing and reaping. "whoever who sows grudgingly and sparingly shall receive grudgingly and sparingly. whoever who sows generously will reap generously". today only i realised that it doesnt only apply to financial situations, but also in terms of love. Joyce meyers encourages us to GO THE EXTRA MILE.
simple things like holding the door for someone, sending text messages that puts a grin on their faces, cook up a meal, tell someone you love them goes real far down the road. God gives us amazing ideas on how to bless others. just ask. i've actually asked before and guess now, i've just gotta put them into actions :) ( i guess the problem with me is that i'm too lazy to actually do the things i intended! uggghh)
so , do something that will brighten another person's day. you'll see how much u enjoy doing it too!
do something that blesses the Father too!
i will.
Sunday, February 01, 2009
thank God for friends like youS!!!!
thank God for sending me such awesome friends :)
i couldnt ask for more.
(due to the previous laptop with another 10000 photos had been stolen, there are lots of ppl tat i'm trying to include but didnt have the photo of.. it'll come in time. i appreciate u too!)
i couldnt ask for more.
(due to the previous laptop with another 10000 photos had been stolen, there are lots of ppl tat i'm trying to include but didnt have the photo of.. it'll come in time. i appreciate u too!)
Thursday, January 01, 2009
HELLO 2009
Guess what i did at the very last day of 2008 and the very first day of 2009?
i watched the last few episodes of Moonlight Resonance. MaNN!! i now understand how truly addictive hk drama series can be!but well well.. FINALLY. i'm over the phase now. NO MORE DRAMA SERIES FOR THIS HOLS! i've done my quota for this season :P
Anyway.. this morning, as i woke up recapping how the year has gone past.. i realised,
in this year, so many had happened. good and bad, high and low.
In this year,
I roller bladed for the first time, he was there to hold my hands, so was she :)
I walked someone down the aisle, cos he has already told me that it would happen on that very appointed day.
I had a very awesome group of friends, we were (are) like family and thank God, cos He's always in the middle.
I'd lost my wallet in a foreign land, he was there to cheer me up.
My house was broken into, he gathered the people around me telling me that it would be ok.
this year, i'd missed out on thousand opportunities to make a difference
i've been loved more than i had loved.
i've tried and failed. but at the same time, i've also tried and seen the victory.
i've done some silly lil fun things too.. i went for picnic in malaysia for the first time.
i went somewhere real far for food
i dressed up a fair amount due to a fair few occasions - urbs, birthdays, balls. all of great memories.
i made some short clips and videos for the first time.
i've learnt to trust and believe. but i'm still learning to trust more and dare to believe for more.
i've had the priviledge of seeing kids touching God.
i've seen His goodness and faithfulness.
i'd had an accident that was not so much of a misfortune but a blessing, that truly opened up my eyes to bigger things.
i've shed tonnes of tears, missing people near and far.
i've seen doors being shut right in front of my face.
i converted a hk drama series anti to a fan ;p (it'll be so awesome if i can do that MORE FOR JESUS!)
but this year.. i'm also continously learning to let go.
letting go of the things that God told me to, that arent so good for me.
letting go of the things that werent meant to be.
letting go of sorrow and unforgiveness. I'm still learning.
letting go of hurts and disappointment.
Someone in bible college told me today, "there's often greater rewards if you waited." yes. this marks the start of my waiting season. but it's ok. greater rewards towards the end. HOORAY!
God told me to get ready for this year. I know bigger challenges are gonna come my way. but I know even better that I'm not alone in this journey. NEVER alone! cos.. this coming year.. i know there's greater victories!! :D
i tried to think of new year's resolution. it's prolly just the same o ones. cos they're too hard to ever get marked off the list.
so .. this year i'm simplifying my resolution to a short one, instead of a massive list.
1. to stay closer to Jesus.
2. to love people.
3. KAM FEI SENG GONG!
hhaahhaa. the final one is just for a laugh! :P kam fei so hard.. i'm so not discipline.. tat would take some while. but first 2 are harder to do.. but it should be ok :D
<3
i watched the last few episodes of Moonlight Resonance. MaNN!! i now understand how truly addictive hk drama series can be!but well well.. FINALLY. i'm over the phase now. NO MORE DRAMA SERIES FOR THIS HOLS! i've done my quota for this season :P
Anyway.. this morning, as i woke up recapping how the year has gone past.. i realised,
in this year, so many had happened. good and bad, high and low.
In this year,
I roller bladed for the first time, he was there to hold my hands, so was she :)
I walked someone down the aisle, cos he has already told me that it would happen on that very appointed day.
I had a very awesome group of friends, we were (are) like family and thank God, cos He's always in the middle.
I'd lost my wallet in a foreign land, he was there to cheer me up.
My house was broken into, he gathered the people around me telling me that it would be ok.
this year, i'd missed out on thousand opportunities to make a difference
i've been loved more than i had loved.
i've tried and failed. but at the same time, i've also tried and seen the victory.
i've done some silly lil fun things too.. i went for picnic in malaysia for the first time.
i went somewhere real far for food
i dressed up a fair amount due to a fair few occasions - urbs, birthdays, balls. all of great memories.
i made some short clips and videos for the first time.
i've learnt to trust and believe. but i'm still learning to trust more and dare to believe for more.
i've had the priviledge of seeing kids touching God.
i've seen His goodness and faithfulness.
i'd had an accident that was not so much of a misfortune but a blessing, that truly opened up my eyes to bigger things.
i've shed tonnes of tears, missing people near and far.
i've seen doors being shut right in front of my face.
i converted a hk drama series anti to a fan ;p (it'll be so awesome if i can do that MORE FOR JESUS!)
but this year.. i'm also continously learning to let go.
letting go of the things that God told me to, that arent so good for me.
letting go of the things that werent meant to be.
letting go of sorrow and unforgiveness. I'm still learning.
letting go of hurts and disappointment.
Someone in bible college told me today, "there's often greater rewards if you waited." yes. this marks the start of my waiting season. but it's ok. greater rewards towards the end. HOORAY!
God told me to get ready for this year. I know bigger challenges are gonna come my way. but I know even better that I'm not alone in this journey. NEVER alone! cos.. this coming year.. i know there's greater victories!! :D
i tried to think of new year's resolution. it's prolly just the same o ones. cos they're too hard to ever get marked off the list.
so .. this year i'm simplifying my resolution to a short one, instead of a massive list.
1. to stay closer to Jesus.
2. to love people.
3. KAM FEI SENG GONG!
hhaahhaa. the final one is just for a laugh! :P kam fei so hard.. i'm so not discipline.. tat would take some while. but first 2 are harder to do.. but it should be ok :D
<3
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