Friday, December 31, 2010

I need more

When I thought that i've had enough, there's always more.
When I thought that I can do it on my own, i was wrong.

I need more.
There's just this void, this yearning, this desire within me that I cant shake off.
I've tried running away,
i've tried shaking it off.

I. SIMPLY. CAN'T.
I just need more. so much more.

So God, fill me, Lord.
Fill me Lord,
I need more.
I need more of You.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

I HAVE MOVED, AGAIN!!

yes. i have moved house again. for the 4th time in 4 years! but all went well :) thank God. and Joanne reminded me of the amazing favour that i've been experiencing throughout this summer!

when i needed a car to go to placements down in Geelong, Dan made arrangements and i had my transport organised.

when i needed a place in the GW school zone to live in, aunty jane called up and told me that they are vacating to a new place.

when i needed furnitures for my new place, both DVD and jon offered theirs.

when i needed company, you came.

when i was too chicken to step out and pray for healing, Jesus moved and touched the Joanne! she was partially healed from her blocked nose. now i'm stepping in and believing for total healing!

when i needed a lot of hands to move house, lots of muscles came, and chenny even brought me a trolley!

just when i thought i couldnt be grateful enough for the little things, Ps Paul preached on THANK YOU! what more appropriate for this season.
God, thank You! I cant wait to celebrate Your birthday!

Friday, December 17, 2010

i'm still alive!

Hi. I am still around. havent been writing for a while and i do apologise for that. internet was capped and just been busy with what has been happening.

i cant believe christmas is only a week away. the memories of last christmas still lives vividly in my head. it would mark one year of my grandma's death. i guess i would always a bit confused when it comes to that day, whether to mourn and to celebrate. of course it's a festive season and i sure do love christmas! but i guess i cant help but to miss her.

and recently, i realised that i dont let things go easily. i hoard (considering how many boxes of stuff i have now) and i hold on to things of the past that probably aint doing me any good. i dont really know why either. i wish i could be brutal and just throw things out of the window just like that. you know, like you go through a scanner, beep yes-stay, beep no- throw. i guess it just doesnt work that way for me. the sentimental side rides over me. or perhaps i hold on tightly hoping that perhaps things would go back to the good ol' times. i dont know. i should perhaps stop saying i dont know and start figuring things out too hey? oh yes. i am moving house again! :S

but anyway, on a brighter note, i've just come back from geelong after going on 6 days of 10/12 hrs rural paramedic placements and waking up at 5.15am. mmmm. i am still not very sure if i wanna be a paramedic, considering that there's minimal patient contact and blatantly, it's a scoop and go job. i dont know if i wanna do that. but nonetheless, it was great experience though. geelong is not bad of a town to live in! (i'm prolly like the 1 asian you see behind the ambo) but ppl are sure lovely and the beach and scenery is beautiful. after a long day of work, you can stand back and take a deep breath. all is good.

God has been truly watching over me throughout. i've been experiencing such favour!
- blankets out of nowhere in a freezing cold night at geelong
- pardoned for not having concession card
- found and returned $100

i cant believe i have to go on placements next on christmas eve, day and boxing day! but it will be good. spread some love and good hope! xx