This song has been playing in my head for the entire day and i finally bought it off itunes.
i'm still learning the art of love :)
my first christmas in melbourne. in short. i have learnt heaps and i am learning to understand the hope and joy and unwavering love that we have in Jesus.
On Christmas morning, i recieved a phone call from home telling me about hte bad news that my grandma had passed away. With sookers on the phone, i actually didnt know how to react. we just prayed together. but slowly, it sunk in and i couldnt hold onto my tears, they came out of the corner of my eyes everytime i had a moment to myself. i tried pulling it together but i couldnt. I needed Jesus. i needed someone to hold me.
I really thank God for the Tays, for taking me in not only on Christmas eve, giving me pressie, but just being a family for me that i never had in melbourne. It's so awesome to have adults - real mummy and daddy figure in the house to just love you and give you hugs whenever you need. and the timing was just perfect, like how i was with them and not alone. how the news break out after the church service and not during.
This period of staying alone at Evelyn has taught me way more than i could ever imagined or think of. God has been seriously good to me by sending different company and counsels to me whenever i needed. Honestly, i dont think i'm ever alone. and yet, i discover, above all, the best time spent is spending with Jesus and just asking Him to hold me.
you know, crying can be very tiring. coming from first hand experience. but when you thought that there's no hope, God's light shines and come in.
Zheng and Khao taught me that some burdens are not mine to carry. somethings happened for the better of our growth.
I was reminded of the spirit of Christmas, that Jesus came as human to connect with us. to bring hope and salvation through love.
Death may have temporarily separate me and my grandma. but i cherish all the memories that we had togheter. obviously there are questions, and questions that no one could answer. all the why's and what happened. but i know ultimately, like ROMANS 8:28 all things work for the good!
Quick one. Since it's nearl 2 and I have to be up by 6.
Updates- I'm now staying home alone. All my housies has left. Our house is now for sale. We're moving out everywhere and praise God, he has provided a place I'm only surviving on ipione Internet. Pls pray that I don't go over the cap there's been lots of graduation this week so is work
watched my first Christmas carol play that are hosted by citylife
a lot of first times. But Jesus is doing them with me
You are holy great and mighty The moon and the stars declare who You are I'm so unworthy, but still You love me Forever my heart will sing of how great You are
Blogging from my iPhone again. Am currently on th bus.
Ever since nov 2nd, after my exams had all ended, I felt like I've been evermore so busy wih the things of life. Too busy that I haven't had time to mysel to chill , to slow down and to do nothing. Yes, I do live all the catchups and all the hang outs but sometimes, it's great to have some alone time, some serious slack and do nothing with God time! Just chill u know!
But at the same time, God's still teaching me about relationships. Interpersonal and intrapersonal.
I love hanging around ppl whom I called family. I thank God for friends who stick wih me through thick n thin and friends who I can explore both extremities of doing crazy stuff and nothing with.
As the year comes to an end, I sense a greater new beginning for a whole lot of things, in the natural and the supernatural. Love is blossoming amongst the people around me. Weddings, engagements and gettin together Lots of packing and moving in my hse Work, placements, running around in between. So many new rxcting things are happening and yet at the same time, so many things are changing
I know I am definitely not the same person as I was before, at the beginning of the year. But I don't look back in regret, I look back with a heart of gratitude and a heart of praise, thank God for what He has done. As a whole lot of new things come my way and after the near death experience, I think I'm ready to encounter he new change of wind. (as much as I wanna be prepared, I have a feeling, God is soo gonna sweep me off my feet! )
dancing on the summer 69 these days are the best days of my life
Today, Ps Rusell talked about loving God and His Presence.
I was so completely blown away by so many things that has happened and how God ochestrated so many moments of my life! it's unbelievable but it's real. like how i had a headache, left lib early to meet this girl on the bus that i can now connect with. how what i initially thought was a job turned out to be an opportunity for me to reach out and share about Jesus how Jesus told me to not step into that particular relationship because the guy's heart aint right above all, how He knocked at the door of my heart, set up all these God-incidents so that i could turn the door knob open to welcome Him in.
i love it. i love how He plans everything for me, how he ordains my steps.
I don't know what's wrong with me but today just ain't working well. I can't focus. God, please help me. My exams are two days away n I feel like I'm so not ready. I don't wanna panic but at the rate that I'm going and the thugs that are happening around me, I just wanna curl up in my lil corner and cry out to you.
I know you are able. I know you are bigger. Help me to push through.
I wanna run this race strong! I hate how the enemy throws things at me at this crucial time but in the same time, I'm learning to embrace them cos it's a sign of my victory is near. I'm learning to strengthen myself in God even more through this because I know ultimately, it's just about me and him. I am learning to encourage myself when there's no one around me. Ps Bill said that's the greatest thing that u can learn.
God. Help me. Dim away everything else and let me look to u alone. My exams, my family, my friends and my heart. I give them to u. Take me away into the secret place.
