just came back from hanging out with AMG and Ji muis.
this song is currently stuck in my head. i jumped on youtube and found this pretty cute video.
2 is better than 1. sounds familiar? (With wedding bells ringing everything, i think it would be everywhere! ehehe )
I cant believed how time has flown! technically, i am left with 3 full weeks and off i go back to melbourne. I really dont know how to feel. God has been sooo good to me. Today, i've learnt that
Despite God's Presence being omnipresent, we still need to cultivate it!
If only we all realised that there's so much power and authority and joy in His Presence. I knew there was a reason for such sense of longing and strong desire of going to church. Even though it was only 1 thing, it was worth it! (but obviously there were more than 1 revelations)
anyway, as i was showering, i realised there are some people that I love and some that loved me more than I could in return. And like Jo's Mum said, a lot of times, we have put ourselves higher than we ought to and we have forgotten how to love others. It's a lil slow but i realised that some people, I could just sit, eat and talk with for a lifetime.
the future i see? growing old with people like these! :D
been back in malaysia for 2 weeks now. havent been up to much but i'm treasuring my holiday. somehow this time it's different. less of hanging out with friends, more alone time, more family time. God spoke to me to make my holiday count. i dont know how but i want to make it count. and the trip down to malacca had taught me that if i am willing to allow God to interceed, He will make that happen! and i am soooo excited!
anway, for the past 2 weeks, I had a haircut,
met up with the yi wei family and was ben's driver for his last day. i love hanging out with that boy! he is so special to me!
had the most amazing weekend with my ai mei gang. these people are so close to my heart and has taught me so much about God. They stir me on further for the things of God.
this holiday has truly been different but i'm loving it!
havent been up to much. but surely i've ate HEAPS!
going off to bangkok in 2 hours! i'm so excited! havent had proper family trip in years!
my cap just re-rolled over. i get to go on the net again! woohoo :) makes life lots easier!
so, 2010 so far...
if i get the timetable preferences as i willed it, my schedule would be like this!
it's been an awesome start to the year. wayyy more eventful than ever. and i've also begun to look more into the deeper issue. the inside of me.
Allan, Dant, Lik and i went to the beach the other day. Allan spoke of something which was so simple, yet so profound.
Enjoy the very moment, whatever comes come and you'll know what to do when it comes.
so true hey? most of the time, we (well, i've) spent wondering what would happen and getting too consumed in the things of the future, or more like my fantasy land. Too consumed, that's right. too consumed to the extent that i've become too innocently and naively oblivious to things. Too many things.
I'm so thankful for sisterly figure like Li who nags me past midnight (and she reckons that i secretly like being nag) haha. She sees the things that I dont see. or, too blur to notice.
so, this year.. God has whispered a few things to me that is somewhat my resolution.
LOVE. seriously, i am learning how to love. prior to thursday, i was thinking about unconditional love. giving my all love. loving those who are hard to love. be there to comfort the hurting and stand with those who are easily shaken. but hey, there's more to love than i thought. i need to learn how to love wisely. say no or sorry, not interested when i know that's the right thing to do to not hurt them. i need to learn how to not be nice out of love. when to move on, and not feel guilty about the things of the past.
this summer has been such an interesting one. my heart aches for those whom i love. it aches for mum when grandma passed away. it aches for a friend when he settles for second best in life. it aches for another when the girlfriend was uncertained about their future. it misses those who are far away..
dont get me wrong. i'm not all emo. God has been tremendously good to me. cos' the other whisper i heard was such an awesome comfort.
"There it is. there it is."
Such gentle whisper of the Holy Spirit. Everything that i need, it is found in Him. All the joy, smiles, healing and comfort, flows from Him. So friends, thank you for the awesome company and all the great and lil things in life. i know there it is. in bike rides and pastas, in sitting round the dining table and moving chairs, in hot bbq and under cool AC, in christmas and new years, in photos and movies. in lazing on the couch to playing bball. there it is. so near. so close.
I've been so disconnected from the world and now doing my blog catch ups after work.
Hello 2010. I am sooo excited and can't wait for to see more of God. So many stories to tell. Of only I can bring my lappie and spend the whole day here.
Short update - everything is good. I've moved and now I'm just busy moving in and unpacking. Still looking for another female housemate if anyone knows of someone needin a room. New years was great. Different from the ones of my past but it was good.
Deep inside, I miss still miss home and with Christmas and new years away, it felt as tho smtg is missing. It's not like I don't have a great time, don't get me wrong. I had a fantastic time.
It's just ... Different.
Maybe this was how the little birdie feel like when it first flapped it's wings and flew out of home.
This song has been playing in my head for the entire day and i finally bought it off itunes.
i'm still learning the art of love :)
my first christmas in melbourne. in short. i have learnt heaps and i am learning to understand the hope and joy and unwavering love that we have in Jesus.
On Christmas morning, i recieved a phone call from home telling me about hte bad news that my grandma had passed away. With sookers on the phone, i actually didnt know how to react. we just prayed together. but slowly, it sunk in and i couldnt hold onto my tears, they came out of the corner of my eyes everytime i had a moment to myself. i tried pulling it together but i couldnt. I needed Jesus. i needed someone to hold me.
I really thank God for the Tays, for taking me in not only on Christmas eve, giving me pressie, but just being a family for me that i never had in melbourne. It's so awesome to have adults - real mummy and daddy figure in the house to just love you and give you hugs whenever you need. and the timing was just perfect, like how i was with them and not alone. how the news break out after the church service and not during.
This period of staying alone at Evelyn has taught me way more than i could ever imagined or think of. God has been seriously good to me by sending different company and counsels to me whenever i needed. Honestly, i dont think i'm ever alone. and yet, i discover, above all, the best time spent is spending with Jesus and just asking Him to hold me.
you know, crying can be very tiring. coming from first hand experience. but when you thought that there's no hope, God's light shines and come in.
Zheng and Khao taught me that some burdens are not mine to carry. somethings happened for the better of our growth.
I was reminded of the spirit of Christmas, that Jesus came as human to connect with us. to bring hope and salvation through love.
Death may have temporarily separate me and my grandma. but i cherish all the memories that we had togheter. obviously there are questions, and questions that no one could answer. all the why's and what happened. but i know ultimately, like ROMANS 8:28 all things work for the good!
Quick one. Since it's nearl 2 and I have to be up by 6.
Updates- I'm now staying home alone. All my housies has left. Our house is now for sale. We're moving out everywhere and praise God, he has provided a place I'm only surviving on ipione Internet. Pls pray that I don't go over the cap there's been lots of graduation this week so is work
watched my first Christmas carol play that are hosted by citylife
a lot of first times. But Jesus is doing them with me
You are holy great and mighty The moon and the stars declare who You are I'm so unworthy, but still You love me Forever my heart will sing of how great You are
