2007 POST #1 FROM MELBOURNE

well .. being back wasnt as easy as i tot it would be.. but thank God tat i'm safe and sound and landed in a piece with a nice lady sitting next to me :)

flight was ok. watched couple of movies and yea .. hardly slept as usual. the movie by the rock.. cant really remember wat's the name was actually REALLY good. i was holding on to my tears while watching it. well ..actually. .when i had my eyes closed... i was literally trying SO SO HARD to hold on to my tears .. all i see was pictures of the priceless moments .. though there was a tinge of regret in me .. tat perhaps i could add more colours to my short 2 months holz .. personally .. it was good :) and everything i see and do in the plane simply reminds me of someone or something.

have u ever had the feeling that no matter how hard you try to divert your thoughts.. things just kept appearing and reminding you of somethings in the past.. yeap .. tat was my flight. oh yea ..did i mention that i was carrying 2 hand luggages of 20kgs simply makes things worse??? hahaha .. but thank God that when i went past the immigration with teary eyes and the officer at the gate was nice enuff trying to cheer me up .. and just let me go pass with my you-could-so-tell-that-these-luggages-had-the-"i-am-overweight"-sign-on-them bags ...but in all ... yea .. it was very unexpected .. with all the unforesee-able overwhelms :P but yea .. 7 hours went past alrite :)

then there was ENROLMENT
full on .. landed.showered.and next stop .. monash clayton.enrolment.how quick was tat!! i wasnt even awake but do i seem like i have a choice?.. dragged my body to figure my way out in the campus that i had only been once. wasnt a pleasing experience of getting lost and trying to find your way. but luckily the people were fairly nice to me.. dint really mind showing me around .. so thank God for that. being late for enrolment perhaps wasnt a wise idea either when you realised after all the hastle that you could actually do them online!! >.<

after approx 3 hrs of finding my way. enrolling with a tiredsome body and heavy eyes. made my monash yucky looking id. and underwent some pressure of going to camps which according to my 6th sense is gonna get ppl drunk and stuff..i declined politely.. or perhaps that day i was just not in the mood to get myself into all the hoo-haa events.headed off from clayton and started to journey home. where my body dreadfully desired to be after wat?20hrs of staying awake? to me.. it's a killer.

well .. first time ever that i felt so ... ermmm ... duno how to describe ..
i felt REAL bad in monash.was all alone and yea .. just felt as though i couldnt fit in .. i duno y.. perhaps the fact that it's a total new environment and all things have to start afresh just couldnt stop ringing bells in my head bother me greatly. the reality that everyone was at the moment so out of reach put me in a situation as though i'm in a foreign land. those moments, i realised how important my besties in melbourne are to me. and also at those moments, i realised that being at home was truly a blessing, knowing that everyone is just there for me... no one was back in clayton.. n i was stranded there. sigh. how great can tat be.

somehow, there's just this lil voice in my head that said, "God will be with you no matter where you go."

initially, the fact tat i'm all alone was activating my tears-gland.. if there is such a gland :P but this small voice reminds me of even more stuff.. of wat the pastors had told me and i have to venture out simply makes me wanna cry even more!!! i was just so touched and yet somehow.. homesick. and during then .. i was at the train already and there was a guy sitting opposite me. for a speed lightning short while .. i felt as though i'm some girl in those MTV holding on to their tears in the carriage of a moving train .hahahaha .. but i know the reason i shed my tears are differnt from them.

i felt lonely but i know in actual fact i am not really
i am scared yet .. He somehow gives me a sense of peace
i felt empty but i know He will fill me in.


perhaps those were tears of sorrow and tears of joy.

in all, i'm in awe :)

by the way.. why it seemed as though i cry alot eh?? *question marks appear on my hear*

please pray for me to be able to find a house and settle in asap.
and also .. pray that i'll be able to cope with the new change and the new environment. pray for new and old friendship.

of course.. i miss everyone still .. but thank God that there are people who never fail to brighten my day and simply sets the downward curve into a sunny smile on my face. you know who you guys are. if u're thinking .. is it me she's talking about? .. yes .. it's u .. and i just wanna say thank you :) and yea ..thanks for all the prayers:) :) i love u all very berry much :)

*big huggies*

btw. went to megan and grace's combined 18th party. update nextime when i get the pics.

happy 19th to wei :D

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SOWING SEEDS OF PEACE

Plant goodness,harvest the fruit of loyalty, plow the new ground of knowledge. -Hosea 10:12-

Want to see a miracle? Plant a word of love heartdeep in a person's life. Nurture it with a smile and a prayer, and watch what happens.

An employee gets a complement. A wife receives a bouquet of flowers. A cake is baked adn carried next door. A widow is hugged. A gas statio attendant is honoured. A preacher is praised.

Sowing seeds of peace is like sowing beans. You dont know why it works; you just know it does. Seeds are planted, and topsoils of hurt are shoved away.

Dont forget the principle. Never underestimate the power of a seed.

SONGS THAT CURRENTLY GOT STUCK IN MY HEAD

i lovey dovey these songs :) they are just so sweet and .. simply just melt my heart!!!

oh ya .. by the way .. i'm back from bangkok !!! will post about it later :P with pics :P and yea .. i'm still trying to add more photos to the previous blog .. so .. yea. .keep checking .. or nvm actually ..cos ..yea .. it's for myself anywayz.

this year is gonna kick into a start soon .. when i go back to melbourne >.< it's gonna be so different.. but i'm kinda looking forward to it though .. knowing that there's gonna be loads of special people joining us there :) and yea .. monash .. :) it's gonna be good. i'm believing God for more WOW miracles and the fact that He sent me to monash is purposeful :)

anwyayz .. shall not blabber on ..

still vividly remember this convo with chengyuan.
Me : good things are meant to be shared
CY : but beauty is in the eyes of the beholder

so .. yea ..


Artist: Secondhand Serenade
Album: Awake
Year: 2006
Title: Your Call

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and pollished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)





I'LL BE
Edwin McCain

The strands in your eyes that color them wonderful
Stop me and steal my breath
Emeralds from mountains thrust toward the sky
Never revealing their depth
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated
I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache that hang from above

Chorus:
I'll be your crying shoulder
I'll be your love suicide
and I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of your life

Rain falls angry on the tin roof
As we lie awake in my bed
You're my survival, you're my living proof
My love is alive not dead
Tell me that we belong together
Dress it up with the trappings of love
I'll be captivated I'll hang from your lips
Instead of the gallows of heartache, that hang from above

Repeat Chorus

I've been dropped out, burned up, fought my way back from the dead
Tuned in, turned on, Remembered the things that you said

Repeat Chorus


honestly.. i know i've been really ignorant and selfish. i should have spent more time with the people i love. thinking more from their shoes and not of my own. and also for those who are abroad or far away.. as in those i've havent met up .. u're not forgotten k?? i always have u guys in my mind.. and i miss u so much .. if there's anything i can do, i just want you to know that i'll be.. your crying shoulders... always there for u whenever u need :) and i'm still learning .. so.. perhaps .. one day .. i'll be better when i'm older .. and watever it is .. i'll never want to let go of any memories i've shared with u. i love u all !!!!!

REFLECTION REMINISCENE AND RESOLUTION :)

yup :) today i've been such a good girl ..staying in the whole day .. and did my very first online dominos pizza order (*applause) and basically reflecting upon the past year .. reminiscing the good old times and coming up with a good 2007 new year resolution :P i know it's like a week late .. or so.. but oh well :P better late than none rite?

i've taken out my diary and looked back and the photos.. WOW .. a year has gone by SO QUICKLY .. as though it's just a blink of the eye the calender flips

hmmm in the year 2006 .. i

been a captain



organised some events that got ppl stressed and then seen the smiles on many others



seeh the many different characters of people



sorta been in and out of a relationship

enjoyed Commonwealth Games to the fullest



seen the miracles of God through His people with willing heart

been to a formal of my own



and another not of mine



slow danced at a park crazily and at a proper prom

recieved flowers



starting to go out for mamaks and yumcha at nite

had tummyaches after eating mamaks

been to literally all the hotels' toilet that are located next to malls

got real stressed because of VCE

been to my very first tuition in melbourne because of spesh

survived and pulled through VCE by God's grace

shopped a lot

kept my hair to the longest length ever!

ate a lot



cooked a couple of times



baked once


i just got the recipe. .that's not wat i baked tho.. hehe

gained some weight

gained new friends



felt as though some had drifted away from me

start to explore more bout friendship

witness the love and support i have when my eyeballs were all swollen

felt real bad for making people pick me up as though they were my chauffeurs

sat in a car of a person i just met like 5 sec ago

went under the rain to realise i recognised the wrong car

passed my Ls in melbourne

drove illegally

been through emotional ups and downs (though they are seemingly little business now that i look back :P )


err.. does this photo narrates it?

been through misunderstandings

expanded my social circle

spent more family time



teared even before the day of separation has come

undergo the pain of bidding goodbyes



attended loads of birthday parties which involves EATING :)



cried my lungs out over a lost bag *damn dumb i know*

broke my heart for my loved ones

had ESL class outings and parties



and



went to beaches at melbourne



and got REAL bad burns

swam only ONCE throughout the whole entire year >.<

put on manly oversized clothes for the first time



thrown gross shit and rotten milk at the younger girls

graduated from high school





ABOVE ALL .. i accepted Christ into my life and everthing's changed

though i wasnt too sure what was i getting myself into .. but i start going to church

invited people to church

been to 2 church camps



our car members


girls from camp



i learnt to agree lovingly

not to be quick to judge

maybe seen visions and dreamt of things that i dun understand

felt His touch and been under His arms

question alot

know what's it like to have a direction, a purpose and a rock

celebrated my first Christmas from a different perspective

learning to see His grace and mercy




and in this upcoming year of 2007 ..



i want to

know God better draw closer to Him :)

serve Him in one of the ministry or church

want to be a YOUNG lady of faith and compassion

love people more and be more understanding



spend more time with people

and i dun wanna loose contact with any single person but on the contrary be closer than ever!

learn to look at time and be punctual :P but since everyone always assume i'll be late..this will not be my priority then :P

do more random things like heading to Putrajaya for a day trip and crashing proms or parties :P

learn how to play music or sing or dance perhaps



start and KEEP a DIARY .. not a "week-ry" or so forth

more family time



be more passionate and more fired up

uni .. hmm .. be able to settle in the new environment and cope well with the change

not fall asleep in class

pass my Ps and drive

i wanna be more influencial, more expandable

learn to think BIG and think out of a box

i wanna be more simplistic

more appreciative

more thankful

more lovable

i wanna give more and my very best in everything

and i wanna see the what the beaautiful world holds for me :)



for there's always rainbow behind the cloudy sky





i know it's a darn long list for both .. but i believe that this year .. i'll be witnessing more miracles :) venturing out into more excitements :)
yes. i may seemed to be more busy. but i want u to know that i'll still be the same, the one who will still love u always :) *hugs* and no matter how faraway we are .. true friends and darling family will ALWAYS remain close at my heart.