i'm still alive!

Hi. I am still around. havent been writing for a while and i do apologise for that. internet was capped and just been busy with what has been happening.

i cant believe christmas is only a week away. the memories of last christmas still lives vividly in my head. it would mark one year of my grandma's death. i guess i would always a bit confused when it comes to that day, whether to mourn and to celebrate. of course it's a festive season and i sure do love christmas! but i guess i cant help but to miss her.

and recently, i realised that i dont let things go easily. i hoard (considering how many boxes of stuff i have now) and i hold on to things of the past that probably aint doing me any good. i dont really know why either. i wish i could be brutal and just throw things out of the window just like that. you know, like you go through a scanner, beep yes-stay, beep no- throw. i guess it just doesnt work that way for me. the sentimental side rides over me. or perhaps i hold on tightly hoping that perhaps things would go back to the good ol' times. i dont know. i should perhaps stop saying i dont know and start figuring things out too hey? oh yes. i am moving house again! :S

but anyway, on a brighter note, i've just come back from geelong after going on 6 days of 10/12 hrs rural paramedic placements and waking up at 5.15am. mmmm. i am still not very sure if i wanna be a paramedic, considering that there's minimal patient contact and blatantly, it's a scoop and go job. i dont know if i wanna do that. but nonetheless, it was great experience though. geelong is not bad of a town to live in! (i'm prolly like the 1 asian you see behind the ambo) but ppl are sure lovely and the beach and scenery is beautiful. after a long day of work, you can stand back and take a deep breath. all is good.

God has been truly watching over me throughout. i've been experiencing such favour!

- blankets out of nowhere in a freezing cold night at geelong

- pardoned for not having concession card

- found and returned $100

i cant believe i have to go on placements next on christmas eve, day and boxing day! but it will be good. spread some love and good hope! xx