sometimes, it's so easy for us to be deluded and to stray into the enemy's trap of being concealed in our own world - MY feelings, MY desire, MY wants. and A LOT of times, we can do what others expect of us, we can put on this face of "I'm completely ok. I've got it all together. I'm jolly and happy". we can engineer ourselves to doing what we know is the right thing to do but not do it out of our hearts.
for example, i've now got my tute work, reading, in front of me. i know wat's expected of me. to complete my reading. i know wat i needed to do. but honestly, i dont enjoy reading it. it's SO BORING! i do it out of obligation instead of passion. I read cos i'm told tat i have to and i know if i dont my tutor would pick on me for the rest of the semester. so, i guess i'll have to at least skim read it and vaguely draw out some understanding out of it. but the outcome?
it aint useful when i do it half heartedly.
it is to no good at all. i waste my time. i waste my effort.
i didnt progress.
isnt it the same in life?
Chloe shared with me yesterday on what Ps Alex said during the offering message. "It is better to give than to receive".
i love it.
Apparently our brains are more stimulated when we give than when we received. WOW. how awesome!
for some period of time, or perhaps for a lil too long, i've been consumed in my world and how i want to do things MY WAY. i've always had it my way, so, giving in and not being so stubborn can be hard, especially when you're the eldest in the family.
also, for a while, i've been thinking a lil too much of my circumstance when i know that i should lay it at the alter of Jesus. when my heartaches n when i cut myself off, or the times when i had no space to shed my tears. i've been focusing on the things tat are important but not the MOST important of all.
i wanna pick up more things from where i left them last year.
i wanna be a person who gives.
i find it very AMAZING of how God can step in right away when you ask Him to heal your broken heart. i love the way the turns the focus and sets it on the things of everlasting.
i guess i cant turn back to the past -where it's all nice and easy, laid back and relaxing. but i know i can be slightly more disciplined and attack the devil in his face by being more obedient to Holy Spirit, and in the things that He has called me to do.
i know thinking about my situations, getting attention from people can be very tempting but i know i should set and cast them aside. i love how we can have TONNES of opportunity to be nice to ppl! and i shall start implementing some.
my faith goal - bless at least one person a day!
it is so achievable. dont you reckon :D :D
thinking about it puts a smile on my face already. cant wait to do it! see. that's how i think God wants me to enjoy doing whatever i'm doing!
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