I need more

When I thought that i've had enough, there's always more.
When I thought that I can do it on my own, i was wrong.

I need more.
There's just this void, this yearning, this desire within me that I cant shake off.
I've tried running away,
i've tried shaking it off.

I. SIMPLY. CAN'T.
I just need more. so much more.

So God, fill me, Lord.
Fill me Lord,
I need more.
I need more of You.

I HAVE MOVED, AGAIN!!

yes. i have moved house again. for the 4th time in 4 years! but all went well :) thank God. and Joanne reminded me of the amazing favour that i've been experiencing throughout this summer!

when i needed a car to go to placements down in Geelong, Dan made arrangements and i had my transport organised.

when i needed a place in the GW school zone to live in, aunty jane called up and told me that they are vacating to a new place.

when i needed furnitures for my new place, both DVD and jon offered theirs.

when i needed company, you came.

when i was too chicken to step out and pray for healing, Jesus moved and touched the Joanne! she was partially healed from her blocked nose. now i'm stepping in and believing for total healing!

when i needed a lot of hands to move house, lots of muscles came, and chenny even brought me a trolley!

just when i thought i couldnt be grateful enough for the little things, Ps Paul preached on THANK YOU! what more appropriate for this season.
God, thank You! I cant wait to celebrate Your birthday!

i'm still alive!

Hi. I am still around. havent been writing for a while and i do apologise for that. internet was capped and just been busy with what has been happening.

i cant believe christmas is only a week away. the memories of last christmas still lives vividly in my head. it would mark one year of my grandma's death. i guess i would always a bit confused when it comes to that day, whether to mourn and to celebrate. of course it's a festive season and i sure do love christmas! but i guess i cant help but to miss her.

and recently, i realised that i dont let things go easily. i hoard (considering how many boxes of stuff i have now) and i hold on to things of the past that probably aint doing me any good. i dont really know why either. i wish i could be brutal and just throw things out of the window just like that. you know, like you go through a scanner, beep yes-stay, beep no- throw. i guess it just doesnt work that way for me. the sentimental side rides over me. or perhaps i hold on tightly hoping that perhaps things would go back to the good ol' times. i dont know. i should perhaps stop saying i dont know and start figuring things out too hey? oh yes. i am moving house again! :S

but anyway, on a brighter note, i've just come back from geelong after going on 6 days of 10/12 hrs rural paramedic placements and waking up at 5.15am. mmmm. i am still not very sure if i wanna be a paramedic, considering that there's minimal patient contact and blatantly, it's a scoop and go job. i dont know if i wanna do that. but nonetheless, it was great experience though. geelong is not bad of a town to live in! (i'm prolly like the 1 asian you see behind the ambo) but ppl are sure lovely and the beach and scenery is beautiful. after a long day of work, you can stand back and take a deep breath. all is good.

God has been truly watching over me throughout. i've been experiencing such favour!

- blankets out of nowhere in a freezing cold night at geelong

- pardoned for not having concession card

- found and returned $100

i cant believe i have to go on placements next on christmas eve, day and boxing day! but it will be good. spread some love and good hope! xx

Change is good?

At discipleship today, they made the announcement to the church leaders about the transition that Planetkids would be going through. I do admit that i suck at dealing with transitions. BIG TIME. or maybe not transitions, but just perhaps farewells and changes? I dont know. but it is indeed exciting times.

I had this clear picture of Geoff, the oldest leader in the team, standing behind Paul and Esther, saying that age doesnt dictate your spiritual maturity. They have what it takes. And i believe so too! I know they will be great!
I love the fact that we are family and family stick by each other through whatever!

WE ARE ORANGE!

"Friendships and relationships are such blessings from God"

Who? Joanne (Li Yin) and I.
Where? Dvd's car
What? Driving down Williams Rd to return keys to Steven

Street light. Worship music. Eyes fixed on the road as I was driving. Yet, such profound statement could not leave my head.

Indeed, they are blessings from God.

Trying and learning

It is through falling that we learn to pick ourselves up again.

Dear Jesus,
Thank you for today. Even if I fall, I know you are still so good and so worthy of my praise. In darkness, in trials, my soul shall sing. Indeed, Father, facing failures isn't always the easiest. Perhaps God, you are teaching me to really depend on you and totally rely on your strength alone, not be proud and overconfident; for it is only through you that all things have their beings. Lord, i am trying and i am learning to come back to my feet again?! Hold me in your arms tonight as i sleep.
Wake me up and face the world with me.
Lord, thank youfor giving me more than i can imagine! God, you are amazing!

Your princess,
Munyee

legit reason to procratinate

yes. I should be studying. My next paper is on Monday but I am soooo tired from today's prac exam! PRAISE GOD that I passed and I even gathered the courage to pray with my partner! :) YAY! :) (thank you God for making it happen!)

Anyway, I have been playing these few songs during my study sesh.

Fireworks - Katy Perry

Count on Me - Bruno Mars

Arithmetics - Brooke Fraser

Seasons of Love - Rent

First Love - Paradise

GLEE!

(sorry for the lousy tech skills, otherwise if i know how to, i would let you click to it, so for now, if you're interested, just go youtube it yourself ;p )

I've also discovered some pretty amazing artists in my mega unfamiliar itunes playlist like, Corrine May, Jacks Mannequin and to my surprise, i have a bollywood song in it!

ok Munyee, get back to studying missy!

YOU make me smile!

Life. is. so. beautiful.

I was doing dishes the other day. Jon, Ash and Sooks were sitting at the dining table, watching some youtube of possibly some Chinese artist and digging into the tub of strawberry icecream that never seems to reach the end.

I stepped back, took myself out of the picture.

And I realised.. if only the moment could freeze for a tad bit longer, before we bury our heads behind books again... ahhh.

It was like the tub of icecream. We can literally freeze the moments, because before we know it, it will start to melt. So, eat it while it's still cold!! Hence, in that few seconds, I thanked God for amazing people He surrounds me with.

On the combine service weekend, we went out to this super yummy, death by grease, awesome, uber bright pink American diners . Well, we took a massive detour whilst deciding but hey, I'm not complaining. Joyriding, indeed! Fully loving the new car - Dave and Li. YAY! now you can come pick me up and send me home! woot!! But, anyway, I am sooo excited that it is actually only less than one month away before Dave bids the tv in his room goodbye and welcomes his beautiful wife. I am so excited!!!! I am sooo excited (and it's not even my wedding! hahha)

That day, as I sat opposite them, and as I gaze across, this warm sense of fuzziness that is sweeter than the milkshakes that we ordered came upon me. I dont know why or how to describe it either. Perhaps its just the simple things in life, in sharing meals, going on car rides and gazing across the table. Or maybe it's just the discovery that they sell Gobbler

s (is that how you spell it? the peanutbutter and jelly in a tub jam spread thingy) or just the fact that you know- friendship doesnt change despite the chugging along of life.

I love this couple to bits! 29 days to go!! WOOT~

I've got sooo much more to write and so many more little things that make me smile to share. God has been so good to me!

Sunshine.

Car rides.

Sweet surprises in the mail.

Skype and immediate email responses to make sure that I'm coping ok.

Lunch breaks and outside day (and me ended up being a grass head!).

Early mornings and good nights.

YOU MAKE ME SMILE :)

Eph 2

For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith

For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.

But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.

And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by his Spirit

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Was reading eph 2 this morning and was just so amazed by the fact that

WE HAVE ...
and WE ARE ...

It is so easy in this materialistically driven world to say what we do not have or what we are lack of but in reality, we do have more than what is sufficient.
It is so easy to see who we are not, and wanting to be who we are not called to be. You strive and all the things just wont come your way but instead, negativity, anger, frustration, worry comes tumbling over. If we do realise that WE ARE a child of the most high God, His amazing workmanship, and the fact that we are not worthless.. Imagine the change of atmosphere!

My favourite verse for today is this. May we learn to walk in it.

"For through him we both have access to the Father by one Spirit" - Eph 2:18 -

MUN YEE SHALL BE DISCIPLINED!

YES! with approx 2 weeks, i am doing my papers, i should perhaps be more discipline and really hit the home run with this yes?

I am already counting down to nov 5th!
and that's when my family arrives too!!!! :) :) I told mum yesterday that I'd like her to meet my friends.

Mum : yeaaa, of course of course

Me: then you can meet all these people that I've been trying to tell you about.

Mum: and your B-O-Y (she so cute, she literally spelt it out)

Me: WHAT? B-O-Y? :S

Mum: We will have a proper talk when I get over.

Me thinking to myself: Should I be worried?

Mothers are soooo good at knowing how their daughters are going. Even when you dont talk to them for ages, they just have this amazing mother intuition hey?

So, if you'd like to meet my family, come line up now and book in your timeslot for interview!! (i'm only kidding!)

but yes! less 20 days till i finish my accademic year!




(ok. i lied. i've got placements at summer!! POOHBUM!!)

I cried because ..

Last night, I cried and it kinda felt good after that. It has been a while where I cried myself to sleep but it's a good point of release of what is inside. Dont worry, I am totally fine now. It just needs to come out.

Well, last night, I cried because..

David, our Brit urbie, will be returning to London in 10 days. It hurts saying goodbye and I totally suck at farewell. I think i could possibly be the only person that balled my eyes out yday during urbs. Such a softy. But that's also because our lives had crossed and seeing him around has been a routine. I guess, I'm not ready for the missing british accent, or the little chuckle around the corner when I thought no one saw the silly thing i embarrassed myself with.
but above all, what he said during his speech was what moved me the most and being the second reason I cried last night.

He said I told him that he was in Melbourne for a reason. (honestly, when he pointed at me, I totally could not remember what had i said to him at camp!) I was like shucks, it better be something of God and something good. And, phew! true enough, it was ok. But it hit me,

God can and wants to use me.

For the reasons that I have entertained and thought that I was not moving in the Spirit, they are all LIES! This week in itself, I have been sooo stirred by Beat, Ngan and a few others to just really know that I can run the race well. God is still Sovereign and ultimately, it is really not about me. A lot of times, when I pray for people, things just come to me and I speak it out, not sure if it actually made sense, but last night, God reminded me that they do! and it was Him speaking, of course it made sense. OHHH! I just want so much more of that.

I wanna walk in the supernatural. I wanna see the outpouring of heaven. I wanna see Jesus.

Lisa Bevere, tweeted this yeseterday. So profound. Ponder upon that!
" Disturb us Lord when we are too well pleased w/ourselves, when our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little. Francis Drake"

And, well, the one more reason that I cried last night, was just the fact that I am so blessed with amazing people around me. I am surrounded by people who love me and people who look out for me. They stand in the gap for me and they believe in me. They call me PRINCESS, like how God would call me, remind me the position I have in Christ, follow me on twitter and read my blogs just to find out how am I doing. Longs for Sunday just so that they could see me. They tell me the things that are harsh and straight to my face just so that I dont get hurt in the future. Share my and their joys and misadventures... And so much more! This in itself overwhelmed me and throw me off my game I dont even know how to respond to it but to say thank you and thank You! Little things do go a LOONNNNGGG way in Munyee's cupcake world.

Ngan shared a message of a cracker yesterday.
Expect.
Be hungry.
Passion.

it feels like God is just stirring so much more in me.
it feels like
I am filled to be emptied again
The seed I recieved I will sow.

Hide - Joy Williams

You dont have to hide.
You dont have to hide anymore.
You dont have to face this alone.

Come out and join the rest of us,
you've been alone for too long.

Amazing Grace

saw this on Dant's blog. AMAZING!

i love how technology works. makes home so much closer to the heart :)

totally looking forward to the day when we start singing worship at home together as a family. i know it is near!

Friends like you, are for FOREVER!

i just had the best time talking to my best friends on skype. it felt soooo good to be talking like there's no tomorrow with the three of them!

we cant help but talk about the future and the exciting things that God has planned for us. And the beauty of it is, we never fail to include each other, like it is without a doubt that our friendship will never change. i love it!

Even when the world crumbles down on me or when i'm faced with bees, i know God has sent me you, to always have shoulders to cry on, to hug me and to tell me that things will be ok again. Thank goodness for whats app, skype and all the goodness that technologies has offered, you are not so far away.

Counting down to the day we finally see each other! xx

the heart has a memory!

Did you know that the heart has a memory? It amazes me!! Especially after having a whole unit dedicated to cardio clinical practice!

Hence the bible says this

Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23

I just said goodbye, again, to my best friend @jimmylaw (dont you just get used to putting an @ in front of the names now that we're so consumed in the twitter and fb world?! hahaha). This time it is slightly different, cos i know that I wont have him around to listen and put up with my rubbish, or for me to listen to him update and be concerned bout his girl or just the random do nothing moments. hahaha.
Somehow, this time, it felt like, we are REALLY saying goodbye. and see you again feels so far away. I'm not emo or anything. but it just hit me, i think.

hmmm.....

anyway, as I was saying, the heart has a memory! amazing! It remembers to beat (in nerdy term, it's called automaticity). It has a memory bank on its own and if well preserved, under the right environment, without the brain, it will still beat. God created it so special, because, it is precious to Him (and now I've got so much to study about it cos of it's complexity :S hahaha)

So, it is kinda true when people said that there's a place for you in my heart. Cos there really is. Come into the world of Mun Yee's imagination.
In your heart, there's like a billion cells, and they each have memory right? So, for a place for you in my heart would mean, that one cell would have your name on it!! aiks! i dont think I'm doing it justice. so wish i have my lappie with me now, would just draw and put a photo up for u. haha. oh well. just imagine it.

Yes, your heart is very precious to God. I was just thinking about it this week. People open up their hearts to the ones they love and it is kinda like taking a chance. Was talking to my bestie over msn this week and I realised that you could open yourself up to a lot of hurt and uncertainty if things take another turn.
BUT I have on the other hand, witness the beauty of love in many ways that I cant pen it all down. I know, without a doubt, if you are in the perfect will of the Father, He watches over you. He loves the heart of a child, and simply having child-like faith.

I digged out all my journals the other day whilst i was looking for a book. I started reading them again and mann. i love the old me who was so simple and fresh. I love how believing doesnt take much. It's not that I have gone downhill or whatsoever, it's just how we tend to complicate things as we grow older. God was just reminding me of how I was like before and blowing me away with the things of the past where it was just visions are now coming to past. We are growing up. But it is utterly important that we dont loose our innocence.

People told me that I cant be so naive and live life like a cupcake. Call me silly, call me dumb.
Once my heart has your name on it, it's very hard for me to not open myself up to you and even if you trample on it and I get hurt, at least I gave my all and I gave my best. Kids get over hurt easily. They brush off their bruises and stand up again, right?

Yes, of course I will guard my heart, cos it's the well spring of life. I wont let you trample on it just because I am opening up, I'm not that all dumb ok! haha.
But because it's the well spring of life, I dont want it to stop flowing either.

Judges 5:31b

But may they who love you be like the sun
when it rises in its strength

Home

i've never told you this, but please pack me in your suitcase and take me home!

I dont really know why, but since last week, as I was talking on the phone to my mum, i've got this great sense of homesickness! It is weird hey? considering how settled I am in Melbourne. After all, this is my 6/7th year here!

I dont know.
I just miss home.
Or perhaps, I miss the fact and the assurance that I am sheltered from the rain. Or the comfort of knowing that I dont have to do dishes/ laundry. Or the cuddles of best friends are not just from the virtual world. Or the luxury of having cars and things literally arent so far away. Or the smell of some authentic stir fry coming from the back of the kitchen. Or the sound of my dad's car driving into the porch as he returns from work.

Or maybe it's just the workload from uni is killing me and i want some home-cooked soup.
Or maybe I just miss you.

within the past 24 hours..

• i had the sudden struck that my studies arent at the top of the ladder (which means that i have to catch up)
• realigned myself to the beauty of life when i visited Lik Hui's 4 days old niece (she's gorgeous. photos yet to come)
• was reminded that God can never fail to turn my :( to an :)
• discovered Oliver Jeffers and REALLY wanna check him out! come to the bookstore with me?
  
• know that I'm a daughter of God and am learning to walk in the dominion and authority that He has destined for me.
• played basketball with Jon and Kiwi for the first time (even tho we've been friends for forever!)
• had the most embarassing bus story ever! - where my shoe went sliding forward as the bus break! mind you! i was wearing it!!
• ultimately tremendously superrrrr long for the weekend and the desperately needed
• was sooo excited about my best friends going on a date :) :)
  
• downloaded and got hooked into 2 new iphone games! - Fruit ninja and Veggie samurai!! (they are sooo fun!)
  
• got tickled on my feet by my sis who was asleep! wonder how did that happen
• woke up wanting to SHOUT at the top of my lungs that GOD IS GOOD!
  

If only we count our blessings and walk in the light of His ways, life can be a cupcake :)

(oh oh oh! I'm gonna be baking tonight! Comment away if u want me to bring it to you!)

A whole new world!

I can see CLEARLY now LORRAINE has gone.

Sooks told us a really funny joke on Tuesday and it's still stuck in my head. You have to hear it from her. It's awesome! The fact that it's still stuck with me 2 days later proves something. but the again, it could just be me.




CITY CAMP is coming up. If you're around, do come!!

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God has just constantly been speaking to me bout reaching out to other people, since Ps Zoran spoken in church, close to a month ago? To love people, to tell them about how good our God is, and just be my passionate self. I absolutely love the analogy of NaCl, how we are called to be salt and light of the world.

NaCl crystalises because there's one + that came in touch with a -'ve.

If I am the positive, nothing is gonna happen if i keep holding onto myself. Let's go collide into someone's negative situation and see the beauty of God's power crystalising.

Easily said than done hey?! NO! i need to stop making it sound as tho it's utterly impossible. It's easy! I do it, but I dont do it with confidence. I feel like there are smtg that are holding me back, fear and insecurities. Too long I've listened to the lies of the enemy that I'm not good enough. For most of the time, it's just about stepping out and just have a cracker of a time being in the company of other people. I dont know.

i'm still scared but yet deep down inside of me, i long for an adventure.



I just watched Aladdin with my bestie, charis, when she came for a sleepover, where i still have to wake up at 6.30 am :S

Watch the first 27 of the clip.
It's as though God is reaching out his hand saying, "Do you trust me?"

Yesterday, at church, Ps. Rusell made everyone wrote about the FAVOUR of God that we have encountered this year. We didnt know what it was for but we were just pen-ing away. Towards the end of the service, he got a few other pastors to go on stage, collected the papers, and started reading out all the amazing things that people had written.

Financial provision
Car
Family restoration
Healed of terminal conditions, skin cancer, hole in heart and so much other conditions
Broken free of depression
No more suicidal thoughts
Guidance and direction of the future
Stregthening in marriages
Employment
Salvations of family
Scoring well in studies, as the person puts it "Thank God for giving me straight HDs even when i didnt study as much"

Sitting in the auditorium, apart from feeling the intense presence of God, my heart is moved, hearing those amazing testimonies and knowing that they are REAL lives encounter that people had. I am reminded of God's power. Funny isnt it that we can forget that He is God and He is able.

HAPPY MONDAY, kiddies! May we look things through the eyes of faith this week :)
happy holidays to the RMIT people! (Miss Charis Tan is still sleeping on my bed whilst i'm already here in uni!)

In the midst of everything, thank You for beautiful rainbows and Your constant reminder that I am yours and I am never alone.

"The Lord knows those who are his"
-2Tim2:19-

Stressed and fun?

This weekend has taught me so much. I have an assignment due today but i just cant hold the thought of it. I need to write it down.

Constantly with the thought of my assignment due at the back of my head, I still had fun this weekend. Not the kinda fun where u can go all out, I was semi-restricted with letting myself go loose. Just the fear and the desire to be in control. Yet, with the assignment due today, God reminded me of the simple things in life..

(i tried lookin for a more recent photo/ artistic photo that could express how i feel, but i realised i dont have any copy of the photos we took. so u would have to just make do with this for now)

and He reminded me to love, again.

Look

When you love that person, you look past how much they earn, how they dress, what they say, what they like, their football teams, their skin colour

to look into their eyes.

Today, it's about GTN!

I find myself rushing alot recently. Or it could just be me, slacking till the last minute. Just like how i told myself at 7.50am that I'm gonna quickly blog and then do my pre-reading on GTN ( a drug that vasodilates and reduces your heart's workload) before my prac at 9am. SEE! here i am, writing away! hahha. Well, I was blog hopping and i realized i hadnt read Jac Kee's in ages. THERE IS SO MUCH TO THIS GIRL THAN I THOUGHT I KNEW!

I guess that's with alot of other people hey? There really are SO SO much more to one individual than what is seemingly the surface. I just realised that I can be sooo blur and completely oblivious to so many things! my friend was sick yesterday and i didnt even realised! :( how blur can i be!

but also, I made up my mind, last night, that I'm gonna just let people know how much they matter to me. Why withold love hey? What's the harm of letting that person know that you love them and that they matter to you!

Yes, I'm an expressionist. I love hugs and I love tell you that you mean A LOT to me. Just in case, if anything does happen, at least you know and at least i know you know! I was trying to look for a cool pic to make my blog look more interesting. well, blogging from uni, you can only google pic it but i was soooo challenged as i saw this photo. (but i dont know what is the dice there for! hehehe)

HOW FAR WOULD YOU GO FOR LOVE?



"Be imitators of God, therefore, as dearly loved children, and live a life of love, just as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us as a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God.."
- Ephesians 5:1 -


Let's do it for others
GTN up and DILATE more love hey?

I will seek You in the morning
and I will learn to walk in Your ways

Step by step
You'll lead me
and I will follow You all of my days.

ECGs and more ECGs

I've got a booklet full of ECGs to interpret. but yet, somehow, i am drawn to write something.
Perhaps the fact that there has been so many interesting things that happened in my life but yet no place to vent out has kicked in. Yes, I love sharing and I love talking. God has always been my listener but not having a specific person there to listen to my ramblings, is something i have yet to get used to.



God has been doing lots of heart surgeries in me recently. I did not realise that I am so easily broken inside. I thought the minor little things wont bother me but Jesus showed me that it did, and i'm learning to let go of them. I thought they were just minor little things like specks, but it affected me more than i imagined! Of course it hurts, but I know if I dont let go earlier, it will hurt more! So, now, I've decided that I am hiding behind my Dad and He showed me that despite me walking through a bullet of rain, I wont be harmed!



Hmmm.. funny isnt it, I totally did not anticipate sharing that part of me. but perhaps, there are hurting people out there too. Jesus constantly reminded me to get my heart right and everything will be fine! Yesterday, we watched this movie by Arthur Blessit. He is a man who literally carried a 12-foot wooden cross and walked around the world, preaching and sharing the good news.
Check him out - http://blessit.com

It reassures me that God will lead you to meeting the right people (He has done that to me so frequent recently) and He has destinied you to bring forth the impact that you can make that another person's life.



"Speaking the truth in love, we will in all things grow up into him who is the Head, that is Christ"
- Ephesians 4:15 -

Let's learn to pick up our cross and speak the truth in love as we allow Jesus to work in our hearts hey?


back to work. ECGs, please dont make it so hard for me!

WHY hello there!

Yes, HIIII! i know i know, it has truly been some while. I just revamped this page. It's not the best, but change is good hey? but do comment away :)

Anyway, I've been saying this heaps, but it is TRUE - I have been busy! A kind of busy which i dont know if it's good or not. First of all, there's Uni.
My timetable isnt the best of my liking, but Praise God i have morning classes hey?

(i tried to like print screen and attach my timetable for u to see that i wasnt lying. but windows in uni doesnt seem to allow me to. ok. fine. I lied. I dont know how to use Windows)

but yes, over these past few months, I have been busy rehearsing! YES, you got me right. I was rehearsing for PlanetUNI outreach event, It's Time. I've learnt soooo much through it.

I danced,

I acted,

I performed!

Oh trust me, I always told myself that I was not meant to be a performer and never in me ever thought that I could actually do it. But when God challenges you to do it and tell you that He will work through you, you stand back and be amazed at how true and how good He is. Yea.. that jaw-dropped-stunned-unexpectedly good.

oh, if only you were there! but you can catch some awesome photos on facebook!

and, my best friend, Jimmy Law Teck Keong, has left Melbourne for good. The fact that he is no longer 20 mins away, living in the same time zone, is foreign to me. I'm still quite composed at this stage, because i know he'll be back in September for his graduation but honestly, i do miss him :(

BW around the corner! sure is exciting

tighten and loosen

Sometimes, i think i'm such an emotional being. I'm so heightened with emotions it's not funny! I was asking God today, why He created me this way, like why am i so full of it? haha. funny isnt it? but i guess, that's how we are different.

I realised that some people can just drop things and let go. but for me, i tend to hold things TOO close to my heart. It can be a good thing but not learning how to let go of something that may not seem to be detrimental, can be bad for me. Believe it or not, I still hold on real tight to a high school friend who had seemed to moved on in her life and probably never ever think of me ever. I wish i can be like SueLynn, dont care means not caring at all. but that's not me. Yes, I am quite emotional.
Guess that's why i carry so much joy too? Cos i am like that, the smiles, the laughters and all feelings, it comes from the bottom of my heart.

Joanne reminded me that we are SPIRITUAL being and not emotional being. We live by faith and not by sight! AMEN! But oh, please dont get too concerned about me. I'm ok. It's just a season that God is teaching me multiple things at the same time. I think He is teaching me how to multiple my joy and rechannel my sorrow to Him. It doesnt mean that being a Christian means cannot cry and must be happy chappy all the time. It just means that God has created me with feelings and I need to be wise with dealing with them.

I feel like i'm such a teenager! I'm on my way to discovering my identity in Christ. Oh trust me, it feels weird, but alot of things are coming out of my heart. i love people more. a bit too much at times that it hurts. and there's the whole deal about stregthening myself and protecting myself. It could sometimes be me needing other people more than them actually needing me. I dont know. its all so funny and so exciting this journal.

God showed me an image.



some areas of my life needs tightening and some areas need releasing. If the nut aint tight enough, the whole thing or machinary wont be able to stand strong and do its work. But if all the nuts are too tight, when going through any pressure, there would be no room for air or the pressure to let out, and it'll just end up not working, breaking from the inside out.

just prayed for a girl who had insomnia. poor girl but i also know that there is spiritual sense to it. God intends freedom but enemy come and steal kill and destroy. We need to put our guards up. but yet in the same time, know how to use a spanner well!!! right? and with exams coming up ... what a better time for this application!

so, it's all about the balance - discipline and taking a breather! YOU CAN DO IT!

the time of the month

it's the time of the month where EVERYTHING is emotionally magnified.

or perhaps, God is stretching me? i don't really know.
recently, there's just been too much of an overwhelming rollercoaster ride! good stuff and not so pleasant stuff can happen to me sooo quickly and before i have time to process it, it's like the bad stuff has come around to get me. but God's goodness come just in time to protect me. and the cycle repeats itself too quickly that i dont even have time to process it in my little pea brain!! it's like i havent had enough time to get over one event and the next occur.

it's as though i've had a heart of an old lad who just took 20 steps up the stairs in a minute (an achievement) but at the same time, my heart is pounding to cope. Evereything in me is trying to blurt or vomit stuff out but i know i need to compose myself and just breathe. Get the picture?

i'd like to think i'm being stretched and i somehow know that there's always something good! and end of the day, God is still worthy of all my praises!





Take my hand, take one step

What a night

I am sorry about the neglect of this blog. Seriously I've been busy and have been bloging. Just that I never finished writting what I started. Follow me on Twitter! U'll get more frequen updates. Well, I think almost daily updates of what I'm thinking / doing. So, check me out - munyeesee on Twitter! :)

Anyway, I'm currently on placements in the royal Melbourne hospital. Had thr opportunity to work in the icu department. I've seen and learnt heaps there over the last week. Praying for those ppl who are sick and laying lands on them. Most ppl won't know what I'm doing but God knows and I am believing for Him to come through and turn their situation arround. I talked to y dad n my mum yday. I told them of how much I've learnt bout life and I Intentionally declare things over them and sharing the works of Jesus to them. Just putting what ps Matt preached into practice.

But yes. That was just a brief update on what's happening. Well, what I really wanna share about is the amazing nght that I had despte me being sick. Yes. I am having a sorethroat but I am refusing to accept that. I am just in the progress of being healed in Jesus name. That is what exactly had been happening. Seriously. I was wayyy worse Friday and sat I slept for 15 hours. But yday I am wayyy better and gonna believe that today completely healed!

So, last night, I went to bed, as usual, and in the middle of the night, I started coughing and t really hurts. My throat was in sharp pain and everytime I swallow it's stabbing me. And the cough kinda worsen the sotuaion if u can imagine. There I was subconciously coughing and trying to get back to sleep. But, in that moment, I realize- Holy Spirit is interceeding for me. So is my spirit and the whole of angelic hosts!! I am serious!!! No joke! In my subconscious trying to sleep and semi awake state, I could hear all these songs and praises to Jesus, prayers and talks to God. There was an outburst of songs that some I've heard of and some I haven't. But it's all going to Jesus, praising Him, lifting His name up and calling out to Him. Then there was lots of prayers and declaration happening too! Askin God to take away my pain, to heal
me, thanking him. I duno. There was just wayyy too much happening at that time. But it was aweeesomme.

It was short and I somehow stopped coughing, (weirdly I check my phone, it was 3:53am) and I went back to sleep. Am I bring visited by Holy Spirit and his angelic troops wihtout even fully realised it? Did it just happen to me and not some author from the top selling Christian books that I've been readig ( cos I always reckon it's so cool to have that happened to u). Oh my goodness. How good is God!! Today, I truely learnt that He always ALWAYS intercedes for me. He loves me so much that he even brought his troops along help me hurdle over the bump. Howw cool! Thank You Daddy. Let me impart some to others around me today too and make u proud hey?

I realized i REALLY havent been writing. There somehow is an urge or like a sense that I'm being followed by lots of reader and some part of me is like nudging me to write up, or it could just possibly be me and my popular-kid-wanna-be-nature. but oh wells.. i'm writing and it's good, so here goes!

I've been having lots of dreams recently. Dreams that i know means something, and without a doubt clear that it is from God; dreams that are a bit ambiguous, fuzzy and just pure random
and dreams that are dark and from the enemy.

I've been given a book to read about dreams from kuo hao and it is such an AWESOME book! there's just soo much revelation and reveals so much mystery in it! i am starting to see things in a new light! but ultimately, i know and cling onto the faith that God is in control of all, and He is the Great Master that created it all, anyway. So, right now, at this stage, i am just so stirred at the fact that God speaks to each and every single one of us, in our dreams! i realised that's been happening around the ppl around me, christian or not! God speaks!! random dreams, yes, but if only we had the revelation of it all. but anyway.. keep praying and seeking hey?

Anyway, ps russell and church has also been believing on the FAVOUR of God. I believe too! i believe that each and every single one of us are called to release Favour over our circumstance and release it over other people!!
seriously, I am soo reminded of the truth that God allows something to happen and most of the time, they are for someone else!!
i've been having so many encounters and so much testimonies i've heard. some part of me, the negativity, the uncertained temperament are trying to drown me out. but hey! no. that's not true and it doesnt allign with the bible.
God is for me!
God is ptotecting me
and God loves me.
These are some truths that we can release over other ppl! just as how some ppl had done it over me. Oh. if only you can see...

on the other note: SANNEY POO IS BACK IN MELB!! oh how i miss that girl!

helloo!!

why hello there!! i know i havent blogged for a while. but here's a BIG CHEERS to internet at home!
WOAH! finallllyyy! :p

I've been up to quite a fair bit actually. and i realised that i havent really been updating. either through blog or emails. i shall do lots of catch up with that! AMG! watch out. long email coming.

i've been yes. eating lots



and trying to work as hard as i can



and in between those two, i'm fitting in with lots of sleeping and catching up with people.

just a random thought, to keep it short, so that i can get back to work - God is so patient, even though He is jealous for your love, He lets you venture out, and secretly, patiently long for your return and realize ultimately that HE is all you need.

this song is beautiful!

I am the one, THIS is the place, NOW is the time.

well said.





more updates coming, if i have the time and internet gets connected by this week. i've missed you

this goes out to a friend far far away

i thought of you emoing to this song when i heard the lyrics.
praying for you.
please know that Jesus is mighty to save and HE reaches down to your heart. it's not that hard to turn back to him. you know it!
i love you and even tho you dont tell me everything, know that i dont need to know them all. i just wanna go through this journey with you and be there for you.

a call for prayer

I know i havent really been updating. i've been busy. afterall, it's Chinese New Year and Valentines Day double celebration! :)
Somehow, the beginning part of it, i wasnt really looking forward to it. not really that negative. it's just, somehow, the excitement seemed to be less in comparison to last year's. i dont know why either.

perhaps the thought that i have less than 3 weeks remaining in malaysia scared me a little. the thought about making my holiday count quickens my heart. from today onwards, i realized that i only have 10 days remaining. honestly, i dont know what have i done that has impacted people. i'm just praying that somehow seeds are scattered. i havent really met up with alot of ppl yet and i sense the urgency of it. God, multiply my time pls?

well, apart from that, i've been really good. havent opened up my angpaus yet but i know i've gotten less in comparison to last years :( quantity but hopefully the content is wayy more! ;p for cny, i ate. visited relatives. ate. talk. ate. played with kids. ate. went to cameron with family. ate. saw lots of fireworks near my house. ate. thought about few things. ate. drove a lil. ate. slept. ate. talked to ppl i met for the first time ever. ate. yep. eating is sandwiched in between all my other activities. yeap. i've been good.

but, something struck a relative who is really close to my aunty. the news of it broke my heart and hearing the description of the situation brought tears into my eyes. this young man, 20 years of age, was involved in the car accident whilst my family were busy having fun in cameron highlands. My aunty watched him grow up and hearing that news broke her hearts and many who knew him. The accident had robbed 3/4 of his brain, 3 spinal vertebrae, pierced his lungs and he's now in critical stage, admitted in ICU. He was just the passenger who kindly offered his company whilst the driver send another friend back home. The driver had lost both his legs and is safe while this young bloke, is still in coma. Dr said that it will all depends on tonight.

His parents had been crying, in shock, fear and anxiety. if i were in their shoes, i would really not know what to do! and i heard that they've already lost one son. this is perhaps alil too much for them to handle, especially on this CNY festive season. all his friends and relatives rush in to see him, just in case its the last goodbye, and also to be there for the family. i saw the redness of my cousin's eye when the news broke out. i know that they so wanna be there. all his friends and colleagues came. all came out in tears.
i had to hold on to mine to, just hearing the story. i dont even know him personally.
so,

please pray for him. his name is hong. tonight is the critical stage. declare hope and healing into this young man's life.

rambles

just came back from hanging out with AMG and Ji muis.

this song is currently stuck in my head. i jumped on youtube and found this pretty cute video.

2 is better than 1. sounds familiar? (With wedding bells ringing everything, i think it would be everywhere! ehehe )

I cant believed how time has flown! technically, i am left with 3 full weeks and off i go back to melbourne. I really dont know how to feel. God has been sooo good to me. Today, i've learnt that

Despite God's Presence being omnipresent, we still need to cultivate it!

If only we all realised that there's so much power and authority and joy in His Presence. I knew there was a reason for such sense of longing and strong desire of going to church. Even though it was only 1 thing, it was worth it! (but obviously there were more than 1 revelations)

anyway, as i was showering, i realised there are some people that I love and some that loved me more than I could in return. And like Jo's Mum said, a lot of times, we have put ourselves higher than we ought to and we have forgotten how to love others. It's a lil slow but i realised that some people, I could just sit, eat and talk with for a lifetime.

the future i see? growing old with people like these! :D

oh. i forgot to put this thought down.

"good things come to those who waits"

and..

should i change to tumblr?

hello MALAYSIA!

been back in malaysia for 2 weeks now. havent been up to much but i'm treasuring my holiday. somehow this time it's different. less of hanging out with friends, more alone time, more family time. God spoke to me to make my holiday count. i dont know how but i want to make it count. and the trip down to malacca had taught me that if i am willing to allow God to interceed, He will make that happen! and i am soooo excited!

anway, for the past 2 weeks, I had a haircut,

met up with the yi wei family and was ben's driver for his last day. i love hanging out with that boy! he is so special to me!

had the most amazing weekend with my ai mei gang. these people are so close to my heart and has taught me so much about God. They stir me on further for the things of God.

this holiday has truly been different but i'm loving it!

havent been up to much. but surely i've ate HEAPS!











going off to bangkok in 2 hours! i'm so excited! havent had proper family trip in years!

2010 so far

my cap just re-rolled over. i get to go on the net again! woohoo :) makes life lots easier!

so, 2010 so far...

if i get the timetable preferences as i willed it, my schedule would be like this!



it's been an awesome start to the year. wayyy more eventful than ever. and i've also begun to look more into the deeper issue.
the inside of me.

Allan, Dant, Lik and i went to the beach the other day. Allan spoke of something which was so simple, yet so profound.

Enjoy the very moment, whatever comes come and you'll know what to do when it comes.

so true hey? most of the time, we (well, i've) spent wondering what would happen and getting too consumed in the things of the future, or more like my fantasy land. Too consumed, that's right. too consumed to the extent that i've become too innocently and naively oblivious to things. Too many things.

I'm so thankful for sisterly figure like Li who nags me past midnight (and she reckons that i secretly like being nag) haha.
She sees the things that I dont see. or, too blur to notice.

so, this year.. God has whispered a few things to me that is somewhat my resolution.

LOVE.
seriously, i am learning how to love.
prior to thursday, i was thinking about unconditional love. giving my all love. loving those who are hard to love. be there to comfort the hurting and stand with those who are easily shaken. but hey, there's more to love than i thought.
i need to learn how to love wisely. say no or sorry, not interested when i know that's the right thing to do to not hurt them.
i need to learn how to not be nice out of love. when to move on, and not feel guilty about the things of the past.

this summer has been such an interesting one. my heart aches for those whom i love. it aches for mum when grandma passed away. it aches for a friend when he settles for second best in life. it aches for another when the girlfriend was uncertained about their future. it misses those who are far away..

dont get me wrong. i'm not all emo. God has been tremendously good to me.
cos' the other whisper i heard was such an awesome comfort.

"There it is. there it is."

Such gentle whisper of the Holy Spirit. Everything that i need, it is found in Him. All the joy, smiles, healing and comfort, flows from Him. So friends, thank you for the awesome company and all the great and lil things in life. i know there it is.
in bike rides and pastas, in sitting round the dining table and moving chairs, in hot bbq and under cool AC, in christmas and new years, in photos and movies. in lazing on the couch to playing bball.
there it is.
so near. so close.

Maccas free wifi is the best!!

I've been so disconnected from the world and now doing my blog catch ups after work.

Hello 2010. I am sooo excited and can't wait for
to see more of God. So many stories to tell. Of only I can bring my lappie and spend the whole day here.

Short update - everything is good. I've moved and now I'm just busy moving in and unpacking. Still looking for another female housemate if anyone knows of someone needin a room.
New years was great. Different from the ones of my past but it was good.

Deep inside, I miss still miss home and with Christmas and new years away, it felt as tho smtg is missing.
It's not like I don't have a great time, don't get me wrong. I had a fantastic time.


It's just ... Different.

Maybe this was how the little birdie feel like when it first flapped it's wings and flew out of home.