so, 2010 so far...
if i get the timetable preferences as i willed it, my schedule would be like this!
it's been an awesome start to the year. wayyy more eventful than ever. and i've also begun to look more into the deeper issue.
the inside of me.
Allan, Dant, Lik and i went to the beach the other day. Allan spoke of something which was so simple, yet so profound.
Enjoy the very moment, whatever comes come and you'll know what to do when it comes.
so true hey? most of the time, we (well, i've) spent wondering what would happen and getting too consumed in the things of the future, or more like my fantasy land. Too consumed, that's right. too consumed to the extent that i've become too innocently and naively oblivious to things. Too many things.
I'm so thankful for sisterly figure like Li who nags me past midnight (and she reckons that i secretly like being nag) haha.
She sees the things that I dont see. or, too blur to notice.
so, this year.. God has whispered a few things to me that is somewhat my resolution.
LOVE.
seriously, i am learning how to love.
prior to thursday, i was thinking about unconditional love. giving my all love. loving those who are hard to love. be there to comfort the hurting and stand with those who are easily shaken. but hey, there's more to love than i thought.
i need to learn how to love wisely. say no or sorry, not interested when i know that's the right thing to do to not hurt them.
i need to learn how to not be nice out of love. when to move on, and not feel guilty about the things of the past.
this summer has been such an interesting one. my heart aches for those whom i love. it aches for mum when grandma passed away. it aches for a friend when he settles for second best in life. it aches for another when the girlfriend was uncertained about their future. it misses those who are far away..
dont get me wrong. i'm not all emo. God has been tremendously good to me.
cos' the other whisper i heard was such an awesome comfort.
"There it is. there it is."
Such gentle whisper of the Holy Spirit. Everything that i need, it is found in Him. All the joy, smiles, healing and comfort, flows from Him. So friends, thank you for the awesome company and all the great and lil things in life. i know there it is.
in bike rides and pastas, in sitting round the dining table and moving chairs, in hot bbq and under cool AC, in christmas and new years, in photos and movies. in lazing on the couch to playing bball.
there it is.
so near. so close.
1 comment:
Well written words.
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