i've got so much to say

MATTHEW!!! i wanna go out with u!!! havent really caught up with ya since planetshakers conference!!
KIMCHEW!! i know u did real well for ya exams! congrats~! i'll be waiting for my dinner :P
JON!! i need ur number! :P

aikz .. seemed so despo

but i allow me to just say a few thank yous
firstly to BABY for having dinner and sending and accompanying me for the play :D
JO .. u know u're always so awesome and great and i cant thank God enough for u!
JON.. ur encouragement is so .. encouraging and i truly appreciate them!
CX!!!!!!!!! thanks for being my chauffer on wed and forever being so nice and patient with me :) thanks for coming to the play!!
KDD~!!! thanks for going to the play wiht cx despite ur tummy upset!! and not to forget for sending me home :)

i'm actually very blessed :) i figure i need to take some time out and just count my blessings and thank God :)




sigh*

yes.
i'm a lousy friend
i'm a lousy daughter.
i'm trying to improve at my punctuality
i'm trying to be a better person but i cant do it by my own's strength
it's seems as if no one's appreciating my effort >.<
or perhaps to them .. it doesnt EVEN seemed that i've put in any
i know who i am and i know i'm called to live up for more. i know i'm a testimony.
i know people are expecting more of me
that's why i cant give up
and that's why i'm so pressured!!!
i guess perhaps i'm off no good to u
perhaps you think i drink obsessively
or maybe i'm loud or maybe i'm quiet and shy
or u reckon i'm so-called-holy
i'm sorry
i'm really sorry.
if u can see the tears i shed for u. if u know how much i think of u and pray for u.
forgive me.
i should be more understanding and more compassionate. more of this and more of that.

i've spent a day and a night on my bed. with tears. but that's enough.i shall do that no more.
cos God spoke to me today.
through the lil message the pastor spoke. and through the play. through my book and of course, His words, the bible.
There's nothing that i can do to make Him love me more.
My strength is so limiting. . but His is undefined. and he is just so GOOD to me. though i'm unfaithful. though i suck. though i've sinned. though i've screwed things up. he is always faithful always forgiving and always loving.

Lord, thank you for everything. help me to be a better person. to be more pleasing to my family and friends. Lord Jesus, thank you for the love and compassion that u have on your people that u made us your sons and daughters. Fahter, forgive me. i want to live for you and more. God, strengthen me please. you know my dismay and you know how badly i'm hurt. thank you for the peace you've promised. Lord Jesus, i pray and i ask that u touch the hearts of many. Father, i'm desperate. so desperate to see your miracle. too long have i waited but i will keep waiting for it is your timing that is perfect and i dont wanna rush it. God, thank you for the support you sent.bless them O Father. Send your angels around them. Father, also pray for those who are sick. for joanne,leanne,chuxiang,yeeming,chinfei and chunwei. heal them with your touch. Lord, think about those overseas and those who just came back. Lord, pray that you'll keep them safe and bless them with joy as they are away from home. Jesus, i wanna pray for my PLC friends. Lord, even though we're miles apart, please send them friends that could lighten up their days and draw them closer to u. God, pray for my family. i believe that my householda and i will serve the Lord. Father, take away all the brokeness insecurity and arguments. Lord, i pray for your blessings be upon the relationship, may it be friendship and boy girl relationships. Lord,in particularly, i'm praying for my jimuis and their boys. Lord, i wanna pray for those who cared so much about me as well. Father, i thank you so much for sendin me friends during my lowest period. Jesus, bless jon, pat,boss teckkeong,mak,baby,jo,cx,kdd,chinfei,ernest,cheez,jon,weijin,ee,wei and all the planetshakers. God, take away sadness,sickeness and negativity but instead, sow in them an unlimited amount of joy,peace,faithfulness,self-control,patience,goodness and kindness. Lord, i pray that your glory will come through and reign. i know i have only one audience,that's you. God, touch them and knock on the doors of their hearts. God, i surrender all of my life upon your feet. take control. in Jesus mighty name. Amen.

HOLZ UPDATE :)

apart from crashing people's prom ..
hanging out with frens..
sweating my butt off at this weather..
failed attempts of evening out my tanns..
screaming my lungs out of excitement for some unknown reason ...
going to toilet in lightning speed after eating mamaks..
trying out churches...
meeting more friends ..
drive *yes i drove illegally shhhh * and being driven ..
baking cookies..
staying in at home ..
spend time with God ..
day dream...
sleep..
enjoying the luxury and comfort of having a maid ..
savouring the scrumptious malaysian meal that even lee couldnt stop licking her fingers (nah! kidding kidding )


mmmm ... holz been pretty .. GOOD

and
ooohhhh .. guess what?? by God's grace i did unexpectedly well for my exams!
ooohhhh ... i met Grace Wong at midvalley while shopping today
ooohhhh .... planetshakers conference was a fantabulous blast!
ooohhh .... i dint know looking so ONE specific thing in a mall can be SO freaking hard!!!
ooohhhh .. i'm tired >.<

sigh * i pray that God will heal those who are sick and tired. strengthen those who are weary and accompany those who are lonely.
i want all of us to be healed in the name of Jesus!

:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY mother MAK!!!

hope u love our "performance" yesterday,... of me sacrificing my beauty sleep and just practising outside sorta feeding the mozzies at ernest's porch. though all i did was "rumm rumm rumm" :P it was loads of effort k? .. i knew u were damn touched~! i could see the tears at the corner of ur eyes! dun lie mummy!! :P hjeheheheh .. dont worry my dear.. u're always so gorgeous.. so pretty ... and will definitely be my MAKSTER/MAKSAI/elisa/liz/MAK MAK :D

i lovey dovey you!!

AN EXCERPT FROM "GRACE FOR THE MOMENTS"

by Max Lucado

JUST PRAY

"Anyone who is having troubles should pray. Anyone who is happy should sing praises." -James5:13-

Do you want to know how to deepen your prayer life? Pray. Dont prepare to pray. Just pray. Dont read about prayer. Just pray. Dont attend a lecture on prayer or engage in discussion about prayer. Just pray.

Posture, tone and place are personal matters. Select the form that works for you. But dont think about it too much. Dont be so concerned about wrapping the gift that you never give it. Better to pray awkwardly than not at all.

And if you feel you should only pray when inspired, that's okay. Just see to it that you are inspired everyday.



this spoke to me so very much! especially when today is my results day.
great job to all VCE-ers. you've done your best and that's wat matters yea?? i havent checked mine yet. maybe later. teehee :P

free hug

i've decided to check this out after watching oprah today and i was so SO touched!!! it left my eyes wet.

sometimes we underestimate what a hug can do!

all the way to this man and i wanna do something like this too :)

it's all the same :)
we all need a hug. we all need to be loved and to love.

start touching the hearts of many through the little-est thing that you can do :)

MEMORIES :)

well .. perhaps .. this maybe one of the last few posts that i may be putting up in this boarding house .. in this school ..

i've just printed out all the posts that i've blogged throughout my time in PLC .. well .. wat can i say .. i started blogging in this community .. ought to get some memories in hard copies rite.. just in case anything happen! *touch wood*

anywayz .. these few nites has been the hardest time for me EVER in my boarding house life. the saying bye bit.. sigh .. i wonder when can i be strong and face farewells better. i ALwaYs end up in tears >.< really need God's strength to help me pull through cituation like these mann .. seriously.. now that my stretch of corridoor has no one except me .. imagine how sad it is to walk down the dark, gloomy exceptionally quiet corridoor to go to bed after u've tried numbing yourself with series after series of either OC, House or even Simpsons!! T.T
i've been sleeping with tears lately though i tried so hard to fight it. i miss my, my mother elisa, mummy joyce, funny bunny hippie, sista selah, slow eater maggie, happy-go-lucky fai zai, smarty pants sandy and all those who has gone through this unbearable pain!
*gee ..thanks guys.. say u love me somemore! chiu! *

right now .. .there's only joyce, jesh, yin yin, pau and tammi comes back on and off, sooney, bobo left in the bhse..

bidding mandy and steph goodbye tonite!!

AHHHH!!! i cant take it no more. i better stop before i start crying in the com room

BYE. i'll miss u and only love knows how much it is to let you off my arms.

BIRTHDAY WISHES :)

big big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to the november babies

2/11 si keat
3/11 jiayee sopoh :P
11/11 jesh
14/11 joyce mummy
16/11 yaya pee
17/11 niki pigi
27/11 pat
28/11 magz and cx
29/11 jian jun

hope i dint leave anyone out *gulp*

anywayz .. after exams was literally hectic!! i have less sleep than during school days!! >.< i want my beauty sleep back! i can literally see the panda eyes on me!! >.< AHH .. but thank God i've been pampered with good food. especially recently .. no .. in actual fact! yesterday!! aunty fun and uncle tham is in town!! :) and it was joyce mummy's cooking birthday party where we each had to cook a dish. i cooked soup noodles which i got the recipe from mum in the dawn at like 1am. haha .. yea .. well .. i manage to amaze myself at my cooking skills that no one was fighting for the toilet after eating my food but instead, i managed to fish some compliments.. woot* hahaha :P yea.. then right after our stomach being bloated by

nard's green curry
lydie's bak kut teh
steph's fried rice
kimo's bandung, jelly and kangkung
and not to forget diana's bailey cheesecake

i had to rush off to chinatown and meet my cousins uncle and aunty for dinner!! WOW~!! u can truly imagine how bloated i was.. but above all .. i'm a happy child :) hehee :P

all the best to those who are still having exams
language peeps and IB girls
form 5s and the SAMs :)

i miss LC fai and nard zai! !! they left the boarding hse already and heebs and selah are going so soon T.T

NO!!!!

:(

i'm so sad now >.< i finally understood the feeling of the woman in the lost coin parable cos I LOST MY NINE WEST BAG THAT I JUST BOUGHT YESTERDAY!! well.. i know i should not be so materialistic and cry over materials .. but i really couldnt help it!! i just lost a BRAND new bag that i took so long to decide whether should i buy it and now that i havent even taken out the silica gel perservative thingy ... it's gone .. within less than 24 hours .. great!!

it was jesh's birthday .. we cooked heaps of good food.. (ps. our definition of good food = everything except bhse food) and gave her a lil bday surprise ... we cooked chicken potato porridge, chicken soup noodles and tofu ( now i understand how hard it is to translate chinese food into english names) anywayz.. yea .. it was good. thank God for that. and i was so tired!! woke up at about 7.30! >.< and the cleaning up was .. energy consuming .. funny how people disperse after eating .. but oh well .. i kinda dispersed too .. all i can say is that beth's heart is so SO kind .. she's so passionate and considerate!!

yea .. so after everything.. i went to unpack my fruitful shopping from yesterday with an excited heart .. but when i opened one of the bags (well i'm treating myself after months of deprivation) and to my utmost shock .. it was gone!!!!!!!! i could even barely remembered when was the last time i saw it yesterday cos i was so tired from everything. was running over the city to youth and then to ice-cream shop and later coffee shop to get jesh's bday cake and ice cream that i barely notice that my bag in the bag was missing!! >.< well .. i was literally holding or having it near by most of the time .. i seriously coudnt recall anytime that people could just take a chance to steal it!! >.< i really dont.. and today .. i was running around the boarding house preparing for the brunch and my door was wide open .. anyone could have seen the bag and took it .. but then .. i seriously doubt that!!

my siblings in Christ and my sisters in boarding house. NO WAY!!! it's definitely not them!! i know it's me and my careless-ness for not looking after my stuff and my materialistic characteristic that allowed all these to happen. i place worldly joy above someone else who is far more greater than it and now .. i deserve it. i guess i need to set myself right. i couldnt help feeling disappointed and sad and i couldnt believe that i even cried over it .. but i know that things happen for a reason and i'm believing in God to be my provider. i am very disappointed at how careless and i really dont understand why he allowed such things to happen. when everything was just going so SO well.. having so much fun in DFO shopping with selah heebe mak and kiwi .. played xbox with mak daniel and kiwi .. and all ALL great fun things .. and suddenly .. one moment.. i can be brought down to sorrow ..

but u know what??

i refuse to give in, yes, i am sad but i'm not gonna let this stop me from doing all the things that He has called me to do. yes. i am offended and angry that God dint prevent this. cos i know He could.

but u know what?

i'm gonna trust Him. i'm gonna remember that

"We know that all things work together for the good of those who love God--those whom he has called according to his plan"
Romans 8:28

i BELIEVE he will provide and plant another sense of joy in me :) but also wanna thank Him for protecting me. instead of loosing myself to some unknown stranger on the dark roads .. being all alone at 10.30-ish .. buying cake .. he kept me safe and walked with me through the darkest alley. so .. i guess loosing a bag is a better exchange :p

but i realllleeeeeeeeee want the bag back and i dont want the sympathy of others.. getting it for me as a present because they felt sorry. i know it's too much to ask for but i want a miracle that it would just appear or someone returned it. but i would definitely believe that That could happen!


this song from church yesterday really came into my head :)

you calm the raging seas
you walk with me through fire and heal all my disease

i trust in you
i trust in you

I believe you're my healer
I BELIEVE YOU ARE ALL I NEED

I BELIEVE YOU'RE MY PORTION
I BELIEVE YOU'RE MORE THAN ENOUGH FOR ME.

Jesus you're all i need.

Nothing is impossible for you.
nothing is impossible for you.

I'M FREE :D

i still remembered how last year's speech night song vividly in my head and now .. it truly applies :)

I'M FREE
I'M FREE
LIKE A FISH IN THE SEA
THERE'S NOWHERE ELSE I WANT TO BE

EVERYTHING I HAVE TO DO IS DONE
EVERY RACE I HAVE TO RUN I'VE RUN
EVERY "i" AND EVERY "T"
I'VE DOT AND CROSSED THEM MATICULOUSLY

COS AS OFF TODAY
I'M FREE

woohoo!! :D i'm seriously off exams pressure now .. the other night as mak and i were showering .. i couldnt even remembered when was the last time i went shopping!! >.< and when was the last time we went out together .. but it doesnt matter ..cos it's ALL happening again!!!

cant believe at 1045 yesterday was the last ever minute we will be sitting in the hall doing an exams!! and yesterday when we were on a taxi after our shopping spree and the lady asked us how weird is it to feel that you dont need to face the stress of studies again ??? WOW!! it never really hit me that i truly can put my studies aside for some 2 or 3 months before i get into uni .. but that's just so unbelievable .. having my butt stuck on the chair for hours and now .. having to walk around (to shop) for hours is really killing my leg muscles!! but i'm not complaining!! hahaha :P i'm loving it.

God, please dont let time fly by so quickly!! i wanna play :)

2 MORE DAYS AND I'M FREE :)

i've got only one paper left!!!! chemistry on thursday and i'm done!! woot* cant wait for that. already been thinking about after exams.
shopping
driving lessons
interviews
work out to burn the fats accumulated due to "exams stress"
parties! and heaps more..
but
*here comes the reality* the saddest thing is that after that there would be loads of goodbyes and farewells. i dont want that to happen!! >.< but then .. i shall remember the famous saying,

"DONT CRY BECAUSE IT'S OVER. SMILE BECAUSE IT HAPPENED"

yup! i shall try. need his strength and his guidance everyday!!

all the best to all SAM -ians :)

k .. shall return to my studies :P oh oh!! all the best to all physician .. jon, alex, cx, waicheong, wendy, shirlene and everyone else for tomorrow!! i will pray for all of you :)

PLANETSHAKERS CONFERENCE :)

hey everyone!!! well .. i think i kinda did really badly for my exams .. but thank God that i have the peace and not fully crashed down after that :) i believe that He is gonna work a miracle and honestly .. if i do get good grades, it's not because of me.. it's because of Him :D He's so awesome!!! anywayz. . i've got some other thing that i wanna tell ALL OF YOU!!! YES!! EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU!!!

well. .. . i'm sure that everyone is pretty stressed out during this exam or any sort of pressuring period .. just hang on there k?? think about holz and anticipate the time when all these are all over!! hahaa :P well well .. i definitely am!! cant wait for holz ... i duno what people are up to .. i wanna go to CHINA!!!! (before 2008 at least ) and apparently the penang trip is cancelled and changed to melaka?? is it right?? anywyaz. . just update me more about it k?? but most importantly .. i know that there's something really cool happening on 13th to 15th of decemeber !!!! it's a conference - PLANETSHAKERS CONFERENCE in Malaysia!!!!! planetshakers is the church that i'm currently attending (in case some of you dont know) and they're coming to Malaysia!!! *woot* yay!!!!!!

well .. first impression of church from people -> B-O-R-I-N-G !! .. just plain sitting down and listening to some person up there talking .. falling asleep on the bench and drooling at the corner of the mouth!

false impression 2 - stern, strict, upright position, no fooling around, super serious and gives u goosebums and a sense of gloom

*red lights and buzzers going off* TU TU TU TU TU TU TU!!!!!!!

WRONG!!!

hahahaha :P well ... not all churches are like that!! .. it's a modern church , and the music is fantastic!!! all i can say is come experience it yourself!! .. :) those who love electric guitars, drums this may be your type!! and those who love soft music, the worship is gonna touch your heart mann!!!


personally.. i've been to a conference once and a camp once!! both of them are truly eye-opener and i've learnt so much that money cant buy !! oh well .. i hate to say this .. but well .. to go to that conference, there's a cost. early bird registrations are cheaper obviously and group entrance, i'm pretty sure that we can get a discount!! so .. whoever who wanna go .. and somewhat wanna find out more about my experience in becoming a Christian and how my life has been changed .. or you just dont know wat's the purpose of living or just wanna come and spend more time with me :P hahha *nah!! being super vain* please leave me a tag or email me k? so that i can arrange something!! i promise this is gonna be an experience tat opens up ur views!!!

well .. if you really feel like going and money is truly a matter, email me too .. well .. it's such a rare occasion that munyee is being so generous .. so !! grab this opportunity!!!! :P but i just wanna welcome u all to the night sessions, they are FOC!!! :) :) but anyone expressing any interest, please feel free to email me or just drop me a tag k????


for more info, please go to this website and check it out!!!

http://www.planetshakers.com.my/planetshakers/default.asp?id=25

sorry .. i couldnt and dont know how to do the cool link thingy so u guys would just have to copy and paste!! haha :P sorry!! but anywayz .. if u guys are too lazy .. here's the brief details

Venue : Sunway Pyramid Grand Convention Centre
Date : 13th - 15th December 2006 
early bird registration (until 6th nov) - RM 75 (but as i say, if money matter, talk to me k? )

oh!! i forgot to mention, it's like a camp thingy but just that they dun provide food and accomodation. so .. full day and night programme with breaks in between .. so ..yea!! come along and bring everyone along!! :)

by the way.. i'm not promoting this conference or anything k??? i'm just opening up my invitations and just to share something with all of you and it would be indeed AWESOME to just even spending a few days with you guys whilst sharing my experiences with God with you!

give me a reply k?!!! :)
God bless and love ya heaps!!

EXAMS STARTS TOMORROW!!!

WAHHHH!!!!! my goodness!! exams practically starts tomorrow and i cant believe it happening!!! mummy arr!! >.< !!! i'm like super unprepared and this is the worst feeling to have prior to an exam! honestly .. this is the worst PES - prior exams syndrome i ever felt!!!! seeing how much others have been progressing and i'm still stationary!! aikz .. but i know tat i shouldnt compare .. so .. i should go back and do my own thing and pray hard for God's divine intervention (according to lee) :P hehehe .. but i'm seriously trusting God for it!!! *fingers crossed*

also .. i would like to SAY BIG BIG BIG~ thank you for those who never fails to encourage me and to support me with lovey lovey sms during this time .. and big one to LZ pres for even attempting to call me!! :P hehehe :P so .. yea .. thanks everyone!!

and one more thing.. oh! prayer for those who are having exams soon and or are currently doing theirs!

Dear God, i just wanna pray for those who are gonna sit for their exams soon and all those who are sitting their exams O LOrd, may it be in Australia or in Malaysia O LOrd. Father God, i just pray tat you'll give us the peace and the calmness during adn before exams O Lord. Give us the wisdom that we need to do our papers and remind us that as long as we tried our best, you are going to do the rest. Heavenly father, give us the strength that we need to just go through this super stressful period O Lord. Please dont let any pimple come up on our beautiful faces O Lord and God, please heal those who are currently sick Father. Thank you so much for sending me friends and family who never fails to encourage me. Lord, help me to be an encouragement and a blessing to people too. God, again, for those who are taking their exams now or soon, please guide us and comfort us o Lord. In Jesus Mighty name i pray. Amen. :)



anywayz .. just another note of encouragement i read from "Grace of the Moment" by Max Lucado.
may it motivates you all!!


A GENTLE LAMB
"Where God's love is, ther is no fear, because God's perfect love drives out all fear." 1 John 4:18

A lot of us live with a hidden fear that God is angry at us. Somewhere sometime and some Sunday school class or some television show convinced us that God has a whip behind his back, a paddle in his back pocket and he is going to nail us when we've gone too far.
No concept could be more wrong! Our Saviour's Father is very fond of us and only wants us to share his love with us.
We have a Father who is filled with compassion, a feeling Fahter who hurts when his children get hurt. WE SERVE A GOD WHO SAYS THAT EVEN WHEN WE'RE UNDER PRESSURE AND FEEL LIKE NOTHING IS GOING TO GO RIGHT, HE IS RIGHT THERE WAITING FOR US, TO EMBRACE US WHETHER WE SUCCEED OR FAIL. (this part spoke to me the most! that's why i use capital letters!! hehehe :P may it speak to you too!! :P )
He doesnt come quarelling and wrangling and forcing his way into anyone's heart. He comes into our hearts like gentle lamb, not a roaring lion.

- Walking with the Savior-

PLC YEAR 12 CLASS 2006~!!!!!

i havent been blogging for some while but here are some pictures to update u all :P

sept holz ..



mel's 18th burfday party at hilton



sis' dessert - one of her hols assignment! how fun



hillsong united in citilife church



looks familiar?




yr 12 boarders sofias outing



getting ready for valedictory dinner



my c4 ex-roomies after valedictory dinner :P



ESL class party



sitting like china a pek



esl classmates are just so lovably crazy &fun!!



after leavers assembly



we're free !!



chem class



bio class




if we just reach out and take the first step
Then all the wonderful stories,
Of colours, rainbows and pictures are made.

Even as we tread the less taken road,
Surrounded with midst and uncertainties,
You’ve encouraged me to keep running,
And ensured me of my destiny.

Thank you for introducing me to new world
and bringing me to know more awesome friends
Thank you for crying with me in the middle of the night
Thank you your smiles
Thank you for your time


Friday was the last day of school but this whole week i have been crying my eye balls out cos i was so sad about this farewell and the stress level is flying high especially when exams are drawing so so much more closer!! >.< but facing with all the gorgeous beautiful faces that i've been seeing for 3 years and now it's time to say bye was indeed heart breaking but i know that God is gonna keep their heads high and protect them from evil. i will not be who i am now if it wasnt for everything that have come across me so far. the people from malaysia as well as the people from melbourne. i'm just like a jigsaw puzzle made up of different components but the picture is a whole :)

during final day, i gave my last announcement or more like speech during breakfast and it dint hit me that i am retiring!! >.< no more all those .. shhh .. please listen to my announcements.. or those sorts ..and i did regret that i dint really made a touchy speech to make everyone cry! ISH!! >.< haha .. but it's all good.. the new committee will definitely lead the boarding house to a higher level but still .. the saying goodbye is still the hardest bid :(

i've got so much to say and yet i find it so hard to express through words. perhaps actions or even tears speak louder than words.

God gave me a group cuddle that i havent had since 2 terms ago after the year 12 video. the 3 of us in each others arms once again was just so priceless.

anywayz. . perhaps thank you is better than bye. so .. thank you all whom i have met in the span of 3 years and nurtured me with your love and your care. i'll definitely miss you girls.



God, I commit my Year 12 friends into your hands. Father Lord, I know that you can take care of them better than I can do. But God, I thank you so much that you placed them in my life and providing me with friendships that may and have already changed my life so so much. God, I just pray that you’ll keep them safe in your arms and never let them go. Jesus, I know that your presence is said to be manifest-presence. God, i just wanna pray that even though distance may once again separate my friends and I, but lord, I just pray that u’ll seal our friendship in your name. God of love, I thank you so much for sending me friends who nurture me so much, friends who care and share, friends who are always so uplifting and so passionate. Dear Lord, please hear this prayer and just bless them with your love and your joy. God, I know that you have a great plan for each and every one of us O Lord. Help us to see things from your point of view. Give us the strength and wisdom to pursue the goals that you’ll created for us and be the encourager as we run this race. God, help us to know that this is not a permanent parting. Lord, help us to be forever friends as we go on different paths of careers and different destinations. God, I cant thank you enough that you’ve been such an awesome friend. Transform me to be how you are to others. Father, it just is so saddening that have to say bye to the people I see so often. It’s just so hard that when I finally settle in a comfort zone, feeling so loved and knowing my purpose, it’s just so hard to accept that we have to go and just take away the memories with me. Dear Jesus, I just hope that you will sustain my memories in my head even as time past and God, please send your angels to ALWAYS be there to guard and protect my friends and may they are always loved. May we cherish the times that we spent together and hang on to the fond memories that we shared.

In Jesus Mighty name.
Amen.


i heart you



i love all my day girls friends. i love my boarders sisters too :'D

EXAMS

i'm really screwed!!! >.< i need someone to scold me for not studying!! i've been giving myself lame excuses from doing work and considering how exams are LITERALLY round the corner and i've been slacking off for more than one week .. I"M DOOMED!!!

I REALLY NEED YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE LITTLE WOODEN PEOPLE
MAX LUCADO


well .. i've got this forwarded email so long ago that when i was searching it it was almost at the bottom of my inbox but i'm glad that i dint delet it .. may it inspire you and may it speaks to you :)



The Wemmicks were small wooden people. Each of the wooden people was carved by a woodworker named Eli. His workshop sat on a hill overlooking their village. Every Wemmick was different. Some had big noses, others had large eyes. Some were tall and others were short. Some wore hats, others wore coats. But all were made by the same carver and all lived in the village.
And all day, every day, the Wemmicks did the same thing: They gave each other stickers. Each Wemmick had a box of golden star stickers and a box of gray dot stickers. Up and down the streets all over the city, people could be seen sticking stars or dots on one another.
The pretty ones, those with smooth wood and fine paint, always got stars. But if the wood was rough or the paint chipped, the Wemmicks gave dots. The talented ones got stars, too. Some could lift big sticks high above their heads or jump over tall boxes. Still others knew big words or could sing very pretty songs. Everyone gave them stars.
Some Wemmicks had stars all over them! Every time they got a star it made them feel so good that they did something else and got another star. Others, though, could do little. They got dots.
Punchinello was one of these. He tried to jump high like the others, but he always fell. And when he fell, the others would gather around and give him dots. Sometimes when he fell, it would scar his wood, so the people would give him more dots. He would try to explain why he fell and say something silly, and the Wemmicks would give him more dots.
After a while he had so many dots that he didn't want to go outside. He was afraid he would do something dumb such as forget his hat or step in the water, and then people would give him another dot. In fact, he had so many gray dots that some people would come up and give him one without reason.
"He deserves lots of dots," the wooden people would agree with one another.
"He's not a good wooden person."
After a while Punchinello believed them. "I'm not a good wemmick," he would say. The few times he went outside, he hung around other Wemmicks who had a lot of dots. He felt better around them.
One day he met a Wemmick who was unlike any he'd ever met. She had no dots or stars. She was just wooden. Her name was Lulia.
It wasn't that people didn't try to give her stickers; it's just that the stickers didn't stick. Some admired Lulia for having no dots, so they would run up and give her a star. But it would fall off. Some would look down on her for having no stars, so they would give her a dot. But it wouldn't stay either.
"That's the way I want to be," thought Punchinello. "I don't want anyone's marks." So he asked the stickerless Wemmick how she did it.
"It's easy," Lulia replied. "every day I go see Eli."
"Eli?"
"Yes, Eli. The woodcarver. I sit in the workshop with him."
"Why?"
"Why don't you find out for yourself? Go up the hill. He's there. "
And with that the Wemmick with no marks turned and skipped away.
"But he won't want to see me!" Punchinello cried out.
Lulia didn't hear. So Punchinello went home. He sat near a window and watched the wooden people as they scurried around giving each other stars and dots.
"It's not right," he muttered to himself. And he resolved to go see Eli.
He walked up the narrow path to the top of the hill and stepped into the big shop. His wooden eyes widened at the size of everything. The stool was as tall as he was. He had to stretch on his tiptoes to see the top of the workbench. A hammer was as long as his arm. Punchinello swallowed hard.
"I'm not staying here!" and he turned to leave. Then he heard his name.
"Punchinello?" The voice was deep and strong.
Punchinello stopped.
"Punchinello! How good to see you. Come and let me have a look at you."
Punchinello turned slowly and looked at the large bearded craftsman.
"You know my name?" the little Wemmick asked.
"Of course I do. I made you."
Eli stooped down and picked him up and set him on the bench. "Hmm, " he spoke thoughtfully as he inspected the gray circles. "Looks like you've been given some bad marks."
"I didn't mean to, Eli. I really tried hard."
"Oh, you don't have to defend yourself to me. I don't care what the other Wemmicks think."
"You don't?"
"No, and you shouldn't either. Who are they to give stars or dots? They're Wemmicks just like you. What they think doesn't matter, Punchinello. All that matters is what I think. And I think you are pretty special."
Punchinello laughed. "Me, special? Why? I can't walk fast. I can't jump. My paint is peeling. Why do I matter to you?"
Eli looked at Punchinello, put his hands on those small wooden shoulders, and spoke very slowly. "Because you're mine. That's why you matter to me."
Punchinello had never had anyone look at him like this--much less his maker. He didn't know what to say.
"Every day I've been hoping you'd come," Eli explained.
"I came because I met someone who had no marks."
"I know. She told me about you."
"Why don't the stickers stay on her?"
"Because she has decided that what I think is more important than what they think. The stickers only stick if you let them."
"What?"
"The stickers only stick if they matter to you. The more you trust my love, the less you care about the stickers."
"I'm not sure I understand."
"You will, but it will take time. You've got a lot of marks. For now, just come to see me every day and let me remind you how much I care."
Eli lifted Punchinello off the bench and set him on the ground.
"Remember," Eli said as the Wemmick walked out the door. "You are special because I made you. And I don't make mistakes."
Punchinello didn't stop, but in his heart he thought, "I think he really means it."
And when he did, a dot fell to the ground.

Hope this encourages all of you today! Always remember that you are a beautiful child of God! Wonderfully made for a great purpose! May GOd Bless you

TRIALS AND PLANET WORSHIP

just checked my umat results... part 1&2 kinda sucked .. i did worse than 50% of the other candidates who took the exams!! oh weellll ... so long to med and hi hi to other alternatives :) i'm still excited about uni though :P and i believe that God will lead me

there's this beautiful saying from a card i got from my heads of boarding, mr&mrs curtis

"FOOTPRINTS" *me trying my best at paraphrasing*

there's this man. walking along a sandy beach. as God led him walk past this beach, reflecting on his life. He saw 2 sets of footprints everywhere and then through this stretch of the beach, the only saw a set of footprint. it dint take him long to realise that it was during the toughest time of his life. he dint hestitate and ask God, " God, why is there only one set of footprints during my hardest time in life?"

God patiently replied, "it was when i carried you at my back, that's why there's only my footprints"

wow~! how beautiful was tat!!??!1 hehehe .. yea .. it indeed gave me comfort :) may it give u comfort too!!

holz with a blink came to an end.. it was so sad leaving that house i stayed in for 2.5 weeks.. >.< with my cousins and my sister.. i have to admit that i DO really felt loved and i really thank God for Him giving and reinforcing my ability to love again. i've gotta admit that there was one point of my life that i duno how to love ppl .. scary isnt it? i was really searching for an answer or a method to love .. but i duno how or when .. it just came back!! and i'm truly thankful for that!!! :) so .. now i'm gonna use my God-given abilities to do great things!!! :) :) *including blowing my snort on the muscus-full tissuepaper* hehehe :P

anyhoo ... i'm caught in the dilemma of going to penang or attending mak's bday!! hmmmm ..

oh yea .. brief note on planet worship - 1 word sums it all .. AWESOME!!
it was indeed a fantastic encounter!! seriously .. i'm getting more and more blown away by wat my church is offering!!! it was indeed an eye-opener!! but i guess i need to serve God back too .. by giving up my time .. and my reaccquired ability - love ppl more :) i'll post some of the messages when i have time k? but i met a lot of really nice people and i reckon the world is getting smaller too!! i met kc's neighbour!!! hahahaha .. :D

anywayz.. just wanna say couple of BIG thank you's and some encouragements to these ppl
thanks twin for ur timely encouragement , i pray for u always too
pat - stand up and not doubt ur capabilities anymore k? we have faith in u!!
jo - thanks for the long talk that benefited both of us.. u escaping from ur boring talk and me .. in ways u cant imagine! :P
han -thanks for ur constant updates and encouragement! i often pray for ur relationship and u too!!
ai jet - thanks for ur sms!! really motivating and stirred me up for the day
seng- for his encouraging sms!! totally heart-warming
i duno y but i guess God put people in my mind for a reason and paster ian said tat most of the time God wants me to pray for them .. so yealor
I WILL :)

TRIALS AND PLANET WORSHIP

just checked my umat results... part 1&2 kinda sucked .. i did worse than 50% of the other candidates who took the exams!! oh weellll ... so long to med and hi hi to other alternatives :) i'm still excited about uni though :P and i believe that God will lead me

there's this beautiful saying from a card i got from my heads of boarding, mr&mrs curtis

"FOOTPRINTS" *me trying my best at paraphrasing*

there's this man. walking along a sandy beach. as God led him walk past this beach, reflecting on his life. He saw 2 sets of footprints everywhere and then through this stretch of the beach, the only saw a set of footprint. it dint take him long to realise that it was during the toughest time of his life. he dint hestitate and ask God, " God, why is there only one set of footprints during my hardest time in life?"

God patiently replied, "it was when i carried you at my back, that's why there's only my footprints"

wow~! how beautiful was tat!!??!1 hehehe .. yea .. it indeed gave me comfort :) may it give u comfort too!!

holz with a blink came to an end.. it was so sad leaving that house i stayed in for 2.5 weeks.. >.< with my cousins and my sister.. i have to admit that i DO really felt loved and i really thank God for Him giving and reinforcing my ability to love again. i've gotta admit that there was one point of my life that i duno how to love ppl .. scary isnt it? i was really searching for an answer or a method to love .. but i duno how or when .. it just came back!! and i'm truly thankful for that!!! :) so .. now i'm gonna use my God-given abilities to do great things!!! :) :) *including blowing my snort on the muscus-full tissuepaper* hehehe :P

anyhoo ... i'm caught in the dilemma of going to penang or attending mak's bday!! hmmmm ..

oh yea .. brief note on planet worship - 1 word sums it all .. AWESOME!!
it was indeed a fantastic encounter!! seriously .. i'm getting more and more blown away by wat my church is offering!!! it was indeed an eye-opener!! but i guess i need to serve God back too .. by giving up my time .. and my reaccquired ability - love ppl more :) i'll post some of the messages when i have time k? but i met a lot of really nice people and i reckon the world is getting smaller too!! i met kc's neighbour!!! hahahaha .. :D

anywayz.. just wanna say couple of BIG thank you's and some encouragements to these ppl
thanks twin for ur timely encouragement , i pray for u always too
pat - stand up and not doubt ur capabilities anymore k? we have faith in u!!
jo - thanks for the long talk that benefited both of us.. u escaping from ur boring talk and me .. in ways u cant imagine! :P
han -thanks for ur constant updates and encouragement! i often pray for ur relationship and u too!!
ai jet - thanks for ur sms!! really motivating and stirred me up for the day
seng- for his encouraging sms!! totally heart-warming
i duno y but i guess God put people in my mind for a reason and paster ian said tat most of the time God wants me to pray for them .. so yealor
I WILL :)

HOLZ!!

short note.. am currently staying with my cousins :) at ivanhoe .. it's great to be in the company of 2 GUYS whom i used to spend my "primary-schoolhood" with :P and the BEST thing to hear from them is that they are christians now too!! YES :) i'm so excited for them as well as the family :) finally someone see things as how i see :)

i truly thank God for this hols and me staying over at their place :) no matter what God has instored for me, i'm sure now tat i've got my blood related couz as well as my brother in Christ, couz Seng is able to counsel me in all things :) YAY!!! and i truly can see the Holy Spirit working within them :)

awesome outings on saturday celebrating mel's bday at hilton and then sing k at boxhill .. was so sad when it was time to bid goodbye >.< and later found out that i wasnt the only one :'( i think i would cry my ass off when final day come >.<
thank you mel for inviting me :) and also bing for getting the pressie :) and also thank God for the food!!!
just a note : i beat jess wu in "who can eat the most competition" and left nicole a stunned-mouth-opened expression on her face :P

ESL outing was FANTASTIC!!!!! Praise God for the beautiful weather and the awesome company!! i love lovey my ESL class :) went yumcha, max brenners, and gelati!! how yummy does tat sound?? more photos to come :)


thank God for all the beautiful faces that appear in my life :) and PRAISE the LORD for all the awesome works that He has done!! i am truly blessed :)
just wanna thank those who has been praying for me :)

if u dun mind, please pray for my studies too :P having trials straight after hols!! pray tat i can juggle with all these events and outings coming up :)


oh guys! by the way.. i've got limited internet access .. so ..sorry that i couldnt reply ur emailz .. sms me!! i've got credit d :P

till then ..take care and God bless :)

A MESSAGE BY PS REGGIE DABBS

This is a parallel to the prodigal son story, may it bless your heart today and may this be a story that you will share with many.

Molly was a young 4 year old girl, she grew up watching dvds and cds every christmas. She owned every possible Christmas dvd and vcd. She watched one every Christmas and realised one thing constant about them all: every family in the shows had a tradition whether it was singing christmas carols together, opening presents as a family, sitting down after dinner and playing chess. However, she realised that her family did not have one, and so one day, 2 weeks before Christmas she ran to her dad and asked him,"Dad, why doesn't our family have a tradition like those in the dvds?"

To that, her dad answered, "we've never had a family tradition, my dear!"

Molly thought for a moment and asked," Can we have one then?"

Her dad looked at her and said, "Okay, after dinner on Christmas eve we will do something as a family every year, ok? However i'll only tell you what it is on Christmas eve."
Molly waited and waited till Christmas eve and after dinner she went to her dad. He took her little hand and brought her to the living room, in front of all the guests and relatives, he went down on one knee and said to her, "Molly, ever since your mommy died, i've never had any one to dance with and it would be great if you could have this one dance with me every year."

Molly had her mother's smile, and eyes..even the little bounce in the way her mother walked.

So this family tradition went on for 14 years, and Molly finally turned 18. she met a boy and started dating. The day before Christmas, Molly asked her dad, "Can I please go to the christmas dance with him? Her dad however said, "What about our yearly tradition? You hardly even know this boy, I think it is not a good idea for you to do." Molly got angry and screamed at her father saying, "You don't love me." She went to her room, called the boy and told him what her dad said. The boy told her,"well, its okay, since your dad does not allow you to go to the dance, he does not love you, why don't you come with me? we'll leave tonight! i've got a brother who stays in Texas and we can both live with him."

That night, Molly took her savings and climbed out of the window into the boy's arms. They drove for a good 5 hours to get to texas.

However their romance did last long. Five days later, his brother told them both, "It's too crowded, I cannot have the both of you staying here. Either one of you have to leave." The boy went to Molly and told her, "My brother says only one of us can stay here, i do not think i love you anymore, i guess that means you have to leave."

Molly left broken. she had no money and she had given a part of her to that boy, which could never again be retracted. She had nowhere to go and went to a halfway house begging them to take her in. There, she met a friend called clarrise who told her that she could earn some quick cash by putting on a dress and dancing for some people at a club. So Molly went with clarrise to the club, the manager gave her a costume and she danced for them.

What should have only lasted for a few weeks, dragged into months and after that years. There was always something in her telling her to go home, however she shunned that thought away, thinking that she was too unworthy. One day, while she was at the grocery store and she heard someone calling her name. she turned around and saw that it was the boy's brother. He said "I have something to show you, will you please come with me to the car?"He pulled out a huge box and passes it to her. "Will you please go home to your dad, and tell him where you are, he has been writing to me everyday at my address since you left and I am so tired or receving his letters." you please please tell him to stop writing to my house?" Molly took the box back to the club and placed it on the table, refusing to open it, thinking that she was too unworthy to receive her father's love.

Another four months passed, it was the day before Christmas. Because she did not want to be by herself, she decided to go to work. She went to the club and saw a letter on her dressing table. She gazed at clarisse who told her, "A very good-looking old man came in and put it the letter on your table, begging me to ask you to open" Something within her made her read the letter, after reading the contents of the letter, she took her car, drove for 5 hours to go home and went home into the loving arms of her father, who embraced her. She made it just in time to dance with her father under the christmas tree, just before the clock struck 12.

Guess what the letter said?

It said, "Molly..will you have one last dance with me?"

As she dances in her father's arms, she says, "Im home daddy, Im home."

May this story bless your heart and remind you once again of God's amazing love for each and every one of us. May you choose to dance with God again, God is always waiting for us with open arms, waiting in anticipation for us to have one last dance with him. All we have to say is "Yes God I am willing"

Isaiah 55
Invitation to the Thirsty
1 "Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me;
hear me, that your soul may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
4 See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a leader and commander of the peoples.
5 Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations that do not know you will hasten to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor."
6 Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake his way
and the evil man his thoughts.
Let him turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on him,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
8 "For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,"
declares the LORD.
9 "As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the pine tree,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD's renown,
for an everlasting sign,
which will not be destroyed."

MATHS SAC!!!!!!

i'm kinda unprepared for this PROBABILITY maths sac!! >.< and i shouldnt even be here right now!!
please pray for me . so that the probability of me failing= 0 !! :P

anyhoo. .. all the best to A - levels doing exams!
PAT!! study!!! :P

MY WEEK :)

well .. great heaps of things had happened during this week .. loads of ups and downs .. and indeed it is a break through for me.. planet uni camp indeed was an eye-opener :) i learnt and grew so much in and continue praying that i'll grow even more :)

i choose to stand for my generation and i wanna live my life chosen.
we need to break free of tradition and all those things that had been holding us back. all the hurts and things that we desire the most are those that shape who we are and it somehow frustratingly is what we in turn become. it's the environment, culture and the past events that had hurt us so deeply that mould who we are now .. that's why we need to thrive for a breakthrough of those and live a life in the bright and righteously.

During the camp, i've experience heaps. joy, disappointment, frustration and peace. i was dreading to go on this giant swing which was like 4storey high but the man who was doing the safety thingy got tired and put a stop on the guy in front of me. i was like !~!@#$%^ i queued for 2 and a half hours for that ride(even ended up with sore muscles!) but i waited so patiently and was so kindly pulled the ppl up (the swing need a group of ppl to pull the person up) but i was in total devastion when he said tat's it!! i dint get to go on the flying fox, i dint get to play basket ball nor anything!! >.< i was gonna cry mann!! and thank God, joyce was kind enough to take a stroll with me and thank God for the wonderful scenery - the sunset!!! i'll post the pic after sis return my cam cable k? and instead, i went rock climbing. which was all good and took away my disappoinment i guess. He was there to restored my peace :)

Anyhoo .. camp was awesome because i can finally experience the Holy Spirit and i can loudly proclaim that GOD IS REAL!! Apart from some of the messages that Paster Matt spoke which applies totally to me, i witness the Holy Spirit touching the lives of others and also myself!!! on Saturday night, the hall was filled with God's presence. Jia heng,ex-chsian and his gf, adeline were praying for the gift of tongue for me. it was a gift that God gives everyone and with it, you can communicate with God in a language that no one can understand other than God and when words cant express what you wanna say, just speak in tongue and God will understand ur need. initally it's a bit scary to hear bout things like this, but it was written in the bible.. so yea.. it was all good :) i dint just get it instantaneously, i prayed and prayed and i guess the key to it was to have child-like faith, to trust the Creator totally and it just comes naturally. yup!! then i got it!!! :) :) :) i dint know wat was i saying but it doesnt matter cos my God knows :) i was in tears. i was desperate for Him and when i was praying for my family and friends, tears were flowing like river mann!! seriously!! i was tat desperate for Him to change the lives of my loved ones. and deep inside of me, i could feel the warmth and the intimidacy with God. it was a really powerful prayer, i could feel it!! and i know that He is listening.

oh ya!! did i mention that on our way there our bus broke down? yup! it did and smoke was coming out of the tyre!! scary!! but under God's grace, we were all save and sound :) and oohh!! i meet loads of new friends through this camp!! it was AWESOME!! and i really like planetshakers church!! the people there are just so so friendly!!! i'm going there again tomorrow!! :)

anyhoo.. i've been rejected twice or even thrice this week >.< and it's really saddening!! not everyone is encouraging and sometimes, i'm just like a baby, learning to walk. but then, when an adult's unintentionally pushes me, my bumm lands on the flat ground. to you, i may not be crying with that smile on my face and i'm just not looking to you in the eye, but deep inside i'm crying aloud, just like a baby would when she falls but i'll never give up, cos i belief in you and the Almighty one. and this song play my heart out

Here I Go Again Lyrics
Casting Crowns


Father, hear my prayer
I need the perfect words
Words that he will hear
And know they're straight from You
I don't know what to say
I only know it hurts
To see my only friend slowly fade away

Chorus:
So maybe this time
I'll speak the words of life
With Your fire in my eyes
But that old familiar fear
is tearin' at my words
What am I so afraid of?
'Cause here I go again
Talkin' 'bout the rain
And mullin' over things
that won't live past today
And as I dance around the truth
Time is not his friend
This might be my last chance
to tell him that You love Him

But here I go again
Here I go again

Lord, You love him so
You gave Your only Son
If he will just believe
He will never die
But how then will he know
What he has never heard?
Lord he has never seen mirrored in my life

Chorus:

But here I go again
Here I go, here I go

Chorus:

This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him
This might be my last chance
To tell him that You love him

You love him, You love him
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid
What am I so afraid of?
How then will he know
What he has never heard?

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on the brighter tone, since we bid uniform goodbye, thursday we had to dress up as 80's. it was so much fun even though i had 2 tests tat day and initally couldnt be bothered but was so hyped up by the boarders!! :)

some photos here. more to come!



mak lee and i at the quad when planetshakers came to our school to perform :)



kaitlyn mak and roxy



me and mummy at the post office bringing our favourite soft toy for a walk



someone special is recieving a mail!!




we took a retarded video at McD with our soft toys! real embarassing one!! >.< it's for our final day :P

gosh! time is really flying by!!
say bye to winter and hi to spring!! i'm loving it!! but then .. i dun want exams and farewells to come >.<

oh!! and i did another brave thing!! i gave a testimony in front of the whole school during friday lunch!! with a great heaps of supporters cheering me on as i speak :P on EXO day :) hope it touches ppl!!
big thanks to those who prayed for me. lee, mak,bing, phyliss, megan, mr and mrs curtis!! :)
and thank you to the SUIS ppl who so generously gave out chocolate :) mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm :p

friday night outings with my sis is always good and exciting!! we spent hours at David Jones looking for good quotes to put into my column at patchwork :) hehee:P ended up sitting at the gift section, looking at encouraging and aspiring books!! hehe:P

and oh oh!! i've submitted my VTAC uni apps!! :) praying that i get into uni and do watever that God has instored for me :)
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anywayz. here's some belated photos
will put up more after i've gotten the cable from sis yea?

"that" food weekend with yeen, chua and mak



chua's generousity brought happiness to my tastebuds :)

at the buffet tat we went to at crown










and also heaps of photos taken on the last day of uniform!! so nostalgic!! >.<



my form class-ppl i see every morning :)



spesh maths class!! a lot of ppl there have genius brains!! (and obviously excluding me)



chem class buddies!! (sadly dint get a class photo)


sorry a length post again. well ..pardon me! i havent blogged for so long! cant blame me!! :P

anwyayz ..
BIG BIRTHDAY SHOUTOUTS TO

5/8 MUMMY!!!! i love u mummy!!
6/8 Florence .. even though i kinda lost contact with her, if anyone kind enough to drop her a msg, pls pass my belated birthday msg to her k?
8/8 Yen Tink .. knowing her.. she sure had a blast on her bday :)
10/8 JOANNE ONG!!!!! hhahaha .. i love this babe to the max!!
14/8 Sing Chia.. happy belated 18!!
15/8 Tammi .. hope she enjoyed the heavenly icecream we got her in replacement of the cake :P
16/8 Zhien wei!! hope u got my sms!!
20/8 Chong Foo my lil bro!! happy birthday!! hope daddy passed my msg to you when u were at tuition!! hehe :P reckon my bro is WAY taller than me now!! stunted d!! >.<
27/8 Toh yuen.. havent heard from this guy for a long time .. but i sure still remember his bday :)
28/8 LL BABY!!! .. this baby is surely a special baby!! all the best in ur exams k?
29/8 Leong my cousin and Melody!! have fun being 18 k?
31/8 MERDEKA, Franky and amanda ..
1/9 Seng .. wow!! my eldest cousin is 22 already!! AHHH ... *shocked and disbelief*


sorry if i arhh .. missed out anyone.. i dun mean it 1. i've been trying to recall very hard olredi la !! :P hehehehehe

*trying to put on malaysian accent to fix my incompletion of only celebrating merdeka day with a loud NEGARAKU during dinner with my fellow tablemates :P *


hope to hear from ppl soon :)
till then take care k?

LAST DAY IN UNIFORM~!! X3

well .. today is the last day of the year 12s in uniform before we start experiencing the headaches of wearing casual clothes to school in preparation for uni.. sigh.. it's quite sad as we face the reality that school is coming to an end soon and we are gonna graduate so SO very soon >.< sob sob sniff sniff~ this also means EXAMS and then the first step out on embarking to our future. yes! of course i'm gonna miss high school and boarding house!! >.<
all the memories can only be spelt in these few letters P-R-E-C-I-O-U-S!! and even though i've got super lousy memory that i suspect i'm gonna suffer alzhemier in the future.. but i really treasure each and every day of my life here. may it be good or bad. now ..especially an AWESOME thing had happen to me spiritually, i even wanna make my high school life more memorable!!

that explains all the cameras in year12 corridoor and in all the classes i've been attending this week!! literally everyone was cam-whorring!! pictures speaks more than words!! but then i just cut my fringe today!! damn yucky! yes.. i cut it myself.. tat explains y eh? but it was so annoyingly poking my eyes! oh well ... who cares! i want memories of the "moments" not just pretty faces.. so oh well!!




oh oh oh!! by the way.. i'm going off to church camp today with yeen, bing and joyce!! planet uni camp!!!! so exciting!! :) i really pray tat God will speak to me and my relationship with Him will grow and blossom even more~!!
& ya .. though yeen was being super bad mood and let it out on me yday for no fault of mine.. i'm glad that He gave me the strength and the peace to preservere and keep my calm :) thank God!! ya!! so yea.. pray tat i'll have an AWESOME time in camp k? and i'll tell u guys more about it!! :) when i come back!



all the best to my A-levels darlings in ur exams!! dont stress too much about it k? i'm always praying for ya!
Big thanks to pat who called me recently and sorry shen i missed ur phone call!
not to forget the SAMs who are having ur hols.. enjoy it k?!!


by the way.. i read this in the morning during breakfast from "purpose driven life" and i just wanna share this wit u all!

"THE BEST WAY TO LIVE YOUR LIFE IS TO LOVE. THE BEST WAY TO EXPRESS LOVE IS TIME. THE BEST TIME TO LOVE IS NOW!!!"

think about it k?

i love you all :)

----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.


that's me??? hehe :P hmmmm



wat baby are u??


---------------JANUARY BABY--------------------
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored.
Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to
recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth.
Stubborn.

-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and
reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous
and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity.
Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.
Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up
feelings. Observant and assesses others.

------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive.
Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
travelling. Systematic. hot but has brains.

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves
literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited.

------------JUNE BABY -------------
You've got the best personality and are an
absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make
new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
and more than likely have an a very attractive
partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely
that you have a massive record collection. You
have a great choice in films, and may one day
become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck,
you've got the looks for it!!!

----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.
Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
in studying. Loves to be with friends . Always broods
about the past and the old friends. Waits for
friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive
unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover.

------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
restricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.
always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming"
or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter.

------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.
Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates
oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand.

---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does
not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.
Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND
sexiest of them all.

---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the
greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
begin a relationship with someone from this month,
hold on to them because their one of a kind.

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. ]

40 HOUR FAMINE

yes guys!! the annual event is back!! :) and i'm doing it again this year!! :) to be precise i'm currently actually doing it!!! hahaha :P

doing the food famine. so 40 hour without food in order to raise money for the poor lil kids in east timor. those who wish to make a contribution, please dont hestitate to contact me. u ALL can make a difference in the lives of others no matter how big or how small the gift is.. it's the thought tat counts anywayz~! AIKZ! * i kept forgetting to get the info bout how others can make a diff! promise will do tat ASAP! *

yea.. currently on my 37th hour. 2 more hours to go. thank God there's good lunch today in the bhse to award myself after only feeding on liquid - water and juice . it's not tat tough considering i slept more than usual :P but during this period, i constantly thought of the kids in the third world country who are starving and living under adverse condition due to poverty!! sigh.. it saddens my heart .. and i want to do more!! yea.. i've kinda made up my mind that in the not too distant future i wanna go on trips like tat to help ppl. after uni .. anyone wanna join me?? hehe :P

so .. i'm praying that God will use me to bless others. to help the needy and the poor, to help those who are suffering whilst i'm here enjoying and getting fat... yup .. hope that i can get into watever uni and do watever courses that can lead to tat. basically, according to loads of ppl, it's med. i've put that as my first preference, but also considering science degree. WAHH!! dint know tat uni applications can be so brain-power and time consuming. but i know tat watever it is, it's in God's hands and i'm sure that he has GREAT plans for each and everyone of us. so why worry?! :P i'm just gonna go with the flow! hehe :P

cant wait for lunch and dinner!! mmmmmm *drools*
cant wait for the weekend to come too!! will be seeing yeen and cx -AGAIN- but i like! hehehee :P and also there's melbourne uni open day :) yay!! so many things to look forward to!

I'M A NEW PERSON FROM TODAY ONWARDS :)

yes. i'm a new person on this very special day. 15th of august 2006. i was reborn at 1++am this morning. it is MY SPIRITUAL BIRTHDAY :)

i'm proud to announce that i've accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord, my saviour and i've prayed the sinner prayer. i'm a christian from now on. a new one but i'm learning and yearning to build a relationship with God. i want Him to lead me in my life, to be in my life and guide me, to live for a purpose and to make me a better person.

saying yes and i accept the gift from God isnt just an instantaneous thing. all along i've always been thinking and i KNOW that God is somehow present. i needed assurance when i was surrounded with temptations. and yesterday, i've gotten that assurance.

last nite, i went to alpha course and they spoke about how to build up the relationship with God - through the Bible. yea.. the guy shared a couple of verses and there's this one which really applied to me,

John 2 : 31-47
" You have never heard his voice, and you have never seen his form. 38 So you don't have the Father's message within you, because you don't believe in the person he has sent. 39 You study the Scriptures in detail because you think you have the source of eternal life in them. These Scriptures testify on my behalf. 40 Yet, you don't want to come to me to get [eternal] life."

yes. i've been reading books about Jesus and God but i was still so fearful and uncertained to go to Him and bow. it's like saying, no point reading the book when you dont apply it. the guy used a nissan car as an anecdote. u read the car mannual, memorise it but u just park ur car in the garage. hmmm? wat's the point? yea.. and it kinda slipped my mind after the alpha course finished.

anyhoo .. went to lee's room .. previously, i've already gotten a question from "purpose driven life" and i wanted to ask lee. so yea.. we were chatting and she offered to give me more stuff to read to guide me reading the bible. then as she casually took out the devotion booklet. kaboom!! the same verse appeared!

John 2 : 31-47
" You have never heard his voice, and you have never seen his form. 38 So you don't have the Father's message within you, because you don't believe in the person he has sent. 39 You study the Scriptures in detail because you think you have the source of eternal life in them. These Scriptures testify on my behalf. 40 Yet, you don't want to come to me to get [eternal] life"

Amen!

God is really speaking to me! i was SO SO shocked and stunned!!! i truly believe it! it wasnt like wat lee said, sheer coincidence. it is God!! :) :)

yet, straight after that, i was afraid and i still haf doubts.. i asked lee heaps and heaps of questions and she answered each and every single one of them patiently..thank God and thank lee!! :) but there still is a part of me struggling, even though she asked me twice, "are u willing to accept God?"

Some part of me REALLY REALLY want to and i kept having images of me being a good Christian, serving and helping ppl and i really want that to happen but the oddest thing is that i dint know why i was so afraid. i was sceptic i guess and i dint wanna do it cos of others. i know tat heaps of ppl will be very happy for me, but i want to do it for God and for myself. so, i was like praying and praying, asking God to give me the courage and i know there is DEFINITELY no harm but all the pleasant things instead in taking that step and i want to .. i WANT to! .. so yea..

i was thinking. i've gotten the reassurance that i used to say as a reason to wait and delay the acceptance. and in so many lil ways that God has worked his way through to tell me that He is the Lord. i need to take this step out to do all the great things He had instored for me. i prayed for courage and deep inside me, i know this is the RIGHT thing to do!! so .. as lee was worshipping, i nodded my head.



yup :) today is a new day and mark the start of my new life. i wanna share and thank all the people who are and will be happy for me in taking this step. so many already are. thanks lee, mak,jon and bing. thank you megan,shirley, tina, pat and twin. thanks yeen but above all thank God!!! :)

God, i just pray that You will use me to inspire others and bring more people to know you Lord. Lord, i pray for your guidance and strength in my walk with You. I know tat i'm so far away from perfect, but help me to learn to be a better person and to live up to the purpose you want me to, not of my own. God, i also pray for wisdom and strong will for me to hold and cling tightly to You, so that i will not be shaken by the temptations that are floating around me as You have told me that now, as i've accepted Jesus doesnt mean tat my life will be forever smooth-sailing but a challenging and exciting one. i really anticipate it and i want to grow closer to You and i want to do something so that You will be happy and proud of me. God, lead me and help me grow spiritually and use me so that i may make an impact through Your will and Lord, i thank you for everything, for the lil things that You do to allow me to gain faith in You and giving me the courage to say yes! Lord, i also wanna thank you for Leanne, she indeed is a very special creation of Yours and may i please ask You to bless her abundantly. and Lord, i wanna thank you too, for giving me the people who are always so encouraging and who are always there for me and encourage me to draw closer to you, thank you for people who have always been praying for me Lord. bless them! Lord, thank you for everything!

in Jesus name i pray
Amen

FAMILY

i got this forwarded email from pat .. it really implies how important family are to us and especially at this period of time .. when i kept hearing that sickness and pain are haunting yeen's grandma and jia mien's grandparents as well as waicheong's father.. it really gave me a wake up call to TREASURE the people i have around me. accidents happen and no one can predict any of them. indeed, it is really painful .. and it's even worse to see the people u love who are so dear to u undergo the pain tat u could never imagine ..

guys. may i please urge u to APPRECIATE those u love and remember them in ur prayers.

and please pray for yeen and jiamien's grandparents as well as waicheong's dad s they all are ill.

here's the email.



F A M I L Y

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.

He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."

We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home a different story is told,


How we treat our loved ones, young and old.

Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.

He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.

While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,

"While dealing with a stranger,
common courtesy you use,
but the family you love, you seem to abuse.

Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.

He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."

By this time, I felt very small,
And now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.

I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."

I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."

He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay.
I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."


FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days..

But the family we left behind will feel the
loss

for the rest of their lives.

And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more
into work than into our own family,
an unwise investment indeed,
don't you think?
So what is behind the story?

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?
FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU






stay strong my jimuis. know tat u haf my ultimate support k? i love u all heaps!!! and honestly.. it really saddens me to see them go through this .. :'(

AS SWIFT AS IT CAN GET :)

i just dun understand why i take so long to reply ppl's mail!!! >.< maybe i have too much to say!! hahaha :P tat's y ultimately one day i can only reply one .. tat's when i feel like it or when weekend rocks by and i have a double spare on a friday!! which is like TODAY!! hahhaha :P ..

anyhoo .. i have always been wanting to post something really inspiring tat has always been on my head and on my mind .. well .. initially was a lil depressing .. but now tat it has passed for so long and things had finally cleared .. i would really like to share it .. sigh .. but NO TIME!! >.< may be tonite? maybe tomorow???



geeeshh .. i hate how there's so much to do but so lil time >.<



going to watch footy tonite .. essendon vs collingwood .. hope it doesnt rain!


brief update:
i think i screwed both my maths sac and chem test
i think i need to focus more and get back in tune
i think i need to excercise more as i can feel the bundle of fats building up underneathe my epidermal layer
i think i'm starting to miss the routine gd nite and sweet dreams msg tat i used to get.. (ps. boss .. if u're reading this .. it's not u tat i'm talking about k? )
i think i have a weak heart .. for seeing ppl suffer puts me into great pain >.<
i think i wouldnt be able to get my Ps before i go back in dec
i think the ABU blog is so freaking funny!!
i think there's nothing much tat i can do but to accept the changes in life and to live with it
yerr .. i think it's gonna rain!!
i think i'm turning into a pig!! been eating and sleeping so much!! which is y i screwed my sac and maths
i think i need to figure out wat God wants me to do and wat i wanna do
i think i need to apply for uni administration >.< pengsan!!
i think i'm gonna miss the yr 12s here
i think i'm becoming more and more mature as i grow older!! (i dun wan!! >.<) hahaha
i think i'm starting to understand y ppl become emo at times ..

i think i think too much
i think i'm a really lucky and fortunate gal for having everything and everyone i have around me :)


by the way.. just tot u may be interested, i passed my Ls!! 1 step closer to driving!! woohoo!!!!!


anywayz. just a prayer for yeen and her grandma
God,
i pray that u will give strength to both yeen and her grandma as they undergo both physical and emotional hardship now at this critical period lord. grant them peace and let it not affect her family so much but to continue to have faith in you, Lord. let us all learn that everyhting is in your hands lord.
Amen.














sorry guys. wasnt really in the bloggin mood >.< take care and hopefully i'll be back!

LEARNERS PERMIT TEST

taking my Ls today!!! fingers crossed and pray hard tat i'll pass! i paid like AUD$30 to take the test .. if not for driving .. i need to pass for the sake tat i paid! .. hehe :P i know i'm stingy ... but guys .. i'm kinda broke u see! after all those shopping with yeen and eating all those yummy food :) hahah ..but i've got no regrets though .. this weekend was such great fun!!! :) :) :) though no doubt i've gained weight .. but WHO CARES !!!

more detailed post to come .. gotta do some last minute studying.. scared scared!!

CREATIVE WRITTING

well... tmr;s my creative writting sac .. last one for english and i guess u cant really prepare for it .. so .. i ended up sitting in front of the com replying ppl's emails and checking some stuff online .. in the excuse to improve my personal writting skills!! hahaha :P well well .. cant blame me mann .. i've been having sacs and tests this whole week!! i need a break or else i'll literally break down!!

to be frank .. i kinda did .. today .. after school .. i screwed my bio sac gao gao.. dint have enough time to even finish half of the second part! damn it! >.< and straight after tat there's this careers talk tat someone hurried me to.. knowing my slow and "mo"-ness.. i hate being rushed .. especially when i was already not in a decent mood!! the talk was rather informative.. but not the course tat i may wanna pursue in uni .. but surely open up my window in the arts area.. anyhoo .. during the talk .. i could just feel tat my head was literally spinning .. and it was as if it was a rubber band, being pulled to the max .. and as if the sulfur watever bond is gonna break soon .. all tensed and aimless!! >.< i wasnt clear of the reason making me so stress and *frankly* i was kinda upset! but for some unknown reason!! i was pissed at not knowing why i'm pissed ... sad at how even i myself couldnt figure out y i'm feeling cranky!! it was totally frustrating .. if there was a wall .. i probably bang myself to it!!! .. but often times .. i ended up in my bed .. putting myself to sleep .. hopefully it would be better after i wake up ..

like wat they say "there's nothing so bad tat cant be cured by a nap" .. i guessed i woke up at the right side of the bed .. :)

oh! random tot just flowed into my mind .. i dreamt of my family and frens back home!!! it kinda made me homesick too during the weird pissy period this noon .. i dreaded to go home so badly at tat time .. or was simply yearning for a cuddle .. a hug.. or merely a gentle touch .. some form of intimacy ... but none of them happened .. probably like wat my sis claimed lastime .. when i dreamt tat i was on stage with this cute taiwanese artist -rain yang..
"tat;s y it's a dream.. it will never happen in real life"
sharp and precise .. my dream today was so sweet and i was so content in it .. i dreamt of going on a holz with family and frens... to germany and met up with shen!! hahaha .. i dreamt of twin,boss,jm,han and i think a couple more! we were just having dinner .. and embarassingly i was so messy when i ate (why do i still embarass myself even in my own dream!??!!! xp )

anyhoo ..it's just a dream.. but i would love to realise it though!
*great gigantic long sigh*








i'm so SO glad tat the long weekend is finally here .. i need to get out of this place .. to give myself a rest .. went to the bank yesterday .. looking at the transactions .. i'm actually shocked tat i;ve ONLY been out couple of times .. not tat i get to save heaps of money ..cos seeing tat i hardly go out .. i often ended up overtreating myself *heart bleeds as money flies away from me!!* hehee..

guess i wont be doing any work today!! cheers ppl!!


expect another post from me tomorrow as i'll be blogging again tonite .. my laptop sot d.. but i'll still borrow one .. erhem erhem *clears throat* BLOGGING TO PRACTISE FOR MY ENGLISH SAC TMR~!!

hehhehee :P


jo, i'm reading the book "purpose driven life" .. i'm up to day 4 today!! i'm sure u're proud of me yea ??
kc, i know it's a lengthy post here! :P

YEA .. RESULTS..

hmm ... since i'd gotten the results yday i was ultimately distracted. . been eating talking .. walking .. day dreaming everyhting else but doing homework despite such a hectic week i am going through with an average of a sac per day!!

great!! my results werent fab as i wanted and now i'm procrastinating!! >.<

well .. if u wanna know bout it .. just come and ask me .. i'm all open to telling ..

it was a lil disappointing .. but i kinda expected it ..especially chem ... sitting under the sun with my nervous hand shivering all the time .. it was to no surprise tat i din do quite well as i wanted .. sigh .. it's all over tho .. and there's nothing much tat i could do about it other than study harder for the finals and pray harder too!! :)

dun worry tho .. i was just depressed for a minute after i opened the envelope which sealed my results .. yaya gave me a big warm hug tat totally cleared the skies!! thank god for tat!! and yea .. i'm taking it pretty well .. knowing tat mum and dad werent pushing me to the wall till i got no where to turn .. in retrospect . .mum was actually very supportive and stood by me!! thanks mummy!! i love u!~!!


well done to cx tho!! u really made me proud!! and in the mean time broke too! >.<

hope all the vce-ppl are happy with wat they have!! jon .. buckle up k!!

yes yeen .. i'll blog about "THE POST" when i have time!! hehe!!




btw .. i had a really scary nitemare of cats~~1!! >.< .. so .. no cats near me for now thank u~




cant wait for midterm~



han ee jm and wei.. hp credit running low ..may not be able to reply asap! but wait till the 7th yea?? that's when i recharge~ woot!