i've got so much to say

MATTHEW!!! i wanna go out with u!!! havent really caught up with ya since planetshakers conference!!
KIMCHEW!! i know u did real well for ya exams! congrats~! i'll be waiting for my dinner :P
JON!! i need ur number! :P

aikz .. seemed so despo

but i allow me to just say a few thank yous
firstly to BABY for having dinner and sending and accompanying me for the play :D
JO .. u know u're always so awesome and great and i cant thank God enough for u!
JON.. ur encouragement is so .. encouraging and i truly appreciate them!
CX!!!!!!!!! thanks for being my chauffer on wed and forever being so nice and patient with me :) thanks for coming to the play!!
KDD~!!! thanks for going to the play wiht cx despite ur tummy upset!! and not to forget for sending me home :)

i'm actually very blessed :) i figure i need to take some time out and just count my blessings and thank God :)




sigh*

yes.
i'm a lousy friend
i'm a lousy daughter.
i'm trying to improve at my punctuality
i'm trying to be a better person but i cant do it by my own's strength
it's seems as if no one's appreciating my effort >.<
or perhaps to them .. it doesnt EVEN seemed that i've put in any
i know who i am and i know i'm called to live up for more. i know i'm a testimony.
i know people are expecting more of me
that's why i cant give up
and that's why i'm so pressured!!!
i guess perhaps i'm off no good to u
perhaps you think i drink obsessively
or maybe i'm loud or maybe i'm quiet and shy
or u reckon i'm so-called-holy
i'm sorry
i'm really sorry.
if u can see the tears i shed for u. if u know how much i think of u and pray for u.
forgive me.
i should be more understanding and more compassionate. more of this and more of that.

i've spent a day and a night on my bed. with tears. but that's enough.i shall do that no more.
cos God spoke to me today.
through the lil message the pastor spoke. and through the play. through my book and of course, His words, the bible.
There's nothing that i can do to make Him love me more.
My strength is so limiting. . but His is undefined. and he is just so GOOD to me. though i'm unfaithful. though i suck. though i've sinned. though i've screwed things up. he is always faithful always forgiving and always loving.

Lord, thank you for everything. help me to be a better person. to be more pleasing to my family and friends. Lord Jesus, thank you for the love and compassion that u have on your people that u made us your sons and daughters. Fahter, forgive me. i want to live for you and more. God, strengthen me please. you know my dismay and you know how badly i'm hurt. thank you for the peace you've promised. Lord Jesus, i pray and i ask that u touch the hearts of many. Father, i'm desperate. so desperate to see your miracle. too long have i waited but i will keep waiting for it is your timing that is perfect and i dont wanna rush it. God, thank you for the support you sent.bless them O Father. Send your angels around them. Father, also pray for those who are sick. for joanne,leanne,chuxiang,yeeming,chinfei and chunwei. heal them with your touch. Lord, think about those overseas and those who just came back. Lord, pray that you'll keep them safe and bless them with joy as they are away from home. Jesus, i wanna pray for my PLC friends. Lord, even though we're miles apart, please send them friends that could lighten up their days and draw them closer to u. God, pray for my family. i believe that my householda and i will serve the Lord. Father, take away all the brokeness insecurity and arguments. Lord, i pray for your blessings be upon the relationship, may it be friendship and boy girl relationships. Lord,in particularly, i'm praying for my jimuis and their boys. Lord, i wanna pray for those who cared so much about me as well. Father, i thank you so much for sendin me friends during my lowest period. Jesus, bless jon, pat,boss teckkeong,mak,baby,jo,cx,kdd,chinfei,ernest,cheez,jon,weijin,ee,wei and all the planetshakers. God, take away sadness,sickeness and negativity but instead, sow in them an unlimited amount of joy,peace,faithfulness,self-control,patience,goodness and kindness. Lord, i pray that your glory will come through and reign. i know i have only one audience,that's you. God, touch them and knock on the doors of their hearts. God, i surrender all of my life upon your feet. take control. in Jesus mighty name. Amen.