BORED

I'M SO BORED AT HOME!!

currently i'm so bored at home. i know i can do a quite few things but i'm somehow not doing them. i'm just drowning myself with thoughts and memories. why do i do this to myself? sigh*


i wanna cry but i cant
there's just too many goodbyes and hello again. cant i just pretend that i dont care?

i wanna go home. take me home.
teach me how to stay focus and stay strong.
please hold my hand. i cant do this alone.
how long more

the call

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

i'm done

i'm finally.. FINALLY done with exams :D after 2 weeks of watching chloe partying, it's finally my turn! mwahahhaha :D

weirdly, it didnt feel as though i've got no strings attached. my room is still in a BIG mess that i'm yet to tidy up.
coming online has made me realised that i've got a whole heap of stuff to do and it just stressed me out. why do i do this to myself >.< GRRR. anyway, it's good. i love challenges. only when i get through them! NOW, they ANNOYING me. and i wanna sleep. but sigh...

anyway, i pampered myself with a movie n lunch after my final paper.

i watched sex and the city. i was a lil put off by the title of the movie as well but after reading caleen's strong recommendation, i decided to give it a shot :P

it turned out to be very enjoyable. it made me thought and connected some dots.

the movie talks about friendships and relationship





cant u see the resemblance?





i made me think alot about us. haha. more about that later. but seriously guys! i cant wait for this day! :D




hehehe. do let my imagination run wild a lil :) i seriously look forward to the day when one of u girls (or even myself) walk the aisle! :D :D :D

WOW

it's one of my WOW moments :)

I've just received something that i didnt really even asked for, well i kinda did ask for something but it just came totally unexpected! Thank you God :)



and no i didnt buy a chocolate bar and casually open it to find it. a random stranger gave it to me at the train station. when it was one of the very few times where i go home alone after church :) i usually have train buddies or somehow bumming into other ppl. but today, just felt that God is going to take me home, so i went and taadaaah. a guy blessing me with a free chocolate bar :) how cool :) :) and i felt bad always receiving, so i made him an origami while i was on the train :p since we ended up boarding the same train. i should have the courage to talk to him but i was shy >.< and i really wanted to study at first cos i'm having



flagrace prac exams on tues. knowing anatomy with all the names, it does take alot to fully grasp it.

but guess wat i ended doing during my entire train ride? praying for tat dude :) :)

i guess everything that we do, it was all for love.








anyway, for those non-responsive readers who always check me blog, ladies, i want you to know that you ARE a



and God has his eyes on you.







and a lil update from my cubby. i should be embarrassed to even put this up. sigh but well. studies has made me neglect my room. winter cleaning right after exams mann

my bin is disgusting



my table is uber messy



i duno why i have the time to even take photos n put it up.
but i know one thing for sure tat i'll ALWAYS always want to make time for





for my Greatest One and the Only One.
i love you.

YAY!

next sem i've definitely gotten fridays off!!!! :D :D :D

and the best news is maybe i could get tuesdays off as well!! hehehehe :P YAY!




i know i should be studying instead of planning for next sem but i just cant bring myself to it. please pray for me.

where would i be

i am such a blessed girl!!! :)

had my first exams on monday. honestly, it wasnt the easiest but i had God's presence throughout the whole exam! it was awesome! well, if you'd seen me on sunday night, i had an attack. i wasnt stressed about exams but out of the smallest thing, i broke down and was fully crying all night long. it was literally something small that i gave permission for it to magnify itself. how silly of me. from a distress position to a state where i could smile and feel peaceful, it's really all glory to Him.
but also, really thank God for people He placed around me, my awesome housies, sister, chenny, lynnie and ailing :)

thank you for all the behind the door prayers that i've been recieving. i know i've been getting more n more of them lately especially during this exam period. oh yes. did i mention that i've got a paper tmr? gulp. i just cant concentrate at home!! GRR!

anyway, i've got another story to tell. i was blessed with FREE nandos chips!!! :) i went to study at this nandos near my place. i went there for the first time yesterday n i really liked the environment, the atmosphere, the setting of it. it wasnt like a busy packed and loud place. it was quiet with the classic country brazilian music going at the back. and apart from lunch time, i would basically be the only one in the restaurant! :p haha. how cool was that?! i made friends with the people serving even! well not really frens friends but we talked abit and stuff :p

so i was there since 11. bought a bottle of juice upon arrival and a chocolate mousse after 2 hour. at about 3.30 i was falling asleep and reckon that a bowl of small chips would help in keeping me awake. and guess wat? the waitress there was SO nice that she had already cooked it and was gonna give it to me! for ABSOLUTELY FREE! wow. God hears my thoughts :) and blessed me with them. i am such a happy child now!

on the other note, i'm excited about thursday night :) she's my babeee!










sweetheart, i want to go through this with you. i've been waiting for you to open up but i guess the few streets away is really a little too far now hey? why you never call anymore? what about my texts? my arms are open and i want to hug you, if you ever allow me to. i really love you, if only you knew.

i stumble upon this

seriously. u would have no idea where i got this from. even i am still trying to fully grasp this~!!


Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, talented, fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.
We are all meant to shine, as children do.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously
give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

- from a return to love by marianne williamson -

God's been working in someone's life. Christian or not, He is standing right outside the door of his heart. i hope he realise that!!!!!!! and God, please work a miracle :) i know u can and u always do :) :)

listen

i just realise that i am like a kid, with short attention span. i am easily distracted with things. but hey. u cant really blame me for that. there are just too much colours to everything!

there's this


and this



can you hear the sound that they are making?? or how the littlest things are trying to grab your attention? imagine talking to people. or imagine trying to find out more things about them or things that went by your vision scope, or something come stringing by your ears. well.. i duno bout others but for me, i couldnt resist to focusing on one and just allow my eyes to trail the new stimuli. it's like everything around me wanting me to listen to them or look at them when i should be concentrating and focusing on doing my studies.

so how? just gotta tell yourself to focus!

dont you think it sometimes can be the same with God as well? He's been trying in every way to get our attention, but somehow, we've been too distracted. we've missed the still small lil voice as we're bombarded by the LOUD catchy noise. sometimes, it could be OUR own thoughts and self-inflicted stress. yeap. that's right. self-inflicted.
Greatest thing is that He doesnt give up or get turned down easily. HE LONGS to talk to us. He wants to talk to us or listen to us. sometimes all we need is to be still and listen to Him. Even though you dont know if God exist or even if He is real, He wants to talk to listen to you. He could speak through everything and anything! maybe you just need to listen. or maybe you could try talking to Him!

sick

being sick and trying to study is really hard. God, please give me the strength!!

havent been sick for so long and this puny cold is taking me down more than i thought it could! >.< but i'm still believing in the healing power of Jesus! "by His stripes, I AM HEALED!"

also, praise God, He's speaking to me more and giving me heaps of revelations and ideas!! :) how cool!!!
He gave me a dream. in chinese! i dreamt of the chinese character - heart - xin! it has been so long since i wrote a chinese and for one moment as i tried to write it out again, it looked funny that i had to use the computer to reassure that the character is correct!! hmm.

perhaps, God is looking at my heart now. what is it like?
the chinese character 心 does really resemble the our heart anatomically. the arteries and veins are the dots. and the space is where the cavities- atrium and ventricles are.
but my question to you is. what fills it? what fills your heart today?

exams' coming up in 2weeks.
i should really start studying. really.

it's the time of the year again. the holiday season approaching and the time that i usually go home. it's hard not to think about it when it has been a routine for more than 4 years. things are great here but i really wonder how are things back home? there's so much to do.. both here n there. could someone please invent a teleport thingy-magingy?

i've learnt how to do heaps of stuff in my new course. particularly, i enjoyed the nursing ones. still really thinking about paramedics. it's all exciting and stuff.. but imagine having someone's life at your stake. HUGE responsibilities. but then again, greater times to see God performing miracles. COOL :) either ones are cool. i love the healthcare professions! but yet again, there are so much complications to it. especially the ethics and rules. GRR! dun exactly know what they do but sure dont sound too good.

anyway, i'm trying to make this rice pudding thing for urban life and i duno how it taste like? anyone wants to have a try?

went visiting my kids on saturday! their family is so nice. i went shopping for myself the first time in 4 months!!!!! :) retail therapy. and guess waT? i bought a bini / hat/ buret thingo from pumpkin patch. it's a kids department hehehe :P twas good!

i'm tired from work. but i ate HEAPS! i had a max brenners waffle for the first time ever since i worked. yummm.. but surely consequences follow >.<

i should get back to a healthy lifestyle. it includes eating healthily and EXERCISE!! hey. dont laught. at least i am attempting to do this!

THANK GOD!

i passed my test!!

thank u so much to those who prayed for and with me. it was very much appreciated! and once again, shows that God hears our prayers. i was practically just letting Him take control and be in charge and it turned out better than i could imagined! i got above 90+ % !!! imagine that! WOW! i couldnt believe it myself either! His eyes are watching me :D

God is just so great! :)

driving test tmr!

yes. i'm having my third attempt of driving test!!
3 time lucky apparently. hehehe and 3 is a holy number ;p

please pray along with me :D
i really want to and believing that i'm gonna PASS :) :) this is it!! JESUS PLEASE HELP ME!

can u imagine me driving? i so can. i fully understand that it's for His glory! :)

i'll let u know how it went k?

thoughts

i've been having random thoughts today.

1. funny how u meet some people and never ever ever see them again. even if you do, you prolly wont remember that you've met and would just pass each other by as strangers. am i making sense?

2.been thinking alot about the people back home. i miss them. really want my house phone working then i could call them.

3. i have been trying to count how many hours of sleep i've been getting and definitely, it's a lot less than what i would have love to get.

4. faithful with the little? how?

5. how could someone be so near yet so far, so predictable yet so unexpected, so special yet so ordinary.

6. i havent used my camera for AGES and i miss taking photos >.<

7. i want to be able to just sit and lie there and let my mind totally drift off.

8. i want to be held by you.

9. time managing and being diligent is my next big task!! i wanna master it then perhaps i could have a social life after that! :P i miss hanging out with ppl i love. miss the times when i could easily spend time with ppl.

10. i wanna go star gazing, lying on the beach, have a nice playlist, and dream.

11. wonder what is happening on the other side of the world. i bet there's someone else on this very earth is having the exact same thought that i have now. but funny is it how minds could work.

12. i want ice cream.

random enough.




it prolly doesnt make sense .. haha. oh well.

-.-

MunYee has never been as heavy and as fat as now. just weighed myself >.<

i so am going on a diet starting monday!
*fingers crossed*

Answered prayerS

Some of you might have known that over the last 2 weeks, i've lost my student id. my official monash student ID and without it, during assignment period, is rather disasterous. i had been believing, praying and even got everyone that i was talking to, when remembered bout my ID, to pray about it for me.
you were thinking, why dont you just replace one. easy. save all the troubles.
well, you see, i dont understand this but monash impose a $60 as a penalty to replace a student ID. and no way i can afford it, no way i'm going to work 4 hours in maxie and redo an ID. it's just ridiculous and it's prolly because of me misplacing it under my pile of mess in the room.
this is the second week since i've lost my ID. i forgot to check lost and found and been just a lil concerned about it. but i believe that one day it would just appear out of no where in my room and prior to me replacing it. i told God about how worried i was and stuff. but He has it all in control.
today i got an email from monash.

hmm. i should copy n past it.

but basically, it states tat someone found it!! :D :D :D and has returned it! WOOT! thank you Jesus.

"Do not be anxious about anything, instead, pray about everything!" - Phil 4:6.

Thank you Lord, for listening to my lil prayers. i know i can trust You :)

a new journey

it's amazing how when u were at the verge of an end,
you'll hold on so tightly believing that things will be alright.



you know what?
i learnt that it will be when you learn to trust and believe.




Listen and do it.

He's already prepared it and He wiill guide you through it, even when you fall and dont wanna stand up again.



He loves you and it will never be washed away

huh?

wonder why am i doing this whilst i should be doing my 2500 words essay. i'm only 1/5 done. crap.

my topic is on the community of Pudu, where my grandma lives. So, basically, trying to research on the factual side of the community but somehow, all these travel guide and FOOD kept coming up!! *DROOLS* and somehow, they make me homesick >.< i wanna go back home.. for a short trip? smart geniuses, could u please quickly invent teleport? haha. or God, i dun mind having the JUMPING gift :P

haha. back to my assignment >.<

God's working a new thing in me. i'm scared but yet excited :) BIG thank you to those who never fails to input and sow in me. i love you so dearly. more detailed update later.

this is oh-so-beautiful

Bring The Rain lyrics

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

i should stop procrastinating and finish up my 2500 words essay.

sounds like a plan? hehe :)












i know somewhere around the earth, at the other end, you're thinking of this and directing it to me.
but the funniest thing is that this is for someone else.

i'm so sorry that i couldnt be there for you. my heart broke when i heard and read about it. i couldnt believe it. i want you to know that i've always been praying for you. for one instance, i questioned God and wondered why all these happen. to you and again. but i'm sure He got it all planned and there must be a reason. i'm so sorry i couldnt talk to you more yesterday. i was burdened myself. i broke down too. only 2 ppl knew. it reminded me of how u perhaps have silently cried yourself to sleep so many nights. i'm sorry. i should have texted you when He told me to. if there's anything i could do, i wanna say i love you so very much and i long to be back with you. i was dying for a hug yesterday and i know how bad it may have been for you too. Please take care of yourself my love. i miss you so very much..

mwah.


jo, i know you'll prolly like copy this and send it to me. hehehe. thank you so much for what u've done in my life. i know how badly u wanted to give me a hug. i wish i could receive it too.. miss u.

friends :)

thank God for the people He placed in my life. Good old friends and new friends.

i love making new friends and getting to know more people. but yet, i also love getting to know people more. there's always golden moments when you bond with old friends. makes you appreciate what you have and let you realised what a long way you've come.

camp was awesome. part of it was because of the above. seeing how old friends were completely transformed and new friends drawing closer to the heartbeat of God. It's amazing and something within my heart stirs.

did i tell you also that i've learnt to make my very own first coffee using the coffee machine? :D yea!! i can make coffee now. you be the judge and let me know if it's good :p

BEAUTIFUL :)

I had the most amazing experience on Monday when i just finished work. As usual, i was going to catch the bus home from work and u know, feeling a little tired. with the groceries i bought from this asian store and chocolates for fund raising, my mind was just running with heaps of to do lists and praying that the grocery bags wont break.

So, the bus came along after a short wait and i hopped onto it. there, was the friendliest bus driver i've ever met. the moment i stepped into the bus, i tot i'll be nice and say " hi". usually the bus drivers would just acknowledge it and ignore me after 2 sec. but this guy, he was fully like " HI BEAUTIFUL! How are you?"

i was fully stunned and fully grinning. chatted for a while and headed off to my seat. my mind was then drifted off with sms-ing people and the things i need to do before camp. soon enough, we reached monash and i needed to hop off.

As i was really kind *cough cough*, (and also the fact that i dun want my cheapo lousy thin plastic bag full of groceries to burst) i let others get off before me. the bus driver called me to use the front door. i didnt give much consideration to it so i went. Then, he started talking to me even more.

BD (Bus Driver) : you know what? you're the most beautiful girl i've met! (or something like that. cant really remember the exact words)

ME : ... (laughing to myself and also in embarassment)

BD : What's your name?

Me : Mun Yee

BD : That's a beautiful name. Have I picked u up before?

Me : Well, maybe. i take this bus to work quite often. maybe you did

BD : What course are you doing? you studying yea?

Me : I'm doing nursing and paramedics double degree down in monash peninsula. And as you can see. i do travel a bit.

BD : wow. i reckon u'll be such a good nurse. (turns to this other guy in the bus) dont you think she'll be an amazing nurse?

other guy : yea!!

Me : (laughing) Hope so.

BD : If i had something happen to me now, and if you're the paramedic who comes and tend to me, i'll prolly be going to heaven immediately.

ME : (talking to myself in my heart)- hope not. (continues laughing) Nahhhhhhh.

BD : do you have a boy friend. i'm sure there's heaps of boys going after you. look at you. so beautiful (or some what) if i was back in my 25s i would definitely go after you but now, i'm like 55 , old fart, surely there's heaps of guys going after you.

Me : (LAUGHING EVEN MORE) haha. no. i dont have a boyfriend and there's no guys going after me.

BD : then it must be you being too busy in your studies or work.

Me : yea. gonna concentrate and focus on these before getting a bf.

BD : good girl.

... laughing and slight conversation continues.

BD : do remember to say hi next time if you jump on this bus.

ME : yea sure. you definitely made my day. have a good night.

BD : see ya beautiful.

His name is Martin by the way. i made a friend :)

Seriously, it made my day. well, my night more like it. i was just like wow. cant believe i am that beautiful in the eyes of that man. and i wasnt even putting any effort in dressing up or anything. i was in my dirty working clothes and just trying to lug my groceries home. nothing too special. but it's amazing how there's power in words and how one thing said can change the feelings of another person :) dun get me wrong, i am not like fully flattered over this one incident. like flying off the roof for someone saying that i'm pretty. i know i am beautiful because God created me :D

it's amazing how God can speak through people. on monday night itself, i crashed. something happened and i couldnt believe wat my ears wat sending into my brains. my thoughts ran wild. i was in a position where i duno what to do or what is left to do. i cried out. but i just love how gentle Jesus' response is. how sweet and perfect.

"Look up, beautiful" and He dried my tears.