funny aint it how people's emotion can be affected by the silliest thing on earth!!!

yes. currently i am.
SEE MUN YEE IS FREAKED OUT TO THE BOMB-DIG-GI-DY BECAUSE OF A COMPANION IN HER ROOM!




a lizard is crawling abouts and i cant sleep!! it's way past my bed time!! >.<
God please help me!!!

Sign of God's goodness


Sometimes i really felt that i'm of no good. i tried. nothing happened. my efforts just arent good enough. words of flying daggers came back in return. i'm pierced. i'm disappointed. but God's hands seemed to always be around the corner.

this is just EXACTLY what i felt. and it came into my inbox this morning.

Today's Prayer
Dear God, Sometimes I feel like I have poured myself into something or someone, and worked and fought for a cause, only to see no fruits for my labors. It all seemed in vain. But I know that You can work in all of that to fulfill a greater purpose. Please, don't let the labor of my heart and hands be in vain. I pray that all I do would be as unto You and for a good purpose and eternal value. Please bless the works of my heart and hands for Your glory. Please empower me with wisdom and insight through Your Holy Spirit. Please guide me every step and every day, to have a part in reaching this world for You and ministering to those I love. In Jesus' name, amen.


disappointed? yes, i WAS but i'm not gonna give in. tired? yes, i WAS but i'll never give up.

Let the weak say i am strong
let the poor say i am rich
because of what the Lord has done in me.

i know i havent really been updating. yes yes yes. i admit. i'm lazy. hee :D so here's one :D

what have i been up to recently?? mmm.

oh yes. i've got some terrible news. i failed my driving exams for the second time. ARGGGHHH!! how annoying! and guess what i failed on this time. mirrors, stall, blah blah blah. it made me felt as though i'm never good enough. but really thank God this time for His grace and His peace. I wasnt super nervous or anything but perhaps, driving is not my grace for the time being. i know it's super hard for me to accept it cos i'm so keen to drive and be independent, stop troubling others.. but guys, sorry. it aint happening yet >< BIG BOO TO IT!!!! everyone has been super encouraging to me in this matter, telling me to try harder next time. thanks but i dun really want a next time.

anywayz... on a happier note, we celebrated mel's 20th birthday in eureka tower. apparently it's the tallest residential building in victoria or australia. well i'm not too sure but i sure know tat it was tall :P prior to the night, boss n i baked, since elisa's got her left over bits n pieces and she wants us to finish it..



so yea.. we baked and we carefully packaged it in a cereal box to disguise it with our green groceries bag. but according to mel post celebration, she kinda figured. but it was great to just spend time with people u love in the highest building, overlooking melbourne at night.



and then spending nights at jon, tim and aunty jane's house is the most hilarious thing ever!! when u have hard-core-punk-wannabe, super-nerd and seductive-female-watch-male-advertisor rocking up in his place placing cluedo till 4am. this is fun yo!






mmmm .. wat else wat else tat i can say?

oh oh oh. how can i miss this.

OCF THANKSGIVING

i'll just put a couple of photos for this. cos i think i've gained weight and i dun wanna conteminate ur eyeballs.



mel did my make-up. knowing me, i'll stuff up big time. she's a pro though





my leader





so sweet yea? my favourite photo! :p



and there was the triple J's farewell.
thank God that i managed to attend even though i had to work late. and really thank chenny for always being so willing to drive me around. because of him, not only i manage to reach home safely every sunday, but i manage to say my farewell and goodbyes. it was sad. but i'm thankful for the memories :D



julians



yes, i get to superpoke as in literally superpoke kuo hao in the party :P

not to forget, there was rach fi's birthday party with the theme - white.





and lots of dancing :P

another celebration that i attended was my cousin's new born baby party!! yes. i'm now an auntie.



oh oh oh!! we had our urbies outing too! tat was great deal of fun! more photos of tat on facebook.



yummmmmm... strawberries..... *DROOLS*









and we went to the beach as well.. it was good. i had lots of fun and i cant thank God enough for what He has given me.

i've been spending hours of my beauty sleep on this post. so u guys better appreciate it! haha. yet i've got so much more to say. my battery is running low though. both my body's battery and my com's .. hmm.. well.. perhaps more next time.

by the way have i mentioned tat i'm now working in max brener's - the chocolate shop? it was indeed God's provision. He really grants the desires of my heart and i'm soooo excited!! everything's good there. God is so worthy of my praise!

i'm sooo excited as well.. cos not only i just went to babysit my neighbour;s kids - i love them so so much! there's planetkids graduation this sunday. my girls are all graduating. so sadd... but it;ll be another fold of great blessings in their lives. something to look forward to.

u know wat? somehow i just felt as though i've got so much that i wanna to but i just kept forgetting bout the things that i want and need to do? does it ever occur to u or is it just me?

i'm coming home soon. i cant wait to see everyone. i'm excited. i'm excited for christmas too! this is gonna be a whole new christmas!

*sings carols with leaps of joy* signing off.

of all things big and small,
you're still the greatest of all.

i love you.

updates :)

PEGGIE and CHEL aare all graduates now! CONGRATS!! *wonder how long will it be till it's my turn ^.- *

ARE YOU GAME was definitely a blast :D :D
everyone is always so pretty when it comes to events like this.. no .. actually. i take that back. everyone is ALWAYS so pretty. EVERYDAY :) sometimes i just cant help but checking both the guys and girls out ;p but often times, my eyes are more fixed on the girls :) hehe.
i think for the next event i'm SOOO gonna sign up for smtg coz i was only doing the preparation stage work but not anything on the day itself.. and having said so.. i reached there early and was asking everyone if i could help out with anything all the time .. felt kinda bad disturbing ppl :) but really have to thank billy and couple of the guys for keeping me occupied :) :)
the night was really fun-packed and the message was fantastic!!
meiching got free movie passes! AWESOME :D

SUPPER after that was fun too :)
went with li - my sassy senior :P , peggie and her siblings - dom and shaun.
dom is so super cute!! and cheeky with his charm cards :p

God has been super good to me. i've just experienced His provision for my financial difficulties :D i was left with 100bucks short to pay my rent but God is so great that suddenly, not just my pay came it. i had something extra in my account. and it was enough to pay for my rent!!!!!! :) :) :)

how great is tat!!
i'm believing for more breakthroughs and for a job in either pancake parlour or max breners!!!!!!!! YEA!

oh. one more thing. i've just joined facebook. i'm like a noob. guess i'm gonna spend my whole day doing that!! :P ehehhee time kiiller and since i have no work today.. why not?! heee :D

i'm so inpsired and stirred seeing people getting baptised and i really cant wait for the day when it;s my turn :)
Chloe, Bea, William, Alvin, Ailing, amy, yiana, debbie and all - i'm so proud of u!!! i could really felt open heaven yesterday :D

iwentformyPsdrivingexamsandifailed.
worstthingeveristohaveyourinstructornexttoyouscoldingyouwhenyou'resadenough.










sigh, buckle up and be prepared for the next one i guess :)

CANT BELIEVE IT!

seriously. who would have thought, after so many years, so many acclimatisation, being so settled, i could be nostalgic!!! o.O and guess wat? i'm missing the people and things back home! honestly, this hadnt hit me for somewhile already, understanding that i'm actually slowing settling in and sooner than i thought, i may start calling this place HOMELAND. hahhaha. but the things is, i'd never get to do that as long as the key players in my life aint with me here.

yes. i was bored. i wasnt working yo! u cant really blame me for having too much time that i started flickering on the past photos or blog hopping right? my heart just dropped and butterflies flew into my stomach.

it had been long since i felt it this way .. when was the last time?? it wasnt even as worse when i first came back in June! perhaps it's because i'm missing everyone from both malaysia, high school and even uni!! T.T
*ouch* crap! i just sat on my finger! (how smart! >.<) PAINN!!

anywayz .. i was just flicking through the photos and .. i just miss everyone and everything. sorry bout being so whiney and i know eelin and trili always said i'm very "manja" :p well .. guess i am :D (SOMETIMES :P) but u know wat?? recently i've been
pondering on the topic - LOVE.



i was very challenged to "freely give as you have freely received". of course i'm very tempted to just throw the question - WHO LOVE ME, PLEASE SAY SO!! or WHY ARENT YOUR ACTIONS EVEN DROP ME THE SLIGHTEST HINT THAT YOU CARE... cos after rather being disconnected from the bigger circle, i realised that give a lil note or a brief love-ya-goodnight message on msn can make such a HUGE difference..

so big that it makes BIG seemed small :p
(well, not to mention outings and trips - they're the bombs)

surely, love isnt something to much to ask for. everyone needs to be loved, not just from the King, but also from people. It is surely more comforting than anything to be known as a Princess or Prince and even a CHAMPION in His eyes. When His Presence floods your heart, you're crowned with royalty. Its hard to explain but yea. However, let's come back to reality. WE ARE STILL HUMAN. There's still this part in us that craves for the love from peers or family or technically, from a person. Funny aint it how you can be so refreshed under His throne but yet you still miss the love language from people. Perhaps that why God created Eve.. perhaps it's because Adam needed company. a friend and a family. a companion. a someone.

[current song: i'll be there by mariah carey. our speech night song *sniff sniff* ]

yes. i do admit. i want to be loved. i was once told & even tested, by jo at mph! :p asking, what are the 5 languages of love.



no.. not the hand language. i went to search it cos i cant remember the 5th one :p


QUALITY time
physical touch
words of affirmation and encouragement
gifts
acts of service

jo asked me which area is my strength. honestly. i duno. cos i dun think i'm really good when it comes to love. all i want is to be loved. it is a very selfish of me. and perhaps i could come up with tonnes of justifications to it. but i wanna love more. i wanna be a person who GIVE.

i realised that for too many times, for too long, i've taken too many things for granted. too many people for granted.

i'm sorry and i'm trying to change that. help me.

though i feel like i'm being challenged to love EVERYONE despite everything, it's sometimes aint the easiest thing to do, especially after i'd been receiving quite a fair bit of negative reinforment (ooo .. psy jargon!) but hey, my God is a god who adds super into natural and my God gives me the strength that i need to overcome, so even though in psychology aspect, it requires damn much effort to change, but nothing is impossible for Him.

i know i such at replying emails or even sms.. phone calls and skypes are better with me :p .. but do know that my mind is always flooded with people close to my heart, k? and trust me, at the most random time of the day. i'm sorry i'm not good at expressing them.. but i just wanna say thank you to those who had always made me felt so comfortable at being myself that i'm able to just ..
wake up with super bad hair and still open the door for ya,
or constantly adjust my dress coz it's too loose
or simply call you up when i need a ride home after dark
or just random and spontaneously play sports with
or go in your car on a rainy day when ur wipers aint working
or feel the warmth in my heart though we're like miles apart

thank u for those timely phone calls and sms-es. i love u i love u.

so for now, please, grab my hand, and let's go for a spin - i know mandy loves doing it! :p

the previous post was a lil incomplete. been trying to upload more photos to it but somehow it aint working well .. so . i'll prolly go back to it later.

just a few mental notes.

i tot this quote from some movie trailer was pretty cool.
"the dimmest (or smallest light) will still shine in darkness" - i want to shine :) like carebears ;p

i think i'm being attacked in the area of insecurity >.< it sucks but i believe by the love of Jesus, i can overcome it. perhaps it's PMS or watever, it is definitely an issue that hits today;s girls and hey.. i cant help it k when i'm actually and constantly being surrounded by super pretttay girls :P but definitely.. my honour mann.. and i believe when i overcome it.. it'll be for God's glory and would definitely help me relate wit girls from similar situation! YEA!!

my sis is arriving tmr :D YAY!! great stuff to look forward to!

God is challenging me areas tat i was once very comfortable with. but thank God for choosing me :)

matt 7 : 7 ask and you will recieve, seek and you shall find, knock and the doors will be opened for you.
this verse has not only been reoccuring in planetkids but yesterday as i went to my neighbour's hse to babysit.. it popped on the tv!!! my goodness... :D

HAD BEEN A VERY HAPPY CHILD :)

loads had been happening and i hadnt really had a chance to blog about .. so .. here's some catching up photos :) but really sorry though .. i missed my old camera.. better batt life and quality.. but still .. this camera will do for the time being >.< think about the bright side yo! it's better than none! :D


first up .. WHAT IS was a blast!!!! somehow everyone was so dressed up and it was fantastic!!!



we went for supper after that :P



and my favourite moment - icecream time :D



so guys!!! better not miss the next upcoming event - ARE YOU GAME? on the 19th oct, melbourne high school!! IT'S GONNA BE OFF THE ROOF!

after that, on the very next day .. there's --- lake entrance joy jedis outing :)

big applause to stevictory and caterrrriffic

a shot prior to the 4hr journey







fish n chips... AAAAA











thanks for having me in the trip!! it was such a blasttttt :D when i reached home. i just couldnt help but have the warm fuzzy love feeling in my heart :D


theeennnn .. last sat ..we had our own 3-some outing :)









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though sometimes i had the thought (negative bad thoughts) regarding about not having many close friends- which is rather not true when i actually start counting :P hehehehe.. I came to realise that i am actually a very much loved child <3

DEEP

i've always been challenged to dive into the deep, cos apparently, the deep has greater things to offer. The deep sea fishes with neon and gorgeous colours swims there, the corals, everything. Same thing appeals with God.

God i want more of you. more of your power. you're soooo real !!!! more of your strength.

D-Diligent
E- Exploit
E- Expand
P- Passionate.

need to get back to my ass due friday!
COME ON!

SHORT ONE

God is soooo good to me. I felt that He has just unlocked me into another whole sense of greatness and seriously... just one touch from the King is all I need.

:)

note: this is gonna be a short post due to my bed calling forth for me. hehehehe and guess wat? power naps wont work the whole night. i had experimented it. SLEEP is still the main cure for fatigue. hehehe :P

tat's the lesson i learnt on the way to lake entrance. one word sums my trip up - AWESOME!!
*shall post pic when they're uploaded*

i miss letting my artsy farsty side flow out of me. according to some people, i'm so not a science student due to my liking to procrastination and the way i handle things.. :P i do admit that there's this art/humanity side of me cos somehow .. i tend to do better in humanities subjects (excluding language) since young. and yea.. dont you think it makes so much sense when words just flow soo smoothly out of ya? ok . i'm not making sense. whatever.

anyhoo.. i just wanna say that i am a very loved girl :D thank you. sometimes, i just need to step back, reflect and say thanks. one of my many weaknesses are taking things for granted. please nudge me when you see me doing that. i hate it.

for the assignment that is due on friday.. ARRGGHHHHh. need lots of work on it.

i do think that every circumstance we face is like a training ground. so that we can learn and grow more and also, it gives him room to come through :D

Your Irrevocable Calling
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman


For God's gifts and His call are irrevocable. - Romans 11:29

It is dangerous to align your calling and your vocation as dependent on each other. God calls us into relationship with Him. That is our foremost calling. It is from this relationship that our "physical" calling results. Whether that is to be a teacher, a stockbroker, a nurse, a pastor, or any number of vocations, we must realize that when He calls us, the change in vocation never changes His call on our lives. It is a mere change in the landscape of our calling. This is why it is dangerous to associate our purpose and calling too closely with our work. When we define our work life exclusively as our calling, we fall into the trap of locking up our identity into our vocation. This promotes aspiration because of a need to gain greater self-worth through what we do.

Os Guinness, author of The Call, describes the great artist Picasso, who fell into this trap.

"When a man knows how to do something," Pablo Picasso told a friend, "he ceases being a man when he stops doing it." The result was a driven man. Picasso's gift, once idolized, held him in thrall. Every empty canvass was an affront to his creativity. Like an addict, he made work his source of satisfaction only to find himself dissatisfied. "I have only one thought: work," Picasso said toward the end of his life, when neither his family nor his friends could help him relax. [Os Guiness, The Call (Nashville, Tennessee: Word Publishing, 1998), 242.]

What happens when you lose your job? Do you lose your calling? Do you lose your identity? Do you lose your sense of well-being? No. Calling involves different stages and experiences in life. Disruptions in your work are an important training ground for God to fulfill all aspects of His calling on your life. Trust in your God who says your calling is irrevocable and that all things come from Him.

MY FIRST DAY OF WORK :D

Jesus had been very good to me :) i'm sooo grateful for what that has been happening :)

firstly .. i've been approached with 2 jobs!! YAYYYY!!!!
secondly.. i'm just so thankful that He hears my tiny-puni-est thoughts!! seriously.. he answers them and everytime He does that.. it flipping flips me and shocks me mann!

why?

All the most random thing that flies by my head somehow turned up to have a wonderful and WOW .. :O purpose.. it's not just a normal .. erm.hmm.-.- thing .. it's a WOW!!! :O purpose. and it's just so beautiful and when it's His jigsaw puzzle that is being put togehter.. my goodness!! so pretty!! :)
what am i talking about u ask?

well.. i've been blessed by having both jobs that interests me!!! :) seriously. 1 in bakery and 1 in a cafe.. well .. the one tat i'm currently working in is a soulavki cafe at oakleigh and bakery is at clayton. it's AWESOME!!!! :) well .. today was my first day.. though i'm the only one bout my age everyone seemed to be nice. and coz there's couple of mothers there .. perhaps. apart from my leg being super tired, i was given a rissole .. yummm .. also, i've been taught to do the basic waitressing stuff.. :D it's all good :) but u know wat??

i cant wait to learn how to make coffee <3

as for the bakery, tomorrow will be my first day :) YAY!!! dun ask me to bake for u k? i highly doubt i'll be able to get some tips but i shall observe closely!! hehehe :P

a few short updates.
tuckwee, my urban life leader was hospitalised >.< pray that God's healing power is with Him
WHAT IS is just a few sleeps away!! OH MY GOODNESS~!!!!
PLANETKIDS GO SPACE is coming sOOO sOON!
i've been to the church office 2 times this week. the atmosphere there is just so .. different. and of course i had tonnes of fun painting the set :)
i miss jo and my sis >.<

JUST A LIL SHARING :D

i got this email from boss. it's amazingly true and yea.. i guess it's wat rash impatient youngster (erhem.do i sound like a mum? :P) nowadays like our generation should try to embrace :)



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Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,

To have a deep soul relationship with another,

To be loved thoroughly, and exclusively.

But God, to a Christian says,

“No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content

With being loved by Me alone,

With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me,

With having an intensely personal relationship with Me alone,

Discovering that only in Me

Is your satisfaction to be found,

Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship

That I have planned for you.

You will never be able to unite with another

Until you are united with Me,

Exclusive of anyone else, exclusive of any desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,

One that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the very best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things,

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM,

Keep listening and learning the things I tell you,

You just wait, that’s all

Don’t worry.

Don’t be anxious.

Don’t look around at the things others have gotten

Or that I’ve gotten them.

Don’t look at the things you think you want

You just keep looking to Me,

Or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready,

I’ll surprise you with a love

Far more wonderful than any you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready,

And until the one I have for you is ready,

(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time)

Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me,

And the life I prepared for you,

You won’t be able to experience the love that

Exemplifies your relationship with Me,

And thus is the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me;

And to enjoy materially and concretely,

The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love.

Know that I love you utterly,

I am God.

Believe it and be satisfied. "

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The Butterfly Principle

Overprotective parents do their children a great injustice. The caterpillar that lies inside the cocoon will never become the beautiful butterfly if someone cuts open the cocoon prematurely. It is the struggle itself that allows the butterfly to emerge as a strong, new creature of nature.

God understands how necessary this process is. That is why we are allowed to experience difficult, often life-changing events. He even orchestrates them-all for our benefit. What the Israelites thought was a cruel joke when Pharaoh sent troops to pursue them after they had been freed and penned against the shore of the Red Sea became the stage for the most publicized miracle of all time-the parting of the Red Sea. Generation after generation has heard this incredible story of deliverance. God puts us against the "Red Seas" in order to show His power in and through us. If we do not know God can deliver, then we can never learn to trust Him. Circumstances that go beyond our capabilities of solving them place us at God's complete mercy. This is how He likes it.

Do not fear the calamity that comes your way. If you are faithful to Him in the test, you will see God's power manifested like never before. Just as the Israelites were able to sing a song of deliverance, you too will have your own testimony of the Lord's faithfulness; and you will be able to recall it for others to build your faith and theirs.

leaving - gone

to those leaving the country soon.










u'll always be in my <3 coz i heart you so so much tat words cant find its place.


and those who are overseas and out there





be strong and couragous. know tat i always miss you