LOVE, LAZE and LIFE...

well .. recently.. had been hearing bout lots of ppl facing love department breakdowns.. not only one ..but a few.. well .. stil .. makes me really question what is love??? is there real truthful and fruitful love in this world??? i guess yes~!!.. this gal here feels very loved :) thankz to all her bunch of frens both here in oz .. malaysia or in anywhere from the world :P and also thanks to her unconditional love from family ..

joenah .. my ex-roomie .. came over to visit us from brunei .. she left the bhse last year .. and she was greatly missed by lots of us.. well. . ME! .. cos her presence really made a huge impact in my life and how she brought joy during the longest term of the year .. and how we all cheered each other up with all the stupid things we do.. and when the news tat she's coming over to pay a visit really lifted me up. ..something exciting to look forward too .. well .. we planned to go out on saturday ..but then ..ended up no one went cos it was rainning and joenah was sleeping .. i waited for them for hours .. but no one showed up ..it was ok still ..cos i met up with my couz and spent few hours catching up with them ..so i wasnt tat bad not seeing joenah .. but really wanna see her though .. then i heard tat she's coming over for dinner on wed .. so i was like yay~!!! .. we had dinner together .. and talked and chatted and hung out till 8smtg.. really felt loved when i was with her .. but she really lost weight!!! such a skinny ass now!!! .. aikz .. when is it gonna be my turn?? >.< anywayz.. it was very stupid of me when she was leaving .. i dint get to say bye to her because the announcement wasnt clear at all in my room .. but i did kinda say bye to her before .. so it was ok ..just hope tat she's having fun now up at brisbane!!!!

another incident is tat mum actually bought me a dress for my formal(equivelent to prom) here! she's passing it to couz' gal friend who is coming over on fri to pass it to me~!!! .. really wanna see how does it look like and whether am i gonna look fat in it!! ..really anxious@@ .. but it was very nice and very sweet of mum to do tat and very unexpected too!!! :) .. thankz mum! ... love ya so so much!!!! but even though she has gotten me the dress.. i'm still debating whether should i go to formal.. no shoes.. no bags.. no accessories .. no everything .. except the dress!!! :) ermm .. may just think about it later .. since it's like a month away..the key thing now is.. to LOOSE WeigHt .. there's where the LAZINESS fits in here..

i hate to admit this .. but i'm getting more and more lazy in excercising .. because i think i stuffed up my back .. my back has been aching quite a lot lately.. since i went back for hols .. i had seen the ortho and ate the medicine that he gave me .. but seemed like they were to no help at all .. it aint healing and it still hurts!!!! >.< so ..tat has given me a good and lazy excuse to do excercise and to keep fit~!!! but on the other hand .. i'm so scared tat somehting may go wrong .. i dun wanna end up not walking properly or having to have backaches for the rest of my life *touchwood* .. i'm just playing badminton now .. not something tat is too active and too much for my back .. but i do need it for stretching!!!!! .. but i really duno wat to do .. planned to go to a physio here .. but it's gonna cost a bomb!!!!! really in such a lost world .. i dun even know how well is my body working.. how am gonna know bout other stuff on earth mann?~@!!! >.< gosh!

another thing.. about laziness is tat i tend to look forward to school or lessons ending .. this senario never seemed to have happened before but now .. it's happening.. gosh.. why??~!! why??!!! ... everyday i go to school is just to wait for school to end .. cos the lessons are getting boring and more boring.. sometimes .. i even keep glancing at the clock ..wondering when is the bell ringing .. sometimes its.. oh damn .. another half an hour.. but sometimes it's oh yes ,,.. 10 minutes more .. but then .. tat's not the point ..the point is tat .. why am i turning to this??? i dun go for recess now but rush straight to the computer room to check and reply my email .. i dun pay full attention in class but i pray for lessons to end ... i'm getting lazy and lazier .. and now.. this all have to change.. i duno how .. i duno when. . but this cant be like this anymore.. is it becos of the fact tat i'm not going home in sept is kinda turning me upside down .. or is it because i know things wouldnt be the same by the time i go home worries me too much tat i'm not getting enough rest.. aikz.. all i know is this aint gonna be like this no more.!! nope!! i'm gonna stop this laziness!!!! *sounds determined but in actual fact... i'm not too sure whether will i do tat*

the last session .. life .. few things had been happening lately .. of ppl heart breaking .. smiling .. worrying..gossipping.cryin .. laughing.. enjoying.. being angry .. being funny .. being ignorant .. so many kinds of emotions.. so many actions.. but i just wanna raise this question. .. wat is the purpose of life when we as human being has to go through all these kinds of stuff .. well .. it is through this tat we grow .. i never realised someone or something is so important till i lost it.. for eg. my macbeth book :P still havent found it yet >.< .. i never treasure the moments i have with frens and family till i have to leave them and leave my comfort zone.. i never understood why ppl cry when they watch movies till those scenes in the movies seemed so familiar as if they were occurring rite in front of my eyes tat my tears rolled without conscience.. i never said i love u and never really know how easy is it to say it till i NEEd to express it so badly but i missed the chance ..
wat's the point of me crapping here u might wonder .. well .. i just wanna let u know tat watever happens ..for the good or bad .. i treasure u!! and start saying thank u and start appreciating someone before it's too late .. i made this mistake.. never want it to happen again ..