WeEkEnD

this is a weekend that doesnt even feel like a weekend because everyone is working so hard and tis is very worrying .. basically everyone is doing their work ..studying .. and stuff~!! >.< fuiyo~!! so scary mann .. mandy is preparing 4 her psychology exams .. the ibs ar always so hardworking .. so tat includes jesh, tammi and joyce who stayed in during the weekend .. then here comes leanne .. always always working so hard that scares n pressures me ~! scared scared!! >.< then .. the bhse is extraordinarily quiet without the geo. camp gals .. who stay next to me .. both sides .. cate n maggie .. then also .. ppl like lydia and beatrice work their ass off too .. haihz .. yr11 is really stressful i can say .. and the worst thing is tat everyone work so hard. . . probably because exams is in a months' time .. but i'm really really scared though .. looking at all the ppl studying so hard .. lookin at them pressures me .. but i just cant stick my ass on the chair and bury my head into my hw .. just cant :P

went to safeway this morning .. walked there and tram back becos we din have time .. was so scared that we might get fined or caught by a conducter but luckily no .. phew~!!after lunch .. i was waiting for mak's to confirm whether she wanted me to accompany her .. since she was at the city .. and i needed to get out of the bhse so badly .. i did a bit of english hw. .which was due like before the hols .. :P and so .. i went on and got distracted.. typical of me :P well .. i took out those farewell letters and cards that had been carefully kept in my drawer and read them all .. one by one .. i always tot i had more than tat but then maybe not .. i reread all of them .. each and every letter or card. . every word :) was really touched ... :' l dint know tat i could make a difference and dint realised that i was gonna missed so badly .. but tat was like 2 years ago .. lots of things had changed .. probably .. ppl had gotten used to me coming and me leavin .. and i made no impact at all .. but rereading those really sweet stuff was really a comfort and console that i was once so loved and protected!! was super duper sweet reading them~!! well .. and tat took my a few hours .. which was good time spent!!! :) guys .. i wanna tell u tat i still love u lots like the way it always used to be ... and i still pray for forever-ness in our friendship~!... even though we dint or may not spend tat much time together lately .*due to erhem erhem :P*.. or maybe we dint communicate as much .. or maybe i dun understand u and ur surroundings tat much anymore .. or maybe there's a gap between us since lots of things had changed.. or even the distance and the fact tat we're oceans apart .. i wanna declare that i still and will always love u and i cant afford to loose u~!~!! same goes to my family :) and may all the sweet memories be in our hearts like shinning photos!!! never be forgotten!! i miss u guys alot .. and still wonder wat's it like if i hadnt leave .. i miss u i miss u and i miss u lots!!!!! do u miss me too?? would u spare a bit of time to think of me? :P
i would always include u in my prayers!

yeah .. ermmm ..sorry guys ..got a bit emotional just then .. ya .. after reading those sweet stuff .. there i go.. sat down n resumed my work .. so guai!! did abit of bio .. then it was dinner time .. the food is surprisingly improving. .my gosh .. how am i gonna loose weight now tat they are feeding us so much and so irresistably !!! gee ~~

ohya~! ..tell u guys something really funny .. i went to cross country this fri .. i planned to take up cross country this term .. but not .. i have to think twice .. mandy n i as well as katrina and alice went on fri ..we missed abit of the last period .. ya .. i missed my chinese conversation class .. hehee :P yup .. and RAL was still darn boring ..i'm so gonna wagged it one day! ..let it be the next period mann ..!!! damn .. really cant wait when next RAL period come!!! anywayz .. back to the cross country bit .. we went to the botanical gardens to run ..it was a lovely place.. but on our way there mandy n i slept on the bus :P hehehe.. tired wat.. anyway .. the start was quick and i can see that the ppl are very enthusiastic and they sprinted full on at the start~ .. well .. mandy and i were like jogging pace then .. somehow .. we were among the few who came last in the competition and we were last in our school~! so embarassing when the younger levels were even faster than us!! gee!! have to train and run faster then~!! >.<

BacK in AusTraLia, MeLboUrnE, ScHooL, BoArdinG HoUsE

well .. all i've gotta say is tat hols was AWESOME .. at least i got a break.. laid back alot .. had quite some fun .. and chill out a alot .. enjoy the fun and comfort in my own bed room .. watching movies with mak mak, chuxiang, joel, chunwei,kahee and bou bou .. got help from frens for my hw .. went to school .. visited them .guides nite gathering..shoppin.. the excitement of taking a flight .. celebrating all those bdays of the april babies in the 2 weeks time .. enjoying the company of each other. .the climate and everything :) *even though i've been comforting myself most of the time, feeling so unloved and unprotected >.< since ppl had been busy .. ignoring me .. and not playing with me as much .. but i understand guys~ exams n study first... just let me continue to self comfort myself and i should be alrite :P *

at least i know tat i would still have frens and family to turn to when i'm down or upset .. or when i needed someone really badly .. i know tat MUST have been someone outhere who will always been there for me .. just tat i havent realised or dint take note of . .so i have to continue to smile and be strong .. as i dun wanna stress or pressure them more .. or least having me as a burden .. - another self comfort statement -

life back here wasnt tat great either .. been stressing out heaps and doiing work non stop .. cant believe i'm such a nerd!! for once .. or maybe this is the price i had to pay for not doing anywork other the hols .. >.< well ... been sleeping at 1 and waking up at 7 .. to complete all the assignments and shit loads of hw ~!! not funny at all .. indeed very stressful and not an enjoyable thing to do~!!!!! i hate it .. i wanna let it all out .. wanna cry out all the stress .. but i dun even have time to do so .. cos i've got heaps of work due the next day~!! but thank god . the weekend finally came. .. showing that there's always something bright and good to lit up things a lil bit :)

THERE's NOTHING like HOME~!!

i'm so so so GLAD that i'm finally back~!! somewhere i truly deeply belong~!! :P
so relieved that i'm away from stress and homework~ .. well .. not actually cos i've brought home tonnes of hw .. and i'm actually quite shocked at the amount of hw tat i've packed for this short term break of 2 weeks~! :O cant believe i'm actually being such a good gal n brought so much work back~ but i bet i wont be doing more than half .. *distraction* :P
but the feeliing to be back (even though i'm not supposed to) is awesomely great~!! everytime when the plane touched down .. and when the captain announces, " for all malaysians, welcome back." the feel of tat is sensational~! :)

finally~ .. after a year .. i managed to surprise ppl~!! for the first time1!! .. hehe .. went to chs in the afternoon .. was planning to go home n might as well go to chs b4 that .. mym fetched me there .. and had lunch with sis while i went into school and say hi to all my lovely frens! .. the first person i saw was jiayee ..and she couldnt believed tat it was actually me .. cos she tot tat i;m supposed to come back tmr .. but anyhow .. yeah .. was really glad to see her and gave her a hug~ *loved* then continously seeing friends like yee ming ,yeexian,zhienwei,singchia,winjean,kahhoe,jianjun,gopi,shiyin,matt,yiyean,jo,zhenyuan,suiyuan,yinghui,yentink,zhaobing,siyi,nicholas,huijing and so on .. (sorry.. i've got shortterm in memory in case i left u out)

yeeming leading all the other scouts were all pinching my poor face once they saw me ~! and they were full on pinching~!! so painful and so red after tat!! yee ming dint stop pinching my all red face .. >.< guys .. if i've got a bigger face .. u know why ..met huijing but she was busy with her ungu thingy as well as wj with her guides stuff ..so went away without disturbign them ... tried to scare kahhoe when singchia n i first saw him but somehow when he turned, he saw me standing there :P failed .. but had a good nice chat with him .. then came zhienwei ~! .. was so glad to see him~!! but he was like bullying me all the time~! >.< shiyin then came n told me something worrying at pbsm happened .. aikz .. wonder y things could go so wrong~ .. she sounded really stressed .. but i duno what can i do o to help her but just to go to school n help her :P shiyin was interupted by zhaobing throughout the whole convo ..zb lar..ka-ka-cau-cau >.< said i dint get him a pressie for him from aust 4 his bday ~!! sorry lor .. was really busy over the week .. due to the change of flight ~!! then .. went arouund looking for kah ee and bou bou .. but then they were both meeting~!! so .. kah hoe and i dint bother to disturb them .. then kah hoe and i went to look for wjean .. she gave me a special invitation to go their nite gathering which was the nextday .. was real glad tat i can go :) not sounding desperate but cx had been makin me so jealous tat he can go while i cant .. and i dint get any news from the guides .. jean was technically the first guide who told me bout it ..
mum called me after getting the SI .. i dint manage to see chunwei even though he's like 2 blocks away ..rushing to hop on mum's car after tat ..
was super duper glad to see them even though i'd just landed and was super tired. .. :P

am now in darn boring shitty RAL class.. religious education.. brain consuming lesson doing nothing bebneficial .. waste of time~!! GRRrr ..so wanna wag it but considering the fact tat i've got nowhere better to go and cant find a good reason
hmm ... how long have not come on9 n blog or even reply emails ??? i cant remember when was the last time i replied the mails .. oopz ... but i was really really busy with the test n sacs coming up in the final week of the term~!!! >.< hate it so much when it comes to this week..

this mon - had my chinese sac..
tues - having gm* and bio test
wed - english essay and oral due
thurs - having chem test
fri - have to start packing to go home :P

such a hectic week~! my gosh~!