Thanks for breaking my heart so effortlessly. Thank you for helping m realize that I am so small. Thank you for making me stronger and helping me to realize that I can actually be so insignificant. I thought we were close and I thought you care. Obviously I was in my own lil buble And clearly my dream was just fantasy. Thanks for the invitation, I hear your laughter and I only longed to be a joiner.

I hate I love you.
I hate how I can't be mad at u
I hate I tried so hard to be loved
I hate how I can't cry out loud
I hate how things are and you prolly never realize a tad bit. Or perhaps all these rubbish are just mere thoughts that plagued my mind?
I dunoo

but you know wat? Thank u for teaching me that I can't always run n hide. Thank u for teaching me and putting me in a position thAt I can do nothing bit cry out to God. Thank u for not always being there when I needed cos through tough moments like these, I've learn to turn to my heavenly Father.

I wonder what next yr holds for us but watever it is, with or without me, you'll do great.
All the best

cry

i was flickering through facebook during my dinner break. yes. at the moment i'm ploughing through my assignment. i should be focusing. as i was jumping from one page to another, i was reminded of certain things in the past. some things that used to be so precious and now probably amount to dust because of three convenient words - "we've moved on".
i wonder why it hurts now. it made me wanna cry.

on the other note, do you know how much it breaks God's heart when you cry yourself to sleep? i cried myself to sleep tonnes of times and yesterday, ps rob said that - and i dun feel so alone anymore.

you know for sure that there's something you need to do about it when your pastor talks to you!