So, my besties flew down from kl to VISIT ME last week! (yes, i tell everyone the reason they are here is to see me, not particularly for holidays, which could possibly be their intention hahaha :p ) it was one of the best week i've had in a long time. i wagged classes, missed out on uni but IT WAS ALL WORTH IT! :) :)

my little white corolla faithfully took us to peninsula, ballarat and daylesford. To all the places that I'd always thought it's nice but never quite had the chance or time to go to.

we had lots of good laugh and it was nice, being sandwiched in love again. weather was cold especially in ballarat, but it was nice and fuzzy for me, from the inside (so cliche i know)

this trip, if anything, has shed me new light and reminded me how much and deeply the people around me and those who are overseas, love and have loved me for who i am. i always knew people cared for me but to have gone through so much, and finally had the epiphany and the revelation that i have people who wont give up on me, was so moving.

to you out there,

thank you for always believing in me. thank you for loving me as i am, and never gives up on me.

There has been so many farewells recently that it's not funny anymore! I'm not made out of a heart of stone (as rach fi would have described it), so, it aint the easiest for me to say goodbye to people.

I realised that when people pack, and if you're lucky (or unlucky?) enough to be there to witness the process, you have the priviledge of seeing bits and pieces of their lives through the little knick-knacks that lie around. I was totally fascinated and being a horder myself, apart from finding everything interesting, i realised that behind the so-called-unneccessary-junk, there's a story of itself.

Over the past few weeks, I had to say goodbye to 2 of my ex-housies, 1 of my urbies and a friend very close to my heart. AND, another one is leaving in few days! (now now, munyee, hold on to your tears! it'll be so embarassing to cry in the com lab!)
and i was talking to my besties back at home over skype and totally broke down. I was suffering from quarter life crisis and asking them the big questions about life, people, career and everything else under the sun.

I guess i was overwhelmed. The thought about people leaving home for good or going to another country for work, yes it is exciting and i am very happy for them, but I think I just need to work on my adaptation skills and be better at getting used to not seeing the familiar faces i used to see every so often. I find it so funny that yesterday, it was su ann who was boarding the flight but she had to check on me and make sure that i'm ok.

but what she said was very true.
If there leaving was nothing to be sad about, or the fact that it doesnt hurt as much, would probably mean there wasnt anything to celebrate in the friendships and bonds made here.

Beat sent me a very encouraging email (which i will share more next time), talking about seasons in life and I realised that I am in this strategic season of redefining myself and who I am in God and where I am to go. Who I was, what I'm going through now will shape who I am yet to become in the future! Being at the point when you are so near (yet so far) to the end of uni, flogged with job applications and asking about what is to happen next and where to go feels like you're juggling with A WHOLE heap of things. but then again, you just need to chill out, lay back and gather you bits and pieces. Having been on placements for the whole while makes me feel so burnt out. But talking to my uni friends again made me realised i'm not the only one going through this silly little quarter life crisis.

Instead, it really got me thinking.


Before Ant left, he gave me this whole heap of craft materials, papers and all things cool. He always believe in the creative side of me. Li Yin gave me some of her clothes and some household goods. It reminds me of the housies time that we shared. And before Su Ann left, she wrote me this letter of how I changed her life by being myself.

Yes, I am at the season of dealing with people leaving my physical circle and searching for directions. It kinda feels like I am in a season of uncertainty but also a season preparation.

So, yes. I have now a few more things in my room. they are not junk and i only hoard things with sentimental values (ie. everything! hahaha) but they do have stories to tell. from a season of someone else's life and now entering to mine.


and yes. i will clean my room tonight!

Happy Ending

I had this song by Mika in my head on the way back from Ballarat post my placements that it is only then that i finally realised that i had been singing to the wrong lyrics ALL THE WHILE! how embarassing!!!!

ORIGINAL LYRICS

This is the way you left me,
I'm not pretending.
No hope, no love, no glory,
No Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
But not together.

MUN YEE'S VERSION

This is the way you love me,
I'm not pretending

Full of hope, of love, of glory,
My Happy Ending.
This is the way that we love,
Like it's forever.
Then live the rest of our life,
just us together.

I was singing to it after YEARS only i realised i was singing to the wrong thing!! i was obviously living in my own world for far too long! hahaha still i think i like my version of it better. i didnt know the song was talking about a breakup or the reality of life where there was no happy ending! LIES i tell you. I still believe in happily ever after. I'd still like to live in my cupcake world and yes, dreams do come true :)

2 of my friends just got attached and 1 couple just got engaged!!!! I AM SO EXCITEDDDDD, and i just cant hide it!!!! WOOT WOOT!

I MISS

youuuuuu! come here quickly already so that i dont waste my time looking at photos or procrastinating when i should be applying for jobs! hahahahha

Shopping spreeeee with the bestie

Today was chadstone VIP. We only found out about it at 7pm tonight.

Jon and I still went anyway. We couldnt resist the Asian side of us, even though we both had nothing we need. I wanted a jacket. He just wanted to get out of studying.

As usual, there's sales and people roaming around. packed. loud music and crowd. you get the picture.

We stopped by Frat House (this random shop that I rarely ever go in) and I ended up buying a sweater). The store was giving some coupon things as well earlier during the day. So, on top of the 30%, if you present with a $5, $10 or $20 voucher that they gave out earlier, you get further reduction. So, yes, paid for mine and continued on.

Jon tried on this blue cashmere top that looked rather good on him. Obviously, cashmere... and it aint the cheapest thing in store. He put it aside. If you know Jon well, when he likes a particular clothing, he thinks about it. a lot.

We left the store and went hunting for my jacket / coat.

When we were at Sportsgirls, Jon came up to me with a big grin on his face and on his hands, he proudly showed me a Frat House $20 discount voucher that appeared out of no where in the completely different store.

Jon: I prayed and asked God if I should buy the top. I said only if I can find a $20 voucher. I was looking very hard in the shop but couldnt find it. and guess what now? Look!

Mun: It's a signnnn! Go get it, Jonny!!

Jon: (dashing towards the exit) I'll call you later.

I love how God is in the big things and also the little things.

I love how God loves us so much that He cares about our daily desires and our desperate needs.

Pretty sure Jon appreciates the top heaps more, knowing that God provided the best deal for him. Bet God reckons Jon looks good in it that's why He allowed him to buy one more top. (You should really check out his wardrobe mann! super banyak baju oh! )

But I love going on shopping with my 2 best friends. They help me with decisions! One is there to physically carry my shopping bags, and the Other is always there with me, keeping me safe and He even provides!

Honour

Last night was absolutely amazing. Not because people said nice things about me, but because I have finally experienced it for myself what Ps Russell said about honour.

When you honour somebody, you release the supernatural miracle working power.

Yesterday marks the last day of me being an ULU 13 member. It's an emotional journey, really. I've been there for nearly 5 + years now. I've seen people come and go, and now, it's my turn to leave. Well, one relievin thing was that I'm not going overseas (as yet) or changing church or something relatively long term. I'm just changing to the Burwood Urban Life. I'll still see people at church on Sundays and it's not like it's a farewell thing! (as you would have known, I suck at saying goodbye)

This UL has indeed come a long way and it is definitely my honour to be able to go knowing that I have made a change. At the beginning of the year, I stood back and saw the potential that was in the group. I knew the credit wasnt mine to take and definitely, all glory to God! But it's just so beautiful to see all these amazing people growing and stepping into the greater. We have indeed shared some amazing journey. And that's the beauty of family I guess, you don t need to see each other heaps and you don't need to constantly hang out. Yet, you know that they are never too far away.

Well, family being family, I couldn't help but to laugh at the things they described or told me yday
"Munyee is like the energizer bunny, she never runs flat"

"She goes to Chadstone VIP to shop for others, she needs to be commended for that" - in all seriousness, I was just trying to buy the best present at the best price. Not so commendable as you guys think la!

"She is like the social butterfly, if ppl ask you which urban life you go to and they give you a confused look after you said jon Ngan, just say Munyee and they will all go 'oohhhh'! Hahhahha"

And of course, there are a lot more of honoring words that came out of my Urbies and I know it is supernaturally changing me from the inside. You know some words, you hear and it comes out the other ear, these weren't one of those. Not because they were flattering but because, God clicked something in me. I didn't go all mushy and airy fairy as I usually would when ppl compliment me.
This time, it felt different. I myself was encouraged! (I reckon this was the time when myself in the past has encouraged myself now in the present). I never knew that little post-its notes go such a long way and random acts of kindness that I totally don't remember make such huge differences. A lot of times, I thought to myself, those mere thoughts were just good ideas and nice things to do. I love doing them anyway but now, to really hear that those weren't labour in vain and they were seeds planted to brighten someone's day, totally made it worthwhile. I'll do them all over again.

Of course, it's not all about me having done this and leaving such a legacy behind, but honoring and being the one that ppl honored last night taught me something. The mundane things that you do all the time, the things that you once caved into thinking that it's nothing and it doesn't matter to anyone, God sees them and God uses the littlest of all. Just as long as you put them under His feet.

I love what Pearly said, "you have been such a blessing to many of us here. Perhaps it is time for you to bless other ppl in the other group. We have all received so much from you, it is time for you to bless others."
Wow.
What a powerful releasing statement with a commission! I was just gonna go to the other group. But she has empowered me to bring the change and the gifts I can offer into the group.

ULU 13, thank you for the amazing journey we shared. This is definitely not farewell, so make sure you do keep me posted with whatever that is happening!



And Burwood UL, HELLO! :)



Numbers 18:29
Be sure to give to the Lord the best portions of the gifts given to you.

"Friendships and relationships are such blessings from God"

Who? Joanne (Li Yin) and I.
Where? Dvd's car
What? Driving down Williams Rd to return keys to Steven

Street light. Worship music. Eyes fixed on the road as I was driving. Yet, such profound statement could not leave my head.

Indeed, they are blessings from God.

I cried because ..

Last night, I cried and it kinda felt good after that. It has been a while where I cried myself to sleep but it's a good point of release of what is inside. Dont worry, I am totally fine now. It just needs to come out.

Well, last night, I cried because..

David, our Brit urbie, will be returning to London in 10 days. It hurts saying goodbye and I totally suck at farewell. I think i could possibly be the only person that balled my eyes out yday during urbs. Such a softy. But that's also because our lives had crossed and seeing him around has been a routine. I guess, I'm not ready for the missing british accent, or the little chuckle around the corner when I thought no one saw the silly thing i embarrassed myself with.
but above all, what he said during his speech was what moved me the most and being the second reason I cried last night.

He said I told him that he was in Melbourne for a reason. (honestly, when he pointed at me, I totally could not remember what had i said to him at camp!) I was like shucks, it better be something of God and something good. And, phew! true enough, it was ok. But it hit me,

God can and wants to use me.

For the reasons that I have entertained and thought that I was not moving in the Spirit, they are all LIES! This week in itself, I have been sooo stirred by Beat, Ngan and a few others to just really know that I can run the race well. God is still Sovereign and ultimately, it is really not about me. A lot of times, when I pray for people, things just come to me and I speak it out, not sure if it actually made sense, but last night, God reminded me that they do! and it was Him speaking, of course it made sense. OHHH! I just want so much more of that.

I wanna walk in the supernatural. I wanna see the outpouring of heaven. I wanna see Jesus.

Lisa Bevere, tweeted this yeseterday. So profound. Ponder upon that!
" Disturb us Lord when we are too well pleased w/ourselves, when our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little. Francis Drake"

And, well, the one more reason that I cried last night, was just the fact that I am so blessed with amazing people around me. I am surrounded by people who love me and people who look out for me. They stand in the gap for me and they believe in me. They call me PRINCESS, like how God would call me, remind me the position I have in Christ, follow me on twitter and read my blogs just to find out how am I doing. Longs for Sunday just so that they could see me. They tell me the things that are harsh and straight to my face just so that I dont get hurt in the future. Share my and their joys and misadventures... And so much more! This in itself overwhelmed me and throw me off my game I dont even know how to respond to it but to say thank you and thank You! Little things do go a LOONNNNGGG way in Munyee's cupcake world.

Ngan shared a message of a cracker yesterday.
Expect.
Be hungry.
Passion.

it feels like God is just stirring so much more in me.
it feels like
I am filled to be emptied again
The seed I recieved I will sow.