i've got something to share :) haha .. yupz! A-G-A-I-N

one day .. as i was just checking an my email .. as usual . .hoping for some replies even tho i myself havent been very fast at replying . . but ya .. was still keeping my hopes up /... then i saw this familiar name in my inbox
so.. doubtlessly. . i clicked it! and read the email he wrote ..
ya .. he was very sweet and updated me bout his life there ..which i find very interesting :) yup .. read read read .. yada yada yada .. then!! there was something very nice in the beggining and the end ..

i was like SO so SO flattered~

hehe :P there goes .. he wrote :

*First, I wanna dedicate these pics to u… It was taken frm my window after a rain here in spring.. A RAINBOW.. Regenbogen in german… look carefully, in one pic, there are 2 rainbows…. It reminds me of ur ever cheerful personality, bright smiles, positive spirit, and the joy u bring not only to mine, but I believe all of ur frens heart… So I thought of u at sight of it.. so here it is.. To my dear friend, mun yee…*

hah~ .. got the idea of who wrote this?? yup yup!! my darling KAMYU chongshen all the way from germany!! get jealous ppl!! haha :P and the sweetest thing is this!!



and this




and they are both dedicated to me!! haha :P get jealous girls!! haha :P hahha .. i'm bragging here but so embarassing if shen suddenly come up and tell me tat he actually dedicated the beautiful rainbows to everyone else as well =.='' better not ya shen!! hahaha :P *fingers crossed*

but then it was really nice of him to think of me in such a way :) it's such a sweet comment! .. but the rainbow where nevertheless pretty :) seriously ..
dun u think so?? sharing something tat u think is nice with someone bring joy and fulfilment in some other way as well?? hmm .. i do!! :P haha .. so thank u thank u thank u kamyu

*flashback*
well ... in kinder .. kids were just sharing food .. crayons and pencils .. i even remembered seeing someone crying when some other kid didnt wanna accept wat he or she offered!!! "take it!! take it !! y dint u wanna take it?!! y?? y??? !!! " then there goes the whinning and crying with loud screams of " WHY?!! WHY DINT U WANNA TAKE IT?? " haha .. :P

*back*
tat was how selfless kids were .. but as we slowly grow up .. truth is that we ARE all so materialistic and somewat selfish! ..look wat the world that we live in is turning us like to???*gasp* hahah .. nah .. *stop being dramatic* haha but i guess it is in human nature that we place ourselves first before others .. and think of me, I and MYSELF .. the benefits and money! .. the competition in sports .. accademic and even in life!! tat we wanna excel just to prove to others that we are BETTER than them .. well .. is it really worth it ?? trying so hard to do your best and ended up hurting urself?? aikz .. it's just another pathethic attempt of self assuring.. but seriously .. does anyone even care how good you are?? i mean .. the true u .. not judging u by studies .. position .. background and culture .. . the you deep inside ... underneathe ... i duno .. aikz ..

tat's wat i felt like recently .. i hate myself being so selfish and so kaisu!!! eww ... i'm just taking things for granted .. so confident in successing but yet the stupid fall is so hurtful .. yerr... i'm just so dumb! .. so self centered .. so .. un-munyee :( ! i duno>.< eww.. often times (ermm haha ..not often times. . oni twice this week) .. i ended up in distress ..
but it's always AWESOME to recieve something uplifting when u're down in the pit .. a rainbow is just so appropriate!! haha :) reminds me that there's always something to look forward to after the dark cloudy windy (hate the wind) rain! .. a curve tat resembles a smile :) to set things straight!!

one must love themselves before loving others. . hmm .. i guess .. but i wanna learn to give more .. and take less.. love more .. and expect less in return .. i wanna be a BETTER person in terms of relationships and handling things .. better in having a big heart and not afraid to fall .. a wanna have a better personality .. and i dun wanna distant myself from the people i love .. i'm making the effort tho!! so .. do back me up ya!!

the chaplain set my mind thinking after chapel .. " it's the troubles in life that either make us bitter or better " .. and he told something bout love today .. relationship with god, frens and in marriage .. but i wasnt really paying attention today :P oopz.. hehe the previous quote was way cooler tho .. "bitter or better?"

for me .. i supposed both .. i first get bitter ..then i'll get better?! hehe :D

should be studying for spesh sac .. but came up with a long blog .. haha :)

so ... enjoy the rainbow that shen shared with me and i'm sharing wit u (kamyu..hope u dun mind ya!! i know u wont! hehe :P ) there's always a rainbow round the corner .. so keep ur eyes wide and look out for the rainbow k?!