HAD BEEN A VERY HAPPY CHILD :)

loads had been happening and i hadnt really had a chance to blog about .. so .. here's some catching up photos :) but really sorry though .. i missed my old camera.. better batt life and quality.. but still .. this camera will do for the time being >.< think about the bright side yo! it's better than none! :D


first up .. WHAT IS was a blast!!!! somehow everyone was so dressed up and it was fantastic!!!



we went for supper after that :P



and my favourite moment - icecream time :D



so guys!!! better not miss the next upcoming event - ARE YOU GAME? on the 19th oct, melbourne high school!! IT'S GONNA BE OFF THE ROOF!

after that, on the very next day .. there's --- lake entrance joy jedis outing :)

big applause to stevictory and caterrrriffic

a shot prior to the 4hr journey







fish n chips... AAAAA











thanks for having me in the trip!! it was such a blasttttt :D when i reached home. i just couldnt help but have the warm fuzzy love feeling in my heart :D


theeennnn .. last sat ..we had our own 3-some outing :)









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though sometimes i had the thought (negative bad thoughts) regarding about not having many close friends- which is rather not true when i actually start counting :P hehehehe.. I came to realise that i am actually a very much loved child <3

DEEP

i've always been challenged to dive into the deep, cos apparently, the deep has greater things to offer. The deep sea fishes with neon and gorgeous colours swims there, the corals, everything. Same thing appeals with God.

God i want more of you. more of your power. you're soooo real !!!! more of your strength.

D-Diligent
E- Exploit
E- Expand
P- Passionate.

need to get back to my ass due friday!
COME ON!

SHORT ONE

God is soooo good to me. I felt that He has just unlocked me into another whole sense of greatness and seriously... just one touch from the King is all I need.

:)

note: this is gonna be a short post due to my bed calling forth for me. hehehehe and guess wat? power naps wont work the whole night. i had experimented it. SLEEP is still the main cure for fatigue. hehehe :P

tat's the lesson i learnt on the way to lake entrance. one word sums my trip up - AWESOME!!
*shall post pic when they're uploaded*

i miss letting my artsy farsty side flow out of me. according to some people, i'm so not a science student due to my liking to procrastination and the way i handle things.. :P i do admit that there's this art/humanity side of me cos somehow .. i tend to do better in humanities subjects (excluding language) since young. and yea.. dont you think it makes so much sense when words just flow soo smoothly out of ya? ok . i'm not making sense. whatever.

anyhoo.. i just wanna say that i am a very loved girl :D thank you. sometimes, i just need to step back, reflect and say thanks. one of my many weaknesses are taking things for granted. please nudge me when you see me doing that. i hate it.

for the assignment that is due on friday.. ARRGGHHHHh. need lots of work on it.

i do think that every circumstance we face is like a training ground. so that we can learn and grow more and also, it gives him room to come through :D

Your Irrevocable Calling
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman


For God's gifts and His call are irrevocable. - Romans 11:29

It is dangerous to align your calling and your vocation as dependent on each other. God calls us into relationship with Him. That is our foremost calling. It is from this relationship that our "physical" calling results. Whether that is to be a teacher, a stockbroker, a nurse, a pastor, or any number of vocations, we must realize that when He calls us, the change in vocation never changes His call on our lives. It is a mere change in the landscape of our calling. This is why it is dangerous to associate our purpose and calling too closely with our work. When we define our work life exclusively as our calling, we fall into the trap of locking up our identity into our vocation. This promotes aspiration because of a need to gain greater self-worth through what we do.

Os Guinness, author of The Call, describes the great artist Picasso, who fell into this trap.

"When a man knows how to do something," Pablo Picasso told a friend, "he ceases being a man when he stops doing it." The result was a driven man. Picasso's gift, once idolized, held him in thrall. Every empty canvass was an affront to his creativity. Like an addict, he made work his source of satisfaction only to find himself dissatisfied. "I have only one thought: work," Picasso said toward the end of his life, when neither his family nor his friends could help him relax. [Os Guiness, The Call (Nashville, Tennessee: Word Publishing, 1998), 242.]

What happens when you lose your job? Do you lose your calling? Do you lose your identity? Do you lose your sense of well-being? No. Calling involves different stages and experiences in life. Disruptions in your work are an important training ground for God to fulfill all aspects of His calling on your life. Trust in your God who says your calling is irrevocable and that all things come from Him.

MY FIRST DAY OF WORK :D

Jesus had been very good to me :) i'm sooo grateful for what that has been happening :)

firstly .. i've been approached with 2 jobs!! YAYYYY!!!!
secondly.. i'm just so thankful that He hears my tiny-puni-est thoughts!! seriously.. he answers them and everytime He does that.. it flipping flips me and shocks me mann!

why?

All the most random thing that flies by my head somehow turned up to have a wonderful and WOW .. :O purpose.. it's not just a normal .. erm.hmm.-.- thing .. it's a WOW!!! :O purpose. and it's just so beautiful and when it's His jigsaw puzzle that is being put togehter.. my goodness!! so pretty!! :)
what am i talking about u ask?

well.. i've been blessed by having both jobs that interests me!!! :) seriously. 1 in bakery and 1 in a cafe.. well .. the one tat i'm currently working in is a soulavki cafe at oakleigh and bakery is at clayton. it's AWESOME!!!! :) well .. today was my first day.. though i'm the only one bout my age everyone seemed to be nice. and coz there's couple of mothers there .. perhaps. apart from my leg being super tired, i was given a rissole .. yummm .. also, i've been taught to do the basic waitressing stuff.. :D it's all good :) but u know wat??

i cant wait to learn how to make coffee <3

as for the bakery, tomorrow will be my first day :) YAY!!! dun ask me to bake for u k? i highly doubt i'll be able to get some tips but i shall observe closely!! hehehe :P

a few short updates.
tuckwee, my urban life leader was hospitalised >.< pray that God's healing power is with Him
WHAT IS is just a few sleeps away!! OH MY GOODNESS~!!!!
PLANETKIDS GO SPACE is coming sOOO sOON!
i've been to the church office 2 times this week. the atmosphere there is just so .. different. and of course i had tonnes of fun painting the set :)
i miss jo and my sis >.<

JUST A LIL SHARING :D

i got this email from boss. it's amazingly true and yea.. i guess it's wat rash impatient youngster (erhem.do i sound like a mum? :P) nowadays like our generation should try to embrace :)



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Everyone longs to give themselves completely to someone,

To have a deep soul relationship with another,

To be loved thoroughly, and exclusively.

But God, to a Christian says,

“No, not until you are satisfied, fulfilled and content

With being loved by Me alone,

With giving yourself totally and unreservedly to Me,

With having an intensely personal relationship with Me alone,

Discovering that only in Me

Is your satisfaction to be found,

Will you be capable of the perfect human relationship

That I have planned for you.

You will never be able to unite with another

Until you are united with Me,

Exclusive of anyone else, exclusive of any desires or longings.

I want you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow Me to give you the most thrilling plan existing,

One that you cannot imagine.

I want you to have the very best.

Please allow Me to bring it to you.

You just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things,

Keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM,

Keep listening and learning the things I tell you,

You just wait, that’s all

Don’t worry.

Don’t be anxious.

Don’t look around at the things others have gotten

Or that I’ve gotten them.

Don’t look at the things you think you want

You just keep looking to Me,

Or you’ll miss what I want to show you.

And then, when you’re ready,

I’ll surprise you with a love

Far more wonderful than any you would dream of.

You see, until you are ready,

And until the one I have for you is ready,

(I am working even at this moment to have you both ready at the same time)

Until you are both satisfied exclusively with Me,

And the life I prepared for you,

You won’t be able to experience the love that

Exemplifies your relationship with Me,

And thus is the perfect love.

And dear one, I want you to have this most wonderful love,

I want you to see in the flesh a picture of your relationship with Me;

And to enjoy materially and concretely,

The everlasting union of beauty, perfection and love.

Know that I love you utterly,

I am God.

Believe it and be satisfied. "

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The Butterfly Principle

Overprotective parents do their children a great injustice. The caterpillar that lies inside the cocoon will never become the beautiful butterfly if someone cuts open the cocoon prematurely. It is the struggle itself that allows the butterfly to emerge as a strong, new creature of nature.

God understands how necessary this process is. That is why we are allowed to experience difficult, often life-changing events. He even orchestrates them-all for our benefit. What the Israelites thought was a cruel joke when Pharaoh sent troops to pursue them after they had been freed and penned against the shore of the Red Sea became the stage for the most publicized miracle of all time-the parting of the Red Sea. Generation after generation has heard this incredible story of deliverance. God puts us against the "Red Seas" in order to show His power in and through us. If we do not know God can deliver, then we can never learn to trust Him. Circumstances that go beyond our capabilities of solving them place us at God's complete mercy. This is how He likes it.

Do not fear the calamity that comes your way. If you are faithful to Him in the test, you will see God's power manifested like never before. Just as the Israelites were able to sing a song of deliverance, you too will have your own testimony of the Lord's faithfulness; and you will be able to recall it for others to build your faith and theirs.

leaving - gone

to those leaving the country soon.










u'll always be in my <3 coz i heart you so so much tat words cant find its place.


and those who are overseas and out there





be strong and couragous. know tat i always miss you

RECENT

i know i have not been updating for AGES. pardon me, k? i've always wanted to but somehow .. dun haf the kick to it :P and .. well .. come to think about it . i was pretty busy. but now .. NOT REALLY ANYMORE?!!!! :P why u may ask? or do i hear someone shouting "PLEASE UPDATE" with mandarin oranges flying everywhere :P hahhaaha... yes yes yes. here goes :)

for this past few weeks or so.. what have i been doing?

hmmm .. well.. there's OCF "i hope u dance" musical.
was a total blast off. no photos from peeps yet. will put up once i get them :)
The music, dance and drama team DID such a great job. not to forget those who came and all the behind-the-scene people!! :D BIG CHEERS TO THEM!!!! :D everyone worked so hard during the past few months.. all the sweat, effort and time put it in .. it's all worth it :) dont you think it's just so awesome when everyone is working towards a common goal?
the joy multiplied.
worries and burden divided.
and hand in hand, we step up to a higher level, knowing people deeper.
IT'S FANTASTIC!

and i just feel so loved by all the care and support throughout the whole practices and rehearsals!! since the very beginning. not just the OCF-ers but also from my urbies and the planetuni peeps (well, not to say tat i'm the main reason they came but still .. their support was wat that matters!!!! )they came :D and A SHOUTOUT to my sis :) all the way from burwood and hitching the public transport mann :D YOU GUYS ARE AWESOMEEEEEE!

that night God's presence was truly there. everything that happened, was truly for His cause :) and no one could have done it better. i believe that it was indeed a moment in God's eyes with what happened backstage when the altercal was given. well.. actually there were lots of konica moments too.. just tat i dun have my camera here with me >.< but seriously .. I couldnt thank God enough for how He places me and takes me away. it is sad to leave the friends and sorta my comfort zone.. but the season has come for me to move on :) i couldnt have planned it better myself. it just falls into place so nicely and of course, i'm no quitter!! i'm heading up to the greater things that God has installed for me :) though currently i'm unsure of what and where, but i am CERTAIN that my future is in His hands :)



seriously. talking about uncertainties! my goodness >.<
tell me about it :P

i had currently been in a great place of unclear paths and been through tonnes of valleys. for that moment, i thought i was in a place that i dun even know how to take the next step.



my PR status was cancelled.
it's a complicated isssue. but can you understand my fears and worries?
i was left with options and restrictions that i dun even know where it would have taken me to. leaving or staying. continue studying or withdraw all my units? will i be an illegal immigrant? who do i turn to for help and advise? should i inform uni? when all the things that was part of everyday thing has slowly faded off. when the unfamiliar circumstance arise. phone calls coming from everywhere as the deadline to our visa expiry date approaches. assignments due.
I had to be honest, my relationship with my parents wasnt great and perfect either during then. we're all tensed and stressed up. there was lots of tears.
i was in a position where things arent at the pink of it. and it was NEVER how i planned or intended it to be. well, tat's life i guess. all i needed then was just hugs and words of comfort.
i turned left and right.

but i figured turning upwards and praying to God was the best resolution before i turn to people.
PRAISE HIM when i'm in the valley
PRAISE HIM when i'm in the storm
though i am still very uncertained His plans, i believe that there's always a reason behind everything that has happened and it ALWAYS WORK FOR THE GOOD :)

so.. i've currently discontinued my units from uni. i'm now a part time student. doing ONE off-campus subject.
yes. i have lots of free time. but i'm looking into getting a job!! (please God!! i need it)
It's so silly of me. i always tot tat i have lots of lack, lots of unfulfilment and not really living out the best of what i could be. but u know what? i just realised that God's hands have always been upon me. He has REALLY never forsaken me. He constantly speaks! WOW. wat else do i REALLY need?

God, do it again.

uni just called me. i'm in debt. yes. i owe them money cos of the withdrawal and all previous issues. but u know wat? I AM BELIEVING GOD TO BE MY PROVIDER :D God, i am seriously and desperately need a job!!!

Jesus,








*takes a deep breathe*


watever it is, life's just so beautiful when we step out of our self-contained box.

WAT NOW?

well .. seeemed like i havent really been updating. lots and lots been happening. not just revolving uni, but also heaps of other stuff as well. well.. first UP, we have this upcoming event!



PLANET UNI event- WHAT IS
21.9.07 at MECC!
so DOOO COME ALONG!! it's gonna be awesome! :D

pssstt.. isnt the poster wonderful?? i wanna keep 1 to myself too!!! look out for them in campus yo!! it's gonna be such an awesome event

secondly, there's also - OCF E-NIGHT with the musical performance "i hope u dance". it's a story of faith love and hope. i'm acting and dancing. both very minor roles but during the performance.. i have to chance my costumes up to 5 times! 5TIMES! YES! I AM FOR REAL!!! crazyyy .. but yea. hope ppl will enjoy it though! :)

I am soooo excited !!

i've just been sitting in front of the com in the library for 2 hours doing the powerpoint slides and searching photos for drugs such as formoterol and albuterol. my my. i really need to get out of my world and start turning around to the people around me.

for too long, i realised that wat i'm doing is not enough.
for too long i've not said i love you.
how could i even get my head around that it's such an important step that u're leaping out and i'm not there to support u?
i suck. i'm soo sorry. allow me to pick myself up.
help me to see that i've been so selfish and so enclosed in my world.
my so-called-busy world.

Han, though i'm not in malaysia farewell-ing you, blog hopping and realised that i dint say goodbye makes me wanna cry. reading their blog makes me wanna cry. missing you makes me wanna cry. all the best my beloved fren :'( you truly are the BOMB!!!

jo, i'm so sorry for whinning but thank u so much for listening. loooove u!

oh nooo... lecture soon >.< ughhhh *dreads*

"When your memories are bigger than your dreams, you're headed for the grave" [Author unknown].

I TURN 1 YEAR OLD TODAY :D

many of you must be like ..ermmm.. hello.. u're one? look at ur size.. no way ..
or perhaps some may be like cant you do simple math? u're turning 5 next year with your leap year bday!! but .. i am proud to say .. YES!! i am turning 1 :P spiritually

my spiritual birthday!! :D yes. 1 year ago. i accepted Christ in my life. and truly. i am not the same. NEVER AGAIN. i'm not just another Christian who wants to sell you a product - Jesus. I love Him and He loves me even more than i could ever imagined!! REALLYYY!!


Surely I spoke of things I did not understand, things too wonderful for me to know. - Job 42:3b


He is the one whom is ready to catch me when i fall,
wipe my tears away when i'm drowning myself on my bed,
He is there holding my hand as i learn to step out of my comfort zones,
He whispers words of encouragement when i stumble and fall,
He supports and gives me the strength to carry on when everyone seems to point their fingers at me
He places unexpected surprises round the corner just to fill me with His joyce.
He teaches me when i make a mistake.

He even showed me this.

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The Lord is faithful to all His promises and loving toward all He has made. The Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. - Psalm 145:13b-14

Have you ever had a relationship with someone who was faithful? You knew you could depend on that person to do what he said. You learned that his word was completely trustworthy. If he said he would call you, he would. If he said he'd be somewhere at a certain time, he'd be there. In fact, if he was late, you began to wonder if he had an accident because it was so contrary to his nature. It's great to have friends who are faithful.

God is faithful. He is faithful to fulfill every promise in His Word. Sometimes we think God isn't faithful because it appears He has not fulfilled a desire that we have. Sometimes we think He is not faithful because of a crisis event that seems to say God isn't faithful. We must remember that God is more concerned about accomplishing His ultimate purpose in the life of every believer than giving us the desires of our heart. Sometimes this results in hardship.

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who said i'm forever happy. who said i've never been in troubles? in this one year, i've come across to see that the world doesnt revolve around me and i can still stumble. But it is by God's grace, that i dont stay in the pit for too long. i still cry. i still faced problems. but it's like a complex math questions,
multiplied joy
divided sorrow
added blessings
subtracted worries
increased to the power of infinity of love
root of understanding

friends, family and all. i am trying to be a better person. i want to reflect and shine His glory. i really thank God for it is Him who carried me so far. i am truly nothing without His guidance.

this song really voice it out perfect. i love it. go download it! hahahahah.


Casting Crown
In Me

If you asked me to leap
Out of my boat on the crashing waves
If you ask me to go
Preach to a lost world that Jesus saves

I'll go, but I cannot go alone
'Cause I know I'm nothing on my own
But the power of Christ in me makes me strong
Makes me strong

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that you want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me

If you ask me to run
And carry your light into foreign land
If you ask me to fight
Deliver your people from satan's hand

To reach out with Your hands
To learn through Your eyes
To love with the love of a savior
To feel with Your heart
and to think with Your mind
I'd give my last breath for Your glory

'Cause when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability

when I'm weak, You make me strong
When I'm blind you shine Your light on me
'Cause I'll never get by living on my own ability
How refreshing to know You don't need me
How amazing to find that You want me
So I'll stand on Your Truth, and I'll fight with Your Strength
Until You bring the victory, by the power of Christ in me
The power of Christ in me
The power of Christ in me




i love the part when the kid comes and sing... WOOOOTT!! so heart-touching man.

sorry that i havent updated my blog. been up to lots of stuff :P recently.

i attempted to donate blood but failed due to the insufficient level of fluid and my super fine vein and resulted in 2 needle holes on my arm *OUCHIE*
i baked for jo's bday
ATE AND ATE LIKE NO TMR >.< hence the weight gain
i dreamt of awesome stuff tat i dun really understand wat but i'm believing for it to come to pass
super excited for planetuni's upcoming event
and also ocf play which i'm involved in gulp* dancing and acting!
i preached a message of mentoring and coaching
been to the peninsula campus to check out my future campus
i'm excited for next year, believing tat things are gonna happen and someone will come
been rejected by others
been loved
waiting
played badminton with couple of guys! was a very spontaneous act but fun
i enjoyed the special day God has given to me
i experience the times when He came and flip my situation around
i had beautiful sunny days and freezing cold gloomy day *bbrrrr*

all is good
but i want more. i want more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think it's time to learn that it's not jjust about me and me and me alone. i want to be more sensitive!!! i wanna break for the people around and far away.
i wanna see lives changed. i wanna see a miracle.
i wanna deliver love.

I AM FINALY MEETIN UP WITH THE CRAZEE HOUSE TAT I MISS SO MUCH!
bet they dint even tot of me >.< booo! but oh well. i'm excited seeing them :D

<3

life is just full of loads of unpredictable random bits yea??? i am getting around the semester a lil better now. less worrying about the seemingly-incapable-to-handle assignments. yes. they are always there. tingling and bugging me. but GUESS WAT? i am not gonna be overuled by them!! NO WAY!!

i'm very positive today. it feels GOOD!!
why you ask?

firstly. i started off my day with this awesome AWESOME verse from the bible tat comforted me SOOOOO much!

" I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go;
i will counsel you and watch over you." - psalm 32:7 -

oooo... how good does it feel to know that God watches over me!! :) :)

secondly, thank God for my group assignment is seemingly to progress well. at the very beginning of the sem everyting seemed to be .. scary!!! but now.. looks like it's falling into place and my group mates are SO LOVE-ABLE!!!

weekend was awesome too!!!
friday went to meet up with my sis. she's turning into a beautiful woman of God!! I AM SO PROUD OF U GIRL!!! u're surely a shinning light :) ocf was good too with new people coming.. i think .. perhaps .. it is time for me to respond to smtg else.

OOHHHHH!!!! did i mention tat baby was here??? and she still is but i duno whether can i meet up with ehr >.<
took her around couple of places to .. yes .. u got it.. EAt!!!!! we just stroll around the city .
SAT NIGHT WAS CRAZEE FUNNY!!
met up wit jon and my sis .. we went for vegetarian pizza!!!! mmm.. yummmmm .. *it is entirely up to ur interpretation* jon was dreading his taugei pizza and my sis found it extremely healthy. me? in between.. but surely was AWESOME experience though!!! :D even cooler! after tat. we headed home.. and ... WE MADE KAYA!!!!
liz joined us! 4 of us .. facing the pot of kaya!! my goodie .. FOR 3 HOURS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! how could a BOWL OF KAYA possibly took us tat long!!! we were laughing our ass off to things tat i couldnt even remember and singing along to the good old boy bands!!!! hahaha.. we were working hard k? we had our hands moving.. mashing the kaya in order not for it to be lumpy! hahha. it was funny. by the end of it .. WE WERE TOTALLY DRAINED!

sunday was AWESOME! being with the kids make me a VERY-EXTREMELY-HAPPY MUNYEE :D

service was fantastic. but i think i'm seemingly becoming unfit!! i cant keep up with the jumping and all.. i found myself puffed out!!! OH NO!!!!! but still .. HE is worthy of ALL my praise!

God is so good to me!
He never fails to drop reminders of things i need to do and things He promised!
Peninsula. Nursing. Yes. He has been tat specific. i was like deakin? ACU? la trobe? nope. he said no. oh well. peninsula then!
and truly enough, He will carry me through it!!

Jamie shared this and i couldnt stop thinking about it twice.
She had always wanted to be a lawyer but somewat somehow.. along the way, her dreams was shattered and she tot tat it was something that was impossible to be reached. her heart was hardened to it and everything near it just seemed to be a no-no! so .. yea.. but God opened up the doors for her and she will soon be on her way to a new start dropping and leaving everything behind.

EVERY IS POSSIBLE. IF ONLY YOU BELIEVED.

DEATH AND AFTER

i couldnt believe how much actually tat i am affected by it! REALLY!!! >.< today my housies and i attended liz's granduncle, uncle jimmy's funeral. he was a kind and generous man, invited us to have dinner at his place prior to our moving in and even allowing me to make MY OWN ice kacang with his very own ice-shaving machine. those with him was a mere accquantance, but the thought of someone you know passing over can be quite .. perplexing. why? cos i'm sad, happy, worried, thankful, intimidated, unprepared, spinning in thoughts, tearful, comforted, disturbed, shocked, hopeful and uncertained.
Come on! it's death and separation we're talking about here!

Knowing tat he has gone to heaven comforts me and i'm glad that he is truly at a better place. At times, i really want God to take me there too.. but tat's such an embarassing selfish thought. what about others? dont they deserve a chance to know Jesus and knowing how to get to heaven? - through the Son of God- but anywayz .. i was utterly swimming in my seas of thoughts during certain parts of the service. you know? i was wondering..
What will happen during my funeral?
Will people cry?
Who would be there?
Who will deliver the eulogy?
What are they gonna say?
What will happen to the people i love?
What if someone close to my heart is taken away?
What will my response be?
Will i be able to take it?
Where will they go?
Am i accountable for them?
What can i do to make a difference?

At that very moment, i cried out to God, God, have mercy on the those who havent gotten to know You. I just cant bear loosing them eternally. God, i dun wanna just loose them forever and please save them.

Last night i was talking to my neighbour. he commented, "life's short. live it." yes. indeed it is. well .. he was actually trying to get me to drink but .. nope.. i'm a good girl!! hahahha *proud*. anywayz.. i was standing in church, some very far distance away from the casket, looking around at the family members and frens.. as they spoke, tears were rolling down and sniffing could be easily heard. not just that. you could hear the sound of memories reflecting, you hear the sound of people missing their beloved fren and you could note that some part of the family's life is taken away..

seriously, what is grieving? what is it to loose someone? i never really understood. i thank God tat this is the first funeral that i formally attended from the very beginning of the service to the very end.
for me, if pictures could capture it, i would say it's the breakout of tears behind shut doors.
it's the crying out to God not in complaints, but in praises, for putting that special someone in our lives
it's the expression on your face when your heart just shatters in disbelieve but knowing that it has become a fact.
it hurts and no matter how hard we try to cover it, it reveals itself.

during the service, liz broke out into tears. daniel, being the loving brother reached out to her, placing her close in his arms. looking at them from a row behind, my heart was SO touched and it was shattered. prior to tat, i had tears in my eyes during the eulogy. yet this moment of brother and sisterly love was the one thing that warm up my heart when i tot tat it was harden and cold for.. well not crying during funerals? i know it's dumb but it was my first time attending one k?

our journey back was filled with complete silence. no one knew how to break it. it was solemn.
only till we reached home tat i realised tat liz's granddad passes away too. only then tat i realised why she cried. i was in disbelief and though i'm no way close to it, but i can imagine her pain. i hugged her tight. tat poor girl and i went up to my room.

i couldnt understand it myself either but i was crying. i asked God, why so many deaths now? heard of 4 already. i duno wat to do to help liz or how to comfort her but just to pray for her. can someone teach me how to love? really. i feel so bad just shutting each other away in our own area of thoughts. i hate my cowardly self! useless! ISHHH

but yea. just thinking .
life's short. true. what do you do with it tat matters. yesterday urban life watched this video. it says that God will send a few warning signs before letting you go. has it struck you yet? any of these? has it struck you yet before you continue to walk into the path of eternal destruction?

1stly. preaching. doesnt hit you?
2ndly. your conscience. wondering bout hte voice in you? this is it!
then it's a mother's prayer.
tragic sorrowful events. dont wait till someone precious leaves that you realise there's an empty void in your heart.
then Holy Spirit and the cross comes before you places yourself in destruction.

but i mean come on!!! we have feelings and emotions. dont wait till it's too late to realise life is temporary. cherish it! sounds cliche i know. tat's not my main point anyway. what i wanna say is.. dont you realise that there's more to life after death?

actually.. i duno wat i'm saying. but think about it.

SEMESTER 2 is really.....

well.. seriously, i think sem 2 is REALLY HARD. i dun like it. i was on the verge of freaking out mann! seriously!! i really need God's grace and His strength to pull through the rest of this year. missing the first week of uni definitely wont brighten the situation!!! *gulps* MY GOODNESS!! with all the action potential, mircoelectrode and all is killing my brain cells! ARGHHH i cant wait to do NURSING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i cant wait for next year! but i shall perservere! C'mon!!!!!!

So.. what have i been up to recently? since i came back.

i had been feeling lots of ting-a-lings in me. i duno what they are.. but honestly.. they aint tat great. they hurt. i am caught between 2 sides. both great stuff but which is meant for me?
i read this in my devotion.
in my own phrase : "Certain opportunities are great and splendid, but they may not be God's will for you."
wat does it mean? perhaps it's time to let go.

HAve i been in my own coccoon for too long that i failed to see that there's light ahead of me or was it just a faint torch that was a false alarm? will i stretch and breakaway of my enclosure? will the day come?

YES and i cant wait.

on the other hand, i'm very in the roll for random stuff!!
REALLY.
i think i caught it when i was with my jimuis, jo and joel the yap!
apart from havin pizza at my touchdown (come on! i dun really miss melbourne food, do i?) and PUTTING in great effort in unpacking and tidying up my room, everything else was pretty random.
going up to mt dandenong just to have afternoon tea and for the sake of doing smtg random!! o.O
watching shrek the third after sooooo.... long
being in a testimony video shoot
praying for meaningful relationship during prayer meet?!!
having boss sitting in my lecture

wow. i am getting more and more random!! but u know wat?? i'm loving the spontaneity and LOATHING THE TIME THAT I JUST WASTE BY PROCRASTINATIN'!!!!!! really. i miss my random kaki!

above all, i am missing you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

this song really gave me a wake up call this noon when i was so alone at home and sooo bored.


IF WE ARE THE BODY - CASTING CROWNS-


It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in
Trying to fade into the faces
The girls' teasing laughter is carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way
There is a way

A traveler is far away from home
He sheds his coat
And quietly sinks into the back row
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances
Are better out on the road

CHORUS
But if we are the Body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the Body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus paid much too high a price
For us to pick and choose who should come
And we are the Body of Christ

If we are the body
Why aren't His arms reaching
Why aren't His hands healing
Why aren't His words teaching
And if we are the body
Why aren't His feet going
Why is His love not showing them there is a way

Jesus is the way


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whinging complaining doubting procrastinating
ignoring pretending dreaming
DOESNT CHANGE A SINGLE THING
listen and do!

NEW SEM :)

i'm back in melbourne and all i wanna do now is to pray. God has truly been working in opening my eyes to see at how amazing He can thread things together and change a piece of rug into an embroidery masterpiece. God is SOOOOOOOOO great :D that no mountains that He cant carry me through!

Dear God,
I'm back in Melbourne now and i wanna thank you for all the things that you're about to do. Lord, you are the alpha and the omega. you have all things in stored. God, i thank you so much for telling me to go back and then widening up my narrow view of you. God, thank you for the people you've carefully placed into my life. Lord, thank you for who you are and i thank you for just caring and being so real to me! Jesus, i am in a vvery perplexed mood now. God, some part of me is happy to be back and some part of me, not. God, now, there's this tingling sense of regret in me for not really accomplishing wat i have initially set out to do during my holz - to share your love. God, please dont just pass my loved ones by. God, please dont forget my country and the people. Lord, please, teach me wat would you do. Lord Jesus, thank you so much for the awesome memories that i had in my span of 3 weeks in malaysia. Father, thank you for those heart warming days that all the shortcomings dont matter anymore. God, thank you for my family. Father, please dont forget them! God, i am sorry that at times i am so rebellious, so selfish and so self-centered. Lord, i'm so sorry that at times at home, i failed to reflect you. Jesus, all i want to do is worship and radiate your glory. Hope that my family, (papa, mummy, lokyee, chongfoo,aunties and cousins) will come to experience Jesus and be truly in awe of Him. And Father, thank you for sending me back for the sake of renewing old friendships. Jesus, thank you for the times when the most random thing would occur. Lord, thank you for friends who made me laugh my head off and frens who will wipe my tears when i'm undergoing some issues. Thank you for the 3-some! God, there's so much more i wanna say. but my eyes are shutting! literally. please give me the strength to carry out your will. in my life,everyday, to glorify you. God, grant me life that is filled with everlasting joy, love for others. JESUS, NEW SEM, more exciting things to come. stir me up Lord.

In Jesus name,
Amen.

SUPER belated planetuni photos!

sorry it took me tat long!

BELATED photos :D

APYAC

THE HUMAN RACE IS A COMPLICATED ONE!!

seriously. i think i am so annoying! and it can get into my nerves at times!! >.< haha. well .. EVERYTIME actually. when my holz are about to come to an end. i'm SO AWAKE NOW! it's like wat? 1.30am! way past my bed time! haha. perhaps it was the nap in the noon that did it. but yea. today as i was in the car. so many things came into my head.

i am sad.
yes. i am sad.

i am sad that my holz are ending and there's nothing much that i can do about it.
i am sad to leave but on the other hand, i am sad that i am missing melbourne. i am never a TRULY there person. sad.
i am sad to say goodbye and hello to a new semester. yes. i am lazy.. hee :P

but yea. dont you think human race is such a complicated and unappreciative one? for i know for me, i truly am and sometimes i just wanna give myself a smack at the head for being so! :P i really DISLIKE myself for only when i was about to leave, then i regret. this weekend was AWESOME.

love doing random and spontaneous things :D :D they make my heart smile :D

kite hunt.
witness robbery >.< *gasp*
flying kite.
craving for cendol.
posing in front of a mac.
having forced to sit down during steamboat. EH!! MANA BOLEH!! knowing me?! :P
mamaking with parents at 1+??? with my eyes like 2 thin lines.
the breakdown of junhui's car.
playing uno-stacko and uno cards.
eating durians with both friends and family!

WOOT! wat else could make life more colourful? i love my family and friends. God IS SO great to me :D

just when i tot i'm used to farewells and goodbyes, all these made it so much harder. YOU CRAZY people made it so much harder!! >.<

i miss my guided ikea tour. he is one person whom i went out with, with NOT EVEN ONE MINUTE OF SILENCE!!! fuiyoh.

oh yea. i was saying. if you know that you were going to die the next moment, wat would you do.
well, actually i would be rather glad. cos i know tat i'll be going to heaven. i even dreamt of it!! hahaha :P it was FUNNY!! :O but yea. it was actually a very selfish thought. initially, i tot of calling the people i love and tell them i love them. but after long considerations, i tot tat was really a wasted act of time and opportunity. i know it may be hard and things are are easier said than done but i would be praying my guts out and trying as hard as i can, to lead the person next to me to heaven as well :D yea. tat's wat i've decided to do with the remaining moments of my life :D

please usb, please turn up! apparently it's called a thumbdrive instead. ok thumbdrive, please show urself. u've gotten all the photos i wanna share !!! GOD!! where is it? :P

DADDY!!!! here i am!! i would try my best to take the less taken track.

yerrrrr... a month HAS REALLY PASSED BY SO SO FAST. but i'm so glad that God has sent me back and opened up my hearts to so many new stuff!!!! :)

the other day, ps julie asked this. if you were able to change one thing in hte past. wat would it be?

THOUGHTS THAT PERHAPS CAN BE CONSIDERED AS REVELATIONS!!!!

i realised something . i blog a lot less during holz! when i should be blogging the most.. as a form of keeping a diary of what i'm doing!!! >.< but somehow .. somewat.. they dont happen! and by the end of the holz.. i'll be full-on reflecting on what i have done and what memorable things occurred! my my!

well . u know wat? can i stir u up to keep a DAILY diary. write it before u sleep. everyday. and write one once a week. compare the difference! well . in 10 years time. u'll see! u'll prolly laugh at yourself for being so innocent and naive. for me, i'll literally LAUGH OUT LOUD at my stupidity and how immature i was! but SURELY those memories are priceless!!!

anyhoo.. as i was saying.. i had revelations!! haha .. well , maybe.

joanne enlightened me one thing that .. which made me go.. YEA! it is so true!!!
what is it? well.. it is just the simple fact tat this is my blog and i can REALLY be free and write what i feel like!! since i duno when.. i have been very conscious of what i write here! seriously. i have stopped posting my heart-felt expressions and was surpressing myself for the sake of all those UNKNOWN and silent readers!!! (i dun even know who. but you know who u are out there!!! nyeh nyeh nyeh*) it can be scary at times you know.. exposing yourself and completely being vulnerable to the world full of .. everything.. out there. the thought of closing and shutting down my blog always sneak into my puny brain :P but i know that on the other hand.. this is such an awesome media for me to share my life with those i care and love!! and knowing me.. this it the best and most reasonable excuse that i can give for not replying ppl's mail. haha :P and also .. somehow.. i believe it will speak to people and hopefully put a SMILE on ppl's face. so.. i'm hanging on. well. i must confess that at times.. especially now. i do enjoy bloggin!! and tat's "munyee's happy moment" plagiarising transformers! :P haha

but yea. jo said something which is so true. your frens will understand you and respect what you choose to blog. after reflecting on certain misunderstanding, i used to think ..that i ought to be completely and utterly CAREFUL of what i'm bloggin about and who. i dare not just say something that i really wanna express deep down inside in the fear that i may arouse jealousy in some other person and letting them wonder whether i love them less. am i making sense here? hahhaa :D but well .. jo said smtg very true :D she gave an ANALOGY, an example of my ji mui! she said.. u reckon charis or jiayee will be jealous if u decided to dedicate a post for jiamien.

first reaction of mine : NO!

exactly. true frens will understand and accept me. THEY DONT STALK ME! :P hahahahhaha. kidding kidding!!! :P u can surely stalk me. i dun really have anything to hide. apart from my fat rolls :P ahhaa .. but yea.. i was thinking. if i were to privatise my blog. who wont come into my mind to invite. who will. hmmm. i really dont know!! o.O but oh well. dont worry. i doubt i'll be privatising my blog. but yea. i've decided that i'm gonna write FREELY!!! :D YEA!.. so here's just the affirmations to those whom i havent or dont really mention in my blog. i just wanna affirm u guys that i do love you k?!!! i really really do!! :) :)

WELL..

now.. i just wanna .. i wanna i wanna ..i wanna say- boss n jo! u guys are truly truly amazing!! I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU!!! how cool is God bringing us together in such a special and divine way! thank you for accepting my all. even when i'm in the gross-est position of diarrhea and spiritually disgusting. thank you for shining Jesus and allowing me to lean on you both, when i'm not strong.

JI MUIs!!! wat more do i need to say. u know it all :) WE STAND THE TRIAL OF TIME AND DISTANCE! we are more than what meets the eye! WOOT!

and guess wat guess wat?? i was asking someone this question. if you were to die the next moment. what would you do? i knew i gave a stupid answer in the car. now i know wat exactly i wanna do. i'll share later. but yea. wat would you do?

current location : Mum's office
current craving : chicken rice!!!
currently feel like : DANCING (in my mum's office!!!) :D and WORSHIPPING
current desire : i phone
current thought : how is berwick like?
current discomfort : lausai? but God has healed me of it. so .. maybe nothing
current fear : the fact that time flies
current favourite colour : BLUE (as always)

currently as you can see. i'm bored.
short post. gotta go help mum out! any ideas on how to upload photos in bulk the fastest way? i've got tonnes!!!

by the way. my iphoto album has hit 10 thousand =)

hey everyone!!

i'm back in KL and ready to roll :)

just make sure you dont bring me to mamak or take any dairy products. my tummy is in great pain >.<

will update more laterzzzz :D

split
see her tears
wipe the fears
birth His praise
release the shout
claim the breakthrough
tremble in joy
open up
dream it
see it
LET GO
walk it
love.

I'M MOVING ON.
can i invite you to stride with me?
can you catch my heartbeat and stop holding me back?
i'm trying. each and every day.

I'm MOVING ON.
done.

"Imagine Me"

Imagine me
Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me cause I
I imagine me
In a place of no insecurities
And I'm finally happy cause
I imagine me

Letting go of all of the ones who hurt me
Cause they never did deserve me
Can you imagine me?
Saying no to thoughts that try to control me
Remembering all you told me
Lord, can you imagine me?
Over what my mama said
And healed from what my daddy did
And I wanna live and not read that page again

Imagine me, being free, trusting you totally finally I can...
Imagine me
I admit it was hard to see
You being in love with someone like me
But finally I can...
Imagine me

Being strong
And not letting people break me down
You won't get that joy this time around
Can you imagine me?
In a world (in a world) where nobody has to live afraid
Because of your love fears gone away
Can you imagine me?

Letting go of my past
And glad I have another chance
And my heart will dance
'Cause I don't have to read that page again

Gone, gone, it's gone, all gone

yesterday night, i had a very short. truly VERY short conversation with God.

i asked Jesus, "Even when the whole world fails, or when i fail, and when my issues overwhelm me, would You still love me?"

i repeated this question a few times, perhaps less than 5.

then all i felt was Him, His presence, His hands on my face, reminding me, "Yes, I will love you. I will never leave or forsake you."

what else can i ask for?

PRAISE HiM!

me in the midst of my mess





anyone would love to volunteer FREE housekeeping? :P

heee :D




i find joy in You despite my circumstance
You are worthy of all praise :)

EXAMS COMING UP!!!!!

so are yeen and i wei!!! hahaha ..welcome to melbourne! :D ahhahaha


but oh my goodness!! exams are SO NEAR!!!!!! nearer than i tot!!! >.< like literally in a week's time!! and i AM SO NOT PREPARED!!! i havent started studying .. well i have.. since an hour ago. ARHHH ok .. chill chill .. it's gonna be alright.. ARHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! please pray for me k?! would really appreciate it! :D and yea .. all the other uni frens .. a levels dudies!! LET'S STRIVE TOGETHER k? would really feel encourgaged if u guys drop me a tag or an sms to remind me that i am loved heeeee :D my housies are awesome in this aspect :) though they never knew :)

yeap! anywayz .. my exams timetable

8th june - BMS 1021 (cells tissues and organisms)
12 MGC 1010 (boring management.. yuck! BOOOO!!! )
13 BMS 1011 (biochemstry yerr.. back to back!! >.<)
15 PSY 1011 ( bluurreest subject on the last day! thank God!)

yea!! in a week all will be over :D and i'll be HAVING A TIME OF MY LIFE!!! hehehee .. but then again .. everyday i am having the time of my life :) so yea .. it's all good .. though i'm a lil stress and worried .. i'll continue to pray and trust in the Lord, my God for strength and this time is truly an opportunity to shine His light :D amen?






Preparation for Greatness
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman


He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. - 2 Samuel 22:35

David was a mighty warrior, and God described him as a man after His own heart. God took David through a training ground that could be looked on as cruel and unusual punishment by many a person. God chose him at a young age to be the next king, yet King Saul rejected him and hunted him down. David was a fugitive for many years. He had uprisings in his own family, and he had relationship problems. He had a life of extreme ups and downs. He certainly did not have a life free of problems; he made mistakes. He was human like all of us, yet he learned from his mistakes and repented when he failed. This was David's training ground; it made the man. Without these hardships, it is doubtful David would have accomplished what he did.

Toward the end of David's life, he recounted his relationship with God. It is a sermon on God's ways of dealing with a servant leader.

It is God who arms me with strength and makes my way perfect. He makes my feet like the feet of a deer; He enables me to stand on the heights. He trains my hands for battle; my arms can bend a bow of bronze. You give me Your shield of victory; You stoop down to make me great. You broaden the path beneath me, so that my ankles do not turn (2 Samuel 22:33-37).

God was David's source for everything. God gave him the ability to achieve the many extraordinary things in his life. It was a lifelong training ground that moved him from one plateau to another, often dropping into a ravine of despair and hopelessness from time to time. These are God's ways. They drive us deeper and deeper into the heart of Him who has prepared a way for us. Let God take you to the heights or depths He desires for you. He never promised smooth sailing during the trip, but He did promise to be the captain and companion along the way.

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I stumble across this and .. it really spoke to me and truly has encouraged me to keep running my race!! and even yesterday .. in OCF .. oh man.. though i acted in the 'drama' .. it just brought back so many memories! and my goodness!! can u guys believe that i can act .. as in it was impromptu!! NO PRACTICES!!! only jon told us wat was happening and we followed his queue! that's it!! hahaha :D the message behind the story reminded me not just the future and the present .. but also the past .. of PLC .. and the song .. and His hands.


yea! anwyaz .. peeps!! STUDYYYY!!!!!!!!!!

i'm so excited in going home too actually!! ok guys .. i shall reveal my schedule :P

i'll be reaching kl on the 19th. but heading to jakarta on the 20th.. back on the 24th or 25th i think. still contemplating whether should i go to redang. hmmm. and i heard that help's prom is coming up!! my fellow GATE-CRASHERS? u ready for this?!! :P maksterrr... come back with me!!!! >.<



oh oh oh!!! PLANETSHAKERS ARE LAUNCHING THEIR ALBUM TOMORROW!!!! IT'S GONNA BE AWESOME!! COME COME COME!!!!!! :D

Thank God for housies, apple pies and ice-creams :D

may this speaks to you :D

God's Motives
TGIF Today God Is First, by Os Hillman


He brought me out into a spacious place; He rescued me because He delighted in me. - 2 Samuel 22:20

Questioning someone's motives for their activities can become an overriding response to those to whom we relate. Wrong motives can result in broken relationships, poor business decisions, and falling out of God's will. Sometimes we do not know the motive of another person. It is wrong for us to assume what their motive is until we have confidence that we know their intentions. When we respond or react prematurely, we become judge and jury over them.

God has a motive for every one of His children. His desire is to bring us into a spacious place. He wants us to go beyond our borders of safety and security so that we might experience life at a level that goes beyond ourselves. What do you think of when you think of a "spacious place"? No limitations? A large, grassy field? Open air? These are positive images. Sometimes these spacious places encourage us to step out in faith into areas where we've never ventured. Sometimes we need to be rescued by the Lord. When Peter walked on the water, God was inviting him to a spacious place. He went beyond the borders of his boat and ventured into a whole new world. He didn't have complete success in his venturing out, but it was a process that would lead him to the next victory in his faith walk with Jesus. Sometimes failure is what is needed in order to move us to the next level of faith with God. However, we must be willing to fail and let God rescue us.

The Lord delights in this process. His motive for His children is always love. It is always to bring us to a new level of trust and dependence on Him.

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :) :) :) :)

God is so good to me!!! seriously!! :D

Though the people i thought cared the most dint respond, i'm glad and thankful that HE DID!!! :D

God has been so good to me. I'm about to share an offering message tonight and He has not failed to remind me of His provision during these couple of weeks!!! :D i shall save this part for later in case someone comes and read my blog during the day and spoils the night's message .. i havent shared before apart from testifying. so .. this is actually my VERY FIRST TIME!! please pray for me guys!!! :D

but anywayz .. i just came back from the DNA Encounter weekend. For others, perhaps it was just a day.. but for me .. it surely was a weekend thing!! Saturday .. we went to this TAFE school where the event was held .. and sunday .. i think perhaps God wasnt done with me yet.. so yea .. His presence was so so tangible!!

DNA Encounter- God has touched me SO SO intimately .. i knew that it was gonna be awesome and hearing from the people who had done it .. i was really stirred and couldnt wait for it to be my turn.. i was praying and hoping that God would show me something new ..reveal something of the future .. my destiny or watever he wants to tell me .. i did hope that i could hear a prophetic word from the pastors .. but i would LOVE it even more if God would tell me himself!!! :D and guess wat? HE TRULY DID!!!!! i was assured and reconfirmed that my destiny is in his hands. .. He has not forgotten bout it even though i kinda have!! i mean .. seriously .. i just told the people once and when they came up and pray for me .. it's the only thing they ever mention!! they can pray for so many other things for me .. but nope .. it's this that they prayed for .. :D God really is in control :) but not just that .. there was more!! :D
to some it may sound .. a ridicule .. and unbelievable .. but for me.. i was so stunned and so in awe that i myself couldnt believe wat i felt as well .. i felt God's hands on my heart... i thought it was my pastor;s hand .. but as i opened my eyes .. there was no hands .. but i could feel the warmth and the pressure of a gentle and concerned hand .. seriously!! it WAS VERY REAL!!! VERY VVEERRYY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow.
Apart from that, i saw lots of other things as well.. i felt the burden for my youngest sister and my mum.. i really believed that my household and i serve the Lord :D
and at the end of the encounter .. i could sense a great celebration :D .. it's as though everyone is rejoicing .. even in heaven!! and i was filled with joy!!!! there's a difference between happiness and joy u know?! joy is the strength and ability to be happy even when circumstances arises but happiness is just a feeling.. yea .. i felt joy-filled!! i was just so HAPPY htat i couldnt stop picking up my feet and sing of His love!!! :D :D

Sunday was wow. we sang a new song in church. spoke to me so much. and seeing the kids worship .. my heart was just so touched and i couldnt hold my tears :' )

All i want to do is worship
all i want to do ... (cant remember the lyrics heheheh )
Jesus Saviour
My heart belongs to you forever
and i will worship you

ps rob disciplined us prior to kids program. Holy spirit was there, convicted so many people's heart and though i dun understand quite some fair bit but some points did hit me and i was weeping so much weiii!!! he spoke about unity .. and always always submit to authority.. apparently that was the most important meeting ever since the very start of planetkids!! and i'm so grateful that i was there!!!! to really catch ps rob's heartbeat! and i wanna serve him :D and give glory to God and make God proud :D

i cant thank God enough. His timing is ALWAYS THE BEST for me!!
from being accepted to planetkids then attending REV conference and being disciplined
from accepting Christ to planetuni camp and being rooted in planetshakers
and the most amazing thing now .. the very recent one..
He provided me with seats to fly home .. (though i dint quite know why am i going back initially) but now.. i do .. there's an asia pacific youth alive conference held in jakarta straight after i returned... it was as though the timing was so "ngam ngam" tat all i need to do is just climb aboard :D

and yes guys .. i'll be heading home on the 19th .. but u wont be seeing me until some time later :D

WHEEEEE!!!! i'm quite excited to go back now :D

oh ya oh ya!!
remembered how i told ya i was faced with tonnes of assignments couple of weeks ago and i was believing God to carry me through?? though i have not gotten all my results back for all of them but certainly they all have been pretty good grades .. not the best grades .. but GOOD enough for me :D and it truly wasnt by my own strenght!! and now that i'm facing with exams.. dear .. i believe tht HE can pull me through :D

"I can do all things through Christ Jesus who strengthens me" - philippians 4 :13-

all the best to the A levels people - ee, jo, han, baby, pat, twin, cheez and ernest!!!! though i havent been contacting u bunch for some while.. u're always being prayed for k?!!

and oh OH!! i've watched pirates of the carribean 3. . i love the trilogy!!! :D they are one of my favourites!! watched it yday :D house outing :) though we're seated separately .. i still enjoyed the movie!!! i love it i love it!!! thanks for sending us back kings!!! :P and housie.. sorry bout rushing the dinner :P least no one lau sai rite?!! heeeeee =D

oh yea!! all the best to the melbourne u peeps too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! exams are all rocking up *sense the stressful atmosphere* but U CAN DO IT K??

i love beth beth aka. bing so much!!! surely we're going through the same situations and it's SO COMFORTING to know that lee and this wonderful woman are both praying for me!!

jo and boss .. u both are amazing!!! i cant wait !!! :D :D :D :D :D

and joy jedis.. u guys never fail to turn my :( to =) my core in OCF !!!! :):):):):):):):):):):):):):)::):):):):)

hmm .. seems like i've once again bable too much :D hahahahahhaahaha ooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

yeen's coming to melbourne tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!! SUPER DUPER EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAAHHA
i miss u so much weiii !!



well .. tat;s all for now i guess.
i've uploaded the planetuni photos! just that i havent have time to post them up in the blog :P after exams k?

and yea .. gotta go study!!!! ~toodles~

i know the road ahead of me is long and wide and i seem so small
but i also know that Jesus is holding my hand as i venture out and take my baby steps :D

URBAN LIFE RECAP :)

uni is getting busier now especially with exams and assignments due dates coming up. they are like the most talked about topic recently.. but oh well .. we're students.. what to do :p oh oh !! jazz night and planet uni photos has been uploaded!! but i havent had the time to put them up in this blog yet.. so be patient ya?! as i said previously .. planetuni camp's.. my goodness ! now is to apply the things i've learnt into practice!! :D and oh oh!!

i went to the mothers day run on sunday after meeting up with my plc babies and staying over at mandy's place on saturday!! i miss them SO SO MUCH!!! >.< reeeeaaaallllllyyyy miss the good old times!! but surely .. we'll meet again yea?! :D i cant wait actually!!! :P pau got her liscence!!! CONGRATS!!!! cant wait for it to be my turn!! muahhahahahahhaha =D met karen at the run on sunday! it was so good catching up and thank God she accompanied me through the 4km :P well we walked all the way but we were having such a great time catching up!!! seriously, havent .. NOT EVEN ONCE i've met her in uni when we both go to the same uni!! and have relatively close classes!! ooh weelll...

anywayz ..i got this morning off :) :) YAY!!! so good. get to sleep in!! hahaha :P

but what i wanna say is tat yesterday i went to urban life. it was AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mei ying and jon shared :) mei's msg spoke to me very very much personally! and it really hit me on my face!! especially when DNA encounter is coming to an end! i was really excited to go to this "graduation" thingy .. i'm graduating!! hahaha no lar.. just finishing the first chapter . more is to come!! :D i heard from those who has done it before saying tht encounter is REALLY good.. like God is really there and you will really ENCOUNTER him. so .. i was indeed very stirred and really wanna meet God and get prophesised over by the pastors! i'm even fasting dinner for it!! hoping to hear a word from the pastors. then mei ying's message struck me!! we have the Holy Spirit who is the Spirit of truth with us and He lives in us. Why wait for others to speak about us and rely on their words when the bible has already told us who we are in Christ?! i was in astonishment!! my goodies!! SO TRUE!! wel .tat was my personal hit.

what i wanna share is about jon's message! it's so encouraging!
"Dont worry, be happy"

Man werent made to worry. REALLY? Prove it i hear.
ok.

1. Matt 6 : 32 your heavenly Father knows that you need them
My God knows and hears my needs.

2. Matt 6 : 33 Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be given to you as well.
My God will provide. He will give and fulfill your needs according to His time. Just like a kid with razors. When he was young, after his dad finished shaving, the razor is placed in a place unreachable to the lil fella. the father knows that one day, when he is old enough, dad is gonna give him the razor. for now, he'll prolly cut himself with it. so yea. God will GIVE it to you generously when He thinks it's time.

3. Matt 6 : 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow worry about itself.
My God knows the future. He is in control! Just leave the future in His hands and seize the day!

Be happy :)

Jesus led a joyful life. even to the point when He was sent to the cross. How can a person be happy still when he knew that all his purpose of living was to be sent to die.
Hebrews 12 :2 Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, for the JOY set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

and the amazing thing that he pointed out to us what tat.. ppl always think that Jesus is always so sad and had a sorrow face.
like this ..



well this one not as bad.. some are like seriously a face like =(

but you know wat?? Jesus, i think and view Him as this!!



or this



and even this!!



not with the hallow la

but i'm still waiting for my favourite photo of Jesus to be sent to me from my couz.. when he sends to me,, i'll share it with u guys k??

so yea.. DONT WORRY!! BE HAPPY! Goodness and mercy has ur back..

PRAY...

i got this in my emailbox which truly applies and come in handy to lots of people out there :)

Joy jedis!! u're currently on my mind =D may God grant all of us the strength to carry on our assignments k? mak! u too!! do ur lupas-watcha-ma-call-it behaviour assignment :)

Today's Prayer
May 14, 2007

Dear God, This morning I want to pray for all the students who are taking, or soon will take, exams in school. This includes junior high, high school, college, uni and postgraduate students; teenagers, young adults, middle-age and senior adults--whatever their age. Please reward their efforts, help them to properly prepare and to retain what they have studied and what they have gleaned in class, clear their minds of distractions and help them remain focused on their task at hand. I pray that You will give them peace, wisdom, and knowledge. I pray that they will put this knowledge to good use in their lives and in the lives of those whom they will influence and touch during life's journey. I pray that You will give them direction for the future. I pray that You will be honored in all they think, say, and do. Thank You for Your help and guidance during this time. In Jesus' name I pray, amen.

i stumble upon this and couldnt be amazed by how good this dudies' photography skills are!! he/she is cool :) i wanna have skills like them! *erhem.. so that during jazz night or any up coming events the photos that come out are of better quality*

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DEE-DUM DEE-DUM :D

i'm happy. i never know that love is so amazing :)

share this quote on my calender with you guys yea?

"Love is a wonderful amazing thing. You never have to take it away from one person to anoother. There's always enough to go around." - Pamela De Roy-

and on the calender itself there's this tempting sinful picture of sticky date pudding!! *drools*


have you ever wonder why people as in human kind have such short attention span or so easily distracted?? (well, at least i know i am onebut of those)

i'm supposed to be doing my work in the com lab but i ended up blog hopping and replying emails instead of finishing up my metabolic essay >.<

and i HATE how i am so easily distracted when it comes to study.. or when i'm supposed to get out of bed.. i.. i .. simply cant pull myself to it >.< IT'S SO BAD!! grrrrrr C'mmon!! really have to start shifting my bad habits!!!


but on the other hand,

i'm loving so many other aspects of life :D
God is so good to me!!! with all the people He carefully picks and places in my life!!! and i'm sure whoever that's reading this bit right now, surely u're not reading this by coincident, come on!! you know what i mean.. admit it.. i know you love me!! (i am so vain :P) but i really love you too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

planetkids is rocketing!!
ocf is blasting with all the upcoming and past events~
planetuni :) :) my FAMILY in Christ who is always always there to uphold and encourage me :) loving me <3

i am seriously so blessed :)

MALAYSIAN PEEPS!! especially the A-levels [jo, pat, baby, han, joel twin, ee and ...] and those who have upcoming exams [yeen, cheez and ...], i'll be praying for all of you k? but always always know that God is there for you guys too :) whenever you're stress or whatever, give me a beep k?? i wanna be there for u guys 2!!!!!! i have to apologise for my lousi-ness at replying emails and even sms.. but u're always on my mind k?? i miss you guys so much weiiiiii~

*cant wait to bite you* :P

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY~ not tat my mum will read this! but yea.. i've gotten her a lil surprise that she is so keen and yet to find out!! hahaha :D mums love surprises too k? and even grandmamas!! :) i talked to my grandma yday and she sounded pleased ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE MAY BABIES!! - jmin keat, zhen yuan and MEI KHOON- i'm so sorry i got confused and was late!! so embarassing!! :P

yeen, jo, jia mien, jia yee, jun hui, baby and han.. i miss you!!!

Ability Versus Availability



His pleasure is not in the strength of the horse, nor His delight in the legs of a man; the Lord delights in those who fear Him, who put their hope in His unfailing love. - Psalm 147:10-11

Do you ever feel so skilled in what you do that you require little help from others? Perhaps you may feel that you are more skilled than any other in your field. Does God need your skills and abilities in order to accomplish His purposes on this earth? The answer is NO.

One thing God does not need is our skills and abilities. However, He does give us the privilege to exercise our gifts and abilities for His service. That service may be as a computer technician, a secretary, an ironworker, or even a lawyer. God calls each of us to our vocations to work unto Him. To believe that He needs our skills to accomplish His mission on earth would be to lower our understanding of an all-encompassing and all-powerful God. The psalmist tells us that His pleasure is not in our strength and ability, but His pleasure is in the attitude of the heart. It is what we find in the heart that helps determine whether ability is translated into availability. You see God is looking to and fro throughout the earth for a man or woman who is fully committed to Him. A man or woman who is committed to fearing the Lord and placing his hope in His unfailing love is the person God seeks to support. "For the eyes of the Lord range throughout the earth to strengthen those whose hearts are fully committed to Him" (2 Chron. 16:9a). When our agenda becomes His agenda, we can expect God to fully support all that we do.

If we want to see our skills and abilities multiplied a hundredfold, then we must make them completely available to His service. Where are the opportunities in which God is calling you to be available to Him? Next time someone asks you to be involved in some activity, before you say yea or nay, make sure you check in with the Master of our decisions to ensure that your gifts and talents are being used, as He desires.



i think God is trying to say something to me!!!!

WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAAHA :D

though the weather was wet and rainy,
and wind was like whaling the whole of this moring,
outside my window is like gloomyy-dark with raindrops splattering on my window now.. but still .. my mood is like so OPPOSITE!!!

hheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =D

i just cant contain it!!! I'm so excited and happy!! despite me being flooded with 2 assignments with a total amount of 3500 words due tomorrow.. i'm overfloaded with joy!!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY!! just one email lifted my day!

this is it.





Dear Mun Yee,

I am thrilled to inform you that your application for Planetkids Team has been approved by the Church Executive Team. We have placed you in the P46 Team, Aaron D’Orival will be your team leader. Please see Lauren Cross this Sunday and she will arrange T.Shirts for you. Jean Lim will be following you up re photo id’s.

Welcome aboard!

Assunta Bradbury
Planetkids



I know God would place me there! He's already given me so many confirmations!! :D it's just a matter of time and now .. i'm so glad that i can serve Him with all the gifts that He has generously given me :D :D YEAH!!! hopefully i dont scare the kids!! :P and hopefully i wont be too daunting or too shy!! :P

God, teach me how to do this k? i've never done it before!!


but yea ... hahahaa

guys! seriously, have u felt so happy that you wanna jump around and scream and laugh till you roll on the floor but you for some unknown reason just wanna hold it in? tat's me rite now!!! but i cant contain the joy and excitement tat is in me!! the miraculous thing was that i was just asking God which age group He wants me to be, then i was like 4 years old or grade 4 .. dun ask me why 4 .. but yea.. then LOOK!! despite it being a mere suggestion to God, just like a random thought, KACHING!!! i'm in Planet46!!! WARH! wat's this weiiii. .. nothing else could explain itself better!! God, you're so AWESOME LA~ *puts on a super malaysian accent* :D

current word count for both assignments : 0
remaining words : 3500
remaining time : 18 hours 30 mins
stress level : little to none

guess wat i'm gonna do now??

ermm .. feel the urge to go do my no.2 .. but that's not my point .. :P

i'm gonna go

PRAISE HIM!!! :)

*could hear my heart sing: JUMP JUMP*


*WOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT*





by the way, happy birthday kimchew!!! :D u're always loved :D especially when u bring me your glutenous rice.. hehehe .. yumm.. but of course, not just tat :p