Numbers

I've been reading the chapter Numbers in the bible. Yes, there are lots of numbers and the things that were written were exact to the dot, for example, when a census was taken, they actually write down how many people they counted.

I was really fascinated at how the different clans have a different job scope. The Levites were to enter into the tent and the Kohathites were only to carry the holy things and not look at them at all. This other clan were to carry the curtains and this other one were to carry the tents and the gears.

To each, there was a specific job description.

Numbers 4:49a
At the Lord's commandment through Moses, each was assigned his work and told what to carry.

I just watched Never Let Me Go

It is a beautiful but sad movie. (spoiler alert) People were created just for the sake of organ donation. They were created to die. There were no other means of escape, no deferrals, no excuses and no time to experience true love. Their sole purpose was to extend the life of this other person whom they have never met. They "complete" when there has been so many organs that are taken out that they practically cant survive anymore.

As graduation is approaching, uni has been organising lots of careers related talks with us, and in guiding us on making our choices for next year. I am truly one step closer to working in the healthcare world. But the big question is, where to go and what's next?

It's scary, not just because we are next in line to step out of uni and into the working world.
It's scary, cos it is time to carry the load of the society.
It's scary because I am going to be walking in my destiny.

Vision

without vision, men perish.

It's strange how i get a word for the day and as i ponder upon it, it unveil more things but along with it, come more question marks floating on my head. hmmm?

in Planetshakers conference, ps Jentezen spoke about the importance of visions and dreams. he shared of this beautiful story of having a purpose drives you to live a life.

There was this 16 year old girl. She's had enough of life. Depressed and hopeless, she decided that this is it. She headed off to a bridge and decided to jump off the bridge and put an end to her life.
She headed up, took a big dive and farewelled the world.
Not knowing to her, there was this man, fishing by the bridge, not too far away from her. He witnessed all of that and when she jumped, he instinctively dived in to save her too!
It was a gut driven response and he didnt give much to it. He swam a little bit towards her, in the attempt of saving her. Yet, soon enough, it occured to him that, HE DIDNT KNOW HOW TO SWIM and he started drowning.
He paddled and called for help. Funny thing was, the girl who wanted to commit suicide, actually knew how to swim. (I can so imagine her face at this stage, hahhaa)
The story ended with her saving his life instead of she committing suicide. The papers came up with the headline - Saved by a Purpose.


So, i guess, the question to myself is, what do i see that drives me in achieving that purpose?
what about you?

Specific

Let's be specific.

Chinese song?

Yes, I am still very chinese deep down inside.

This is for my chinese / canto speaking friends and family :)

The words are beautiful. It's prolly your loss if you couldnt understand.



As Easter comes closer, I am constantly reminded of the love that God has for us , for me!

1 John 3:16

This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers and sisters.

Welcome to Holland

this video was showed in one of my lectures. so truly inspiring (you may need to turn the volume up to hear the words)

It's such a great blessing waking up and knowing that you are loved.

coincidence?

2 Tim 1:6 For this reason, I remind you to fan into flame the gift of God, which is in you through the laying of my hands. SURELY, it isn't a coincidence that this verse came to me, and we are talking bout gifts in discipleship tonight and Planetkids on Sunday. 3 hit in one go! I am SOOOOO excited about what God is going to do tonight and the next coming week! Stay tuned for more testimonies. I have one pretty amazing one already. Sarah sprained her ankle on Sunday. Read more here. and after being prayed for by Elijah Newton (8 years old), today, she is pain free, walking and jumping, not to mention a big smile on her face! If you think i'm always just talks about this God who is all just airy-fairy and not relevant, think again.

a verse a day

I think from today onwards, I want to commit to posting up a verse a day (or an interesting quote or smtg inspiring). We, as children leaders encourage the kids to memorise a verse a week. So, I think, it should start with us setting the example.

And this can be quite challenging for me. I am not very good with remembering things or memorising things. But may this be the start to growing deeper in the word of God and may it encourage you! (it also helps to keep my blog alive! hehehe)



1 Tim 6 : 11 b
Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance and gentleness.

little treasures

Sitting in the library and having random conversations with God this lunch reminded me how the beauty of random surprises and the joy of discovering treasures along your way.

Back in high school, in the boarding house, we used to drop each other lil post-its on doors, desks and even on snacks and dinner plates. It could be a reminder to collect your laundry, homework due the next day, you had a phonecall when you had sports in the arvo or sweet notes from someone saying that you're in their thoughts.

I was very inspired after reading this by Color me Katie. It's seemed like a whole deal of fun :) and it's not hard to make someone's day.

So, look around, maybe there's a little note for you, somewhere :)


Look, if nothing else, it's always great when someone tells you they love you - Ross Geller, Friends-

This is my God

<sup>Psalm 103

1</sup> Praise the LORD, my soul;
all my inmost being, praise his holy name.
² Praise the LORD, my soul,
and forget not all his benefits—
³ who forgives all your sins
and heals all your diseases,
⁴ who redeems your life from the pit
and crowns you with love and compassion,
⁵ who satisfies your desires with good things
so that your youth is renewed like the eagle’s.

⁶ The LORD works righteousness
and justice for all the oppressed.

⁷ He made known his ways to Moses,
his deeds to the people of Israel:
⁸ The LORD is compassionate and gracious,
slow to anger, abounding in love.
⁹ He will not always accuse,
nor will he harbor his anger forever;
¹⁰ he does not treat us as our sins deserve
or repay us according to our iniquities.
¹¹ For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his love for those who fear him;
¹² as far as the east is from the west,
so far has he removed our transgressions from us.

¹³ As a father has compassion on his children,
so the LORD has compassion on those who fear him;
¹⁴ for he knows how we are formed,
he remembers that we are dust.
¹⁵ The life of mortals is like grass,
they flourish like a flower of the field;
¹⁶ the wind blows over it and it is gone,
and its place remembers it no more.
¹⁷ But from everlasting to everlasting
the LORD’s love is with those who fear him,
and his righteousness with their children’s children—
¹⁸ with those who keep his covenant
and remember to obey his precepts.

¹⁹ The LORD has established his throne in heaven,
and his kingdom rules over all.

²⁰ Praise the LORD, you his angels,
you mighty ones who do his bidding,
who obey his word.
²¹ Praise the LORD, all his heavenly hosts,
you his servants who do his will.
²² Praise the LORD, all his works
everywhere in his dominion.

Praise the LORD, my soul.

Complacent vs Contented

Planetshakers conference is coming up in 15 days!! (if you have yet to register, go to the website and do it!!!! IT WILL CHANGE YOUR LIFE)

I have always learnt to set expectation and to believe for BIG and greater things. God is faithful and He will always come through. I have personal encounters and experiences of my own. A lot of my life changing moments come from me taking a small step of faith and God invading my natural senses. Positioning yourself in the environment to receive is the first step, so sign up!

So, yesterday, jon and i were talking about conference and what do we expect. I was very honest and I admitted that I dont know what to expect. I refused to admit that I was indecisive hence not knowing what I want. In my own words, I said, "I was afraid that I'm being too complacent and not asking God for more." but in actual fact, I want more. I just dont know what "more" can i ask from God.
Jon said I wasnt being complacent, I was being contented.
That, somehow, struck a chord in me.

Life has been slowly climbing back upwards again. I have been blessed tremendously and abundantly beyond my expectations. Life is cruising and it is good. I can say, I have all the materialistic things that I need and I am very comfortable this stage.
But spiritually, I know I can never have enough, but the question is, what can i never have enough of?

Yes, I understand that we can never have enough of God and we should press in for more of Him. but i think, I have fallen into the trap of chasing after the gifts and the outworks of His Spirit instead of the One who gives. I know how God wants to use me and God gives me these gifts to serve Him and the people around Him. But you know, if you're not close enough or sensitive enough to Him, these gifts are of no use. Who can you encourage, and what do you say even if you wanna encourage them? These little things seemed so hard when you're striving on your own strength and just wanting to work it by your own ability.
There's no power behind it.
God is not in it.

Yes, a lot of times, I believe. I believe when we pray for healing.
I believe when we ask God for breakthrough.
Dangerously, I think I have fallen into the trap that it's about me- I believe, I pray, I stepped out. I've tried and why has it not happened? and why isnt the people around me saved yet!



Holy Spirit reminded me gently today,
"Mun Yee, it's not about you and your own strength. It's ME, working through you."

and so, today, I've learnt to put things back into perspective again. It's

GOD, I believe.
GOD, I know you will come through.
GOD, work in me.


James 5: 11
As you know, we count as blessed those who have persevered. You have heard of Job’s perseverance and have seen what the Lord finally brought about. The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.

Thank God for creative people!

Sarah helped me re-do this layout :) yay!!! It's nice yes?

Yay to friends who are creative. They come up with such beautiful things that keep me entertained all the time. And by creative, it doesnt have to mean that they design pretty things or take amazing photos. I think words can be very powerful and takes you to places that visual can only do so much?

Check them out and be wow-ed :)

Jon
Dave (and Li)
Ant
Sarah
Rachel
Iris (she doesnt know I read her blog :p ) and chek out her love for bikes here too

PCR calls

This week, I made a couple of phonecalls to the kids in my podgroup. Being back in Planetkids gave me the biggest honour to connect with the little champions of this generation.

The other day, I was on the phone with Emily and was trying to get to know her better.

Mun : So, what do you like to do? (thinking that it would be either sports or craft)
Em : I like to swim (she just won a couple of swimming competition that day)
Em : and I looooveee to pray

wow! how beautiful is that?!

After that, I called another girl, from the total opposite side of town, Tabitha.

Mun : How's your day, Tabitha?
Tabi: Good, thanks! We won the baseball game today! (she sounded real happy and pleased)
Mun : Great work!! Do you like playing baseball?
Tabi : Yes I do. But I like praying and reading the bible more!

OH MY GOODNESS. what amazing kids i have! They are such legends. God has truly placed something so precious to Him into my care and I am sooo excited for this year. I know that it is gonna get better and better!

Little things I thank God for

This week thus far, has been super amazingly good for me!

My dad flew over from K.L. and brought us the good news that he is definitely buying us a car! (yay!!!) It hit me the other day that, it is such a big blessing that I am actually given a car. I always wanted a car, I think ever since I could drive. But then, financially, I could only afford an older, probably unsafe car based on my own ability. There has been lots of petition to both my biological father and my Father in heaven for a car. And, the process took REAAALLLY long, but i know it is coming! and the fact that I am given one, reminds me that I am well looked after and I should never take these things as though I deserve it. I am truly very grateful.

This week, I was taken out to amazing dinners too!
from Hu Tong dumplings and Tao's beautifully plated set dinner to Queensberry salmon, oh my. I think I ate too much for my own good. my tummy was surely very happy.

and yesterday night, Sookers told me that I have a surprise at home. It was a bouquet of flowers delivered to my door. Attached was a note from Hhams that made me felt evermore so loved.

I've had the best surprise under fairy lights too. The night was just too beautiful and my iPhone wouldnt do it any justice.

God has been so good to me. As I think of his goodness, I am marveled and feel so precious. <3

Psalm 103:7

I will tell of the kindnesses of the LORD,
the deeds for which he is to be praised,
according to all the LORD has done for us—
yes, the many good things
he has done for Israel,
according to his compassion and many kindnesses.

the NEW has come

It may sound a little slow and late, but going back into Uni again sorta gives me this feeling as though the year has just begun. We all know that it is now March! (OHMYGOODNESS!)

Indeed, the new has come.

We are no longer living in 1 Prince St. I am now an official Glennie!
Living at home with my sisters only, without our parents does indeed feel weird. I have now resume a lot more responsibilities - from getting us connected to the internet to making sure that there's groceries in the pantry and getting everyone fed, they are not on my official lists but obviously, I do need to think about them. I even have to sign my sister's excursion forms and permission slips! Yikes! Hello to growing up hey?

This semester, even though I only have 2 official days.Yet, with work, I have to leave home at 6.40am and coming home only at about 5 or 7. If I'm lucky, 3pm. Traveling to and from Uni is quite a killer but oh wells. I guess I can still cope with quite bit of that. I just dont like the fact that by the time I get home, it's late and I am only left with 3 hours to spent with people / family before my body gives away. I am slowly adapting to this new change, I hope.

Still, I am really excited (and nervous).
Final year has presented its scary part - job search and interview. Along with it, I am placed to think about the future.
Where do I see myself? Where and what has God called me to do? How am I going to support myself? and who will be in the picture?

Psalm 139:16
Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.

What do you see in the mirror?

Coming back to melbourne wasnt as easy as I thought. Yes, I was looking forward to coming back to my comfort zone and my home but i didnt know resettling in was a bit of some hiccup. the new house was packed with boxes, i have 4 days of waking up at 6 to go for my 9am classes, being in a new suburb means friends arent as close as they used to be, housemates are all now my sisters, etc. indeed, some adjustments were required. And to be honest, spiritually, i needed to pick myself up again. I wasnt at the place where I know i needed to be but i reckon, the best bday gift is to know, and to be surrounded by people who can help you back in this race.

I have forgotten how much I am loved.

Today, i stood in front of the mirror, drying my hair and this question came upon me - what do you see in the mirror?

I used to not care so much about the physical appearance, or how i present myself. I am a strong believer of this saying - beauty lies within. Yet, seeing the people around me are gradually metamorphosing into someone super hot that even I cant help to not take my eyes off, the way i see myself was affected. I started to see the flaws and what i did not have. I tried to see what others see in me and find it hard to believe that there is actually beauty in me. It was easy to feed on your self pity and insecurity when you're not holding on to the picture that God draws of you.

Ai ling sent me these 2 videos from Veggietales. Super cute but super appropriate for all ages!





so, what do you see in the mirror?

may you hold close to the picture of what God draw of you, rather than carrying painting that were meant to be in your bag pack.

tell yourself, "you are fearfully and wonderfully made" and never let anyone tell you otherwise.

so, as I stepped back and looked at the mirror again, I see a mighty woman of God, a future of divine possibilities, and rivers of living water. Above all, I see the hand that is on my shoulder, cheering me on and patting me with love.

If only i could let my tears, emotions, love and passion run wild again.

Searching and Finding

I just came home from my 7am breakfast catch up with my best friend.

On the way back, i couldnt stop but to ponder on the thought that A LOT of the people on earth are searching.
Yes, WE, are all searching for something.

I just realised that there's this Stats function in your blog page that tells you about the traffic flow of my blog (Yes, i'm a bit slow, just a tad bit, ok?) I havent been blogging much and I was quite shocked at the fact that people still come and check this page out. I dont think it would be worth people's time and yet, i was surpised at what I saw.

It wasnt the fact that my friends still pop by that shock me. It was the fact that people came through google.
Some while back, i think i posted a song about God's amazing grace- "I'm so not worthy but still you love me" and that was one of the hit that google led people here. Yup, thanks google.

It reminded me that people are searching for love. There's a void in all of us. We are always searching for something, dont you reckon? Yesterday's movie with the lims paints a good illustration. Faster, by the Rock. He was looking for revenge, the other guy was searching for adventure and thrill; the cop was searching for truth, the other was looking for a new life. See, everyone was searching for some form of answer that we have in our head. Or to answer a need, or perhaps, someone to love and someone who loves you back.

Not to sound arrogant, i think i've been very blessed and a lot of the times, i always get what i want, or sometimes, even more than what i expected. that's not because of how wealthy my parents are, or how spoilt i am, it's because of the greatness of my Jesus. Su Ann pointed out yesterday, I seemed to have things falling into my lap when i need them. I am indeed so blessed, and I dont wanna take it for granted or sound like a brat. but indeed, I have a heavenly Father who loves me and listens to my needs. House near the school zone, furnitures, rides to places, financial provision and most importantly, a group of people who i love and love me.

Technically, i have it all, but yet, being human, I am still searching for MORE. There's always a desire for something better, materialistically, emotionally and spiritually. Hence, the void is filled and very quickly empty again.
I guess, that's when the lies of the enemy come in. Are you really satisfied? Do you really think that's good enough? You deserve better.. blah blah blah. and you make an unfair trade.
you (i'm speaking to myself too) entertain negative thoughts and think things unworthy of your time. Then you worry and lost your joy. From there onwards, it's a downwards spiral unless you realise and actively puts a stop to it.

I guess, we all have to realise that it's ok to search for something better (there's when improvement comes in?) but i think there's a difference with searching aimlessly like a headless chook and finding for something. When you look for something, do you have the hope that you will find? Or are you just looking, because you know if you didnt try, you wont be at ease but you're not searching whole heartedly? I wonder how God searches our heart? I wonder what is was like when the shepherd went and look for the 1 lost sheep and leaving the herd of 99? I'm wondering what the person on the other side felt when he/she was feeling when he/she google - "i'm so unworthy"?

You know, when you type in something in google, and hit the search button, you expect results to answer your search, right?

I pray that you find what you're looking for. I pray that you find and see God's goodness in the process of looking for the things your heart yearns for.

Matt 7:7
Seek and you will find.

ok. i hope u dont read this and think that i'm emo. well, after all, its the time of the month for me, and i'm more in touch with my feminine side. but hey! i think i've raised a few good points, read and comment?



i think life is very interesting. i sometimes wonder if we could just erase everything and start afresh on a new canvas.
you know, like how we used to have drawing pad, and when you've started on something and realised that that's not what you imagine, then you tear it away and start again.

i dont think you could ever do that with life.
it would be very painful to tear something off and start anew.

i always think people who are suffering from Alzheimers are one of the saddest group of people. Well, if not they themselves, it would be the people around them, or the people that love them.
I think we all have the desire to love, and be loved back. That's how and why God created us, i think?

Jo, Elwin and I had a good catch up session at The Bee today.

i'm very scared to admit this, I dont think I know how to love anymore.
Jo pointed out in the bible,
1 John 3:14
Anyone who does not love remains in death.

I think part of me is slowly dying within. I think this holiday has showed me how much i've fallen short of God's glory and how much i needed God's grace. I see people and i try to do the right thing. but I think i've become very much task driven and not people driven. Over these few weeks, I've been running around, from places to places, running errands and seeing people. A lot of the time, i am trying to please people.
Please my parents
please my grandma
please my friends
please my relatives
basically, i'm trying so hard to please everyone and i felt like i'm so tired and soo drained. i've relied on my own strength too much and i'm suffocating myself.
and the BIG question that hit me was, have i please God? Is Jesus pleased with me?


I think there's a difference with doing or saying the right thing at the right time, say something because you know it's the right thing to say (out of obligation) and doing something wholeheartedly. It's the same about giving, and the same principle applies to loving. I heard that, you can give without loving but you cant love without giving. Perhaps I havent given for a while. I'm been complaining and being quite negative, and i have to constantly tell myself off and talk to myself. otherwise, i think i'll become someone i totally dislike. being away from God kinda suck. knowing that you're not that much on fire anymore, i reckon is worse than not having Jesus in your life. I guess that's why God hates lukewarm.
sad to admit, i've been living a mediocre, lukewarm life this holiday. (it only hit me yesterday) and i really really hate it. people say hate is a big word. i think i've used it well this time, it really describes how i feel.

Elwin is not a person of big talks. He believes more in action. Jo pointed out again that action means more than words (as cliche as it sounds), it is stated in the bible. ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. I've always said a lot of things but i havent done alot. I always said i wanna change someone's life. have i?
If I were to read what i've written in the past, i'm pretty sure i've said i wanna love people more, i wanna serve, i wanna make an impact, i wanna do something for God. Have I taken any action - is the big question.

My aunty nonchalantly commented that my generation is not as 'durable' as theirs anymore, we get tired easily and we give up relatively fast. when she first said it, i was strongly against it. but now, i think there's some truth in it. we dont fight for what we believe in anymore, not to say, the people we love. it's sad, but give up seems to be the subtle and understandable easy way out for the problems that arise. just sweep it under the carpet. look at our environmental issues, the corruption in our country? what about the fear of rejection or the insecurity? lack of attention?


i guess, ultimately, the question is - are we willing to lay down our lives and pick up the cross?

we can do big things. as big as our heart takes us.
we can begin with small little things, as much as our capabilities push us.

but we SHOULD all do something.