Monday, February 14, 2011
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Searching and Finding
I just came home from my 7am breakfast catch up with my best friend.
On the way back, i couldnt stop but to ponder on the thought that A LOT of the people on earth are searching.
Yes, WE, are all searching for something.
I just realised that there's this Stats function in your blog page that tells you about the traffic flow of my blog (Yes, i'm a bit slow, just a tad bit, ok?) I havent been blogging much and I was quite shocked at the fact that people still come and check this page out. I dont think it would be worth people's time and yet, i was surpised at what I saw.
It wasnt the fact that my friends still pop by that shock me. It was the fact that people came through google.
Some while back, i think i posted a song about God's amazing grace- "I'm so not worthy but still you love me" and that was one of the hit that google led people here. Yup, thanks google.
It reminded me that people are searching for love. There's a void in all of us. We are always searching for something, dont you reckon? Yesterday's movie with the lims paints a good illustration. Faster, by the Rock. He was looking for revenge, the other guy was searching for adventure and thrill; the cop was searching for truth, the other was looking for a new life. See, everyone was searching for some form of answer that we have in our head. Or to answer a need, or perhaps, someone to love and someone who loves you back.
Not to sound arrogant, i think i've been very blessed and a lot of the times, i always get what i want, or sometimes, even more than what i expected. that's not because of how wealthy my parents are, or how spoilt i am, it's because of the greatness of my Jesus. Su Ann pointed out yesterday, I seemed to have things falling into my lap when i need them. I am indeed so blessed, and I dont wanna take it for granted or sound like a brat. but indeed, I have a heavenly Father who loves me and listens to my needs. House near the school zone, furnitures, rides to places, financial provision and most importantly, a group of people who i love and love me.
Technically, i have it all, but yet, being human, I am still searching for MORE. There's always a desire for something better, materialistically, emotionally and spiritually. Hence, the void is filled and very quickly empty again.
I guess, that's when the lies of the enemy come in. Are you really satisfied? Do you really think that's good enough? You deserve better.. blah blah blah. and you make an unfair trade.
you (i'm speaking to myself too) entertain negative thoughts and think things unworthy of your time. Then you worry and lost your joy. From there onwards, it's a downwards spiral unless you realise and actively puts a stop to it.
I guess, we all have to realise that it's ok to search for something better (there's when improvement comes in?) but i think there's a difference with searching aimlessly like a headless chook and finding for something. When you look for something, do you have the hope that you will find? Or are you just looking, because you know if you didnt try, you wont be at ease but you're not searching whole heartedly? I wonder how God searches our heart? I wonder what is was like when the shepherd went and look for the 1 lost sheep and leaving the herd of 99? I'm wondering what the person on the other side felt when he/she was feeling when he/she google - "i'm so unworthy"?
You know, when you type in something in google, and hit the search button, you expect results to answer your search, right?
I pray that you find what you're looking for. I pray that you find and see God's goodness in the process of looking for the things your heart yearns for.
Matt 7:7
Seek and you will find.
On the way back, i couldnt stop but to ponder on the thought that A LOT of the people on earth are searching.
Yes, WE, are all searching for something.
I just realised that there's this Stats function in your blog page that tells you about the traffic flow of my blog (Yes, i'm a bit slow, just a tad bit, ok?) I havent been blogging much and I was quite shocked at the fact that people still come and check this page out. I dont think it would be worth people's time and yet, i was surpised at what I saw.
It wasnt the fact that my friends still pop by that shock me. It was the fact that people came through google.
Some while back, i think i posted a song about God's amazing grace- "I'm so not worthy but still you love me" and that was one of the hit that google led people here. Yup, thanks google.
It reminded me that people are searching for love. There's a void in all of us. We are always searching for something, dont you reckon? Yesterday's movie with the lims paints a good illustration. Faster, by the Rock. He was looking for revenge, the other guy was searching for adventure and thrill; the cop was searching for truth, the other was looking for a new life. See, everyone was searching for some form of answer that we have in our head. Or to answer a need, or perhaps, someone to love and someone who loves you back.
Not to sound arrogant, i think i've been very blessed and a lot of the times, i always get what i want, or sometimes, even more than what i expected. that's not because of how wealthy my parents are, or how spoilt i am, it's because of the greatness of my Jesus. Su Ann pointed out yesterday, I seemed to have things falling into my lap when i need them. I am indeed so blessed, and I dont wanna take it for granted or sound like a brat. but indeed, I have a heavenly Father who loves me and listens to my needs. House near the school zone, furnitures, rides to places, financial provision and most importantly, a group of people who i love and love me.
Technically, i have it all, but yet, being human, I am still searching for MORE. There's always a desire for something better, materialistically, emotionally and spiritually. Hence, the void is filled and very quickly empty again.
I guess, that's when the lies of the enemy come in. Are you really satisfied? Do you really think that's good enough? You deserve better.. blah blah blah. and you make an unfair trade.
you (i'm speaking to myself too) entertain negative thoughts and think things unworthy of your time. Then you worry and lost your joy. From there onwards, it's a downwards spiral unless you realise and actively puts a stop to it.
I guess, we all have to realise that it's ok to search for something better (there's when improvement comes in?) but i think there's a difference with searching aimlessly like a headless chook and finding for something. When you look for something, do you have the hope that you will find? Or are you just looking, because you know if you didnt try, you wont be at ease but you're not searching whole heartedly? I wonder how God searches our heart? I wonder what is was like when the shepherd went and look for the 1 lost sheep and leaving the herd of 99? I'm wondering what the person on the other side felt when he/she was feeling when he/she google - "i'm so unworthy"?
You know, when you type in something in google, and hit the search button, you expect results to answer your search, right?
I pray that you find what you're looking for. I pray that you find and see God's goodness in the process of looking for the things your heart yearns for.
Matt 7:7
Seek and you will find.
Friday, February 11, 2011
ok. i hope u dont read this and think that i'm emo. well, after all, its the time of the month for me, and i'm more in touch with my feminine side. but hey! i think i've raised a few good points, read and comment?
i think life is very interesting. i sometimes wonder if we could just erase everything and start afresh on a new canvas.
you know, like how we used to have drawing pad, and when you've started on something and realised that that's not what you imagine, then you tear it away and start again.
i dont think you could ever do that with life.
it would be very painful to tear something off and start anew.
i always think people who are suffering from Alzheimers are one of the saddest group of people. Well, if not they themselves, it would be the people around them, or the people that love them.
I think we all have the desire to love, and be loved back. That's how and why God created us, i think?
Jo, Elwin and I had a good catch up session at The Bee today.
i'm very scared to admit this, I dont think I know how to love anymore.
Jo pointed out in the bible,
1 John 3:14
Anyone who does not love remains in death.
I think part of me is slowly dying within. I think this holiday has showed me how much i've fallen short of God's glory and how much i needed God's grace. I see people and i try to do the right thing. but I think i've become very much task driven and not people driven. Over these few weeks, I've been running around, from places to places, running errands and seeing people. A lot of the time, i am trying to please people.
Please my parents
please my grandma
please my friends
please my relatives
basically, i'm trying so hard to please everyone and i felt like i'm so tired and soo drained. i've relied on my own strength too much and i'm suffocating myself.
and the BIG question that hit me was, have i please God? Is Jesus pleased with me?
I think there's a difference with doing or saying the right thing at the right time, say something because you know it's the right thing to say (out of obligation) and doing something wholeheartedly. It's the same about giving, and the same principle applies to loving. I heard that, you can give without loving but you cant love without giving. Perhaps I havent given for a while. I'm been complaining and being quite negative, and i have to constantly tell myself off and talk to myself. otherwise, i think i'll become someone i totally dislike. being away from God kinda suck. knowing that you're not that much on fire anymore, i reckon is worse than not having Jesus in your life. I guess that's why God hates lukewarm.
sad to admit, i've been living a mediocre, lukewarm life this holiday. (it only hit me yesterday) and i really really hate it. people say hate is a big word. i think i've used it well this time, it really describes how i feel.
Elwin is not a person of big talks. He believes more in action. Jo pointed out again that action means more than words (as cliche as it sounds), it is stated in the bible. ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. I've always said a lot of things but i havent done alot. I always said i wanna change someone's life. have i?
If I were to read what i've written in the past, i'm pretty sure i've said i wanna love people more, i wanna serve, i wanna make an impact, i wanna do something for God. Have I taken any action - is the big question.
My aunty nonchalantly commented that my generation is not as 'durable' as theirs anymore, we get tired easily and we give up relatively fast. when she first said it, i was strongly against it. but now, i think there's some truth in it. we dont fight for what we believe in anymore, not to say, the people we love. it's sad, but give up seems to be the subtle and understandable easy way out for the problems that arise. just sweep it under the carpet. look at our environmental issues, the corruption in our country? what about the fear of rejection or the insecurity? lack of attention?
i guess, ultimately, the question is - are we willing to lay down our lives and pick up the cross?
i think life is very interesting. i sometimes wonder if we could just erase everything and start afresh on a new canvas.
you know, like how we used to have drawing pad, and when you've started on something and realised that that's not what you imagine, then you tear it away and start again.
i dont think you could ever do that with life.
it would be very painful to tear something off and start anew.
i always think people who are suffering from Alzheimers are one of the saddest group of people. Well, if not they themselves, it would be the people around them, or the people that love them.
I think we all have the desire to love, and be loved back. That's how and why God created us, i think?
Jo, Elwin and I had a good catch up session at The Bee today.
i'm very scared to admit this, I dont think I know how to love anymore.
Jo pointed out in the bible,
1 John 3:14
Anyone who does not love remains in death.
I think part of me is slowly dying within. I think this holiday has showed me how much i've fallen short of God's glory and how much i needed God's grace. I see people and i try to do the right thing. but I think i've become very much task driven and not people driven. Over these few weeks, I've been running around, from places to places, running errands and seeing people. A lot of the time, i am trying to please people.
Please my parents
please my grandma
please my friends
please my relatives
basically, i'm trying so hard to please everyone and i felt like i'm so tired and soo drained. i've relied on my own strength too much and i'm suffocating myself.
and the BIG question that hit me was, have i please God? Is Jesus pleased with me?
I think there's a difference with doing or saying the right thing at the right time, say something because you know it's the right thing to say (out of obligation) and doing something wholeheartedly. It's the same about giving, and the same principle applies to loving. I heard that, you can give without loving but you cant love without giving. Perhaps I havent given for a while. I'm been complaining and being quite negative, and i have to constantly tell myself off and talk to myself. otherwise, i think i'll become someone i totally dislike. being away from God kinda suck. knowing that you're not that much on fire anymore, i reckon is worse than not having Jesus in your life. I guess that's why God hates lukewarm.
sad to admit, i've been living a mediocre, lukewarm life this holiday. (it only hit me yesterday) and i really really hate it. people say hate is a big word. i think i've used it well this time, it really describes how i feel.
Elwin is not a person of big talks. He believes more in action. Jo pointed out again that action means more than words (as cliche as it sounds), it is stated in the bible. ACTION SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS. I've always said a lot of things but i havent done alot. I always said i wanna change someone's life. have i?
If I were to read what i've written in the past, i'm pretty sure i've said i wanna love people more, i wanna serve, i wanna make an impact, i wanna do something for God. Have I taken any action - is the big question.
My aunty nonchalantly commented that my generation is not as 'durable' as theirs anymore, we get tired easily and we give up relatively fast. when she first said it, i was strongly against it. but now, i think there's some truth in it. we dont fight for what we believe in anymore, not to say, the people we love. it's sad, but give up seems to be the subtle and understandable easy way out for the problems that arise. just sweep it under the carpet. look at our environmental issues, the corruption in our country? what about the fear of rejection or the insecurity? lack of attention?
i guess, ultimately, the question is - are we willing to lay down our lives and pick up the cross?
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
I need more
When I thought that i've had enough, there's always more.
When I thought that I can do it on my own, i was wrong.
I need more.
There's just this void, this yearning, this desire within me that I cant shake off.
I've tried running away,
i've tried shaking it off.
I. SIMPLY. CAN'T.
I just need more. so much more.
So God, fill me, Lord.
Fill me Lord,
I need more.
I need more of You.
When I thought that I can do it on my own, i was wrong.
I need more.
There's just this void, this yearning, this desire within me that I cant shake off.
I've tried running away,
i've tried shaking it off.
I. SIMPLY. CAN'T.
I just need more. so much more.
So God, fill me, Lord.
Fill me Lord,
I need more.
I need more of You.
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
I HAVE MOVED, AGAIN!!
yes. i have moved house again. for the 4th time in 4 years! but all went well :) thank God. and Joanne reminded me of the amazing favour that i've been experiencing throughout this summer!
when i needed a car to go to placements down in Geelong, Dan made arrangements and i had my transport organised.
when i needed a place in the GW school zone to live in, aunty jane called up and told me that they are vacating to a new place.
when i needed furnitures for my new place, both DVD and jon offered theirs.
when i needed company, you came.
when i was too chicken to step out and pray for healing, Jesus moved and touched the Joanne! she was partially healed from her blocked nose. now i'm stepping in and believing for total healing!
when i needed a lot of hands to move house, lots of muscles came, and chenny even brought me a trolley!
just when i thought i couldnt be grateful enough for the little things, Ps Paul preached on THANK YOU! what more appropriate for this season.
God, thank You! I cant wait to celebrate Your birthday!
when i needed a car to go to placements down in Geelong, Dan made arrangements and i had my transport organised.
when i needed a place in the GW school zone to live in, aunty jane called up and told me that they are vacating to a new place.
when i needed furnitures for my new place, both DVD and jon offered theirs.
when i needed company, you came.
when i was too chicken to step out and pray for healing, Jesus moved and touched the Joanne! she was partially healed from her blocked nose. now i'm stepping in and believing for total healing!
when i needed a lot of hands to move house, lots of muscles came, and chenny even brought me a trolley!
just when i thought i couldnt be grateful enough for the little things, Ps Paul preached on THANK YOU! what more appropriate for this season.
God, thank You! I cant wait to celebrate Your birthday!
Friday, December 17, 2010
i'm still alive!
Hi. I am still around. havent been writing for a while and i do apologise for that. internet was capped and just been busy with what has been happening.
i cant believe christmas is only a week away. the memories of last christmas still lives vividly in my head. it would mark one year of my grandma's death. i guess i would always a bit confused when it comes to that day, whether to mourn and to celebrate. of course it's a festive season and i sure do love christmas! but i guess i cant help but to miss her.
and recently, i realised that i dont let things go easily. i hoard (considering how many boxes of stuff i have now) and i hold on to things of the past that probably aint doing me any good. i dont really know why either. i wish i could be brutal and just throw things out of the window just like that. you know, like you go through a scanner, beep yes-stay, beep no- throw. i guess it just doesnt work that way for me. the sentimental side rides over me. or perhaps i hold on tightly hoping that perhaps things would go back to the good ol' times. i dont know. i should perhaps stop saying i dont know and start figuring things out too hey? oh yes. i am moving house again! :S
but anyway, on a brighter note, i've just come back from geelong after going on 6 days of 10/12 hrs rural paramedic placements and waking up at 5.15am. mmmm. i am still not very sure if i wanna be a paramedic, considering that there's minimal patient contact and blatantly, it's a scoop and go job. i dont know if i wanna do that. but nonetheless, it was great experience though. geelong is not bad of a town to live in! (i'm prolly like the 1 asian you see behind the ambo) but ppl are sure lovely and the beach and scenery is beautiful. after a long day of work, you can stand back and take a deep breath. all is good.
God has been truly watching over me throughout. i've been experiencing such favour!
- blankets out of nowhere in a freezing cold night at geelong
- pardoned for not having concession card
- found and returned $100
i cant believe i have to go on placements next on christmas eve, day and boxing day! but it will be good. spread some love and good hope! xx
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Change is good?
At discipleship today, they made the announcement to the church leaders about the transition that Planetkids would be going through. I do admit that i suck at dealing with transitions. BIG TIME. or maybe not transitions, but just perhaps farewells and changes? I dont know. but it is indeed exciting times.
I had this clear picture of Geoff, the oldest leader in the team, standing behind Paul and Esther, saying that age doesnt dictate your spiritual maturity. They have what it takes. And i believe so too! I know they will be great!
I love the fact that we are family and family stick by each other through whatever!
I had this clear picture of Geoff, the oldest leader in the team, standing behind Paul and Esther, saying that age doesnt dictate your spiritual maturity. They have what it takes. And i believe so too! I know they will be great!
I love the fact that we are family and family stick by each other through whatever!
WE ARE ORANGE!
Sunday, November 07, 2010
"Friendships and relationships are such blessings from God"
Who? Joanne (Li Yin) and I.
Where? Dvd's car
What? Driving down Williams Rd to return keys to Steven
Street light. Worship music. Eyes fixed on the road as I was driving. Yet, such profound statement could not leave my head.
Indeed, they are blessings from God.
Who? Joanne (Li Yin) and I.
Where? Dvd's car
What? Driving down Williams Rd to return keys to Steven
Street light. Worship music. Eyes fixed on the road as I was driving. Yet, such profound statement could not leave my head.
Indeed, they are blessings from God.
Thursday, November 04, 2010
Trying and learning
It is through falling that we learn to pick ourselves up again.
Dear Jesus,
Thank you for today. Even if I fall, I know you are still so good and so worthy of my praise. In darkness, in trials, my soul shall sing. Indeed, Father, facing failures isn't always the easiest. Perhaps God, you are teaching me to really depend on you and totally rely on your strength alone, not be proud and overconfident; for it is only through you that all things have their beings. Lord, i am trying and i am learning to come back to my feet again?! Hold me in your arms tonight as i sleep.
Wake me up and face the world with me.
Lord, thank youfor giving me more than i can imagine! God, you are amazing!
Your princess,
Munyee
Dear Jesus,
Thank you for today. Even if I fall, I know you are still so good and so worthy of my praise. In darkness, in trials, my soul shall sing. Indeed, Father, facing failures isn't always the easiest. Perhaps God, you are teaching me to really depend on you and totally rely on your strength alone, not be proud and overconfident; for it is only through you that all things have their beings. Lord, i am trying and i am learning to come back to my feet again?! Hold me in your arms tonight as i sleep.
Wake me up and face the world with me.
Lord, thank youfor giving me more than i can imagine! God, you are amazing!
Your princess,
Munyee
Friday, October 29, 2010
legit reason to procratinate
yes. I should be studying. My next paper is on Monday but I am soooo tired from today's prac exam! PRAISE GOD that I passed and I even gathered the courage to pray with my partner! :) YAY! :) (thank you God for making it happen!)
Anyway, I have been playing these few songs during my study sesh.
Fireworks - Katy Perry
Count on Me - Bruno Mars
Arithmetics - Brooke Fraser
Seasons of Love - Rent
First Love - Paradise
GLEE!
(sorry for the lousy tech skills, otherwise if i know how to, i would let you click to it, so for now, if you're interested, just go youtube it yourself ;p )
I've also discovered some pretty amazing artists in my mega unfamiliar itunes playlist like, Corrine May, Jacks Mannequin and to my surprise, i have a bollywood song in it!
ok Munyee, get back to studying missy!
YOU make me smile!
I was doing dishes the other day. Jon, Ash and Sooks were sitting at the dining table, watching some youtube of possibly some Chinese artist and digging into the tub of strawberry icecream that never seems to reach the end.
I stepped back, took myself out of the picture.
And I realised.. if only the moment could freeze for a tad bit longer, before we bury our heads behind books again... ahhh.
It was like the tub of icecream. We can literally freeze the moments, because before we know it, it will start to melt. So, eat it while it's still cold!! Hence, in that few seconds, I thanked God for amazing people He surrounds me with.
On the combine service weekend, we went out to this super yummy, death by grease, awesome, uber bright pink American diners . Well, we took a massive detour whilst deciding but hey, I'm not complaining. Joyriding, indeed! Fully loving the new car - Dave and Li. YAY! now you can come pick me up and send me home! woot!! But, anyway, I am sooo excited that it is actually only less than one month away before Dave bids the tv in his room goodbye and welcomes his beautiful wife. I am so excited!!!! I am sooo excited (and it's not even my wedding! hahha)
That day, as I sat opposite them, and as I gaze across, this warm sense of fuzziness that is sweeter than the milkshakes that we ordered came upon me. I dont know why or how to describe it either. Perhaps its just the simple things in life, in sharing meals, going on car rides and gazing across the table. Or maybe it's just the discovery that they sell Gobbler
s (is that how you spell it? the peanutbutter and jelly in a tub jam spread thingy) or just the fact that you know- friendship doesnt change despite the chugging along of life.
I love this couple to bits! 29 days to go!! WOOT~
I've got sooo much more to write and so many more little things that make me smile to share. God has been so good to me!
Sunshine.
Car rides.
Sweet surprises in the mail.
Skype and immediate email responses to make sure that I'm coping ok.
Lunch breaks and outside day (and me ended up being a grass head!).
Early mornings and good nights.
YOU MAKE ME SMILE :)
Friday, October 22, 2010
Eph 2
For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith
For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.
And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by his Spirit
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Was reading eph 2 this morning and was just so amazed by the fact that
WE HAVE ...
and WE ARE ...
It is so easy in this materialistically driven world to say what we do not have or what we are lack of but in reality, we do have more than what is sufficient.
It is so easy to see who we are not, and wanting to be who we are not called to be. You strive and all the things just wont come your way but instead, negativity, anger, frustration, worry comes tumbling over. If we do realise that WE ARE a child of the most high God, His amazing workmanship, and the fact that we are not worthless.. Imagine the change of atmosphere!
My favourite verse for today is this. May we learn to walk in it.
"For through him we both have access to the Father by one Spirit" - Eph 2:18 -
For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.
But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near through the blood of Christ.
And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by his Spirit
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Was reading eph 2 this morning and was just so amazed by the fact that
WE HAVE ...
and WE ARE ...
It is so easy in this materialistically driven world to say what we do not have or what we are lack of but in reality, we do have more than what is sufficient.
It is so easy to see who we are not, and wanting to be who we are not called to be. You strive and all the things just wont come your way but instead, negativity, anger, frustration, worry comes tumbling over. If we do realise that WE ARE a child of the most high God, His amazing workmanship, and the fact that we are not worthless.. Imagine the change of atmosphere!
My favourite verse for today is this. May we learn to walk in it.
"For through him we both have access to the Father by one Spirit" - Eph 2:18 -
Monday, October 18, 2010
MUN YEE SHALL BE DISCIPLINED!
YES! with approx 2 weeks, i am doing my papers, i should perhaps be more discipline and really hit the home run with this yes?
I am already counting down to nov 5th!
and that's when my family arrives too!!!! :) :) I told mum yesterday that I'd like her to meet my friends.
Mum : yeaaa, of course of course
Me: then you can meet all these people that I've been trying to tell you about.
Mum: and your B-O-Y (she so cute, she literally spelt it out)
Me: WHAT? B-O-Y? :S
Mum: We will have a proper talk when I get over.
Me thinking to myself: Should I be worried?
Mothers are soooo good at knowing how their daughters are going. Even when you dont talk to them for ages, they just have this amazing mother intuition hey?
So, if you'd like to meet my family, come line up now and book in your timeslot for interview!! (i'm only kidding!)
but yes! less 20 days till i finish my accademic year!
(ok. i lied. i've got placements at summer!! POOHBUM!!)
I am already counting down to nov 5th!
and that's when my family arrives too!!!! :) :) I told mum yesterday that I'd like her to meet my friends.
Mum : yeaaa, of course of course
Me: then you can meet all these people that I've been trying to tell you about.
Mum: and your B-O-Y (she so cute, she literally spelt it out)
Me: WHAT? B-O-Y? :S
Mum: We will have a proper talk when I get over.
Me thinking to myself: Should I be worried?
Mothers are soooo good at knowing how their daughters are going. Even when you dont talk to them for ages, they just have this amazing mother intuition hey?
So, if you'd like to meet my family, come line up now and book in your timeslot for interview!! (i'm only kidding!)
but yes! less 20 days till i finish my accademic year!
(ok. i lied. i've got placements at summer!! POOHBUM!!)
Thursday, October 14, 2010
I cried because ..
Last night, I cried and it kinda felt good after that. It has been a while where I cried myself to sleep but it's a good point of release of what is inside. Dont worry, I am totally fine now. It just needs to come out.
Well, last night, I cried because..
David, our Brit urbie, will be returning to London in 10 days. It hurts saying goodbye and I totally suck at farewell. I think i could possibly be the only person that balled my eyes out yday during urbs. Such a softy. But that's also because our lives had crossed and seeing him around has been a routine. I guess, I'm not ready for the missing british accent, or the little chuckle around the corner when I thought no one saw the silly thing i embarrassed myself with.
but above all, what he said during his speech was what moved me the most and being the second reason I cried last night.
He said I told him that he was in Melbourne for a reason. (honestly, when he pointed at me, I totally could not remember what had i said to him at camp!) I was like shucks, it better be something of God and something good. And, phew! true enough, it was ok. But it hit me,
God can and wants to use me.
For the reasons that I have entertained and thought that I was not moving in the Spirit, they are all LIES! This week in itself, I have been sooo stirred by Beat, Ngan and a few others to just really know that I can run the race well. God is still Sovereign and ultimately, it is really not about me. A lot of times, when I pray for people, things just come to me and I speak it out, not sure if it actually made sense, but last night, God reminded me that they do! and it was Him speaking, of course it made sense. OHHH! I just want so much more of that.
I wanna walk in the supernatural. I wanna see the outpouring of heaven. I wanna see Jesus.
Lisa Bevere, tweeted this yeseterday. So profound. Ponder upon that!
" Disturb us Lord when we are too well pleased w/ourselves, when our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little. Francis Drake"
And, well, the one more reason that I cried last night, was just the fact that I am so blessed with amazing people around me. I am surrounded by people who love me and people who look out for me. They stand in the gap for me and they believe in me. They call me PRINCESS, like how God would call me, remind me the position I have in Christ, follow me on twitter and read my blogs just to find out how am I doing. Longs for Sunday just so that they could see me. They tell me the things that are harsh and straight to my face just so that I dont get hurt in the future. Share my and their joys and misadventures... And so much more! This in itself overwhelmed me and throw me off my game I dont even know how to respond to it but to say thank you and thank You! Little things do go a LOONNNNGGG way in Munyee's cupcake world.
Ngan shared a message of a cracker yesterday.
Expect.
Be hungry.
Passion.
it feels like God is just stirring so much more in me.
it feels like
I am filled to be emptied again
The seed I recieved I will sow.
Well, last night, I cried because..
David, our Brit urbie, will be returning to London in 10 days. It hurts saying goodbye and I totally suck at farewell. I think i could possibly be the only person that balled my eyes out yday during urbs. Such a softy. But that's also because our lives had crossed and seeing him around has been a routine. I guess, I'm not ready for the missing british accent, or the little chuckle around the corner when I thought no one saw the silly thing i embarrassed myself with.
but above all, what he said during his speech was what moved me the most and being the second reason I cried last night.
He said I told him that he was in Melbourne for a reason. (honestly, when he pointed at me, I totally could not remember what had i said to him at camp!) I was like shucks, it better be something of God and something good. And, phew! true enough, it was ok. But it hit me,
God can and wants to use me.
For the reasons that I have entertained and thought that I was not moving in the Spirit, they are all LIES! This week in itself, I have been sooo stirred by Beat, Ngan and a few others to just really know that I can run the race well. God is still Sovereign and ultimately, it is really not about me. A lot of times, when I pray for people, things just come to me and I speak it out, not sure if it actually made sense, but last night, God reminded me that they do! and it was Him speaking, of course it made sense. OHHH! I just want so much more of that.
I wanna walk in the supernatural. I wanna see the outpouring of heaven. I wanna see Jesus.
Lisa Bevere, tweeted this yeseterday. So profound. Ponder upon that!
" Disturb us Lord when we are too well pleased w/ourselves, when our dreams have come true because we dreamed too little. Francis Drake"
And, well, the one more reason that I cried last night, was just the fact that I am so blessed with amazing people around me. I am surrounded by people who love me and people who look out for me. They stand in the gap for me and they believe in me. They call me PRINCESS, like how God would call me, remind me the position I have in Christ, follow me on twitter and read my blogs just to find out how am I doing. Longs for Sunday just so that they could see me. They tell me the things that are harsh and straight to my face just so that I dont get hurt in the future. Share my and their joys and misadventures... And so much more! This in itself overwhelmed me and throw me off my game I dont even know how to respond to it but to say thank you and thank You! Little things do go a LOONNNNGGG way in Munyee's cupcake world.
Ngan shared a message of a cracker yesterday.
Expect.
Be hungry.
Passion.
it feels like God is just stirring so much more in me.
it feels like
I am filled to be emptied again
The seed I recieved I will sow.
Thursday, October 07, 2010
Hide - Joy Williams
You dont have to hide.
You dont have to hide anymore.
You dont have to face this alone.
Come out and join the rest of us,
you've been alone for too long.
You dont have to hide anymore.
You dont have to face this alone.
Come out and join the rest of us,
you've been alone for too long.
Wednesday, October 06, 2010
Amazing Grace
saw this on Dant's blog. AMAZING!
i love how technology works. makes home so much closer to the heart :)
totally looking forward to the day when we start singing worship at home together as a family. i know it is near!
Tuesday, October 05, 2010
Friends like you, are for FOREVER!
i just had the best time talking to my best friends on skype. it felt soooo good to be talking like there's no tomorrow with the three of them!
we cant help but talk about the future and the exciting things that God has planned for us. And the beauty of it is, we never fail to include each other, like it is without a doubt that our friendship will never change. i love it!
Even when the world crumbles down on me or when i'm faced with bees, i know God has sent me you, to always have shoulders to cry on, to hug me and to tell me that things will be ok again. Thank goodness for whats app, skype and all the goodness that technologies has offered, you are not so far away.
Counting down to the day we finally see each other! xx
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
the heart has a memory!
Did you know that the heart has a memory? It amazes me!! Especially after having a whole unit dedicated to cardio clinical practice!
Hence the bible says this
Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23
I just said goodbye, again, to my best friend @jimmylaw (dont you just get used to putting an @ in front of the names now that we're so consumed in the twitter and fb world?! hahaha). This time it is slightly different, cos i know that I wont have him around to listen and put up with my rubbish, or for me to listen to him update and be concerned bout his girl or just the random do nothing moments. hahaha.
Somehow, this time, it felt like, we are REALLY saying goodbye. and see you again feels so far away. I'm not emo or anything. but it just hit me, i think.
hmmm.....
anyway, as I was saying, the heart has a memory! amazing! It remembers to beat (in nerdy term, it's called automaticity). It has a memory bank on its own and if well preserved, under the right environment, without the brain, it will still beat. God created it so special, because, it is precious to Him (and now I've got so much to study about it cos of it's complexity :S hahaha)
So, it is kinda true when people said that there's a place for you in my heart. Cos there really is. Come into the world of Mun Yee's imagination.
In your heart, there's like a billion cells, and they each have memory right? So, for a place for you in my heart would mean, that one cell would have your name on it!! aiks! i dont think I'm doing it justice. so wish i have my lappie with me now, would just draw and put a photo up for u. haha. oh well. just imagine it.
Yes, your heart is very precious to God. I was just thinking about it this week. People open up their hearts to the ones they love and it is kinda like taking a chance. Was talking to my bestie over msn this week and I realised that you could open yourself up to a lot of hurt and uncertainty if things take another turn.
BUT I have on the other hand, witness the beauty of love in many ways that I cant pen it all down. I know, without a doubt, if you are in the perfect will of the Father, He watches over you. He loves the heart of a child, and simply having child-like faith.
I digged out all my journals the other day whilst i was looking for a book. I started reading them again and mann. i love the old me who was so simple and fresh. I love how believing doesnt take much. It's not that I have gone downhill or whatsoever, it's just how we tend to complicate things as we grow older. God was just reminding me of how I was like before and blowing me away with the things of the past where it was just visions are now coming to past. We are growing up. But it is utterly important that we dont loose our innocence.
People told me that I cant be so naive and live life like a cupcake. Call me silly, call me dumb.
Once my heart has your name on it, it's very hard for me to not open myself up to you and even if you trample on it and I get hurt, at least I gave my all and I gave my best. Kids get over hurt easily. They brush off their bruises and stand up again, right?
Yes, of course I will guard my heart, cos it's the well spring of life. I wont let you trample on it just because I am opening up, I'm not that all dumb ok! haha.
But because it's the well spring of life, I dont want it to stop flowing either.
Hence the bible says this
Above all else, guard your heart,
for it is the wellspring of life.
Proverbs 4:23
I just said goodbye, again, to my best friend @jimmylaw (dont you just get used to putting an @ in front of the names now that we're so consumed in the twitter and fb world?! hahaha). This time it is slightly different, cos i know that I wont have him around to listen and put up with my rubbish, or for me to listen to him update and be concerned bout his girl or just the random do nothing moments. hahaha.
Somehow, this time, it felt like, we are REALLY saying goodbye. and see you again feels so far away. I'm not emo or anything. but it just hit me, i think.
hmmm.....
anyway, as I was saying, the heart has a memory! amazing! It remembers to beat (in nerdy term, it's called automaticity). It has a memory bank on its own and if well preserved, under the right environment, without the brain, it will still beat. God created it so special, because, it is precious to Him (and now I've got so much to study about it cos of it's complexity :S hahaha)
So, it is kinda true when people said that there's a place for you in my heart. Cos there really is. Come into the world of Mun Yee's imagination.
In your heart, there's like a billion cells, and they each have memory right? So, for a place for you in my heart would mean, that one cell would have your name on it!! aiks! i dont think I'm doing it justice. so wish i have my lappie with me now, would just draw and put a photo up for u. haha. oh well. just imagine it.
Yes, your heart is very precious to God. I was just thinking about it this week. People open up their hearts to the ones they love and it is kinda like taking a chance. Was talking to my bestie over msn this week and I realised that you could open yourself up to a lot of hurt and uncertainty if things take another turn.
BUT I have on the other hand, witness the beauty of love in many ways that I cant pen it all down. I know, without a doubt, if you are in the perfect will of the Father, He watches over you. He loves the heart of a child, and simply having child-like faith.
I digged out all my journals the other day whilst i was looking for a book. I started reading them again and mann. i love the old me who was so simple and fresh. I love how believing doesnt take much. It's not that I have gone downhill or whatsoever, it's just how we tend to complicate things as we grow older. God was just reminding me of how I was like before and blowing me away with the things of the past where it was just visions are now coming to past. We are growing up. But it is utterly important that we dont loose our innocence.
People told me that I cant be so naive and live life like a cupcake. Call me silly, call me dumb.
Once my heart has your name on it, it's very hard for me to not open myself up to you and even if you trample on it and I get hurt, at least I gave my all and I gave my best. Kids get over hurt easily. They brush off their bruises and stand up again, right?
Yes, of course I will guard my heart, cos it's the well spring of life. I wont let you trample on it just because I am opening up, I'm not that all dumb ok! haha.
But because it's the well spring of life, I dont want it to stop flowing either.
Monday, September 20, 2010
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