Blogging from my iPhone again. Am currently on th bus.
Ever since nov 2nd, after my exams had all ended, I felt like I've been evermore so busy wih the things of life. Too busy that I haven't had time to mysel to chill , to slow down and to do nothing. Yes, I do live all the catchups and all the hang outs but sometimes, it's great to have some alone time, some serious slack and do nothing with God time! Just chill u know!
But at the same time, God's still teaching me about relationships.
Interpersonal
and intrapersonal.
I love hanging around ppl whom I called family. I thank God for friends who stick wih me through thick n thin and
friends who I can explore both extremities of doing crazy stuff and nothing with.
As the year comes to an end, I sense a greater new beginning for a whole lot of things, in the natural and the supernatural.
Love is blossoming amongst the people around me.
Weddings, engagements and gettin together
Lots of packing and moving in my hse
Work, placements, running around in between.
So many new rxcting things are happening and yet at the same time, so many things are changing
I know I am definitely not the same person as I was before, at the beginning of the year. But I don't look back in regret, I look back with a heart of gratitude and a heart of praise, thank God for what He has done.
As a whole lot of new things come my way and after the near death experience, I think I'm ready to encounter he new change of wind. (as much as I wanna be prepared, I have a feeling, God is soo gonna sweep me off my feet! )
dancing on the summer 69
these days are the best days of my life
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Sunday, November 01, 2009
God and His Presence
Today, Ps Rusell talked about loving God and His Presence.
I was so completely blown away by so many things that has happened and how God ochestrated so many moments of my life! it's unbelievable but it's real.
like how i had a headache, left lib early to meet this girl on the bus that i can now connect with.
how what i initially thought was a job turned out to be an opportunity for me to reach out and share about Jesus
how Jesus told me to not step into that particular relationship because the guy's heart aint right
above all, how He knocked at the door of my heart, set up all these God-incidents so that i could turn the door knob open to welcome Him in.
i love it.
i love how He plans everything for me, how he ordains my steps.
i love God and His presence.
i want more!
I was so completely blown away by so many things that has happened and how God ochestrated so many moments of my life! it's unbelievable but it's real.
like how i had a headache, left lib early to meet this girl on the bus that i can now connect with.
how what i initially thought was a job turned out to be an opportunity for me to reach out and share about Jesus
how Jesus told me to not step into that particular relationship because the guy's heart aint right
above all, how He knocked at the door of my heart, set up all these God-incidents so that i could turn the door knob open to welcome Him in.
i love it.
i love how He plans everything for me, how he ordains my steps.
i love God and His presence.
i want more!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
God, help!!
I don't know what's wrong with me but today just ain't working well. I can't focus. God, please help me. My exams are two days away n I feel like I'm so not ready. I don't wanna panic but at the rate that I'm going and the thugs that are happening around me, I just wanna curl up in my lil corner and cry out to you.
I know you are able. I know you are bigger.
Help me to push through.
I wanna run this race strong! I hate how the enemy throws things at me at this crucial time but in the same time, I'm learning to embrace them cos it's a sign of my victory is near. I'm learning to strengthen myself in God even more through this because I know ultimately, it's just about me and him. I am learning to encourage myself when there's no one around me. Ps Bill said that's the greatest thing that u can learn.
God. Help me. Dim away everything else and let me look to u alone.
My exams, my family, my friends and my heart. I give them to u. Take me away into the secret place.
I know you are able. I know you are bigger.
Help me to push through.
I wanna run this race strong! I hate how the enemy throws things at me at this crucial time but in the same time, I'm learning to embrace them cos it's a sign of my victory is near. I'm learning to strengthen myself in God even more through this because I know ultimately, it's just about me and him. I am learning to encourage myself when there's no one around me. Ps Bill said that's the greatest thing that u can learn.
God. Help me. Dim away everything else and let me look to u alone.
My exams, my family, my friends and my heart. I give them to u. Take me away into the secret place.
Friday, October 23, 2009
To Do List
After exams, this is my little to do list for summer.
- look for a job related to nursing and earn more money
- travel somewhere after placements
- go visit the supper market and the abbortsford convent.
:) cannot wait.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
TRUST
when i dont understand how it could happen or when it'll come true;
or when i cannot see the light at the tunnel,
or when my heart seems to be broken,
all i hear is You, saying "TRUST"
Trust in the Lord with all your heart.
Trust me in this.
Trust!
Friday, October 09, 2009
why am i so scared to stepping out?
Many a times, i felt led by God and just have the desire to pray for people who are sick but yet. MORE than ever, i just chicken out and just let the moment or situation pass me by. i dont understand why. so, as any student would have done, i googled.
"why are we scared of taking risk?"
and this article interest me.
God has been whispering things in my ear/heart as i read through this article and i realised that there are still lots of areas that i need to work on! see my mental notes/ revelation in red!
http://ezinearticles.com/?Risk-Taking-Why-We-Are-Scared-to-Take-Risks&id=95888
Why are we so scared to take risks? It could be lots of reasons, for instance: not wanting to get out of our comfort zone, fear of rejection, fear of being hurt, fear of change, or need for certainty, our desire to avoid conflict, fear of failure, lack of belief in ourselves. Risk taking is accepting the need for change and understanding what’s involved in taking such actions. (i love the last sentense. understand what's involved in taking such actions. there obviously is a need and i understand that i could be the change.)
We are talking here about intelligent risk taking, not being careless. Intelligent risk taking enables you to express your creativity, drive and motivation.
Risk taking often requires an honest look at the situation and the required actions. It is also important to understand what the risks are and the advantages and disadvantages of taking the action. Once you have committed yourself to the action, you must also be prepared to accept the consequences of such actions.
Here is one of my favourite quotes on risks.
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair. (but Jesus is always there to cheer you on, and bring hope to the hopeless)
To try is to risk failure. (but at least u tried)
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by his own fears, he is a slave; He has forfeited freedom.
Only a person who risks is free!
TIP OF THE DAY – As Nike says … Just do it!!
My challenge for you: Think of one area in your life that you have been putting off taking a risk. My challenge is to identify what is keeping you from taking action. Now, identify one action you will take this week.
My stretch challenge for you – is to email me and tell me the action you will take, then email me when you have completed the action.
Final thoughts:
“If I had my life to live over I’d like to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax. I would limber up. I would be sillier that I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and fewer beans. I would perhaps have more action trouble, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I’m one of those people who live sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I’ve had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had to do it again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds, I would pick more daisies” Nadine Stair at age 85
article written by Michelle Zelig Pourau of Personal Power International.
i hate chicken-ing out when God asked me to step out in faith n pray for someone. i just dont know how or maybe i'm just fearful of rejection and scared that the thing i asked for didnt happen.
Jesus, help me to grow in this area pleasee.
"why are we scared of taking risk?"
and this article interest me.
God has been whispering things in my ear/heart as i read through this article and i realised that there are still lots of areas that i need to work on! see my mental notes/ revelation in red!
http://ezinearticles.com/?Risk-Taking-Why-We-Are-Scared-to-Take-Risks&id=95888
Why are we so scared to take risks? It could be lots of reasons, for instance: not wanting to get out of our comfort zone, fear of rejection, fear of being hurt, fear of change, or need for certainty, our desire to avoid conflict, fear of failure, lack of belief in ourselves. Risk taking is accepting the need for change and understanding what’s involved in taking such actions. (i love the last sentense. understand what's involved in taking such actions. there obviously is a need and i understand that i could be the change.)
We are talking here about intelligent risk taking, not being careless. Intelligent risk taking enables you to express your creativity, drive and motivation.
Risk taking often requires an honest look at the situation and the required actions. It is also important to understand what the risks are and the advantages and disadvantages of taking the action. Once you have committed yourself to the action, you must also be prepared to accept the consequences of such actions.
Here is one of my favourite quotes on risks.
To laugh is to risk appearing the fool.
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.
To reach out for another is to risk involvement.
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.
To place your ideas, your dreams before the crowd is to risk their loss.
To love is to risk not being loved in return.
To live is to risk dying.
To hope is to risk despair. (but Jesus is always there to cheer you on, and bring hope to the hopeless)
To try is to risk failure. (but at least u tried)
But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.
The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing and is nothing.
He may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn, feel, change, grow, love, live.
Chained by his own fears, he is a slave; He has forfeited freedom.
Only a person who risks is free!
TIP OF THE DAY – As Nike says … Just do it!!
My challenge for you: Think of one area in your life that you have been putting off taking a risk. My challenge is to identify what is keeping you from taking action. Now, identify one action you will take this week.
My stretch challenge for you – is to email me and tell me the action you will take, then email me when you have completed the action.
Final thoughts:
“If I had my life to live over I’d like to make more mistakes next time. I’d relax. I would limber up. I would be sillier that I have been this trip. I would take fewer things seriously. I would take more chances. I would climb more mountains and swim more rivers. I would eat more ice cream and fewer beans. I would perhaps have more action trouble, but I’d have fewer imaginary ones. You see, I’m one of those people who live sensibly and sanely hour after hour, day after day.
Oh, I’ve had my moments, and if I had to do it over again, I’d have more of them. In fact, I’d try to have nothing else. Just moments, one after another, instead of living so many years ahead of each day. I’ve been one of those persons who never goes anywhere without a thermometer, a hot water bottle, a raincoat, and a parachute. If I had to do it again, I would travel lighter than I have. If I had my life to live over, I would start barefoot earlier in the spring and stay that way later in the fall. I would go to more dances. I would ride more merry-go-rounds, I would pick more daisies” Nadine Stair at age 85
article written by Michelle Zelig Pourau of Personal Power International.
i hate chicken-ing out when God asked me to step out in faith n pray for someone. i just dont know how or maybe i'm just fearful of rejection and scared that the thing i asked for didnt happen.
Jesus, help me to grow in this area pleasee.
Thursday, October 01, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
falling in love
i find that love and relationship is a topic that is never ending and people never get bored and sick of talking about it! personally, i lovvvee reading about how people fall in love or looking at the awesome photos that ant and jono take. it helps me paint my perspective of love and that love isnt all airy fairy, unobtainable but instead, i see and know how love is really all around!
God has been opening my eyes to alot of things and i simply love it!
currently, i feel like i'm on a path where it's time for me to dig deeper and let my roots grow further in the things of God. i know that i am walking in my prophetic destiny! this is the season where i duno where i'm heading but i know God is in control and he is leading the way. it's awesome u know, that everyday, you get up and the God of heaven and earth has your day planned out! Surprises are around the corner! mann. how awesome is that!
but anway, not so much about me. i've been having 3 weeks break currently and i have the priviledge of catching up with people. and the greatest thing is that i am approached by people this time! i wasnt the one asking people out and going hey u wanna catch up. instead the other party thought of me! <3
i love our conversations and i love being able to impart into these people. i love hanging out with old friends and seeing how far we've come after all these years. when i do take the time to reflect and think about such things, mann, i'm overwhelmed by the people i'm surrounded with. it encourages me!
recently, my best friend was going through a hard time. and i just found out. my fault for not keeping in touch. but i love how God strings things together. everything that i had been through in the past, big and small now comes into perspective. I spoke to her and encouraged her. i included God in the picture in everything to let her know that God is always there! always in the picture. i know she is hurting real bad at the moment and i prolly couldnt relate as well to her pain but i know God can! i know i can just be a friend and cheer her on. i know i can be an Aaron and help her lift up her hands when they're tired.
i reckon this is the kinda friendship and relationship that God intended us to be in. to love one another and to encourage one another!
so many things are happening around me, but at the moment, i am just falling more in love with Jesus. and i want you to see His love too!
God has been opening my eyes to alot of things and i simply love it!
currently, i feel like i'm on a path where it's time for me to dig deeper and let my roots grow further in the things of God. i know that i am walking in my prophetic destiny! this is the season where i duno where i'm heading but i know God is in control and he is leading the way. it's awesome u know, that everyday, you get up and the God of heaven and earth has your day planned out! Surprises are around the corner! mann. how awesome is that!
but anway, not so much about me. i've been having 3 weeks break currently and i have the priviledge of catching up with people. and the greatest thing is that i am approached by people this time! i wasnt the one asking people out and going hey u wanna catch up. instead the other party thought of me! <3
i love our conversations and i love being able to impart into these people. i love hanging out with old friends and seeing how far we've come after all these years. when i do take the time to reflect and think about such things, mann, i'm overwhelmed by the people i'm surrounded with. it encourages me!
recently, my best friend was going through a hard time. and i just found out. my fault for not keeping in touch. but i love how God strings things together. everything that i had been through in the past, big and small now comes into perspective. I spoke to her and encouraged her. i included God in the picture in everything to let her know that God is always there! always in the picture. i know she is hurting real bad at the moment and i prolly couldnt relate as well to her pain but i know God can! i know i can just be a friend and cheer her on. i know i can be an Aaron and help her lift up her hands when they're tired.
i reckon this is the kinda friendship and relationship that God intended us to be in. to love one another and to encourage one another!
so many things are happening around me, but at the moment, i am just falling more in love with Jesus. and i want you to see His love too!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
pkids discipleship was off the hook. i learnt about the power of encouragement and i myself recieved loads today.
HEbrews 4:13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
your words have the power to break and heal over the hurts and wounds inflicted by negative words. your encouragement can shift the person's perspective. And the bible says to do it daily.
i love getting encouragements! i love getting pats on the backs and hugs saying that i'm a champ! but above all, i love encouraging people! i love it when they say that it makes sense and is exactly what they need. i love being used by God to speak of the right words at the right time.
seriously, God is just so good that He hasnt forgotten about YOU! He watches over you all the time and craves for your love and attention.
ps rob asked an intriguing question today - what would you do if you knew you wouldnt never fail?
HEbrews 4:13
But encourage one another daily, as long as it is called Today, so that none of you may be hardened by sin's deceitfulness.
your words have the power to break and heal over the hurts and wounds inflicted by negative words. your encouragement can shift the person's perspective. And the bible says to do it daily.
i love getting encouragements! i love getting pats on the backs and hugs saying that i'm a champ! but above all, i love encouraging people! i love it when they say that it makes sense and is exactly what they need. i love being used by God to speak of the right words at the right time.
seriously, God is just so good that He hasnt forgotten about YOU! He watches over you all the time and craves for your love and attention.
ps rob asked an intriguing question today - what would you do if you knew you wouldnt never fail?
Sunday, September 20, 2009
A weekend Like no other
When it's a good weekend, or when u know that u've had a good time, you'll know it! And this weekend was just rocking and there's just so much thankfulness and gratitude in my heart that it's overfilled with joy. Tmr, it's time to spread those joy to my kiddies n also those that I'll meet!! Oh yea! I'm excited!!!
Anway, before I get too sidetracked, I'll just quickly share what happened.
Honestly, I think my weekend just keeps getting better and better ever since kidshaper. Praise Gor friendship and just being so good to me! I duno if u've ever had this feeling - that things just seemed so good that you could actually withdraw yourself from reality, and take upon a third person point of view n ask yourself, is this real?! What I did today and the happiness i felt, real? Or like when it comes to the end of the day, u depersonalize(mental health term) hahahhahaaha n reflect on how good it has been? Ur heart overwhelms!
That was what I felt.
I finally sleptover @ li's hse on Friday. Those who don't know, I insist on sharing a single bed with her. And we must have seperate blankets each cos I'm a blanket-snatcher in the middle of the night. But i simply lovee hanging out with this chick!
This weekend so far, I've learnt a few new things bot myself and I just can't stop reflecting bout my perspective on friendship. ( typing on iPhone is soo mega challenging)
anyway, I've known that I'm sentimental but I realize that there R certain things that I've never actually let go. Especially when it comes to friendship. I realized that I still hold on to the past and have never really grasped the concept of moving on. I think it could still be jpainful for me. I know for my own benefit N also for the person on the other end, it's actually a good thing! I mean i know the reality that life goes on whether you like it or not. But I think I'm quite stubborn in the sense that I belive something ought not to be changed! Relationships are one of them. Not to say that u stay stagnant, bt I meant thAt u're not supposed to move backwards. I duno but I found out that for some specific people, though they moved on n we barely see each other, I'll still hold on real tight on what we shared before. Yeaa. I guessed we've moved on but I still hold on to what we had and will fight real hard to keep this friendship going. Idunno if I'm making sense. But u know what, even as I watched UP today with ant (awesome show! Highly recommended in 3d) I realized that perhaps God is also telling me to let go of the past and move on.
I guess it's time for me to say "thank you for the adventure. And now go have some new ones".
I'm not saying that it's to ditch all my friends or just leave everything n turn a new page. No! I'm saying, some things had occured for us to grow together, so that when we grow old, we can have a good laugh togehter!! Hahaha. Yeaa. And some things happen to test how strong we really are. But you know what, some happen just so that you can see that there are treasures around you, every day and every moment. So that you can journey on and start your adventure with these people around you. Sometimes, all we need to do is just to look and embrace. Don't worry about what others may say or think. Don't stews about passing comments like you're always busy and always not at home. Heck, it's my life and I'm ever only gonna live today once. I'm ever only gonna have this minute once and it'll be gone n dotted in history. Yes. I used to be affected lots by passing comments, and I used to justify situations. But this weekend, I realized that This truly is my life And the life that God has given me. I am gonna live it to the fullest and do what God has called me to(even though lots oftimes it's scary and require stepping out). Still. It's a life worth living. I think I'm discovering mire about this more to life life that God wants me to live. I know it's basic life lesson 101.
But when u actually understand it. Goodness!
I can't thank God enough for the friends that I have around me and also those that shared and are still sharing this journey with me. Whichever stage n phase we are in, I want you to know that I hold on very dearly all the memories we shared.
Sassy,
I love how even though things aren't exactly the same as it used to be as when we first met, I know that I can still cuddle next to you and just be comfortable and be loved. I love u and am so definitely hogging ur bed again!
Ant,
I simply enjoy ur company!! Simple as that but u know it goes far beyond yea? Look forward to adding more pages to our adventure book. I'll be Russell n u can be Carl! (since u say u're old) hahaha
Anway, before I get too sidetracked, I'll just quickly share what happened.
Honestly, I think my weekend just keeps getting better and better ever since kidshaper. Praise Gor friendship and just being so good to me! I duno if u've ever had this feeling - that things just seemed so good that you could actually withdraw yourself from reality, and take upon a third person point of view n ask yourself, is this real?! What I did today and the happiness i felt, real? Or like when it comes to the end of the day, u depersonalize(mental health term) hahahhahaaha n reflect on how good it has been? Ur heart overwhelms!
That was what I felt.
I finally sleptover @ li's hse on Friday. Those who don't know, I insist on sharing a single bed with her. And we must have seperate blankets each cos I'm a blanket-snatcher in the middle of the night. But i simply lovee hanging out with this chick!
This weekend so far, I've learnt a few new things bot myself and I just can't stop reflecting bout my perspective on friendship. ( typing on iPhone is soo mega challenging)
anyway, I've known that I'm sentimental but I realize that there R certain things that I've never actually let go. Especially when it comes to friendship. I realized that I still hold on to the past and have never really grasped the concept of moving on. I think it could still be jpainful for me. I know for my own benefit N also for the person on the other end, it's actually a good thing! I mean i know the reality that life goes on whether you like it or not. But I think I'm quite stubborn in the sense that I belive something ought not to be changed! Relationships are one of them. Not to say that u stay stagnant, bt I meant thAt u're not supposed to move backwards. I duno but I found out that for some specific people, though they moved on n we barely see each other, I'll still hold on real tight on what we shared before. Yeaa. I guessed we've moved on but I still hold on to what we had and will fight real hard to keep this friendship going. Idunno if I'm making sense. But u know what, even as I watched UP today with ant (awesome show! Highly recommended in 3d) I realized that perhaps God is also telling me to let go of the past and move on.
I guess it's time for me to say "thank you for the adventure. And now go have some new ones".
I'm not saying that it's to ditch all my friends or just leave everything n turn a new page. No! I'm saying, some things had occured for us to grow together, so that when we grow old, we can have a good laugh togehter!! Hahaha. Yeaa. And some things happen to test how strong we really are. But you know what, some happen just so that you can see that there are treasures around you, every day and every moment. So that you can journey on and start your adventure with these people around you. Sometimes, all we need to do is just to look and embrace. Don't worry about what others may say or think. Don't stews about passing comments like you're always busy and always not at home. Heck, it's my life and I'm ever only gonna live today once. I'm ever only gonna have this minute once and it'll be gone n dotted in history. Yes. I used to be affected lots by passing comments, and I used to justify situations. But this weekend, I realized that This truly is my life And the life that God has given me. I am gonna live it to the fullest and do what God has called me to(even though lots oftimes it's scary and require stepping out). Still. It's a life worth living. I think I'm discovering mire about this more to life life that God wants me to live. I know it's basic life lesson 101.
But when u actually understand it. Goodness!
I can't thank God enough for the friends that I have around me and also those that shared and are still sharing this journey with me. Whichever stage n phase we are in, I want you to know that I hold on very dearly all the memories we shared.
Sassy,
I love how even though things aren't exactly the same as it used to be as when we first met, I know that I can still cuddle next to you and just be comfortable and be loved. I love u and am so definitely hogging ur bed again!
Ant,
I simply enjoy ur company!! Simple as that but u know it goes far beyond yea? Look forward to adding more pages to our adventure book. I'll be Russell n u can be Carl! (since u say u're old) hahaha
Monday, September 14, 2009
1st post from Iphone
Just have a quick 15 mins before I had to go for another class. Am at caufield at the moment and. I think I just witnessed one of the saddest thing that could happen to a girl.
I was at the corner happily minding my own business, thinking of when to eat my crossaint when I saw this. Well, for all u know it could just be my imagination and none of these actually happened as what I thought itwas.
They were on a bench under the big tree.
He had his legs crossed while she faced the tar roads
her eyes were red and they barely spoke.
I walked past them wondering why the still silence.
...
I turned my head around and he stood up.
No goodbyes no hugs, he just walked off while
She sat on the bench, with her black jacket, staring at the black tar road.
If ur imagination were as wild as mine, we could perhaps swapped stories! But after seeing how he left her, in that manner, my heart broke. I wasn't too sure if it was just a normal goodbye. I paced up and down the walkway two or three times, trying to grab a glimpseof the girl from the back, just to check that she is ok.
Part of me was like move on. None of ur business anyway.
Part of my heart sunk, fearing that wat I imagined would have actually been her most dreaded reality.
The walkway btw gym n lib never seemed so long. Well, at least, I've never turned around, walked up n down so many tomes! )
finally, i decided to turn around and just to check on her to see that she was ok. but then .. she's already left. i wonder what happened to her
in that moment, i felt the pain of broken relationships. it scares me a little and made me question if i would ever be ready. and all the questions regarding the right man.. blah blah blah.
MAN! stop breaking people's heart! haha.
but you know what, i know relationships can be scary, but i still believe in love.
We love, because He first love us.
God, help us to recognise the brokeness in this world and overcome it with Your love.
I was at the corner happily minding my own business, thinking of when to eat my crossaint when I saw this. Well, for all u know it could just be my imagination and none of these actually happened as what I thought itwas.
They were on a bench under the big tree.
He had his legs crossed while she faced the tar roads
her eyes were red and they barely spoke.
I walked past them wondering why the still silence.
...
I turned my head around and he stood up.
No goodbyes no hugs, he just walked off while
She sat on the bench, with her black jacket, staring at the black tar road.
If ur imagination were as wild as mine, we could perhaps swapped stories! But after seeing how he left her, in that manner, my heart broke. I wasn't too sure if it was just a normal goodbye. I paced up and down the walkway two or three times, trying to grab a glimpseof the girl from the back, just to check that she is ok.
Part of me was like move on. None of ur business anyway.
Part of my heart sunk, fearing that wat I imagined would have actually been her most dreaded reality.
The walkway btw gym n lib never seemed so long. Well, at least, I've never turned around, walked up n down so many tomes! )
finally, i decided to turn around and just to check on her to see that she was ok. but then .. she's already left. i wonder what happened to her
in that moment, i felt the pain of broken relationships. it scares me a little and made me question if i would ever be ready. and all the questions regarding the right man.. blah blah blah.
MAN! stop breaking people's heart! haha.
but you know what, i know relationships can be scary, but i still believe in love.
We love, because He first love us.
God, help us to recognise the brokeness in this world and overcome it with Your love.
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
one touch from heaven
I'm sorry about the previous emo post. i was truly down that time. and i just wanna show people the reality of life, the reality of being a Christian. We do get challenges too and we do feel down and hit a few dead ends here and there. but i know,
my God is still faithful.
I know that there will come a point of time, where i can be picked up and stand on my feet, giving him praise again!
I know that all along the way, God has been always there cheering me on and never giving up on me. I know that my issues are dead tiny compare to others but hey, i have emotions too and nothing takes more out of me than being drained emotionally. i was chugging along, trying to do my thing. Times of giving up and throwing in came into my thought, somehow, the fact that i have witnessed God's goodness refrained me from surrendering to the world. I know that Jesus has more and better things that the world could offer. I know that His love is real and His love is so powerful that it breaks all yoke.
i dont really know what it was that kept me going, but i persevered. and i'm glad i did!!
God actually has a bigger and better plan for me. He's just waiting around the corner and waiting to surprise me.
At camp, i felt His touch like never before. it was like electricity, so tenancious, so powerful, so intense. there's no one exact word for it! I've heard heaps about heaven colliding with earth. i've seen it in planetkids where it happened to my kiddies. but that night, it happened to me. I knew that God had positioned me in camp, spoke into my heart and after surrendering everything to Him at his feet (during kidshaper) He has propelled me forward and BANG! a powerful touch of God hit me.
honestly, i didnt know what happened or what it meant. i just know that God is there and He touched me. He affirms things that i felt in the spirit. things that i'm sure of and things that i'm not sure of. He's there to care and just gently pushes my back, nudging me forward. i can hear him say "come on, that's it! come on! " AHH He's just so good!
and guess what - that's my Dad! i'm just falling more and more in love with Him!!! <3
Jesus,
it's such a priviledge to be used and to witness your power touching people and transforming lives. Thank you for not giving up on me when i thought i wouldnt be able to do it anymore. Thank you for mending the broken hearts and the past hurts. I know now, truly that You alone are good enough for me. please continue to grow me into what you want me to be. help me to walk in the power, authority and annointing that you have bestowed on me.
i love you.
and also, thank you. for the awesome people that You have placed in my life. thank you that you are doing an awesome work in them. please do more!
amen!
i'm missing camp already!!! i absolutely loved the powerpack weekend of fun, people and most of al, experiencing God! my urbies are awesome. the people i met are so cool. i cant wait for more of Jesus!!!
my God is still faithful.
I know that there will come a point of time, where i can be picked up and stand on my feet, giving him praise again!
I know that all along the way, God has been always there cheering me on and never giving up on me. I know that my issues are dead tiny compare to others but hey, i have emotions too and nothing takes more out of me than being drained emotionally. i was chugging along, trying to do my thing. Times of giving up and throwing in came into my thought, somehow, the fact that i have witnessed God's goodness refrained me from surrendering to the world. I know that Jesus has more and better things that the world could offer. I know that His love is real and His love is so powerful that it breaks all yoke.
i dont really know what it was that kept me going, but i persevered. and i'm glad i did!!
God actually has a bigger and better plan for me. He's just waiting around the corner and waiting to surprise me.
At camp, i felt His touch like never before. it was like electricity, so tenancious, so powerful, so intense. there's no one exact word for it! I've heard heaps about heaven colliding with earth. i've seen it in planetkids where it happened to my kiddies. but that night, it happened to me. I knew that God had positioned me in camp, spoke into my heart and after surrendering everything to Him at his feet (during kidshaper) He has propelled me forward and BANG! a powerful touch of God hit me.
honestly, i didnt know what happened or what it meant. i just know that God is there and He touched me. He affirms things that i felt in the spirit. things that i'm sure of and things that i'm not sure of. He's there to care and just gently pushes my back, nudging me forward. i can hear him say "come on, that's it! come on! " AHH He's just so good!
and guess what - that's my Dad! i'm just falling more and more in love with Him!!! <3
Jesus,
it's such a priviledge to be used and to witness your power touching people and transforming lives. Thank you for not giving up on me when i thought i wouldnt be able to do it anymore. Thank you for mending the broken hearts and the past hurts. I know now, truly that You alone are good enough for me. please continue to grow me into what you want me to be. help me to walk in the power, authority and annointing that you have bestowed on me.
i love you.
and also, thank you. for the awesome people that You have placed in my life. thank you that you are doing an awesome work in them. please do more!
amen!
i'm missing camp already!!! i absolutely loved the powerpack weekend of fun, people and most of al, experiencing God! my urbies are awesome. the people i met are so cool. i cant wait for more of Jesus!!!
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Thanks for breaking my heart so effortlessly. Thank you for helping m realize that I am so small. Thank you for making me stronger and helping me to realize that I can actually be so insignificant. I thought we were close and I thought you care. Obviously I was in my own lil buble And clearly my dream was just fantasy. Thanks for the invitation, I hear your laughter and I only longed to be a joiner.
I hate I love you.
I hate how I can't be mad at u
I hate I tried so hard to be loved
I hate how I can't cry out loud
I hate how things are and you prolly never realize a tad bit. Or perhaps all these rubbish are just mere thoughts that plagued my mind?
I dunoo
but you know wat? Thank u for teaching me that I can't always run n hide. Thank u for teaching me and putting me in a position thAt I can do nothing bit cry out to God. Thank u for not always being there when I needed cos through tough moments like these, I've learn to turn to my heavenly Father.
I wonder what next yr holds for us but watever it is, with or without me, you'll do great.
All the best
I hate I love you.
I hate how I can't be mad at u
I hate I tried so hard to be loved
I hate how I can't cry out loud
I hate how things are and you prolly never realize a tad bit. Or perhaps all these rubbish are just mere thoughts that plagued my mind?
I dunoo
but you know wat? Thank u for teaching me that I can't always run n hide. Thank u for teaching me and putting me in a position thAt I can do nothing bit cry out to God. Thank u for not always being there when I needed cos through tough moments like these, I've learn to turn to my heavenly Father.
I wonder what next yr holds for us but watever it is, with or without me, you'll do great.
All the best
Thursday, August 13, 2009
cry
i was flickering through facebook during my dinner break. yes. at the moment i'm ploughing through my assignment. i should be focusing. as i was jumping from one page to another, i was reminded of certain things in the past. some things that used to be so precious and now probably amount to dust because of three convenient words - "we've moved on".
i wonder why it hurts now. it made me wanna cry.
on the other note, do you know how much it breaks God's heart when you cry yourself to sleep? i cried myself to sleep tonnes of times and yesterday, ps rob said that - and i dun feel so alone anymore.
i wonder why it hurts now. it made me wanna cry.
on the other note, do you know how much it breaks God's heart when you cry yourself to sleep? i cried myself to sleep tonnes of times and yesterday, ps rob said that - and i dun feel so alone anymore.
Monday, August 03, 2009
Friday, July 31, 2009
deeper
Beautiful Women's coming up. In less than 24 hrs actually.
i tried to embed it in this but couldnt. so you'll just have to click onto this link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3dqiWK2XbY
I know this again will be an awesome encounter with Jesus.
I know i can approach His throne room and He'll be there, never too busy for me.
I know He will hold my hand and the hands of those who need His touch
How sweet is that when He calls you the apple of His eyes
Zechariah 2:7
for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye
but as i sit down and think, i dont know what to ask from God. i dont know what to expect.
well,
i guess i wasnt too greedy.. all i want is summed up in a word -"MORE"
Jesus, i want more. i want to know you more. i wanna love more.
more of You.
i tried to embed it in this but couldnt. so you'll just have to click onto this link.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X3dqiWK2XbY
I know this again will be an awesome encounter with Jesus.
I know i can approach His throne room and He'll be there, never too busy for me.
I know He will hold my hand and the hands of those who need His touch
How sweet is that when He calls you the apple of His eyes
Zechariah 2:7
for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye
but as i sit down and think, i dont know what to ask from God. i dont know what to expect.
well,
i guess i wasnt too greedy.. all i want is summed up in a word -"MORE"
Jesus, i want more. i want to know you more. i wanna love more.
more of You.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
cant wait for church tmr!
i can feel the excitement!
i cant wait for church tmr. i know God's gonna move so powerfully and it's gonna be AWEEESOMME. woo hoo!!
Jesus, do what you wanna do. for me, i just wanna love you more.
our God is love.
i cant wait for church tmr. i know God's gonna move so powerfully and it's gonna be AWEEESOMME. woo hoo!!
Jesus, do what you wanna do. for me, i just wanna love you more.
our God is love.
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