Guess what i did at the very last day of 2008 and the very first day of 2009?
i watched the last few episodes of Moonlight Resonance. MaNN!! i now understand how truly addictive hk drama series can be!but well well.. FINALLY. i'm over the phase now. NO MORE DRAMA SERIES FOR THIS HOLS! i've done my quota for this season :P
Anyway.. this morning, as i woke up recapping how the year has gone past.. i realised,
in this year, so many had happened. good and bad, high and low.
In this year,
I roller bladed for the first time, he was there to hold my hands, so was she :)
I walked someone down the aisle, cos he has already told me that it would happen on that very appointed day.
I had a very awesome group of friends, we were (are) like family and thank God, cos He's always in the middle.
I'd lost my wallet in a foreign land, he was there to cheer me up.
My house was broken into, he gathered the people around me telling me that it would be ok.
this year, i'd missed out on thousand opportunities to make a difference
i've been loved more than i had loved.
i've tried and failed. but at the same time, i've also tried and seen the victory.
i've done some silly lil fun things too.. i went for picnic in malaysia for the first time.
i went somewhere real far for food
i dressed up a fair amount due to a fair few occasions - urbs, birthdays, balls. all of great memories.
i made some short clips and videos for the first time.
i've learnt to trust and believe. but i'm still learning to trust more and dare to believe for more.
i've had the priviledge of seeing kids touching God.
i've seen His goodness and faithfulness.
i'd had an accident that was not so much of a misfortune but a blessing, that truly opened up my eyes to bigger things.
i've shed tonnes of tears, missing people near and far.
i've seen doors being shut right in front of my face.
i converted a hk drama series anti to a fan ;p (it'll be so awesome if i can do that MORE FOR JESUS!)
but this year.. i'm also continously learning to let go.
letting go of the things that God told me to, that arent so good for me.
letting go of the things that werent meant to be.
letting go of sorrow and unforgiveness. I'm still learning.
letting go of hurts and disappointment.
Someone in bible college told me today, "there's often greater rewards if you waited." yes. this marks the start of my waiting season. but it's ok. greater rewards towards the end. HOORAY!
God told me to get ready for this year. I know bigger challenges are gonna come my way. but I know even better that I'm not alone in this journey. NEVER alone! cos.. this coming year.. i know there's greater victories!! :D
i tried to think of new year's resolution. it's prolly just the same o ones. cos they're too hard to ever get marked off the list.
so .. this year i'm simplifying my resolution to a short one, instead of a massive list.
1. to stay closer to Jesus.
2. to love people.
3. KAM FEI SENG GONG!
hhaahhaa. the final one is just for a laugh! :P kam fei so hard.. i'm so not discipline.. tat would take some while. but first 2 are harder to do.. but it should be ok :D
<3
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Saturday, December 27, 2008
MERRY CHRISTMAS and a HAPPY NEW YEAR
I've had one of the busiest christmas ever. and it was good. Thank God for my sister's boldness to rededicate her life to Jesus, coming back to him again. It was the best thing and the best christmas gift i could ever asked for :)
christmas luncheon with the yiweiclan.
CCC christmas reflection production.
christmas dinner at relatives'.
That was my day. but of course, the moment i woke up. i didnt forget to wish the BIRTHDAY BOY A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY =) He's the best :D
I've been reading "God came near" by max lucado. it's awesome. so many of us needed to have a divine surgery to have our eyelids cut open to see Jesus. we passed by so many things that reflect His glory and majesty. Yet, we failed to see His hands upon it. i shall copy this paragraph that i read today. it's so beautifully true.
"The world was different this week. It was temporarily transformed. The magical dust of christmas glittered on the cheeks of humanity ever so briefly, reminding us of what is worth having and what we were intended to be. WE forgot our compulsion with winning, wooing and warring. We put away our ladders and ledgers, we hung up our stop watches and weapons. We stepped out off our race tracks and roller coasters and looked outward toward the star of Bethlehem.
It's the season to be jolly because, more than any other time, we think of him. More than in any other season, his name is on our lips. All of a sudden, he's everywhere.
Emmanuel. God with is. He is with us. God came near.
... If he can do so much wit hsuch timid prayers lamely offered in December, how much more would and could he do if we thought of him everyday?"
perhaps, you've heard that Jesus is the reason for the season.
what does it mean?
what is Christmas to you?
Personally, i think Christmas is just the mark of something amazing - when God from His majestic throne came down in human form, out of love. it's the birth of a King. The King of kings. and it doesnt end here.
He heals.
He delivers.
He redeems.
He cares.
and it doesnt stop just on Christmas day. everyday should be Jesus-day. seriously, who can have too much love?
christmas luncheon with the yiweiclan.
CCC christmas reflection production.
christmas dinner at relatives'.
That was my day. but of course, the moment i woke up. i didnt forget to wish the BIRTHDAY BOY A BIG HAPPY BIRTHDAY =) He's the best :D
I've been reading "God came near" by max lucado. it's awesome. so many of us needed to have a divine surgery to have our eyelids cut open to see Jesus. we passed by so many things that reflect His glory and majesty. Yet, we failed to see His hands upon it. i shall copy this paragraph that i read today. it's so beautifully true.
"The world was different this week. It was temporarily transformed. The magical dust of christmas glittered on the cheeks of humanity ever so briefly, reminding us of what is worth having and what we were intended to be. WE forgot our compulsion with winning, wooing and warring. We put away our ladders and ledgers, we hung up our stop watches and weapons. We stepped out off our race tracks and roller coasters and looked outward toward the star of Bethlehem.
It's the season to be jolly because, more than any other time, we think of him. More than in any other season, his name is on our lips. All of a sudden, he's everywhere.
Emmanuel. God with is. He is with us. God came near.
... If he can do so much wit hsuch timid prayers lamely offered in December, how much more would and could he do if we thought of him everyday?"
perhaps, you've heard that Jesus is the reason for the season.
what does it mean?
what is Christmas to you?
Personally, i think Christmas is just the mark of something amazing - when God from His majestic throne came down in human form, out of love. it's the birth of a King. The King of kings. and it doesnt end here.
He heals.
He delivers.
He redeems.
He cares.
and it doesnt stop just on Christmas day. everyday should be Jesus-day. seriously, who can have too much love?
Monday, December 01, 2008
BOLD
i read this in my devotions today.
If we intend to succeed at being ourselves, we must reach a point where we can be led by the Holy Spirit. Being led by the Spirit does not mean that we dont make mistakes. The Holy Spirit doesnt make mistakes, but we do. Following the Spirit's leading is a process which can only be learned by doing. WE start by stepping out into things we believed God is putting on our hearts, and we learn by wisdom and experience how to hear more clearly and definitely.
Boldness is required to be led by the Spirit because,
1. Only boldness step out.
2. Only boldness can survive making mistakes.
When insecure people make mistakes, they often will never try again. Bold people make many mistakes, but their attitude is "I'm going to keep trying until i learn to do this right".
Those who suffer from condemnation usually dont believe they can hear from God. Even if they think they may have heard from God and do a step out, a minor mistake is a major setback to them.
Be bold. Be determined that you are going to be all God wants you to be. Dont hide behind fears nad insecurities any longer. If you have already made blunders in your life and have been living under condemnations because of them, this is the time to PRESS ON! you're reading this for a reason, I encourage you to take this message personally just as though God's talking to you directly through it.
Be determined to press on toward victory.
mmm. give some thoughts to it. BOLDNESS. i want some.
If we intend to succeed at being ourselves, we must reach a point where we can be led by the Holy Spirit. Being led by the Spirit does not mean that we dont make mistakes. The Holy Spirit doesnt make mistakes, but we do. Following the Spirit's leading is a process which can only be learned by doing. WE start by stepping out into things we believed God is putting on our hearts, and we learn by wisdom and experience how to hear more clearly and definitely.
Boldness is required to be led by the Spirit because,
1. Only boldness step out.
2. Only boldness can survive making mistakes.
When insecure people make mistakes, they often will never try again. Bold people make many mistakes, but their attitude is "I'm going to keep trying until i learn to do this right".
Those who suffer from condemnation usually dont believe they can hear from God. Even if they think they may have heard from God and do a step out, a minor mistake is a major setback to them.
Be bold. Be determined that you are going to be all God wants you to be. Dont hide behind fears nad insecurities any longer. If you have already made blunders in your life and have been living under condemnations because of them, this is the time to PRESS ON! you're reading this for a reason, I encourage you to take this message personally just as though God's talking to you directly through it.
Be determined to press on toward victory.
mmm. give some thoughts to it. BOLDNESS. i want some.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
heart of greed
i've been recently hooked into watching this drama series. thanks to ben! haha :P i guess i'm a lil emotional when it comes to watching drama series. hk ones especially!! GRR.. but anywayz.. i totally love this song.
makes my heart melt.
MY LOVE WILL GET YOU HOME
CHRISTINE GLASS
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.
see, if you swap BOY with GIRL and if this song is sung by God to us. AWWW .. even more meaningful.
truly, his love will get us home.
makes my heart melt.
MY LOVE WILL GET YOU HOME
CHRISTINE GLASS
If you wander off too far, my love will get you home.
If you follow the wrong star, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If the bright lights blinds your eyes, my love will get you home.
If your troubles break your stride, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever feel ashamed, my love will get you home.
When there's only you to blame, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home.
If you ever find yourself, lost and all alone,
get back on your feet and think of me, my love will get you home.
Boy, my love will get you home,
Boy, my love will get you home.
see, if you swap BOY with GIRL and if this song is sung by God to us. AWWW .. even more meaningful.
truly, his love will get us home.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
LOST AND FOUND
I CANT FIND MY USB THUMBDRIVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
hahaha. sorry about tat.
It's just that it can be really annoying loosing stuff. I guess this year has been a year of loosing stuff for me. i HATE it! GRR. but then, most of the time it is my fault for misplacing them, being a messy unorganised person. I can now relate to the woman who lost her 2 coins in the bible. It said that she looked up and down, swept her whole house to look for it- just because they meant something to her. They are, to her, of some value.
My USB is definitely of GREAT value to me!! :P when my lappie got stolen, i was utterly depressed, not because of the fact that someone came in and grab things that belonged to me, but because of the PHOTOS and the memories that it has stored. This week, i just felt God saying, those are by gones. Time to move on and make new ones. I didnt quite get it. but if i do, i'll share more. Anyway, yea. i tot all forms of memories of the past are GONE but God has proven his faithfulness and goodness to me the moment i used my usb to see that i've actually backed up my photos in it!!! WOW! u had no idea how thankful i was. but then, i guess i kinda taken it for granted that i wont loose my usb.. and now. i've misplaced it!! GRRRRRRR. so angry at myself.
isnt it amazing how when we've lost something, something that's close to our heart, we wouldnt stop thinking about it, we'd searched up and down for it and do everything within our might to retrieve it.
I was once lost too. Actually, not once. too many times i was lost.
I've lost my way countless times.
I've lost the sense of belonging when others failed and disappointed me,
I've lost my purpose when i dun know why on earth am i still living.
I've lost loved ones along the way
I've lost my vision.
I was lost.
but God found me and upholded me.
He has paid the price by dying for us on the cross. and then we've gone missing when we decided to take things into our own hands. Yet, He is soooo good. He never gives up looking and searching for us. When I thought he would have given up, especially when you know, after you turn the whole house around, trying to look for a tiny thing, you're covered with dust, you're tired, you come to a point when u'll say "forget it, i'm getting a new one". God could have done that, but instead, He didnt. WHY? because you're priceless to his eyes. You're valued. He has shared some memories with you, whether you know it or not. when you were created, the fact that you're still breathing, he's all part of it! So, He continued searching and waiting. Looking and anticipating that perhaps, under that pile of mess, you're hiding there.
He reaches down and when you realised that you cant camouflage between the pile of mess and junks, He's already grinning and hugging you.
This is my God. He longs for you to return to His arms. Stop camouflaging between the pile of mess that you thought no one could find you. Stop hiding. Come home. Come back to Jesus.
wow. i'm shocked. i was just thinking of asking people if anyone seen my usb could let me know where it has been but OK, God told me and directed this out. i'm so glad to be the first one reading it.
USB! COME BACK TO ME! ;p
and you who dont know Jesus, GO BACK TO HIM! (or you can always talk to me :)
AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
hahaha. sorry about tat.
It's just that it can be really annoying loosing stuff. I guess this year has been a year of loosing stuff for me. i HATE it! GRR. but then, most of the time it is my fault for misplacing them, being a messy unorganised person. I can now relate to the woman who lost her 2 coins in the bible. It said that she looked up and down, swept her whole house to look for it- just because they meant something to her. They are, to her, of some value.
My USB is definitely of GREAT value to me!! :P when my lappie got stolen, i was utterly depressed, not because of the fact that someone came in and grab things that belonged to me, but because of the PHOTOS and the memories that it has stored. This week, i just felt God saying, those are by gones. Time to move on and make new ones. I didnt quite get it. but if i do, i'll share more. Anyway, yea. i tot all forms of memories of the past are GONE but God has proven his faithfulness and goodness to me the moment i used my usb to see that i've actually backed up my photos in it!!! WOW! u had no idea how thankful i was. but then, i guess i kinda taken it for granted that i wont loose my usb.. and now. i've misplaced it!! GRRRRRRR. so angry at myself.
isnt it amazing how when we've lost something, something that's close to our heart, we wouldnt stop thinking about it, we'd searched up and down for it and do everything within our might to retrieve it.
I was once lost too. Actually, not once. too many times i was lost.
I've lost my way countless times.
I've lost the sense of belonging when others failed and disappointed me,
I've lost my purpose when i dun know why on earth am i still living.
I've lost loved ones along the way
I've lost my vision.
I was lost.
but God found me and upholded me.
He has paid the price by dying for us on the cross. and then we've gone missing when we decided to take things into our own hands. Yet, He is soooo good. He never gives up looking and searching for us. When I thought he would have given up, especially when you know, after you turn the whole house around, trying to look for a tiny thing, you're covered with dust, you're tired, you come to a point when u'll say "forget it, i'm getting a new one". God could have done that, but instead, He didnt. WHY? because you're priceless to his eyes. You're valued. He has shared some memories with you, whether you know it or not. when you were created, the fact that you're still breathing, he's all part of it! So, He continued searching and waiting. Looking and anticipating that perhaps, under that pile of mess, you're hiding there.
He reaches down and when you realised that you cant camouflage between the pile of mess and junks, He's already grinning and hugging you.
This is my God. He longs for you to return to His arms. Stop camouflaging between the pile of mess that you thought no one could find you. Stop hiding. Come home. Come back to Jesus.
wow. i'm shocked. i was just thinking of asking people if anyone seen my usb could let me know where it has been but OK, God told me and directed this out. i'm so glad to be the first one reading it.
USB! COME BACK TO ME! ;p
and you who dont know Jesus, GO BACK TO HIM! (or you can always talk to me :)
Friday, October 24, 2008
FRUITCAKE
God I pray that you take me out of my comfort zone. I pray that you break my heart to pieces for the poor and needy so that I will be driven beyond belief to look after them like you would. Father, forgive me for being so self centered. Forgive me for being all about me, myself and I. Forgive me for my sometimes stupid, ridiculous, religious opinions about absolute rubbish while people that you love and cherish suffer due to my inaction and selfish, consumer attitude. God forgive me and set me free from mammon and raise me up into a person of compassion and love like you are. I pray this in the name of Jesus. Amen.
GOD, I WANT TO BE THE FRUITCAKE!! HELP ME TO PERSEVERE AND NOT GIVING IN OR GIVING UP.
GOD, I WANT TO BE THE FRUITCAKE!! HELP ME TO PERSEVERE AND NOT GIVING IN OR GIVING UP.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
PURITY
A shattered heart.
unmendable parts.
where does it start?
rejection
loneliness
insecure and fear
in the deepest of corner of my heart
Yet He whispers
and removes the thorns and cuts.
Come this way my dear one.
Unending love.
CLEAN HANDS PURE HEART.
look through the eyes,
of an innocent one.
I'll bring you through
and love you.
I'll never dessert you nor forsake you.
Take my hand, will you?
God's heart longs for our love. Sometimes, we let things run wild and we slipped, not living in accordance to the level that He has destined us to. You give in, you tolerate and it grabs hold of you. You compromised. Ever wonder why? It all starts with a "errrmmm.. i dont know.. but...."
Or, are we too busy to talk to Him, or even spend some quality time with Him?
What has He been talking to you about? Go deeper. Ask for more.
I've never felt the way i feel yesterday. It was so real and i missed His Presence so much. I miss how He wraps His arms around me and tells me that it's ok. I miss the intimacy that we used to have. He is the lover of our souls. At times, he's my friend, at times He's my Saviour King. but yesterday, he's my lover. it was sooo close. I should stop thinking about who's the right guy and when will he come. Cos' I've already found one. I wont let the enemy place thoughts and doubts in me, tempt me or break me. I've been too silly too many times to think that man will add a little "sha-zing". Yes, there's a longing. but try-hards and manipulation are not His ways. Go to Him. All that we need.
i love the song that illustrates it all so well.
"Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
look full at His wonderful face.
And the things on earth will go strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace."
For some of you, you'll go, here she goes again, Christianity bombarding. NO! I'm just expressing how my heart feels. the innermost part. I'm being really open here and i want you to see it too.
Jesus is real and He longs for your acceptance and attention. Would you give Him a chance, to take you out? or simply, to be your pal?
unmendable parts.
where does it start?
rejection
loneliness
insecure and fear
in the deepest of corner of my heart
Yet He whispers
and removes the thorns and cuts.
Come this way my dear one.
Unending love.
CLEAN HANDS PURE HEART.
look through the eyes,
of an innocent one.
I'll bring you through
and love you.
I'll never dessert you nor forsake you.
Take my hand, will you?
God's heart longs for our love. Sometimes, we let things run wild and we slipped, not living in accordance to the level that He has destined us to. You give in, you tolerate and it grabs hold of you. You compromised. Ever wonder why? It all starts with a "errrmmm.. i dont know.. but...."
Or, are we too busy to talk to Him, or even spend some quality time with Him?
What has He been talking to you about? Go deeper. Ask for more.
I've never felt the way i feel yesterday. It was so real and i missed His Presence so much. I miss how He wraps His arms around me and tells me that it's ok. I miss the intimacy that we used to have. He is the lover of our souls. At times, he's my friend, at times He's my Saviour King. but yesterday, he's my lover. it was sooo close. I should stop thinking about who's the right guy and when will he come. Cos' I've already found one. I wont let the enemy place thoughts and doubts in me, tempt me or break me. I've been too silly too many times to think that man will add a little "sha-zing". Yes, there's a longing. but try-hards and manipulation are not His ways. Go to Him. All that we need.
i love the song that illustrates it all so well.
"Turn your eyes upon Jesus,
look full at His wonderful face.
And the things on earth will go strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace."
For some of you, you'll go, here she goes again, Christianity bombarding. NO! I'm just expressing how my heart feels. the innermost part. I'm being really open here and i want you to see it too.
Jesus is real and He longs for your acceptance and attention. Would you give Him a chance, to take you out? or simply, to be your pal?
Friday, September 12, 2008
hearty <3
have you ever get one of those hearty warm feeling after you spend some time with that person? It's not like you always talk on the phone, msn or having kept in touch AALL the time, but you know that deep down you're loved.you can just feel so comfortable and laugh as long and as loud as you want. you can gobble as much as you want and not worry about them giving you the stares. you can trust them to tell you the truth when you need to hear some. it's just this mushy feeling you get when you're with them.
a few people make me feel that way. I guess moments like this can happen all the time if you go and make time to create some. last Sunday was one of them.
I couldnt ask for more.
Thank you for making my day and night such a special one. I meant it when i said i felt like crying everytime we said goodbye.
a few people make me feel that way. I guess moments like this can happen all the time if you go and make time to create some. last Sunday was one of them.
I couldnt ask for more.
Thank you for making my day and night such a special one. I meant it when i said i felt like crying everytime we said goodbye.
Monday, September 08, 2008
quickie
Today's Prayer
Dear Lord, If tomorrow never comes on this earth, I pray that I will leave behind a testimony that points to you. Help me to live as if today were my last before entering eternity, for I know not what the day may bring. I pray that I will love others with a godly love, that I will be kind and considerate, that I will share who you are and what you have done, that I will smile at those I see throughout the day, that I will remember and pray for others, that I will appreciate every little thing and have an attitude of gratitude, that I will be honest and responsible in all things. Thank you for blessing me and loving me and filling me with your spirit. Please feed my soul and give me strength this day. May you be glorified and my family be blessed. May I touch lives and sow seeds throughout the day. In the name of my Savior I pray, amen.
I've been out on placement for a week. Come home rather tired at times, but am slowing getting the hang of it and knowing what to expect and help relieve the nurses a bit more. IT HAS BEEN GREAT!! despite morning shifts having to be up and ready to go by 6.15, it's AWESOME! i am enjoying every part of it :) the people - nurses and patients are really nice. i've been learning heaps from them and off them! Loving people doesnt have to be that hard, smiling and talking to people makes a whole lot of difference. I'm trying to do it better everytime!
Dear Lord, If tomorrow never comes on this earth, I pray that I will leave behind a testimony that points to you. Help me to live as if today were my last before entering eternity, for I know not what the day may bring. I pray that I will love others with a godly love, that I will be kind and considerate, that I will share who you are and what you have done, that I will smile at those I see throughout the day, that I will remember and pray for others, that I will appreciate every little thing and have an attitude of gratitude, that I will be honest and responsible in all things. Thank you for blessing me and loving me and filling me with your spirit. Please feed my soul and give me strength this day. May you be glorified and my family be blessed. May I touch lives and sow seeds throughout the day. In the name of my Savior I pray, amen.
I've been out on placement for a week. Come home rather tired at times, but am slowing getting the hang of it and knowing what to expect and help relieve the nurses a bit more. IT HAS BEEN GREAT!! despite morning shifts having to be up and ready to go by 6.15, it's AWESOME! i am enjoying every part of it :) the people - nurses and patients are really nice. i've been learning heaps from them and off them! Loving people doesnt have to be that hard, smiling and talking to people makes a whole lot of difference. I'm trying to do it better everytime!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
it is annoying and depressing to me. i am trying to overcome it and i know that i definitely cant do this on my own. this is THE MOST DISASTEROUS thing that has ever happened but i know i can and i have to pull my acts together. it's truly by His Grace. i need it more than ever. DISCIPLINE, that's another key component that i need.
perhaps to you guys, it's nothing much. just another ramblings of hers. yes this truly is. so just let me do my thing!
ARGGGHHHH!!! i'm at the fatest stage of my life!! EVER! it is disgusting! >.< i have never seen the scale sway so much to the right side. it's gross.
i need to get serious and do something.
for those whose heads are saying " yea right mun yee, you're going to be bones and sticks if you go on a diet" can you please just keep them in your head. cos to me, i dont need the discouragement to GET A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE! i need to get fit terribly much. to you, i may be normal or balanced. But this was not how i'm supposed to be. Ã've seen a healthier and fitter side of me and i'm really sick of how i am at my current stage.
yes. this is dealing with self-image. I know that I am created by God and i'm made perfect in His image. He created me well. Definitely! but i need to be disciplined as well. I've got to understand that my body is a temple for Holy Spirit and i need to keep it well :) i think this is also another season to show that God can really do anything!!!!
Ever since God knows when, the scale has just always been sky rocketting. it hardly go the other way, the preferred way. But, i really believe that God can help me with this. Seriously, some of you may even think that this is so silly. She's complaining about her gaining weight and there she goes, being super spritual, bringing God into the topic. YEA! I AM! cos, i've tried to loose the excess that i have with my own plans and strategies. i've tried!! but it's not working! and doing things on your own capability is so limited! it's so hard. i've learnt that i've gotta depend on God in EVERYTHING! and even in loosing weight. yeap. i'm dead serious!
i know this is gotta do with self-image, self-esteem and all that. perhaps, i am at the stage of bad judgement and placing high expectations on myself. I know i'm blessed enough to have certain things. but this is not what i'm after. I know and i've seen myself better. This is about discipline.
This is also about trusting God in every single aspect of my life. even the most ridiculous one - loosing weight.
i know He can help me! and just you weight (wait). when the testimony comes, i'll share with you how i did it and what's the plan that you could go on k/ dont worry, i'm not going to starve myself. NO WAY! we'll see alright/!
perhaps to you guys, it's nothing much. just another ramblings of hers. yes this truly is. so just let me do my thing!
ARGGGHHHH!!! i'm at the fatest stage of my life!! EVER! it is disgusting! >.< i have never seen the scale sway so much to the right side. it's gross.
i need to get serious and do something.
for those whose heads are saying " yea right mun yee, you're going to be bones and sticks if you go on a diet" can you please just keep them in your head. cos to me, i dont need the discouragement to GET A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE! i need to get fit terribly much. to you, i may be normal or balanced. But this was not how i'm supposed to be. Ã've seen a healthier and fitter side of me and i'm really sick of how i am at my current stage.
yes. this is dealing with self-image. I know that I am created by God and i'm made perfect in His image. He created me well. Definitely! but i need to be disciplined as well. I've got to understand that my body is a temple for Holy Spirit and i need to keep it well :) i think this is also another season to show that God can really do anything!!!!
Ever since God knows when, the scale has just always been sky rocketting. it hardly go the other way, the preferred way. But, i really believe that God can help me with this. Seriously, some of you may even think that this is so silly. She's complaining about her gaining weight and there she goes, being super spritual, bringing God into the topic. YEA! I AM! cos, i've tried to loose the excess that i have with my own plans and strategies. i've tried!! but it's not working! and doing things on your own capability is so limited! it's so hard. i've learnt that i've gotta depend on God in EVERYTHING! and even in loosing weight. yeap. i'm dead serious!
i know this is gotta do with self-image, self-esteem and all that. perhaps, i am at the stage of bad judgement and placing high expectations on myself. I know i'm blessed enough to have certain things. but this is not what i'm after. I know and i've seen myself better. This is about discipline.
This is also about trusting God in every single aspect of my life. even the most ridiculous one - loosing weight.
i know He can help me! and just you weight (wait). when the testimony comes, i'll share with you how i did it and what's the plan that you could go on k/ dont worry, i'm not going to starve myself. NO WAY! we'll see alright/!
Monday, August 18, 2008
little things that makes huge differences in my life
i feel so blessed :) just today itself i've recieved 4 awesome stuff :D
tell me, i am loved or wat!
Beloved Trixie kindly borrowed me her laptop to use. Hence, i'll be able to go online more *Erhem cough cough* i mean do assignments and focus on my studies :)
Ai ling and gang - chenny andrew and jimmy .. we went and had an awesome fun night after church. eating away at nice ipoh food, dessert and even talked to this restaurant owner by random coincidence. it was a Godly thing. it was fun talking and being silly joking around with these guys!! :D
through this week, joanne, william and chunwei texted me to say hi and tell me how much they miss me and thought of me.
awwww...
teck keong generously took me out to this really nice place in south yarra for dinner. it was a staeak house. the food was real yummmmm.. it was that good that it made me scrap the idea about being conscious of wat i eat away. it was great stuff :D
Chenny due to his promotion, pay rise and recieving bonus has generously bought us koko black chocolate!! YUMMM :D
(that;s not the real exact thing of wat he bought us. but will get a pic of the real thing he bought us after i charge my camera :p )
but they are AWESOME stuff and i havent had koko black since i last had it with my sis 2 years ago maybe? tat place brings back memories. yeen, am i right? but surely God has been very kind, cos i needed it :)
and finally, the best surprise of all, KIWI BROUGHT A "SLICE" (is that wat you call it?) of DURIAN FOR ME!!
that's so sweet of him. i am proud to admit that i am a durian fan and durian brings back heaps of memories from home. family and friends.
YUUMMM .. thank you guys for showering gifts. it truly is the thought that counts :D :D :D :D :D thank you for making an impact in my life!
tell me, i am loved or wat!
Beloved Trixie kindly borrowed me her laptop to use. Hence, i'll be able to go online more *Erhem cough cough* i mean do assignments and focus on my studies :)
Ai ling and gang - chenny andrew and jimmy .. we went and had an awesome fun night after church. eating away at nice ipoh food, dessert and even talked to this restaurant owner by random coincidence. it was a Godly thing. it was fun talking and being silly joking around with these guys!! :D
through this week, joanne, william and chunwei texted me to say hi and tell me how much they miss me and thought of me.
awwww...
teck keong generously took me out to this really nice place in south yarra for dinner. it was a staeak house. the food was real yummmmm.. it was that good that it made me scrap the idea about being conscious of wat i eat away. it was great stuff :D
Chenny due to his promotion, pay rise and recieving bonus has generously bought us koko black chocolate!! YUMMM :D
(that;s not the real exact thing of wat he bought us. but will get a pic of the real thing he bought us after i charge my camera :p )
but they are AWESOME stuff and i havent had koko black since i last had it with my sis 2 years ago maybe? tat place brings back memories. yeen, am i right? but surely God has been very kind, cos i needed it :)
and finally, the best surprise of all, KIWI BROUGHT A "SLICE" (is that wat you call it?) of DURIAN FOR ME!!
that's so sweet of him. i am proud to admit that i am a durian fan and durian brings back heaps of memories from home. family and friends.
YUUMMM .. thank you guys for showering gifts. it truly is the thought that counts :D :D :D :D :D thank you for making an impact in my life!
Friday, August 15, 2008
2 years anniversary
It'amazing how time flies. i had this song playing in my head.
"Our last summer"by Abba.
I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
Walks along the sand, laughing in the rain
Our last summer
Memories that remain.
it has been 2 years ever since i said yes. And ever since then, my life journey was never the same again. He has never left me nor forsaken me. Through times of joy and trying times with sorrow, His grace and mercy flows. His love never ceases.
some times life throws troubles at me, oh yea, but He's always there to hold my hand. name a few? house was broken into, loss my wallet in a foreign land, undergone loneliness, feeling of no one understand, falling sick, transitions, family disagreements, doubt. fear. rejection. blah bahblah. YET, there's always him. even when i wasnt looking to him, or expecting anything from him, his comfort is always there.
not only that, He laughs with me, makes me smile. brightens up my day and cheers me on! He shows me that there's power with love.
with him, there's always hope.
with him, there's always strength.
with him, there's always peace.
with him, there's always healing.
with him, there's always l.o.v.e.
thank you Jesus for this 2 years. i'm believing for greater things, cos there's defintiely more.
"Our last summer"by Abba.
I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
Walks along the sand, laughing in the rain
Our last summer
Memories that remain.
it has been 2 years ever since i said yes. And ever since then, my life journey was never the same again. He has never left me nor forsaken me. Through times of joy and trying times with sorrow, His grace and mercy flows. His love never ceases.
some times life throws troubles at me, oh yea, but He's always there to hold my hand. name a few? house was broken into, loss my wallet in a foreign land, undergone loneliness, feeling of no one understand, falling sick, transitions, family disagreements, doubt. fear. rejection. blah bahblah. YET, there's always him. even when i wasnt looking to him, or expecting anything from him, his comfort is always there.
not only that, He laughs with me, makes me smile. brightens up my day and cheers me on! He shows me that there's power with love.
with him, there's always hope.
with him, there's always strength.
with him, there's always peace.
with him, there's always healing.
with him, there's always l.o.v.e.
thank you Jesus for this 2 years. i'm believing for greater things, cos there's defintiely more.
Monday, August 11, 2008
Praise
He is faithful through it all.
Psalm 27:13
I am still confident of this :
I will see the goodness
of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Thank you for choosing me. For carrying me and encouraging me. I know You're gonna look after me. I just know it!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO!!!!
Psalm 27:13
I am still confident of this :
I will see the goodness
of the Lord in the land of the living.
Wait for the Lord;
be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.
Thank you for choosing me. For carrying me and encouraging me. I know You're gonna look after me. I just know it!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JO!!!!
Friday, August 01, 2008
STOP I SAY
i should be smart enough to know when to stop. stop putting myself in a position that i'll be so vulnerable that enables the enemy to inflict pain. seriously mun yee, GET SMART!
excuse me as i make a few mental notes.
stop being so stupid and living in fairy-airy land.
stop letting the enemy rob you of your joy and innocence
cant you see the cloud of witnesses in heaven cheering for you?
Dont you know that you're all that you can be according to His glorious riches in heaven?
wake up silly girl. stop day dreaming and procrastinating.
when is it enough to make me realise that it aint gonna produce fruits and there would be no ending to it.
stop looking down on urself. look up!
God, help me not to look to the right or to the left but to look ONLY unto you. i have been very silly to even dream and have hope on what i should have let you be in control to start off with. Lord, i lay them at your feet. When men fail and disappoint me, God, i know you never would. Even my efforts seemed to be in vain, God, i dun wanna rely on my own strength anymore. Father, i'm sick n tired of myself. Let You live in me, and kick my flesh some whooping ass. I dont want to strive anymore. Thank you for using incidents to teach me new things :) thank you from waking me up from further disillusions. You open n close doors Lord. You take control. You drive.
Thank you that i am able to make an impact. I wanna do more for you. to be your hands and feet. to show love. let me be focus at only the things of yours. This is my earnest prayer.
excuse me as i make a few mental notes.
stop being so stupid and living in fairy-airy land.
stop letting the enemy rob you of your joy and innocence
cant you see the cloud of witnesses in heaven cheering for you?
Dont you know that you're all that you can be according to His glorious riches in heaven?
wake up silly girl. stop day dreaming and procrastinating.
when is it enough to make me realise that it aint gonna produce fruits and there would be no ending to it.
stop looking down on urself. look up!
God, help me not to look to the right or to the left but to look ONLY unto you. i have been very silly to even dream and have hope on what i should have let you be in control to start off with. Lord, i lay them at your feet. When men fail and disappoint me, God, i know you never would. Even my efforts seemed to be in vain, God, i dun wanna rely on my own strength anymore. Father, i'm sick n tired of myself. Let You live in me, and kick my flesh some whooping ass. I dont want to strive anymore. Thank you for using incidents to teach me new things :) thank you from waking me up from further disillusions. You open n close doors Lord. You take control. You drive.
Thank you that i am able to make an impact. I wanna do more for you. to be your hands and feet. to show love. let me be focus at only the things of yours. This is my earnest prayer.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
this is for those out there who reckons i should blog everyday.
:) though i may not know what's happening in your life, i pray that you'll continue to draw strength from Him.
Rev 7 : 17
For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd;
he will lead them to springs of living water.
And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.
What a beautiful verse. Dont cry anymore babe, or dont even think that u're unworthy. He loves you and He wants to wipe away every single tear that stream down you face. i love you too.
:) though i may not know what's happening in your life, i pray that you'll continue to draw strength from Him.
Rev 7 : 17
For the Lamb at the center of the throne will be their shepherd;
he will lead them to springs of living water.
And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes.
What a beautiful verse. Dont cry anymore babe, or dont even think that u're unworthy. He loves you and He wants to wipe away every single tear that stream down you face. i love you too.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Hillsong conference 08 highlight
it made me cried. yes chloe, i was crying :p and i blamed it on my blocked nose. hehe.
Life IS really simple. basically, one word sums it all up - LOVE.
Loving God and loving people. That's it.
Yet, why cant we all do that with all our heart?
Life IS really simple. basically, one word sums it all up - LOVE.
Loving God and loving people. That's it.
Yet, why cant we all do that with all our heart?
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
sydney and back
The journey to sydney has been amazing!! Really.. couldnt ask for something else. I reckon each time of these experiences would definitely change my life and being around with friends, the people you love, just purely make it so much more enjoyable and memorable!! :D
I realised that God's been sending out rainbows everywhere! We've seen a double rainbow during our trip while we were at some kangaroo national park place and it was very clear which was the lime light!! :) as Rachel said, Rainbows are symbolism of God's promises :D Listen to this! even the kids know! Mel taught me this song and i'm terribly missing her already!!! >.<
The whole trip has been awesome and i've been eating TOO much that my sis said that i've gotta start exercising to loose some weight!! *gulp* shaikz! but i've already .. well attempting to develop a timetable!! my timetable, apart from tues and friday i could kinda get days off.. i have like massive breaks in between for wednesdays and thursday!! GRRR yes. sucks to be me! >.< trying to think of stuff that i could possibly do to fill up my time!! like what i'm doing now!!
Anyhoo, short note to these 2 awesome people!!
Jo - i'm praying for your complete healing as you venture out to taiwan :) i'm believing for miracles for you even as you lay down your life and serve
Jia Mien!!! happy 20th!! i know it's a lil late now, but i;ve wished you and i just wanna SAY A MASSIVE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU PRETTY WOMAN!!! :p
(psst. so much for planning to do some homework! hehe :p)
Well, no matter wat, there's always time for this!!
PRAISE REPORT!
I just wanna thank God for this lil bump and situation that i'm going through right now! I've lost my purse on the very last day of my sydney trip. I'm not too sure how did it happened. We were at an outdoor cafe and was just having an awesome time chilling out and stuff. I took my purse out, paid Cat and put it back in and left my bag at the back of my chair, then enjoying myself at the indulgence of chocolates! :) yumm. Prior to us leaving, Mel asked if i could break a change, as i reached for my wallet, it went missing. We looked around and conducted a search team!! haha. bins, floor, people. but no where to be found.
if you were thinking, what's so good about this? i lost my purse. IDs and everything, knowing that a woman's purse contains the world!
well, YES i still have HEAPS of reason to PRAISE GOD!
we were flying that day, so thank God that this incident happened in the afternoon, when we were just relaxing and having heaps of time to calm ourselves (me) down and lodge police report and other procedures.
Also, as this is a domestic flight, i could have just used my drivers liscence as my form of identification to board the plane but somehow, for some unknown reason, i brought my passport along with me and therefore that day, i had no problem at all trying to board my plane due to lack of ID - yes, i store all my cards and IDs in my purse and it's all gone.
not only that, Aaron appeared so timely at the cafe. When he came, i just realised that my purse had gone missing. Being the typical business working man, he was very efficient and got hold of all the banks that i needed and helped me made all the calls. well, he dialed i did all the talking but still. the bank cards and stuff were settled within 15 minutes!
Not only that, Jimmy aka teck keong also owed me heaps of money. He has the cash with him that afternoon and was just showing ( could also be considered as flashing ) the cash towards me from his wallet. Somehow, i didnt ask for them and he didnt bother returning them to me either. it was a huge amount. and THANK GOd that they werent returned. cos it would have gone missing with my wallet!
YEA !! SO PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!
you think that's it?? NO!!!
actually, i've been spending alot during this trip and for this trip. Hence, i was really asking God for a financial breakthrough as my the amount in my bank goes less n less. when such thing happen, i was like a lil shock! seriously, i've never experienced incidents like this. i dun wanna point finger and said that it has been picked, cos i'm not very sure what happened either. it could be my fault not keeping it safe. but i was like i need money not loosing money. (oh yea, thank God i paid mel and cat off that afternoon so i didnt really have much with me then) So, yea.. i told God, whatever it is i'm believing for it to come back to me- my purse and money!
True enough, God has been looking after me well!! Monday, meiching paid me 40bucks from a breaky that i dun mind buying them. and yesterday another friend said that she wanna pay me back for some other stuff as well!! so yea. guess it's all been looked after and i dun really need to worry.
it'll be back! i believe...
I realised that God's been sending out rainbows everywhere! We've seen a double rainbow during our trip while we were at some kangaroo national park place and it was very clear which was the lime light!! :) as Rachel said, Rainbows are symbolism of God's promises :D Listen to this! even the kids know! Mel taught me this song and i'm terribly missing her already!!! >.<
The whole trip has been awesome and i've been eating TOO much that my sis said that i've gotta start exercising to loose some weight!! *gulp* shaikz! but i've already .. well attempting to develop a timetable!! my timetable, apart from tues and friday i could kinda get days off.. i have like massive breaks in between for wednesdays and thursday!! GRRR yes. sucks to be me! >.< trying to think of stuff that i could possibly do to fill up my time!! like what i'm doing now!!
Anyhoo, short note to these 2 awesome people!!
Jo - i'm praying for your complete healing as you venture out to taiwan :) i'm believing for miracles for you even as you lay down your life and serve
Jia Mien!!! happy 20th!! i know it's a lil late now, but i;ve wished you and i just wanna SAY A MASSIVE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU PRETTY WOMAN!!! :p
(psst. so much for planning to do some homework! hehe :p)
Well, no matter wat, there's always time for this!!
PRAISE REPORT!
I just wanna thank God for this lil bump and situation that i'm going through right now! I've lost my purse on the very last day of my sydney trip. I'm not too sure how did it happened. We were at an outdoor cafe and was just having an awesome time chilling out and stuff. I took my purse out, paid Cat and put it back in and left my bag at the back of my chair, then enjoying myself at the indulgence of chocolates! :) yumm. Prior to us leaving, Mel asked if i could break a change, as i reached for my wallet, it went missing. We looked around and conducted a search team!! haha. bins, floor, people. but no where to be found.
if you were thinking, what's so good about this? i lost my purse. IDs and everything, knowing that a woman's purse contains the world!
well, YES i still have HEAPS of reason to PRAISE GOD!
we were flying that day, so thank God that this incident happened in the afternoon, when we were just relaxing and having heaps of time to calm ourselves (me) down and lodge police report and other procedures.
Also, as this is a domestic flight, i could have just used my drivers liscence as my form of identification to board the plane but somehow, for some unknown reason, i brought my passport along with me and therefore that day, i had no problem at all trying to board my plane due to lack of ID - yes, i store all my cards and IDs in my purse and it's all gone.
not only that, Aaron appeared so timely at the cafe. When he came, i just realised that my purse had gone missing. Being the typical business working man, he was very efficient and got hold of all the banks that i needed and helped me made all the calls. well, he dialed i did all the talking but still. the bank cards and stuff were settled within 15 minutes!
Not only that, Jimmy aka teck keong also owed me heaps of money. He has the cash with him that afternoon and was just showing ( could also be considered as flashing ) the cash towards me from his wallet. Somehow, i didnt ask for them and he didnt bother returning them to me either. it was a huge amount. and THANK GOd that they werent returned. cos it would have gone missing with my wallet!
YEA !! SO PRAISE GOD PRAISE GOD!!
you think that's it?? NO!!!
actually, i've been spending alot during this trip and for this trip. Hence, i was really asking God for a financial breakthrough as my the amount in my bank goes less n less. when such thing happen, i was like a lil shock! seriously, i've never experienced incidents like this. i dun wanna point finger and said that it has been picked, cos i'm not very sure what happened either. it could be my fault not keeping it safe. but i was like i need money not loosing money. (oh yea, thank God i paid mel and cat off that afternoon so i didnt really have much with me then) So, yea.. i told God, whatever it is i'm believing for it to come back to me- my purse and money!
True enough, God has been looking after me well!! Monday, meiching paid me 40bucks from a breaky that i dun mind buying them. and yesterday another friend said that she wanna pay me back for some other stuff as well!! so yea. guess it's all been looked after and i dun really need to worry.
it'll be back! i believe...
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