sick

being sick and trying to study is really hard. God, please give me the strength!!

havent been sick for so long and this puny cold is taking me down more than i thought it could! >.< but i'm still believing in the healing power of Jesus! "by His stripes, I AM HEALED!"

also, praise God, He's speaking to me more and giving me heaps of revelations and ideas!! :) how cool!!!
He gave me a dream. in chinese! i dreamt of the chinese character - heart - xin! it has been so long since i wrote a chinese and for one moment as i tried to write it out again, it looked funny that i had to use the computer to reassure that the character is correct!! hmm.

perhaps, God is looking at my heart now. what is it like?
the chinese character 心 does really resemble the our heart anatomically. the arteries and veins are the dots. and the space is where the cavities- atrium and ventricles are.
but my question to you is. what fills it? what fills your heart today?

exams' coming up in 2weeks.
i should really start studying. really.

it's the time of the year again. the holiday season approaching and the time that i usually go home. it's hard not to think about it when it has been a routine for more than 4 years. things are great here but i really wonder how are things back home? there's so much to do.. both here n there. could someone please invent a teleport thingy-magingy?

i've learnt how to do heaps of stuff in my new course. particularly, i enjoyed the nursing ones. still really thinking about paramedics. it's all exciting and stuff.. but imagine having someone's life at your stake. HUGE responsibilities. but then again, greater times to see God performing miracles. COOL :) either ones are cool. i love the healthcare professions! but yet again, there are so much complications to it. especially the ethics and rules. GRR! dun exactly know what they do but sure dont sound too good.

anyway, i'm trying to make this rice pudding thing for urban life and i duno how it taste like? anyone wants to have a try?

went visiting my kids on saturday! their family is so nice. i went shopping for myself the first time in 4 months!!!!! :) retail therapy. and guess waT? i bought a bini / hat/ buret thingo from pumpkin patch. it's a kids department hehehe :P twas good!

i'm tired from work. but i ate HEAPS! i had a max brenners waffle for the first time ever since i worked. yummm.. but surely consequences follow >.<

i should get back to a healthy lifestyle. it includes eating healthily and EXERCISE!! hey. dont laught. at least i am attempting to do this!

THANK GOD!

i passed my test!!

thank u so much to those who prayed for and with me. it was very much appreciated! and once again, shows that God hears our prayers. i was practically just letting Him take control and be in charge and it turned out better than i could imagined! i got above 90+ % !!! imagine that! WOW! i couldnt believe it myself either! His eyes are watching me :D

God is just so great! :)

driving test tmr!

yes. i'm having my third attempt of driving test!!
3 time lucky apparently. hehehe and 3 is a holy number ;p

please pray along with me :D
i really want to and believing that i'm gonna PASS :) :) this is it!! JESUS PLEASE HELP ME!

can u imagine me driving? i so can. i fully understand that it's for His glory! :)

i'll let u know how it went k?

thoughts

i've been having random thoughts today.

1. funny how u meet some people and never ever ever see them again. even if you do, you prolly wont remember that you've met and would just pass each other by as strangers. am i making sense?

2.been thinking alot about the people back home. i miss them. really want my house phone working then i could call them.

3. i have been trying to count how many hours of sleep i've been getting and definitely, it's a lot less than what i would have love to get.

4. faithful with the little? how?

5. how could someone be so near yet so far, so predictable yet so unexpected, so special yet so ordinary.

6. i havent used my camera for AGES and i miss taking photos >.<

7. i want to be able to just sit and lie there and let my mind totally drift off.

8. i want to be held by you.

9. time managing and being diligent is my next big task!! i wanna master it then perhaps i could have a social life after that! :P i miss hanging out with ppl i love. miss the times when i could easily spend time with ppl.

10. i wanna go star gazing, lying on the beach, have a nice playlist, and dream.

11. wonder what is happening on the other side of the world. i bet there's someone else on this very earth is having the exact same thought that i have now. but funny is it how minds could work.

12. i want ice cream.

random enough.




it prolly doesnt make sense .. haha. oh well.

-.-

MunYee has never been as heavy and as fat as now. just weighed myself >.<

i so am going on a diet starting monday!
*fingers crossed*

Answered prayerS

Some of you might have known that over the last 2 weeks, i've lost my student id. my official monash student ID and without it, during assignment period, is rather disasterous. i had been believing, praying and even got everyone that i was talking to, when remembered bout my ID, to pray about it for me.
you were thinking, why dont you just replace one. easy. save all the troubles.
well, you see, i dont understand this but monash impose a $60 as a penalty to replace a student ID. and no way i can afford it, no way i'm going to work 4 hours in maxie and redo an ID. it's just ridiculous and it's prolly because of me misplacing it under my pile of mess in the room.
this is the second week since i've lost my ID. i forgot to check lost and found and been just a lil concerned about it. but i believe that one day it would just appear out of no where in my room and prior to me replacing it. i told God about how worried i was and stuff. but He has it all in control.
today i got an email from monash.

hmm. i should copy n past it.

but basically, it states tat someone found it!! :D :D :D and has returned it! WOOT! thank you Jesus.

"Do not be anxious about anything, instead, pray about everything!" - Phil 4:6.

Thank you Lord, for listening to my lil prayers. i know i can trust You :)

a new journey

it's amazing how when u were at the verge of an end,
you'll hold on so tightly believing that things will be alright.



you know what?
i learnt that it will be when you learn to trust and believe.




Listen and do it.

He's already prepared it and He wiill guide you through it, even when you fall and dont wanna stand up again.



He loves you and it will never be washed away

huh?

wonder why am i doing this whilst i should be doing my 2500 words essay. i'm only 1/5 done. crap.

my topic is on the community of Pudu, where my grandma lives. So, basically, trying to research on the factual side of the community but somehow, all these travel guide and FOOD kept coming up!! *DROOLS* and somehow, they make me homesick >.< i wanna go back home.. for a short trip? smart geniuses, could u please quickly invent teleport? haha. or God, i dun mind having the JUMPING gift :P

haha. back to my assignment >.<

God's working a new thing in me. i'm scared but yet excited :) BIG thank you to those who never fails to input and sow in me. i love you so dearly. more detailed update later.

this is oh-so-beautiful

Bring The Rain lyrics

I can count a million times
People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain

I am Yours regardless of
The dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
So I pray

Holy, holy, holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

i should stop procrastinating and finish up my 2500 words essay.

sounds like a plan? hehe :)












i know somewhere around the earth, at the other end, you're thinking of this and directing it to me.
but the funniest thing is that this is for someone else.

i'm so sorry that i couldnt be there for you. my heart broke when i heard and read about it. i couldnt believe it. i want you to know that i've always been praying for you. for one instance, i questioned God and wondered why all these happen. to you and again. but i'm sure He got it all planned and there must be a reason. i'm so sorry i couldnt talk to you more yesterday. i was burdened myself. i broke down too. only 2 ppl knew. it reminded me of how u perhaps have silently cried yourself to sleep so many nights. i'm sorry. i should have texted you when He told me to. if there's anything i could do, i wanna say i love you so very much and i long to be back with you. i was dying for a hug yesterday and i know how bad it may have been for you too. Please take care of yourself my love. i miss you so very much..

mwah.


jo, i know you'll prolly like copy this and send it to me. hehehe. thank you so much for what u've done in my life. i know how badly u wanted to give me a hug. i wish i could receive it too.. miss u.

friends :)

thank God for the people He placed in my life. Good old friends and new friends.

i love making new friends and getting to know more people. but yet, i also love getting to know people more. there's always golden moments when you bond with old friends. makes you appreciate what you have and let you realised what a long way you've come.

camp was awesome. part of it was because of the above. seeing how old friends were completely transformed and new friends drawing closer to the heartbeat of God. It's amazing and something within my heart stirs.

did i tell you also that i've learnt to make my very own first coffee using the coffee machine? :D yea!! i can make coffee now. you be the judge and let me know if it's good :p

BEAUTIFUL :)

I had the most amazing experience on Monday when i just finished work. As usual, i was going to catch the bus home from work and u know, feeling a little tired. with the groceries i bought from this asian store and chocolates for fund raising, my mind was just running with heaps of to do lists and praying that the grocery bags wont break.

So, the bus came along after a short wait and i hopped onto it. there, was the friendliest bus driver i've ever met. the moment i stepped into the bus, i tot i'll be nice and say " hi". usually the bus drivers would just acknowledge it and ignore me after 2 sec. but this guy, he was fully like " HI BEAUTIFUL! How are you?"

i was fully stunned and fully grinning. chatted for a while and headed off to my seat. my mind was then drifted off with sms-ing people and the things i need to do before camp. soon enough, we reached monash and i needed to hop off.

As i was really kind *cough cough*, (and also the fact that i dun want my cheapo lousy thin plastic bag full of groceries to burst) i let others get off before me. the bus driver called me to use the front door. i didnt give much consideration to it so i went. Then, he started talking to me even more.

BD (Bus Driver) : you know what? you're the most beautiful girl i've met! (or something like that. cant really remember the exact words)

ME : ... (laughing to myself and also in embarassment)

BD : What's your name?

Me : Mun Yee

BD : That's a beautiful name. Have I picked u up before?

Me : Well, maybe. i take this bus to work quite often. maybe you did

BD : What course are you doing? you studying yea?

Me : I'm doing nursing and paramedics double degree down in monash peninsula. And as you can see. i do travel a bit.

BD : wow. i reckon u'll be such a good nurse. (turns to this other guy in the bus) dont you think she'll be an amazing nurse?

other guy : yea!!

Me : (laughing) Hope so.

BD : If i had something happen to me now, and if you're the paramedic who comes and tend to me, i'll prolly be going to heaven immediately.

ME : (talking to myself in my heart)- hope not. (continues laughing) Nahhhhhhh.

BD : do you have a boy friend. i'm sure there's heaps of boys going after you. look at you. so beautiful (or some what) if i was back in my 25s i would definitely go after you but now, i'm like 55 , old fart, surely there's heaps of guys going after you.

Me : (LAUGHING EVEN MORE) haha. no. i dont have a boyfriend and there's no guys going after me.

BD : then it must be you being too busy in your studies or work.

Me : yea. gonna concentrate and focus on these before getting a bf.

BD : good girl.

... laughing and slight conversation continues.

BD : do remember to say hi next time if you jump on this bus.

ME : yea sure. you definitely made my day. have a good night.

BD : see ya beautiful.

His name is Martin by the way. i made a friend :)

Seriously, it made my day. well, my night more like it. i was just like wow. cant believe i am that beautiful in the eyes of that man. and i wasnt even putting any effort in dressing up or anything. i was in my dirty working clothes and just trying to lug my groceries home. nothing too special. but it's amazing how there's power in words and how one thing said can change the feelings of another person :) dun get me wrong, i am not like fully flattered over this one incident. like flying off the roof for someone saying that i'm pretty. i know i am beautiful because God created me :D

it's amazing how God can speak through people. on monday night itself, i crashed. something happened and i couldnt believe wat my ears wat sending into my brains. my thoughts ran wild. i was in a position where i duno what to do or what is left to do. i cried out. but i just love how gentle Jesus' response is. how sweet and perfect.

"Look up, beautiful" and He dried my tears.

peeps! check this video out!! hillarious! my lecturer found it on youtube!



going on my second clinical placement tmr. nervoussssss!!

but.. this ..




oh which also reminded me that nursing and paramedics can be fun :D
note the lyrics yo!!

CLINICAL PLACEMENT no.1

i had my placement yesterday. less towards the academical side now. i've gotta journal it as my homework later. in all, it was good. i went on the ambulance, went on the road with the crew and really got to see REAL stuff happening! seriously.. i think i've been in such a blessed situation and the worst thing was that i never really appreciate them and have been taking them for granted. going out on this placement really got me thinking a lot. a lot about me and life and people and God.

prior to it, i was really nervous. i was SCARED! all i could do is just to ask God to prepare me and look after me. got heaps of ppl praying for me. thanks jo. u know how much it meant to me rite?

i was really afraid that i'm going to come across death face to face. well, if you're not sure wat my job is, i'll tell you now. being a paramedics is going on EMERGENCY situations in light of easing that situation. where people draw the line and consider an "emergency" however, may vary. yet, could you see the picture i'm painting? i would be out on the road, on my FIRST observer shift, handling people with pain, uneasiness, trauma or medical conditions and perhaps, even death. can u imagine that? i never really thought how serious it could be until this week. IT'S REAL HUMAN BEING LIFE THAT WE'RE TALKING ABOUT HERE! you are expected to do something when emergency come. public expects you to carry hope and life. i know where it comes from. but i'm scared. i was very scared to get a cardiac arrest or a code 0 - death. i mean i do wanna open up my perspective and learning experiences but i was caught in the dilemma. i just couldnt get over the fact that it's a SOMEBODY and a SOMEONE we're resusitating. the patient there is someone's beloved, ok?! most importantly, God's. i dun wanna imagine the pain and emotions the family and friends who have to go through if indeed such case happen.

thank God, i didnt get a code 1 - immediate life threat. some of the students may be all disappointed that nothing "interesting" happen. yea, getting a code 1 is indeed interesting and eye opening and exciting. but hey.. it's a person we're talking about here! once we lost him, then we're completely separated then! how scary! imagine being on the person's shoes!!


anyway, in my shift of 7 hrs, i was out seeing 3 patients. 1st was abdominal pain, 3rd was a lady with hip injuries. the second patient ... she broke my heart. suffering from breast cancer, she called in for help cause she had problems with her breathing. her condition has metaphysised to her lungs and bones. it is in a very advanced stage. it was my ultimate first time seeing a person going through cancer. i was astound. she must have had gone through so much. her eyes, her hair loss, her body giving in told me how much she had gone through. the fact that she's still very young and would perhaps have a brighter future if she's healthy adds more to the greyness of this matter. it's as though she tries fighting but yet knew that her body gave in. i duno. i didnt even really dare to talk much to her cause i'm just so taken aback by seeing the first person in the most vulnerable state of fighting cancer. her parents were on the scene when we arrived. i was so sad seeing them. parents will always be parents. when your child is sick, it hurts them more. wat more a cancer that turned into a dreadful secondary one. it was sad and i didnt know wat to do or wat to say. i could only say a prayer for her in my heart and await for God's healing touch.

it got me thinking alot. what are we doing with our lives here? are we making a stand? are we making an impact? somethings are in God's hand and it all happens according to His plans. i could only ask for His wisdom and annointing to be with me. yesterday reminded me of the value of life. life is short and it can be challenging. are you appreciating it? are you living to what God has called you to? it does not mean take out all the fun. it means know your purpose. shake the planet.


it was like an eye-opening experience to my shallow contended self-contained world. time to get up.

i give because i love you.
all that i do is because i love you.
please hold my hand and give me strength. take me deeper.

i need you.

EASTER AND CAMP :D

What is Easter and what does it mean to you? in Planetkids, we watched this movie, a Veggietales :D i wasnt brought up in a Christian family, hence never really knew what it was and never got to watch these cartoons. Tat's y i enjoyed it as much as the kids.

This sums it up so well. i nearly teared *sniff sniff* MAKE SURE U WATCH THIS k?!!




God has been working in my heart alot recently. I know a lot of people around me doesnt really get it. why am i being so religious or why am i so into Christianity. perhaps you were thinking, I could simply live a life without God, that was like how I were before you were a Christian. i was happy and contented. YET, the fact is i cant. I tried talking myself out but the reality is that i cant. God is SO REAL. I cant deny the truth. He speaks to me, teaches me about life and above all, He loves me. Course i'm not trying to be all holy and all church-ish, but dont u see the change? if i could let you view Him through my life as though it was a tv show, i so would rewind and let you see when He was there and answered all my prayers. now, living without Him as a part of me would just be so empty. There were times when you try filling your life with people, events, materials to numb the hole inside. i knew i did, with people. once they were gone, or when they said something unexpected unintentionally, my heart was shattered and it ached so badly and i would have it stay in my mind for ages. now, i learnt that man could fail you but God never fails. He comforts. Ah, Jesus is just so good.

He has been pointing things that wasnt quite right in my heart, trying to mould be into a better person. of course the moulding process wasnt easy. when He breaks you as He shapes you, it surely didnt happen overnight. Giving up certain things, change my focus, spending more time at the beneficial things and heaps more are certainly for the better. it's amazing how God takes you through different journey and He will take you out of the valley. this year, i felt like i'm being stretched to doing more things above my capacity. I've been given more responsibilities but in the same time, i'm given more strength too :D

I do feel bad for not managing my time as well, didnt get to spend as much time with my family and friends. but i am trying to improve. i still love you guys lots. i'm trying to sow more time in prayers for you :D i wanna pray for you more!! but on the other hand, i'm also trying to catch up with my studies. it is a really interesting course and i'm really enjoying it. i really cant wait to learn more and put my skills into practice. wat i really cant wait is to see THE POWER OF GOD'S HEALING, and the priviledge of me bringing out His miracles and also His LOVE. oh oh oh! you know wat?? i've learnt CPR, taking blood pressures, washing my hands (the pro way of washing k? dun play play) , making beds and played with the stretcher. i am really excited about wat i'm doing :)

ANyway, i been on planetkids CAMP RED! it's amazing how God moved. I so wanted more for them and things happened!! these kids that have been placed under my care are all AMAZING kids. they are all so gorgeous and i just love them even more :D :D cant wait to see how God is going to take them deeper. they are just so innocent and they believe just because they believe. so pure. if kids can meet Jesus face to face and hear from Him, why cant we just remove our doubts and push past the crowd? He is waiting to answer the desperate heart cries of yours. Why cant you see His outstretched arms?





"Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you,and they know that you have sent me, I have made known to them and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."
John 17:25

it's weird isnt it when you could just keep yourself awake trying to ponder upon things that doesnt really make sense when your body is super tired and is calling out for u to go to bed? it amazingly pushes past physical bariers.


anywayz... had planetkids vision launch + breaky today. my goodness. it was absolutely amazing. God spoke straight right through my heart. there are OBSTRUCTION in us, in me particularly. i reckon it is time to FULLY and COMPLETELY let go and LET GOD. i've been trying, depending on my own strength yet i'm not going anywhere. revelation hit me the other day when i was talking to jo, that i can only do so much and the rest of it, it's completely up to God to change me, to change me from the inside out. it's a lil like u're a diabetic and you have sweet tooth, you know chocolates are bad for you, yet, you cant resist the temptation of it. BUT you know wat? there's always grace that enables you to. SO, i'm choosing now, to walk in it.

I'm sorry Lord, for the things I've done.
Give me a pure heart to not waver to the left or the right.
Carry me home.




cant wait for the EXPLOSION!! :)

it's all buried inside
and i hate it
cos i cant read between the lines.

my inner girl is crying out
for a lil hug and a lil touch
if you care at all, a lil assurance is more than enough.
if you see me now,
could u even tell,
i'm curling in my corner
waiting for your shoulder.

where are you and You? i'm searching for something far and new.
this journey is seemingly getting harder. Or is it just me complicating it?

obedience comes with a price. and i duno how long can i stand. i need His strength and a whole heap of encouragement. cos i dun wanna step ahead, i dun wanna walk out of His grace.


Hide me now
under the shadow of your wings.

OH MY GOODNESS!

i just realised that i havent been blogging for somewhile now. to be exact, for almost 3 weeks! but guess wat??? i'll be having my internet connected today!! YAYYY :) so .. check out this page for PHOTO OVERLOAD! haha.

i miss having you lot around >.< but PRAISE GOD for new opportunities and new responsiblities. i know He will look after ALL of us and carry us through.

He loves YOU :D

GOING GOING GONE

heading back to melbourne today. a month or two ago, i would prolly have a "finaalllyyy" added to the back of it. but then, now. maybe not as much. God really has everything in planned so that I would learn greater things.
jo prayed for me last night. i felt some stirring within me. something i hadnt felt for somewhile now. i was ignited with a desperation for His touch. it made me anticipate church more on sunday. i'm expecting to see God's power and miracles. i need one.

could u believe that i'm leaving in like less than 12 hours time?
could u also believe that i hadnt pack a single thing?! haha :P last minute packer! ;)

sometimes, i think i'm alil too naive. to think that it was even possible. oh well. see what happens! haha.