EASTER AND CAMP :D

What is Easter and what does it mean to you? in Planetkids, we watched this movie, a Veggietales :D i wasnt brought up in a Christian family, hence never really knew what it was and never got to watch these cartoons. Tat's y i enjoyed it as much as the kids.

This sums it up so well. i nearly teared *sniff sniff* MAKE SURE U WATCH THIS k?!!




God has been working in my heart alot recently. I know a lot of people around me doesnt really get it. why am i being so religious or why am i so into Christianity. perhaps you were thinking, I could simply live a life without God, that was like how I were before you were a Christian. i was happy and contented. YET, the fact is i cant. I tried talking myself out but the reality is that i cant. God is SO REAL. I cant deny the truth. He speaks to me, teaches me about life and above all, He loves me. Course i'm not trying to be all holy and all church-ish, but dont u see the change? if i could let you view Him through my life as though it was a tv show, i so would rewind and let you see when He was there and answered all my prayers. now, living without Him as a part of me would just be so empty. There were times when you try filling your life with people, events, materials to numb the hole inside. i knew i did, with people. once they were gone, or when they said something unexpected unintentionally, my heart was shattered and it ached so badly and i would have it stay in my mind for ages. now, i learnt that man could fail you but God never fails. He comforts. Ah, Jesus is just so good.

He has been pointing things that wasnt quite right in my heart, trying to mould be into a better person. of course the moulding process wasnt easy. when He breaks you as He shapes you, it surely didnt happen overnight. Giving up certain things, change my focus, spending more time at the beneficial things and heaps more are certainly for the better. it's amazing how God takes you through different journey and He will take you out of the valley. this year, i felt like i'm being stretched to doing more things above my capacity. I've been given more responsibilities but in the same time, i'm given more strength too :D

I do feel bad for not managing my time as well, didnt get to spend as much time with my family and friends. but i am trying to improve. i still love you guys lots. i'm trying to sow more time in prayers for you :D i wanna pray for you more!! but on the other hand, i'm also trying to catch up with my studies. it is a really interesting course and i'm really enjoying it. i really cant wait to learn more and put my skills into practice. wat i really cant wait is to see THE POWER OF GOD'S HEALING, and the priviledge of me bringing out His miracles and also His LOVE. oh oh oh! you know wat?? i've learnt CPR, taking blood pressures, washing my hands (the pro way of washing k? dun play play) , making beds and played with the stretcher. i am really excited about wat i'm doing :)

ANyway, i been on planetkids CAMP RED! it's amazing how God moved. I so wanted more for them and things happened!! these kids that have been placed under my care are all AMAZING kids. they are all so gorgeous and i just love them even more :D :D cant wait to see how God is going to take them deeper. they are just so innocent and they believe just because they believe. so pure. if kids can meet Jesus face to face and hear from Him, why cant we just remove our doubts and push past the crowd? He is waiting to answer the desperate heart cries of yours. Why cant you see His outstretched arms?





"Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you,and they know that you have sent me, I have made known to them and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them."
John 17:25

it's weird isnt it when you could just keep yourself awake trying to ponder upon things that doesnt really make sense when your body is super tired and is calling out for u to go to bed? it amazingly pushes past physical bariers.


anywayz... had planetkids vision launch + breaky today. my goodness. it was absolutely amazing. God spoke straight right through my heart. there are OBSTRUCTION in us, in me particularly. i reckon it is time to FULLY and COMPLETELY let go and LET GOD. i've been trying, depending on my own strength yet i'm not going anywhere. revelation hit me the other day when i was talking to jo, that i can only do so much and the rest of it, it's completely up to God to change me, to change me from the inside out. it's a lil like u're a diabetic and you have sweet tooth, you know chocolates are bad for you, yet, you cant resist the temptation of it. BUT you know wat? there's always grace that enables you to. SO, i'm choosing now, to walk in it.

I'm sorry Lord, for the things I've done.
Give me a pure heart to not waver to the left or the right.
Carry me home.




cant wait for the EXPLOSION!! :)

it's all buried inside
and i hate it
cos i cant read between the lines.

my inner girl is crying out
for a lil hug and a lil touch
if you care at all, a lil assurance is more than enough.
if you see me now,
could u even tell,
i'm curling in my corner
waiting for your shoulder.

where are you and You? i'm searching for something far and new.
this journey is seemingly getting harder. Or is it just me complicating it?

obedience comes with a price. and i duno how long can i stand. i need His strength and a whole heap of encouragement. cos i dun wanna step ahead, i dun wanna walk out of His grace.


Hide me now
under the shadow of your wings.

OH MY GOODNESS!

i just realised that i havent been blogging for somewhile now. to be exact, for almost 3 weeks! but guess wat??? i'll be having my internet connected today!! YAYYY :) so .. check out this page for PHOTO OVERLOAD! haha.

i miss having you lot around >.< but PRAISE GOD for new opportunities and new responsiblities. i know He will look after ALL of us and carry us through.

He loves YOU :D

GOING GOING GONE

heading back to melbourne today. a month or two ago, i would prolly have a "finaalllyyy" added to the back of it. but then, now. maybe not as much. God really has everything in planned so that I would learn greater things.
jo prayed for me last night. i felt some stirring within me. something i hadnt felt for somewhile now. i was ignited with a desperation for His touch. it made me anticipate church more on sunday. i'm expecting to see God's power and miracles. i need one.

could u believe that i'm leaving in like less than 12 hours time?
could u also believe that i hadnt pack a single thing?! haha :P last minute packer! ;)

sometimes, i think i'm alil too naive. to think that it was even possible. oh well. see what happens! haha.

I'M A BLESSED CHILD

when i tot tat i'm left alone at the corner, God proves that HE cares. i am blessed with so many things just today and the past fews :D sometimes, i think being born on the feb 29th is just such a marvelous thing :)

went out with the new expanded family members of our AMs gang -elwin and beatrice. had dinner at centerpoint after both of them courageously drove all the way up to my place for the first time from cheras. JUST FOR ME! can u feel the love?!! (i hear a loud OHH YEA! ) we were so embarassing loud (common stuff for me ;P ) that we shoo-ed the customers away and got ourselves som angry stares from people around. oopsie. haha. but it was good. we even went to the small playground to take photos. it was great. i enjoyed their company!! HEAPS! photos with beatrice.so.. hopefully will upload soon.

and tonight, i had one of the greatest nights in my hols and the best bday celebration in the past 4 years :)

thanks to these wonderful gorgeous fantabulous lovely adorable ... people.



and they got me these cute pretty lil things as my bday cake.



*melts*

we had a home-cook meal by the best chef ever- my mum.



and headed to yeen's house where i



rode an electric scooter! how cool is that! hahahahaa :P




it was truly a great night!!! seriously! i'm so loved now :)

thank You!

BACK FROM BANGKOK

i'm down with a flu. sick and currently home alone >.<

during this trip, i've learnt couple of things!

1. never go to thailand during chinese new year or any other festive seasons! it's PACKED with tourists.

2.try not to get sick when u're flying! it's so SOOO hard to balance the air pressure \

3. God has everything in place and in plan. perhaps going back late to melb is to spend more time with family? i duno. but it's been great.














emo.

i miss you. miss your loving and strong pressence that floods my heart. i'm so empty. i need your touch. for some while, i thought i was forgotten. i thought i wasnt important. teach me to live up to your expectations. i'm so scared, so unprepared.

WHAT'S NEXT?

currently.. i'm stuck at my mum's office. super bored. my bumm has been on this wooden chair for more than 3 hours. my back is aching. bad posture. blah blah blah.

anywayz.. just a quick update :)

even though i've been around to couple of places, i still felt that being in malaysia is somewat unproductive. but still.. i'm trying to make it better. trying to get more things done. trying to learn more, trying to widen up my experiences. but still, there's some hinderances. LAZINESS and TRANSPORT!! BAHHH

still.. seriously. i have to thank teck keong, desmond, my jimuis and all those who have driven me for always being so willing to take me around. cant imagine myself taking public and travelling under the hot sun, like how i used to in high school. but anyhoo.. the bus routes had changed i think. the number n fares are different from last time. reckon i'll get so lost if i just assumed n jumped on one! haha. still.. kl just scares me. i'm so pampered here :) wat to do. princess mar :P

anyhoo.. during the past few weeks, i've been actually quite active. come to serious thoughts. still.. been gaining heaps of weights due to the irresistable temptation of the evil chinese new year cookies n titbits! GRRR!! now.. achieving my pre-requisite fitness test will be a hard task. anywayzz... chinese new year so far has been pretty good. i'm getting heaps of angpaus. HEHEHE. well .. more than the past five years. u've gotta understand tat this is technically my first time in five years spending more than 2 days of cny in malaysia. so .. hip hip hooray to tat :)
chinese new year, to me, is a great way of spending time with family. great bonding times. now that few of my couz are overseas, this is the season when they come back and my chance to be with them :) it's just great :D

i'll upload some photos later.

apart from cny, if i backtracked, i've spent more time with my primary school frens this hols too :) i'm so proud of them!! still keeping in touch wiht so many ppl. we even went up to genting :) seriously, the bond is still there! amazing~ thank God!

also, i've been to sg chongkak with raymond, teck keong and beatrice. SOOOO FUN! will let the photos do the talk later also :)

one thing i realised this hols that watching drama series is a total waste of time! BOO!!! so addictive n so antisocial. sigh. y did i fall into the trap!! GRR.

hmmm .. i'll just update more after i've uploaded the photos.

off to bangkok tmr~!! YAYYYYYYY :) cant wait!! good food, shopping, here i come!! :)
oh ya. happy valentines day peeps! i love u!!

FIRE

Lord, i want the fire of God. Father God, i want to completely surrender myself to you and fear not the gazes of men. Lord Jesus, there are times when I have reserved. God, if there are parts when i served my dreams rahter than you, God, i pray that You'll remove them. Father, scrape off the impurity and work in my heart. put me through the heat and i thank you that i know i wont be going through it alone. Lord, thank you for affirming my calling. Father, thank you for loving me. Give me the courage to do what you have called me to and the strength to break through the case tat i'm enclosed in. Help me Lord, to give and to love.

Many hearts are hungry tonight
Many trapped in darkness
Yearn for the light
So many who are far from home
And so many who are lost
O Lord Your wounded children need
The power of Your cross

As bread that is broken
Use our lives
As wine that is poured out
A willing sacrifice

Empower us Father
To share the love of Christ
As bread that is broken Lord
Use our lives

Help us to begin where we are
Help us love the people
Near to our hearts
Then give our faith a mission field
Wherever You may call
Lord love Your world
Through each of us
Until we've touched them all

As wine that is poured out
As bread that is broken Lord
Use our lives

SWEET HEARTS <3

recently, i had the urge of calling the people i love sweetheart. i just love love them so much tat seeing them sweetens up my heart. wonder who actually invented this word. such a good fit! :)



when you're with the people you love, well for me, even though it's just plain talking, day dreaming in the car, eating, blah. watever. it's just a warm fuzzy feeling that colours up my heart. it's full of adventures. it's just like



even greater, God is my ultimate sweetheart :)
He holds my future in His hands.
i'm once again an OFFICIAL UNI STUDENT!!! say hello to the future nurse/paramedic.

i'll stand by you.




will you?

IN SEARCH OF SOMETHING PRECIOUS

i'm searching for 2 things at the moment. my beloved camera with lots of pictures back dated to sabah that i hadnt upload >.< CRAPPPP. so so sad.

the other, hurts my heart even more. seeing people i know going further and further from the light where we're all supposed to be walking in. i realised that i had been very very selfish. very very self-centered. recently, i walked past people, with a cant be bothered, there's-lots-of-time-left, maybe-someone-else-could-do-it lousy attitude. it's all so wrong. i had been consumed in my own world. literally, i had been in a nutshell, enjoying the unbeneficial attention, so shallow and GRRR. i cant believe of wat i had been up to for the past week. wat mindset had i been putting up on. i would really wanna flush myself in the toiletbowl. but i'm so glad God did what He wants.

the devil has tried to distract me with things. but no longer i'm under those fantacies. HELL NO! i've been woken up. i sense the urgency to GO. God is real. He opens a way. He WILL.

INDIA, i'll be there someday. kids, see the light. Jesus loves you and He is real.

Lord, I need Your grace and mercy.
I need to pray like never before.
I need the power of your holy spirit
To open Heaven's door.

Spirit touch Your church, stir the hearts of men.
Revive my soul with your passion once again.
I want to care for others
Like Jesus cares for me.
Let your reign fall on me, Oh Lord.
Let your reign fall on me.

Lord we humbly come before You.
We don't deserve of You what we ask.
But we long to see Your glory.
Restore this dying land.


if i'm so anxious about my camera with the beautiful memories, what more should i be when it comes to people?

random

#1. i met my primary school crush the other day . well i think it's him but i was too shy to say hi. bet he had forgotten me ages ago. we've both moved on i'd say. but it just reminded me of the innocence back then.

#2. chipmunks singing chinese new year songs! oh so weird.

missing you!!

i miss melbourne.
i miss sabah.
i miss kajang.
i miss malacca.
i miss durian orchards.
i miss G-to-be.
i miss PD.
but above all, i miss the people that has gone through each n every place with me.

BIDDING THE YEAR OF 2007
WELCOME 2008


finally.. i'm having the time to just reflect and think about the year now that all whole body is aching and i can barely move.. but i guess it's good as well. to sit down and be still. to think about the year and what has it meant to me. how can i improve.

random note:it's like pouring like mad out there and it's actually quite scary to be at home alone.. yet. somehow there's a part of me enjoying it. knowing that Jesus is with me :D

erhem. concentrate.

i guess the year 2007 in all has been a year full of learning experiences and growing opportunities. filled with love, smiles, tears, challenges, revelations, fall-flat-on-bed moments and lots more.

it surely wasnt a all smooth sailing and problems free year. but i really thank God tat there were times of mourning and uncertainties cos it made me understand that its time to grow up and learn to handle things. it's time to be held responsible. to be held accountable and to be accountable to others.so..

in the year 2007.. i'd

been a uni student.
met a whole lot of new people.extended by social circle
been in a ministry. children ministry. by God's grace.
first time renting a house
bought my very own furniture
performed on stage
cleaned the toilet for the very first time
cooked on a weekly basis
job hunting and worked in 4 different places.
been to a funeral for the very first time
talked and be-friends with my neighbour
loving the neighbourhood
travelled to the west of melbourne fortnightly
been through tensional relationships with family and frens
been hurt and loved.
stayed awake on adrenalin
went to jakarta with lots of other experiences attached to it
witnessed God's miracles.
understand the importance of authority and obedience
babysit neighbour's kids and was so blessed by it.
welcomed into a suburb family, God's family.
failed my Ps twice.
gained weight - BOOOOOO -
gone through stressful academical period
placed in an island of uncertainties
experienced God's faithfulness and providence.
been blessed by so many leaders, drivers, cooks and organiser.
went to strawberry picking for the very first time
learnt how to dance
attended graduations
went on the best vacations and outings

actually there's so so much more. it's just as wat the bible say in

Ecclesiastes 3

A Time for Everything

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under heaven:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,

3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,

4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,

5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain,

6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,

7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,

8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

even as i was reflecting. i couldnt stop thinking and memories just flashed back into my mind. honestly, i've gotta admit tat i havent really been a good friend or even showed enough love to others. i had been selfish and i could have been better. i hadnt spent my time wisely. there were times when i was lukewarm and ignorant. but of course, i REMEMBERED the times when i had received, the times when LOVE become reality instead of fantasy. i can pictured the times when i was literally laughing and rolling on the floor. i remembered the moments when i was praying and tears rolled down my cheeks. i remembered lying on the bed thanking God for the person next to me.

so, as the year 2008 kicked in, i tried denying it, but it's a fact tat i'm 20 soon.
haha. pat's new year sms ran into my head. new year new bf. well.. perhaps.. perhaps not?! who knows?! but it's definitely the start of something new. yes. i havent accomplished a lot last year. and there's a lot to pick it up from.


MY RESOLUTIONS

to never ever take God for granted and still to draw closer to Him
to place Him first in everything
time management get my priorities right in all areas - people, studies, church, activities, job
be grateful for everything
see the bigger picture before acting rashly
have a pure and soft heart that's easy to mould.
this year, for me, i believe is a year of giving more than recieving.
it's my turn to be a blessing instead of continously being blessed. ( I REALLY WANNA PASS MY Ps!!!)
be proactive and initiative
in uni, i really wanna make a difference. may it be in the lives of others or watsoever. i wanna leave my mark
be a woman of prayer, faith and compassion
i wanna be there to lend my shoulders and ears. to be ever ready for others.
this year, i wanna be empowered to win a generation thru love

watever it is, i'm excited and full of hope. He is always there, guiding me through it and i never wanted it any other way to spend my year.

funny aint it how people's emotion can be affected by the silliest thing on earth!!!

yes. currently i am.
SEE MUN YEE IS FREAKED OUT TO THE BOMB-DIG-GI-DY BECAUSE OF A COMPANION IN HER ROOM!




a lizard is crawling abouts and i cant sleep!! it's way past my bed time!! >.<
God please help me!!!

Sign of God's goodness


Sometimes i really felt that i'm of no good. i tried. nothing happened. my efforts just arent good enough. words of flying daggers came back in return. i'm pierced. i'm disappointed. but God's hands seemed to always be around the corner.

this is just EXACTLY what i felt. and it came into my inbox this morning.

Today's Prayer
Dear God, Sometimes I feel like I have poured myself into something or someone, and worked and fought for a cause, only to see no fruits for my labors. It all seemed in vain. But I know that You can work in all of that to fulfill a greater purpose. Please, don't let the labor of my heart and hands be in vain. I pray that all I do would be as unto You and for a good purpose and eternal value. Please bless the works of my heart and hands for Your glory. Please empower me with wisdom and insight through Your Holy Spirit. Please guide me every step and every day, to have a part in reaching this world for You and ministering to those I love. In Jesus' name, amen.


disappointed? yes, i WAS but i'm not gonna give in. tired? yes, i WAS but i'll never give up.

Let the weak say i am strong
let the poor say i am rich
because of what the Lord has done in me.

i know i havent really been updating. yes yes yes. i admit. i'm lazy. hee :D so here's one :D

what have i been up to recently?? mmm.

oh yes. i've got some terrible news. i failed my driving exams for the second time. ARGGGHHH!! how annoying! and guess what i failed on this time. mirrors, stall, blah blah blah. it made me felt as though i'm never good enough. but really thank God this time for His grace and His peace. I wasnt super nervous or anything but perhaps, driving is not my grace for the time being. i know it's super hard for me to accept it cos i'm so keen to drive and be independent, stop troubling others.. but guys, sorry. it aint happening yet >< BIG BOO TO IT!!!! everyone has been super encouraging to me in this matter, telling me to try harder next time. thanks but i dun really want a next time.

anywayz... on a happier note, we celebrated mel's 20th birthday in eureka tower. apparently it's the tallest residential building in victoria or australia. well i'm not too sure but i sure know tat it was tall :P prior to the night, boss n i baked, since elisa's got her left over bits n pieces and she wants us to finish it..



so yea.. we baked and we carefully packaged it in a cereal box to disguise it with our green groceries bag. but according to mel post celebration, she kinda figured. but it was great to just spend time with people u love in the highest building, overlooking melbourne at night.



and then spending nights at jon, tim and aunty jane's house is the most hilarious thing ever!! when u have hard-core-punk-wannabe, super-nerd and seductive-female-watch-male-advertisor rocking up in his place placing cluedo till 4am. this is fun yo!






mmmm .. wat else wat else tat i can say?

oh oh oh. how can i miss this.

OCF THANKSGIVING

i'll just put a couple of photos for this. cos i think i've gained weight and i dun wanna conteminate ur eyeballs.



mel did my make-up. knowing me, i'll stuff up big time. she's a pro though





my leader





so sweet yea? my favourite photo! :p



and there was the triple J's farewell.
thank God that i managed to attend even though i had to work late. and really thank chenny for always being so willing to drive me around. because of him, not only i manage to reach home safely every sunday, but i manage to say my farewell and goodbyes. it was sad. but i'm thankful for the memories :D



julians



yes, i get to superpoke as in literally superpoke kuo hao in the party :P

not to forget, there was rach fi's birthday party with the theme - white.





and lots of dancing :P

another celebration that i attended was my cousin's new born baby party!! yes. i'm now an auntie.



oh oh oh!! we had our urbies outing too! tat was great deal of fun! more photos of tat on facebook.



yummmmmm... strawberries..... *DROOLS*









and we went to the beach as well.. it was good. i had lots of fun and i cant thank God enough for what He has given me.

i've been spending hours of my beauty sleep on this post. so u guys better appreciate it! haha. yet i've got so much more to say. my battery is running low though. both my body's battery and my com's .. hmm.. well.. perhaps more next time.

by the way have i mentioned tat i'm now working in max brener's - the chocolate shop? it was indeed God's provision. He really grants the desires of my heart and i'm soooo excited!! everything's good there. God is so worthy of my praise!

i'm sooo excited as well.. cos not only i just went to babysit my neighbour;s kids - i love them so so much! there's planetkids graduation this sunday. my girls are all graduating. so sadd... but it;ll be another fold of great blessings in their lives. something to look forward to.

u know wat? somehow i just felt as though i've got so much that i wanna to but i just kept forgetting bout the things that i want and need to do? does it ever occur to u or is it just me?

i'm coming home soon. i cant wait to see everyone. i'm excited. i'm excited for christmas too! this is gonna be a whole new christmas!

*sings carols with leaps of joy* signing off.

of all things big and small,
you're still the greatest of all.

i love you.

updates :)

PEGGIE and CHEL aare all graduates now! CONGRATS!! *wonder how long will it be till it's my turn ^.- *

ARE YOU GAME was definitely a blast :D :D
everyone is always so pretty when it comes to events like this.. no .. actually. i take that back. everyone is ALWAYS so pretty. EVERYDAY :) sometimes i just cant help but checking both the guys and girls out ;p but often times, my eyes are more fixed on the girls :) hehe.
i think for the next event i'm SOOO gonna sign up for smtg coz i was only doing the preparation stage work but not anything on the day itself.. and having said so.. i reached there early and was asking everyone if i could help out with anything all the time .. felt kinda bad disturbing ppl :) but really have to thank billy and couple of the guys for keeping me occupied :) :)
the night was really fun-packed and the message was fantastic!!
meiching got free movie passes! AWESOME :D

SUPPER after that was fun too :)
went with li - my sassy senior :P , peggie and her siblings - dom and shaun.
dom is so super cute!! and cheeky with his charm cards :p

God has been super good to me. i've just experienced His provision for my financial difficulties :D i was left with 100bucks short to pay my rent but God is so great that suddenly, not just my pay came it. i had something extra in my account. and it was enough to pay for my rent!!!!!! :) :) :)

how great is tat!!
i'm believing for more breakthroughs and for a job in either pancake parlour or max breners!!!!!!!! YEA!

oh. one more thing. i've just joined facebook. i'm like a noob. guess i'm gonna spend my whole day doing that!! :P ehehhee time kiiller and since i have no work today.. why not?! heee :D

i'm so inpsired and stirred seeing people getting baptised and i really cant wait for the day when it;s my turn :)
Chloe, Bea, William, Alvin, Ailing, amy, yiana, debbie and all - i'm so proud of u!!! i could really felt open heaven yesterday :D